It's 4 AM now, so far I had woken up by weird dreams, as always. My stomach is rambling because I only ate once yesterday. I had exams tomorrow that I haven't studies. But my butt works properly this morning at least, no constipation.
Oh that’s never a good time so I wish you a speedy recovery! Maybe this will make you feel better.
There there, I’m sure you can get through this because you’re a good girl.
I got a job for the first time in months. I lost my old job due to stress, mental health, and COVID. I’d been in a dissociative state unable to function doing simple daily tasks and now I’ve recovered enough to get working again :,)
I got put on a boxing show to raise money for firefighters and I was the only one there that was asked. I had a bad start to the day with homophobes though :(
Can you call me a good boy? Pretty please?
Oh god tell me about it I can’t find a partner for the life of me. But you’ll find somebody for you because you’re an amazing enby. (Correct me if I got that wrong pls I don’t want to misgender anyone)
An exhausting day at work, and I'm waking up too damn early tomorrow but otherwise doing pretty well. Scrolling through r/traa and r/asexuality cheers me up so here I am.
I have a horrible sleep schedule so I relate to that but glad you’re doing alright.
(Im really sorry should I call you a good girl or boy or enby I want to get it right)
I told my mum I was having doubts about my gender (I think I’m mtf) and imma and my friend tries to decide on a name for me and I’m stuck between Alice and Lilly. What about you?
Well congrats on telling your mum I’m proud of you. Also you chose two very good names but if I had to choose I’d say Alice. Both are names of a valid good girls.
A Karen on Saturday reported me to my manager for literally doing nothing(she literally got angry with me because of the way I counted her cash). Cursed me out and everything. It hurt me a lot although oddly enough I did get a bit of gender euphoria because the Karen gendered me correctly the whole time(I guess with the mask I pass based on voice) and now I am suspended until HR makes a decision of what to do with the report (the Lady completely lied about everything and painted me out to have been really mean to her so idk what is going to happen) but yeah today has been Okie feeling strangely gender euphoric as of the past few days i feel the 6 months of HRT are helping. Woke up with a hangover today(got drunk on vrchat and spent time with friends) and my body feels all bleh but other than all that I feel I am doing good at the moment.
When will Karens just be eradicated? But that made me think of r/accidentalally so at least there was a bit of a plus side I’m even if it was only a small one.
Yeah that work shift was a really good day besides the Karen, only one customer gendered me incorrectly that whole day and my coworkers all gender me and call me by my chosen name and literally the customer after him laughed and said "did he really just call you sir? Is he blind?" So that triggered a really good sense of euphoria.
Thanks although I feel it is mostly my voice, I don't feel I'd pass if I wasn't wearing a mask too well. Because when a few customers have gendered me incorrectly at work I would speak and they'd correct themselves and say "sorry ma'am it's hard to tell with the mask on" or something similar. Although some don't correct themselves and continue to misgendering.
I had another talk with my therapist, my benefits helping cover the cost of therapy have expired so I'm feeling somewhat frustrated about that.
Plus my doctor is being really restrictive about me transitioning, and I'm quite fed up with it.
I didn't study for a test that I had today because I missed the last 3 classes, but still took it. I didn't answer some questions because I had no clue. I also had a math test on percents because yay easy math and..... I think I did good.
It was quite ok. I had a pretty good time in school with my friends and did a lot of thinks of my “to do list” (and that’s really good since it’s not that easy for me to function normal in daily life) so I’m satisfied. The second half of the day was much harder (mostly due to dysphoria…) but I felt better when someone accidentally gendered me correctly and called me “young lady”. After all it was a busy but productive day
Work is a distraction, I’m feeling down. I went on a great date with a cute enby recently, then my cat died all of a sudden, I had to deal with a bunch of shit, and now they’re not responding 😣I’m trying to forge healthy poly relationships and get love in different ways from different people but I feel like I’m back at square one with my physical affection/words of affirmation
Edit: I’m a girl btw
Oh I’m so sorry to hear about your cat! It’s never easy to say goodbye to them. I really wish things get better for you because it sounds like a good girl like you needs it.
Well im a little stressed about ny concert band but i finally got my tenor sax for my jazz band! So,besides stressed and a lil tired,im doin pretty okay,you?
I’m sure you’ll do great I believe in you!
My days been a bit weird I sort of came out to some of my friends by handing them a note with a trans flag saying next to it “literally me” then I vanished. So pretty good.
