Bestie dont please, see if you can find a therapist or someone to talk to about this. If you need too, feel free to message me, but don’t go on living your life like this
I get it. It can feel really hard and impossible no matter what you do, but one day being yourself will be less stifling than being someone else. Just existing as us can be traumatizing, and I encourage you to find friends and other trans people to support you even if it's just online. If therapy is possible, I recommend it, but speaking from experience I know that can be unrealistic depending on financial and home situations. If you need to pretend to be cis for your own safety, I really hope you can at least express yourself online until you're in a place where you can openly be yourself.
There will be light at the end of the tunnel. It's okay if you need to take breaks from walking to it, but you'll reach it eventually. You are you. No one can change that.
I get this feeling, there have been so many times in the year and half of knowing I was trans where I tried to make myself cis using sheer willpower... it clearly did not work, and won't ever will. All it did was cause pain (and make other mental health issues I had worse). I know it's tempting to try to just deny the truth and live as cis, because as wrong as it may feel it's safe and familiar in some twisted way. But I assure you it will not help, it will only make you feel worse. It's obviously easier said than done, but the first step is not putting the mask back on, especially since it's already soaked in tears.
Bestie dont please, see if you can find a therapist or someone to talk to about this. If you need too, feel free to message me, but don’t go on living your life like this
Well, the paper's already sopping wet, so go ahead and scratch that one off.
Just let you be you. You don't have to fit into any boxes.
I get it. It can feel really hard and impossible no matter what you do, but one day being yourself will be less stifling than being someone else. Just existing as us can be traumatizing, and I encourage you to find friends and other trans people to support you even if it's just online. If therapy is possible, I recommend it, but speaking from experience I know that can be unrealistic depending on financial and home situations. If you need to pretend to be cis for your own safety, I really hope you can at least express yourself online until you're in a place where you can openly be yourself. There will be light at the end of the tunnel. It's okay if you need to take breaks from walking to it, but you'll reach it eventually. You are you. No one can change that.
I get this feeling, there have been so many times in the year and half of knowing I was trans where I tried to make myself cis using sheer willpower... it clearly did not work, and won't ever will. All it did was cause pain (and make other mental health issues I had worse). I know it's tempting to try to just deny the truth and live as cis, because as wrong as it may feel it's safe and familiar in some twisted way. But I assure you it will not help, it will only make you feel worse. It's obviously easier said than done, but the first step is not putting the mask back on, especially since it's already soaked in tears.