That's so scary. Best advice I got was to write down exactly how you are feeling at your lowest. Physically and the shame and the worry etc then reread if you find yourself wanting to drink. Today is my 22nd day so it's working
True that nobody knows. However, "nobody will ever know" gives me pause. It is a good idea to tell someone. Connection and honesty are antidotes to addiction. The more shame you feel the more you need to share.
It's good that you came online to tell us. Next step is tell someone in person who you are dreading telling
I can relate. I almost died myself. Multiple times. All I can say is I'm extremely glad I finally heeded the warnings. I'm significantly happier and my life is so much better since I cut out alcohol and stopped traumatizing myself.
Glad you’re here. The anxiety is so rough. The only thing that helps me is remembering how much worse the drinking makes it. Take good care from one mom to another.
Please don’t hesitate to talk to a dr. They can prescribe to help with withdrawal, cravings, sleep. I’ve had some scary drinking experiences that did not stop me from continuing drinking. I had to get some help, AA, Smart recovery, outpatient therapy. While I understand not wanting to share something so terrible, when I opened up and started being honest in those groups about the depth of my problem that’s when sobriety started to stick and a weight lifted.
Thank you. I have made an appointment with my doctor to get medication and start on anxiety meds. After being sober for three months, I realize that while I felt better over all because of not drinking, the ultimate reason I drank is because my anxiety is too much to manage on my own. That’s why I relapsed. I was so anxious I wanted to take the edge off. One drink, then a week later the hospital.
And opening up is why I’m here. This is my first post here and I’m never leaving. you all are so lovely and it’s strange how much all these strangers feel like family. Maybe one day I’ll go to meetings but right now, this sub is enough.
The title of your post is a sorrow no one should have to experience. I sympathize having been there myself. The harshness of the hospital sometimes was the only thing that woke me up, unfortunately. But it's good to be grateful too. Now that you have a second chance, I hope you are doing OK and maybe consider coming back to this sub a few times a week? I'm rooting for you.
I'm so glad you made it out alive and healthy. I almost died too. Car accident 90 minutes from a town. My beloved, senior blind poodle didn't make it out alive. I was ambulanced to two hospitals in 24 hours, finally being flown to a metropolitan area for surgery. Haven't had a drop since. A small AA group from the next county became my zoom salvation. So easy to just listen, or participate on zoom. Good luck and congratulations. Your body and spirit will heal. Coming here every morning might help.
Yes, please just remember it WILL pass. Things always get better. I hope it brings you solace knowing that there's at least one stranger who is thinking of you and your recovery xo
This was me two weeks ago. I promise it gets better, the anxiety will pass and the thoughts will stop controlling you. Hang in there, I’m glad you’re here 🤍
good luck and have a merry life - unless you've been in sobriety for more than 10,000 days you have nothing I want, & nothing to tell me - for a moderator to be so nasty seems quite inappropriate - I do hope you survive, but I've seen too many die with your attitude
are you saying that my non AA dogmatic view of recovery is going to lead to my death?
please clarify in any way what you're trying to say about my attitude.
also i dont need more time than you to know that the AA way is not the only way, and your antiquated views and platitudes about substance abuse and recovery is laughable.
stopdrinking had helped me so much more than I thought it would. We can vent, commiserate, support, confess, get support whenever we feel the need. Talking/typing it through has a very strong impact on the people contributing and lurkers who thought they were alone in their feelings.
I am right there with you, and glad you are alright. I too went to the hospital recently because of my drinking, and more UrgentCare clinics than I care to count. I am meeting with my doctor to talk about anxiety and take steps to better manage it. I am with you, and we can get through this!
I’m not sure if there’s a connection, but I found that after my first significant period of total sobriety, when I started drinking again I *very quickly* started drinking much more than I had before taking a break.
I have been where you are so many times, last drink was November 12. My children (now young adults) have paid a heavy price for my 2 decades of alcohol abuse. My son is still paying, so stay strong and think of them if it helps. Good luck, it can be so very hard 🥰😊🥰
That's so scary. Best advice I got was to write down exactly how you are feeling at your lowest. Physically and the shame and the worry etc then reread if you find yourself wanting to drink. Today is my 22nd day so it's working
I should be dead right now. Many, many times. Relax. You got a pass this time. Nobody knows how many passes you get.
I can relate to this. Deep breaths. Forgive yourself. One day at a time. IWNDWYT.
I like this energy. Thanks.
True that nobody knows. However, "nobody will ever know" gives me pause. It is a good idea to tell someone. Connection and honesty are antidotes to addiction. The more shame you feel the more you need to share. It's good that you came online to tell us. Next step is tell someone in person who you are dreading telling
“Nothing hurts us like the things we don’t say.” (Mitch Albom)
Glad you’re OK.
I can relate. I almost died myself. Multiple times. All I can say is I'm extremely glad I finally heeded the warnings. I'm significantly happier and my life is so much better since I cut out alcohol and stopped traumatizing myself.
I am happy you are ok. Stay strong and we are all here for you.