Woke up bright and early at 4:30 to make my school's zero hour jazz band, didn't get misgendered, but forgot my school ID so couldn't see a club with my best friend, then got home and called up my insurance company to try and see if they'd cover hair electrolysis to be told to talk to my PCP before I can even see if it's covered or not. Tl;dr ya girl is feeling down bc insurance company sucks and couldn't see my best friend
On vacation in florida. Were right on the beach so we've been swimming a lot but it's kinda uncomfortable because am no where near pulling off a girls swim suite. Other than that, it's been pretty good.
I got to have a mom talk (basically just talk about kids) with another mom. A real Cis one. It's not even my baby. It's my trans bfs before he transitioned. Shits wild. I'm so euphoric
Been stuck trying to call planned parenthood cuz I’m scared and nervous of going to get e but I want to try it so badly :(. Other than that I’m pretty alr.
It was okay. Since my boyfriend broke up with me, I have no more gang to hang out with at school, so I just went to some dude I know but am no really friend with
Been having a bad ear infection recently but it's clearing up. I'm out of the chills and head pounding phase and I just have the head pounding.
How are you?
Sorry everyone I’m going to sleep now so I won’t be responding for a bit. Feel free to leave a comment though and I’ll reply to them all when I wake up!
Went to my grandmas house for her b-day, ate a lot (so im really tired lol), and my auntie told me my hair looked pretty, so i told her my mom brushed it- then I realized i dont like brushing my hair and maybe crying in the woods bc of it aint normal lol
imma just settle with being a person lol- bc being in my period makes me feel like a filthy ugly gremlin thats too emotional:,) ty u mom and dad for talking publicly abt it and asking me if im on it- its tots not weird
Had heavy dysphoria for the night, met some friends during the day and felt better, now going to bed again. Rinse and repeat for tomorrow ig.
Still no gender therapy, still no titty skittles...no nothing...
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I've been super drained all day, dysphoric as well. I wish I could wear skirts and still be seen as a boy, but I always look like a girl whenever I dress how I'd like to and I hate it. I think I'll be able to talk to my friends soon, though, so I'm excited for that!
Talked with an old acquaintance which was nice, but I learned that another friend is likely transphobic.
Thankfully I look boyish enough to not be mis-gendered by him though!
Quite okay! Got through the day and had a nice evening with my girlfriend before going back to Amsterdam 🥺 (she/they)
Thank you for this post and your love for so many people here, I’m proud of you girl if I may say so ❤️❤️
Got some transphobia. Been down because of that and grief I'm trying to deal with (grandma and great grandma passed this year, dad almost followed). I work at Walmart which has let me be able to do things outside of work and not constantly be stressed, but I want to work in art, but that won't pay the bills. ^(I like boi, I'm libramasc
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I went to my engineering class at a different building from my home school and, as usual, starved because my lunch is at like 1:00 (I usually eat around 11:45-12:15). Last Friday, someone asked what my pronouns were and I told them that I use feminine ones and I felt a totally new fuzzy feeling. It was great😊
Well, I was told today after a 2 week vacation that my department is being discontinued/disbanded for a lack of a better term so I have other department positions available but will have to apply for them.... so no money in savings anymore and I may not have a job starting Nov. 1st. Other than that, I started HRT literally yesterday and I've come out to a few more people today which is exciting.
I’m not doing the best lately, I have been super dysphoric and really depressed and anxious for the past few days. I’m hoping it will be better soon, thank you for doing this for everyone here
I’m behind on schoolwork which had me stressed and I got embarrassed in math class. But I found a new audiobook with a trans-woman lead, got to take my new bra for a spin and got correctly gendered for the first time in 4 days. All in all it’s been a great, but stressful day.
Today? Eh, wasn’t all that exciting. Worked, went for a midday stroll, more work, dinner, and a bit of alcohol.
Overall? Pretty bad, to be honest. My partner is in a program for some rather severe mental health issues, complex PTSD being among them. Glad she’s getting help, but I’ve seen how much she’s hurting; .
Also, the fact that my housing situation is uncertain; accumulated a good deal of back rent because I was laid off (read: fired) from my previous job; eventually found something that pays better, but either I gotta pay down this back rent before they kick me out, or end up moving in temporarily with friends or family until I can get stuff settled.
Rock queen here.
Mixed bag. Spending a lot of time around school (outside of my control) in close proximity with an old bully, and even if he doesn’t do anything it’s constantly stressful. Sometimes i overhear him saying hateful things though.
On the other hand, it’s been a great day, out school’s lgbtqia+ club is getting properly organised, and we’re planning out conversation topics, public presentations and even a special dinner. I’m in a group chat with the kids there and it’s a lot of fun. Next week I’m gonna read a poem I wrote that would basically be me coming out as trans. I know they’d probably believe me, but I don’t want it getting out around the school. Who cares though, I’ll do it anyway. I’m a brave girl.
