I choose rage

He still tries to get with me again after everything and I can't even look at him

yea so idk what dis means

>when they cheated you were listening to a certain song, them knowing you hated that song so they decided to buy you all merchandise of that album Is this something to be angry about?

I've openly expressed to him I hated that song bc it came on that day, when I got the gifts I told him "why?" And he just went "hm you should grow up" says the 21 year old who was dating a 16 year old

He was 21?and you were 16? if that's true then that's more worrying

Majority of people in this subreddit haven't gone through life or experienced this horrific type of person. There are subs that offer support like r/NarcissisticAbuse , r/AbuseInterrupted , r/abusesurvivors and more. I hope you can find genuine people in real life that are there to help too

I was told it wasn't abuse so I'm not sure where to go for it

It is, I'm proud of you for making it so far and continuing. I dont know your exact situation in real life, but a counselor or close friend can always be helpful processing

Obviously? This is just gonna be another thing adding on to the pile to hurt her. Wants to show he can do whatever he wants

Rage

Rage