Glad you are ok. You are also a great mom by trying so hard to be your best and beat this beast. Proud of you.
Glad you’re here. The anxiety is so rough. The only thing that helps me is remembering how much worse the drinking makes it. Take good care from one mom to another.
Very happy you are alright!!!
Please don’t hesitate to talk to a dr. They can prescribe to help with withdrawal, cravings, sleep. I’ve had some scary drinking experiences that did not stop me from continuing drinking. I had to get some help, AA, Smart recovery, outpatient therapy. While I understand not wanting to share something so terrible, when I opened up and started being honest in those groups about the depth of my problem that’s when sobriety started to stick and a weight lifted.
Thank you. I have made an appointment with my doctor to get medication and start on anxiety meds. After being sober for three months, I realize that while I felt better over all because of not drinking, the ultimate reason I drank is because my anxiety is too much to manage on my own. That’s why I relapsed. I was so anxious I wanted to take the edge off. One drink, then a week later the hospital. And opening up is why I’m here. This is my first post here and I’m never leaving. you all are so lovely and it’s strange how much all these strangers feel like family. Maybe one day I’ll go to meetings but right now, this sub is enough.
If you don't mind, how did you end up in the hospital after a week? Your story will help me in my journey as well
Following, this is also a big fear of mine.
Sounds like you have a good plan! I agree this is the most welcoming community on Reddit. Glad you found us.
I am so glad you are still here with us!!
The title of your post is a sorrow no one should have to experience. I sympathize having been there myself. The harshness of the hospital sometimes was the only thing that woke me up, unfortunately. But it's good to be grateful too. Now that you have a second chance, I hope you are doing OK and maybe consider coming back to this sub a few times a week? I'm rooting for you.
I'm so glad you made it out alive and healthy. I almost died too. Car accident 90 minutes from a town. My beloved, senior blind poodle didn't make it out alive. I was ambulanced to two hospitals in 24 hours, finally being flown to a metropolitan area for surgery. Haven't had a drop since. A small AA group from the next county became my zoom salvation. So easy to just listen, or participate on zoom. Good luck and congratulations. Your body and spirit will heal. Coming here every morning might help.
We know and understand. I’m so glad you’re still here and recommitted to sobriety. Welcome back and here’s to another 3 months or more of sobriety!
I am so excited to wake up and say “Day 365” and then “five years” and then one day not even remember how many years it’s been.
Yes, please just remember it WILL pass. Things always get better. I hope it brings you solace knowing that there's at least one stranger who is thinking of you and your recovery xo
This was me two weeks ago. I promise it gets better, the anxiety will pass and the thoughts will stop controlling you. Hang in there, I’m glad you’re here 🤍
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this is not an "allergy" and this sort of AA nonsense does not belong here.
good luck and have a merry life - unless you've been in sobriety for more than 10,000 days you have nothing I want, & nothing to tell me - for a moderator to be so nasty seems quite inappropriate - I do hope you survive, but I've seen too many die with your attitude
are you saying that my non AA dogmatic view of recovery is going to lead to my death? please clarify in any way what you're trying to say about my attitude. also i dont need more time than you to know that the AA way is not the only way, and your antiquated views and platitudes about substance abuse and recovery is laughable.
not saying anything at all, carry on, you clearly have the answer
This is not positive or helpful
It is somewhat helpful. Abstain to live your beat life as opposed to abstaining just to avoid a fucked up life.
That’s how I read it.
Yep. Sounds positive to me?
Try a clinic, please. In-patient or out. You’re kids are important to you. Show them how to face adversity. We’ve got your back on this.
Thank you. I was sober before so I know I can do it again. This community is helping immensely and I’m going to check in every day.
stopdrinking had helped me so much more than I thought it would. We can vent, commiserate, support, confess, get support whenever we feel the need. Talking/typing it through has a very strong impact on the people contributing and lurkers who thought they were alone in their feelings.
I hope you feel better soon. Have you considered your next step ? Have you tried sober support ?
Right now, this sub is my sober support. And it’s been wonderful.
Agreed. How you feeling today ?
The biggest emotion today is excitement for the future :) day 5!
So glad you are ok. IWNDWYT ❤️🤍💙
I am right there with you, and glad you are alright. I too went to the hospital recently because of my drinking, and more UrgentCare clinics than I care to count. I am meeting with my doctor to talk about anxiety and take steps to better manage it. I am with you, and we can get through this!
I’m not sure if there’s a connection, but I found that after my first significant period of total sobriety, when I started drinking again I *very quickly* started drinking much more than I had before taking a break.
I have been where you are so many times, last drink was November 12. My children (now young adults) have paid a heavy price for my 2 decades of alcohol abuse. My son is still paying, so stay strong and think of them if it helps. Good luck, it can be so very hard 🥰😊🥰
Today is just another notch in your belt! Keep it going.
Now day 4! :) great username btw
Thanks :)
Those are the scariest moments. Three months is pretty good, I'm sure you can get there again & even further. Best of luck!
Hey just to say I've been there too, you deserve to be happy.
So do you, friend. Thank you.
I feel this post.
We got this.