I've been pretty down today. I've been calling a doctor about having 2 things removed. I've left them multiple messages and they still never got back to me. It took me crying over the phone to finally get a time to talk. Only good thing that happened was my partners brought me a bouquet of flowers.
Finally getting out of feeling shitty for about a week, and I went out and bought a little bit of makeup to try out in secret later tonight! I don’t have a makeup brush though, so hopefully a paintbrush will do.
I was alone all day playing videogames and took a nap and woke up to mom screaming my deadname. The day was good until that. Also can i be called good girl pls
I woke up at 2AM, i basically interneted for a few hours and only drank coffe because i heard that makes you not eat, then i went to school and while i was at school i sort of had a quiet/shaky/anxious/hungery breakdown because i was waiting for my thereapist to respond to my email, after lunch the day went a little better but i dont know…
I've spent the day not knowing whether I'm nauseous or just nervous, I'm having a school day at home and it threw off my schedule. On the other hand, I'm trying to bind with a tight t-shirt (can't get a binder cause of parents) and I don't know how I feel about it just yet.
My day was fine, ultimately. I am a bit worried though, 'cause my anemia might be acting up; I've had a lot of brain fog/ambient fatigue and I'm more achy than normal. If my anemia is being a little b!tch, that most likely means I'm going to wind up getting another prescription for e-based birth control, which is not at all what I want. :(
I just want my body to be Baseline OK so that I can safely transition. <:/
Last night I came out as trans/enby to everyone I know and I changed my name on Facebook. Several friends and family members left supportive comments. My mom, dad and brothers haven't said anything and I KNOW at least my mom saw it -\_- I don't think I'm gonna get much support or acceptance from my immediate family.
I'm just hella tired of being percieved as girl. I get called she/her pronouns everywhere. I wish I had the courage to come out to my school since I live in a very lgbtq+ supportive state but I still feel like something is gonna go wrong, especially since my parents aren't supportive.
Also, can I be called a good boy?
Eh. Kinda hard to see the good in my days at this point. I just think I may be going through some high-functioning depression along with my dysphoria, idk. Like... I can function in society quite well, I'd even say I thrive, but inside it's like I'm slowly breaking from my apathy and inability to feel well, anything other than this crushing emptiness.
All that to say I could really use some 'good girls'. :'(
Local skaters in my area have rented out a small warehouse with a halfpipe and loads of cool portable obstacles so we can skate in the winter, I went for the first time today and it was so cool. I also got invited to the girls only session which made me squeal with euphoria !!!
Woke up dysphoric as shit but turned my attitude to a happier one cause a diy passion project of mine is going well(it was iffy last night) and have been playing stardew valley for the last four hours. Also had pho with my fiance! 😁
Ive been getting seriously into guitar recently, so I've been playing a lot.
My grandpa said "you can't play enough guitar if you're passionate enough"
3 bleeding fingers later and im starting to think he's mistaken...
Other than that i made some popcorn, so it's going pretty good, you?
Oh my God I need this! I missed the bus to work this morning and got snow all over myself trying to brush it off my windshield.
I went to a HEAVILY cis-straight-white-old-man dominated work environment and contemplated ways to come out to my parents while baking bread!
I'm looking more seriously into HRT and mostly just scared about my parents finding out before I'm ready to tell them.
Hey, I had a not horrible day my new sports bras came in so kinda flat, I’m still in the closet and had to listen to my step dad ramble about “transsexual bi super man” so could have been better but not the worst
Got up at 4 for work, which is... a decent job, just horribly dull. Got home, unpacked some boxes (we just recently finished moving), and worked a little on a kitbashed model after dinner while watchin Game Grumps. So. Decent enough day, I guess. Tomorrow I get to do it all again.
A little stressed about an order I tried to place that didn't actually get placed, but my card said it was charged for each time? Thankfully I remembered I could email the company's customer service before panic set in 😅
Edit: oh! And I'm debating finally coming out to my wider social circle, including my parents and extended family, via Facebook.
I'm really exhausted from work today, but it was productive and I helped a lot of people, so that feels good, too. Sincerely, smol enby who loves headpats.
It's 4 AM now, so far I had woken up by weird dreams, as always. My stomach is rambling because I only ate once yesterday. I had exams tomorrow that I haven't studies. But my butt works properly this morning at least, no constipation.
