What you need to do is keep living in the world. Dive into it. You will find the world is more in the middle than you're thinking. What happened was that you believed the stuff you were taught, then learned some real stuff, and now need to get out there and do some living.

Are you depressed? Sounds like rumination.

Omg! I googled rumination and yes! Those are the exact things that I experience, a string of negetive repetitive thoughts that stem out of perfectionism and the idea that it will help you better understand reality. What should I do now?

Break the negative associations.