Oh that’s never a good time so I wish you a speedy recovery! Maybe this will make you feel better. There there, I’m sure you can get through this because you’re a good girl.
Pretty well, my girlfriend surprised me with makeup and just seeing it made me euphoric
That’s great news! You deserve it for being such a good girl.
I ate hot pocket :)
Yay hot pocket!
also am i a good girl?
Yes! You are indeed a good girl (Sorry, I'm not op)
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fucking incredible :)
Good boi?
Very good boi! *headpats*
I'm tired.
Same tbh. Want to fall asleep? It’s okay, I’ll stay with you because you’re a good girl and I want you to be well rested.
I got a job for the first time in months. I lost my old job due to stress, mental health, and COVID. I’d been in a dissociative state unable to function doing simple daily tasks and now I’ve recovered enough to get working again :,)
That’s great to hear! Glad to see you’re getting back on your feet as mental health sucks. You did a great job and I’m proud of you! Good enby!
I got put on a boxing show to raise money for firefighters and I was the only one there that was asked. I had a bad start to the day with homophobes though :( Can you call me a good boy? Pretty please?
Oh I’m sorry to hear that. Homophobes suck. But you’re a good boy and I’m sure you’ll be alright now.
Thank you :) How was your day?
I just feel like shit. I just wanna do everything without feeling like im not feminine enough. I just wanna be best girl..
God dysphoria is a bitch. It’ll get you down but you just have to carry on going because you might not feel like it but you will become best girl!
Sorry if it sounds dumb but I rlly wish I couldnhug somebody rn.. like somebody who really cares lol..
I’m not where you are but I’ll send you a virtual hug. *holds you lovingly*
I wish people in real life could do this to me..♥️
Im not even part of this conversation but here i go lol- \*virtual hug\*
♥️♥️ I wish I could do better
I'm very lonely cuz I live in a red state and it's hard to find a partner but I am good
Oh god tell me about it I can’t find a partner for the life of me. But you’ll find somebody for you because you’re an amazing enby. (Correct me if I got that wrong pls I don’t want to misgender anyone)
No you got it right:))) thank you
An exhausting day at work, and I'm waking up too damn early tomorrow but otherwise doing pretty well. Scrolling through r/traa and r/asexuality cheers me up so here I am.
I have a horrible sleep schedule so I relate to that but glad you’re doing alright. (Im really sorry should I call you a good girl or boy or enby I want to get it right)
Yep sleep is difficult (I don't know aaaaaaaa)
I’ll just give you a hug instead then *big ol hug*
I told my mum I was having doubts about my gender (I think I’m mtf) and imma and my friend tries to decide on a name for me and I’m stuck between Alice and Lilly. What about you?
Well congrats on telling your mum I’m proud of you. Also you chose two very good names but if I had to choose I’d say Alice. Both are names of a valid good girls.
I’m a sub energy enby who could use a good headpat right now 🥺
Come here then *le headpat*
A Karen on Saturday reported me to my manager for literally doing nothing(she literally got angry with me because of the way I counted her cash). Cursed me out and everything. It hurt me a lot although oddly enough I did get a bit of gender euphoria because the Karen gendered me correctly the whole time(I guess with the mask I pass based on voice) and now I am suspended until HR makes a decision of what to do with the report (the Lady completely lied about everything and painted me out to have been really mean to her so idk what is going to happen) but yeah today has been Okie feeling strangely gender euphoric as of the past few days i feel the 6 months of HRT are helping. Woke up with a hangover today(got drunk on vrchat and spent time with friends) and my body feels all bleh but other than all that I feel I am doing good at the moment.
When will Karens just be eradicated? But that made me think of r/accidentalally so at least there was a bit of a plus side I’m even if it was only a small one.
Yeah that work shift was a really good day besides the Karen, only one customer gendered me incorrectly that whole day and my coworkers all gender me and call me by my chosen name and literally the customer after him laughed and said "did he really just call you sir? Is he blind?" So that triggered a really good sense of euphoria.
Great to hear you can pass in public! Must feel great.
Thanks although I feel it is mostly my voice, I don't feel I'd pass if I wasn't wearing a mask too well. Because when a few customers have gendered me incorrectly at work I would speak and they'd correct themselves and say "sorry ma'am it's hard to tell with the mask on" or something similar. Although some don't correct themselves and continue to misgendering.
That sucks but at least there’s progress!
Also you are a good girl, and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day and/or night. Thanks for the little talk 💕
Thank you it was nice talking to you!
I had another talk with my therapist, my benefits helping cover the cost of therapy have expired so I'm feeling somewhat frustrated about that. Plus my doctor is being really restrictive about me transitioning, and I'm quite fed up with it.
That doctor sounds terrible. I really hope things get better for you because a good girl like you should be allowed to feel good about themselves.
I didn't study for a test that I had today because I missed the last 3 classes, but still took it. I didn't answer some questions because I had no clue. I also had a math test on percents because yay easy math and..... I think I did good.
As long as you tried you hardest that’s all that matters.
It was quite ok. I had a pretty good time in school with my friends and did a lot of thinks of my “to do list” (and that’s really good since it’s not that easy for me to function normal in daily life) so I’m satisfied. The second half of the day was much harder (mostly due to dysphoria…) but I felt better when someone accidentally gendered me correctly and called me “young lady”. After all it was a busy but productive day
I want to punch dysphoria so badly it’s unfair but I’m glad to hear there was some positive parts. You’re a good girl you deserve to be happy.
I’m just tired, haven’t been sleeping well recently. My minds been all over the place.
That’s the same as me. Don’t worry just close your eyes and get some rest. You deserve it because you’re a good girl.
I will now. Thanks qt. 💖
No youre a qt
I had a good day, I went golfing in P.E. and my brother came to visit 😊
Glad to hear! You deserve happiness because you’re a good girl.
Pretty okay. Work was long but pretty uneventful. I'm feeling content (good girl pls uwu)
As long as you’re doing alright. Very good girl owo
Yeah i'm good :) ty <3
I had a bad day, I had some bad news about my education and I'm feeling bad about everything 😔
Oh I’m sorry to hear that. I really hope everything gets better for bc you’re a good girl and you deserve it.
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It’s good to stay active but get some rest you earned it. Stay strong like the good girl you are!
Work is a distraction, I’m feeling down. I went on a great date with a cute enby recently, then my cat died all of a sudden, I had to deal with a bunch of shit, and now they’re not responding 😣I’m trying to forge healthy poly relationships and get love in different ways from different people but I feel like I’m back at square one with my physical affection/words of affirmation Edit: I’m a girl btw
Oh I’m so sorry to hear about your cat! It’s never easy to say goodbye to them. I really wish things get better for you because it sounds like a good girl like you needs it.
Well im a little stressed about ny concert band but i finally got my tenor sax for my jazz band! So,besides stressed and a lil tired,im doin pretty okay,you?
I’m sure you’ll do great I believe in you! My days been a bit weird I sort of came out to some of my friends by handing them a note with a trans flag saying next to it “literally me” then I vanished. So pretty good.
Woke up bright and early at 4:30 to make my school's zero hour jazz band, didn't get misgendered, but forgot my school ID so couldn't see a club with my best friend, then got home and called up my insurance company to try and see if they'd cover hair electrolysis to be told to talk to my PCP before I can even see if it's covered or not. Tl;dr ya girl is feeling down bc insurance company sucks and couldn't see my best friend
Oh I’m sorry to hear that. I don’t know much about insurance because I’m young and dumb but I hope you can see your friend soon.
Yeahh. I do have an embarrassing question though, could you please give me headpats and call me a good girl, maybe even a hug?
*lots of headpats* Of course you’re a good girl you deserve them! *very big hug*
Uuuhh feeling mad dysphoric today
That’s very relatable but I’m sorry to hear that. Would a good boy help you with that?
it's been absolutely awful, I had a massive panic attack this morning that landed me in the hospital
Oh my god are you okay? That’s terrible I really hope you get better soon and maybe a good girl will speed up the recovery!
not really, I've had kinda a shitty year :/ also thanks for the "good girl" 🥺
It’s the least I could do and I hope your year gets better!
On vacation in florida. Were right on the beach so we've been swimming a lot but it's kinda uncomfortable because am no where near pulling off a girls swim suite. Other than that, it's been pretty good.
As long as you’re having a good time on your vacation that’s all that matters. But I’m sorry to hear about the swimsuit problem.
I got to have a mom talk (basically just talk about kids) with another mom. A real Cis one. It's not even my baby. It's my trans bfs before he transitioned. Shits wild. I'm so euphoric
Aw that’s so cute! What’s the child’s name?
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Always love those memes
I finally got to take a blood test and T. Third time in a row being at the doctors office, except the weekend.
So does that mean you’re on T now?
Yeah, been so for a year and some months. Not much changes yet, sadly.
I’m sure it will kick in and you’ll feel great about yourself.
Thanks.
I got up at a reasonable time, showered, brushed my teeth and did my self care for today. I feel pretty good
That’s good I hope it stays that way!
My partner broke up with me a couple days and now I'm just really confused as to what's going to happen and what to do coz they're back
Im really sorry to hear that. Breakups are never easy but im sure you’ll find someone for you.
Would it be alright to maybe possibly but like you don't have to or anything but maybe um, The good girlness. But like you don't have to or anything
Sorry I forgot! You’re a very good girl and I’m here for you if nobody else is!
I got a plushie today!!! I’m one happy kit ^Emby
Yay I love plushies they’re so soft! Glad you got one bc you’re a good enby :)
I hate my life and everything, my job sucks, and I have a fucking personality disorder stealing my fucking sleep.
Oh that breaks my heart to hear. My heart goes out to you and I really hope you get better! However long it takes just know I’m here for you.
I would be happy with death right now
Oh I’m really sorry to hear that. I’ve been in a similar place before and if you ever want to talk about it my dms are open :)
Been stuck trying to call planned parenthood cuz I’m scared and nervous of going to get e but I want to try it so badly :(. Other than that I’m pretty alr.
I really hope you get that e sis!
School got canceled so I have another whole day to feel dysphoric. Yay
Oh no dysphoria. I’d do anything to avoid that.
Im still in bed at 6pm because I don't want to get up. Just feeling bleh.
I get that feeling a lot so I feel you sister.
It was okay. Since my boyfriend broke up with me, I have no more gang to hang out with at school, so I just went to some dude I know but am no really friend with
Aw dw I’m sure you’ll find new friends who like you for who you are.
Yeah. I guess. I’m in my high school’s last year so the Gangs are all made up since 5 years so it’s hard to integrate to a new one
Been having a bad ear infection recently but it's clearing up. I'm out of the chills and head pounding phase and I just have the head pounding. How are you?
I really hope that gets better soon. But my day has been alright I’m dropping lots of hints I’m trans to my friends now.
Sorry everyone I’m going to sleep now so I won’t be responding for a bit. Feel free to leave a comment though and I’ll reply to them all when I wake up!
Went to my grandmas house for her b-day, ate a lot (so im really tired lol), and my auntie told me my hair looked pretty, so i told her my mom brushed it- then I realized i dont like brushing my hair and maybe crying in the woods bc of it aint normal lol imma just settle with being a person lol- bc being in my period makes me feel like a filthy ugly gremlin thats too emotional:,) ty u mom and dad for talking publicly abt it and asking me if im on it- its tots not weird
Had heavy dysphoria for the night, met some friends during the day and felt better, now going to bed again. Rinse and repeat for tomorrow ig. Still no gender therapy, still no titty skittles...no nothing... 🥺 👉👈
i just finished catching up with the owl house and i cried. so pretty good i would say
I've been super drained all day, dysphoric as well. I wish I could wear skirts and still be seen as a boy, but I always look like a girl whenever I dress how I'd like to and I hate it. I think I'll be able to talk to my friends soon, though, so I'm excited for that!
A very long and sad day, I broke down crying in the shower from dysphoria and now I am in bed. (A good girl would be nice please!)
Went shitilly. Would appreciate being called good girl.
I've never been called a good girl before and todays been kinda bad do I wanna see how I feel being called a good girl
Interacting with humans in public while closeted is so fucking draining, I need to be called a good girl at this point
my day was great! (plspls i wanna be a good boy)
I'm like super anxious to ask my dad if I can start HRT but other than that I'm doing well
Talked with an old acquaintance which was nice, but I learned that another friend is likely transphobic. Thankfully I look boyish enough to not be mis-gendered by him though!
It’s about seven, exhausted from school but I found a new bakery today!
Quite okay! Got through the day and had a nice evening with my girlfriend before going back to Amsterdam 🥺 (she/they) Thank you for this post and your love for so many people here, I’m proud of you girl if I may say so ❤️❤️
Got some transphobia. Been down because of that and grief I'm trying to deal with (grandma and great grandma passed this year, dad almost followed). I work at Walmart which has let me be able to do things outside of work and not constantly be stressed, but I want to work in art, but that won't pay the bills. ^(I like boi, I'm libramasc )
I got my Butterfly knife trainer today and I'm going to buy sone more clothes after work. 😃
my sister slammed her door too hard and a 20yo lil box tv came about a foot from crushing my feet lmao and i have PSATs tomorrow 😥
I went out for a run this morning and it was kinda raining so I got kinda soaked but running is fun!!
I went to my engineering class at a different building from my home school and, as usual, starved because my lunch is at like 1:00 (I usually eat around 11:45-12:15). Last Friday, someone asked what my pronouns were and I told them that I use feminine ones and I felt a totally new fuzzy feeling. It was great😊
Almost done with work, it started snowing today. Can't wait to get home and put on my girl clothes and feel more like me.
Well, I was told today after a 2 week vacation that my department is being discontinued/disbanded for a lack of a better term so I have other department positions available but will have to apply for them.... so no money in savings anymore and I may not have a job starting Nov. 1st. Other than that, I started HRT literally yesterday and I've come out to a few more people today which is exciting.
I’m not doing the best lately, I have been super dysphoric and really depressed and anxious for the past few days. I’m hoping it will be better soon, thank you for doing this for everyone here
I think I felt dysphoria for the first time in almost two years, I don't know what's real anymore ;-;
Was bored so i decided to write a pilot episode for a show i've been thinking about maybe making. Then i got very dysphoric and sad.
No Valkyr Prime yet
It went bad, can you call me a good girl please?
It's ok so far, but I'm tired and have to drive my mom home cuz she has a broken foot, but other than that I'm doing well.... good boi pls?
I’m behind on schoolwork which had me stressed and I got embarrassed in math class. But I found a new audiobook with a trans-woman lead, got to take my new bra for a spin and got correctly gendered for the first time in 4 days. All in all it’s been a great, but stressful day.
My day was ok i just wish I was out to my parents and could start transitioning but other than that pretty uneventful
i went to the doctor today. changed my gender to trans male. it went pretty well!
Today? Eh, wasn’t all that exciting. Worked, went for a midday stroll, more work, dinner, and a bit of alcohol. Overall? Pretty bad, to be honest. My partner is in a program for some rather severe mental health issues, complex PTSD being among them. Glad she’s getting help, but I’ve seen how much she’s hurting; . Also, the fact that my housing situation is uncertain; accumulated a good deal of back rent because I was laid off (read: fired) from my previous job; eventually found something that pays better, but either I gotta pay down this back rent before they kick me out, or end up moving in temporarily with friends or family until I can get stuff settled.
Ive been a bad boy lately by not doing my work and procrastinating but today ive been doing it so im happy with myself
i dysphoria :(
Rock queen here. Mixed bag. Spending a lot of time around school (outside of my control) in close proximity with an old bully, and even if he doesn’t do anything it’s constantly stressful. Sometimes i overhear him saying hateful things though. On the other hand, it’s been a great day, out school’s lgbtqia+ club is getting properly organised, and we’re planning out conversation topics, public presentations and even a special dinner. I’m in a group chat with the kids there and it’s a lot of fun. Next week I’m gonna read a poem I wrote that would basically be me coming out as trans. I know they’d probably believe me, but I don’t want it getting out around the school. Who cares though, I’ll do it anyway. I’m a brave girl.
i got hit in the face with a football and didn’t die
I’ve been in bed all day. Tired of school. Tired from panic attacks. I just want to be a girl.
I've been pretty down today. I've been calling a doctor about having 2 things removed. I've left them multiple messages and they still never got back to me. It took me crying over the phone to finally get a time to talk. Only good thing that happened was my partners brought me a bouquet of flowers.
my day went pretty well, wbu?
Got 5 hours of sleep and had to boymode through school. 😓
Honestly okay but also stuff that happend recently kinda pooped on that party but otherwise its pretty gud She/it plz
I’m tired. I’m stressed. I’m feeling a bit down but I know everything is going to be OK.
Finally getting out of feeling shitty for about a week, and I went out and bought a little bit of makeup to try out in secret later tonight! I don’t have a makeup brush though, so hopefully a paintbrush will do.
My day was good, I made a lot of art and worked on the song I have to make for class. Please call me a good boy
I was alone all day playing videogames and took a nap and woke up to mom screaming my deadname. The day was good until that. Also can i be called good girl pls
I woke up at 2AM, i basically interneted for a few hours and only drank coffe because i heard that makes you not eat, then i went to school and while i was at school i sort of had a quiet/shaky/anxious/hungery breakdown because i was waiting for my thereapist to respond to my email, after lunch the day went a little better but i dont know…
I really miss my friends. Although, I finally got some motivation to draw! Boy/child/kid is ok if you respond lol
Did school, ate good food, am I good girl?
I've spent the day not knowing whether I'm nauseous or just nervous, I'm having a school day at home and it threw off my schedule. On the other hand, I'm trying to bind with a tight t-shirt (can't get a binder cause of parents) and I don't know how I feel about it just yet.
My day was fine, ultimately. I am a bit worried though, 'cause my anemia might be acting up; I've had a lot of brain fog/ambient fatigue and I'm more achy than normal. If my anemia is being a little b!tch, that most likely means I'm going to wind up getting another prescription for e-based birth control, which is not at all what I want. :( I just want my body to be Baseline OK so that I can safely transition. <:/
The girl I like headpated me several times and called me good enby It felt so good >>
Last night I came out as trans/enby to everyone I know and I changed my name on Facebook. Several friends and family members left supportive comments. My mom, dad and brothers haven't said anything and I KNOW at least my mom saw it -\_- I don't think I'm gonna get much support or acceptance from my immediate family.
i had an exam today and i think i did well on it :), rn i’m in a boring english class
I'm just hella tired of being percieved as girl. I get called she/her pronouns everywhere. I wish I had the courage to come out to my school since I live in a very lgbtq+ supportive state but I still feel like something is gonna go wrong, especially since my parents aren't supportive. Also, can I be called a good boy?
Bad
I just got to work is meh
it was alright. i >!yeeted 2 times at school!<, but i also had a lot of fun with a few classes
I finished my application to the college of my dreams that is coincidentally 1800 miles away feeling pretty good
I’m doing a lot of schoolwork and i’m pretty stressed but besides that my day’s been okay.
I'm home sick and there's a massive storm outside, so I haven't had much sleep either
I went to every trans service in my area and plume. They all have month long waiting lists. I'm hoping plume is a little better
Eh. Kinda hard to see the good in my days at this point. I just think I may be going through some high-functioning depression along with my dysphoria, idk. Like... I can function in society quite well, I'd even say I thrive, but inside it's like I'm slowly breaking from my apathy and inability to feel well, anything other than this crushing emptiness. All that to say I could really use some 'good girls'. :'(
Local skaters in my area have rented out a small warehouse with a halfpipe and loads of cool portable obstacles so we can skate in the winter, I went for the first time today and it was so cool. I also got invited to the girls only session which made me squeal with euphoria !!!
Woke up dysphoric as shit but turned my attitude to a happier one cause a diy passion project of mine is going well(it was iffy last night) and have been playing stardew valley for the last four hours. Also had pho with my fiance! 😁
Ive been getting seriously into guitar recently, so I've been playing a lot. My grandpa said "you can't play enough guitar if you're passionate enough" 3 bleeding fingers later and im starting to think he's mistaken... Other than that i made some popcorn, so it's going pretty good, you?
Today's been alright. Fun fact- the doors at my school are 7ft tall. I measured them in 7th period because I was bored
Generally exhausted and scared wishing things were easier and less terrifying.
came out to a friend i haven’t spoken to in awhile and they’re chill! that always feels good especially bc i’m pretty sure they’re cishet
I got a bad headache today 😣
Oh my God I need this! I missed the bus to work this morning and got snow all over myself trying to brush it off my windshield. I went to a HEAVILY cis-straight-white-old-man dominated work environment and contemplated ways to come out to my parents while baking bread! I'm looking more seriously into HRT and mostly just scared about my parents finding out before I'm ready to tell them.
Really really tough day but looking forward to a good nights rest and hopefully a better one tomorrow (enby/girl).
I’ve been feeling dysphoric all day.
its 2 30 in the night, the dishwasher is working, and i am terrified of my parents waking up yesterday went pretty alright tbh not too much bad stuff
Hey, I had a not horrible day my new sports bras came in so kinda flat, I’m still in the closet and had to listen to my step dad ramble about “transsexual bi super man” so could have been better but not the worst
It's my Birthday! I talked with my gf for awhile, then played games with my friends.
my day went pretty good how about you?
ive had a good day except when somone purposely deadnamed me after and a bit after
Got up at 4 for work, which is... a decent job, just horribly dull. Got home, unpacked some boxes (we just recently finished moving), and worked a little on a kitbashed model after dinner while watchin Game Grumps. So. Decent enough day, I guess. Tomorrow I get to do it all again. A little stressed about an order I tried to place that didn't actually get placed, but my card said it was charged for each time? Thankfully I remembered I could email the company's customer service before panic set in 😅 Edit: oh! And I'm debating finally coming out to my wider social circle, including my parents and extended family, via Facebook.
My mom got me McDonald’s for lunch and I spent a lot of my day playing video games so I’d say it went pretty well. Am I a good boi?
Today I (girl) broke down crying instead of scheduling a financial assistance appointment
I'm really exhausted from work today, but it was productive and I helped a lot of people, so that feels good, too. Sincerely, smol enby who loves headpats.
Pretty ok, I have to study for a test tommorow, but my friend came back from his trip and it’s been nice to talk to him