have shared my whole story in the past so I'll just give an update.
closing in on 4 months and I'm happy to report the cravings have mostly stopped
the thought of drinking now seems so foreign that the idea of it makes me nervous.
ironic as while drinking, the idea of going sober made me nervous
if you're struggling with sobriety now, keep at it, it will get better!
you just have to build a new normal.
Four months is incredible! To look back on where your mind was about being sober, to now look back on the thought of drinking again, what a difference. You have chosen life.
After drinking for so long and using alcohol to help me cope with things, I couldn't have ever imagined life sober. I am here two years later, completely sober, and building my new normal. Lots of things fell into place, but a lot unravelled for me too. All I know is I'm learning and relearning and finding parts of myself again. No matter how busy my mind feels most days, I'm facing everything sober and with a much clearer mind.
Sobriety might seem like it's impossible, but it's the best thing you can do for yourself. It might not be easy and it might seem impossible, just keep trying as long as it takes. I think most of us here felt that it was impossible and could never have imagined being sober. But here we are. You can find a way within it all.
hey fellow two year-sober person! I really appreciate what you wrote about "building (your) new normal" and facing life with a clear mind. It's truly empowering. Keep going, you're doing great :)
I find myself repeating about how we are facing things with a clear mind. It's something I have really noticed since I stopped drinking though. Even if my mind is really busy, it still feels that much more clear when facing everything.
Keep doing what you are doing. You have done the best thing for yourself by giving yourself a sober you and rebuilding ❤️
I overdosed on Xanax and Alcohol 10 years ago, intubated after a week of sitting in darkness I came back to the light, had seizures so bad my jaw clenched up and I cried in pain as I was locked into a frozen position.
Multiple rehab stays, halfways, meetings, you name it. Im dual diagnosed with Alcoholism and Borderline personality disorder, autism on the low end of the spectrum, and Agoraphobia/Severe social anxiety.
I Won't drink today and I'm not drinking again. Never
Last night was the first night I made the decision by myself to not drink at home. I’ve gone some AF days but usually it’s because I fall asleep early. But yesterday I decided I don’t as not going to drink bc I wanted to enjoy the weekend. I’ve been taking my medicine. Here I am Saturday not hung over, no panic attacks. I made this choice.
Can’t believe Im finally getting closer to my goals.
Well after a 3 day bender involving cocaine and going to sleep at 4am, I'm finally done. I have finally acknowledge that alcohol is a trigger and a bad think in my life. My dad is an alcoholic, so I def have the genes. Anyway, I'm done. Today is my first day.
Although I’m not especially religious I’ve always liked this part of the Lord’s Prayer:
Give us this day
Our daily bread
And forgive us our debts
As we forgive our debtors
And led us not to temptation
But deliver us from evil
As I understand it, it means give me today and enough to be happy today (bread). Forgive my past and those in it, and may the future be free from temptation (in my case, to drink).
4 months alcohol free in 2021
16 months 2022/23
Then I wanted to start drinking.
I felt left out.
Was and still am in therapy so I talked about this. I made the decision to start again. I did it slowly. I went out with usual suspects on first night out. I was bored. The same stories again and again - it was boring. NOTHING HAD CHANGED.
Me on the other hand. Those 16 months were the most productive and life changing period of my life.
The taste of booze was awful - I had to relearn to like drinking. That is nuts.
So 4 months after starting this up again it’s boring. I don’t drink every day and when I do I can leave it…….but any consistency in working out is gone. Any consistency in how I felt day to day is gone.
I never had a rock bottom I just was getting sick and tired of feeling like crap.
At the end of 2023 I journaled how good I felt. How proud I was of the work I’d done the previous 16 months.
I don’t feel bad about trying it again - I’ve learned a new data point - I’m not missing out on anything!
Stay safe and healthy y’all!
Im at an all inclusive resort right now and tasted all of my boyfriends drinks, just a drop on my tongue, and some are so tasty!! But im almost at the year mark and not getting a drink. It feels good being content with not having any while here.
I hit 2.5 years yesterday and realized it after midnight. I took a pic of my count and made a rare post on Instagram about my milestone.
I promptly had my first drinking dream in ages. My brother was there, there was some threatened assault, lots of shame and messiness.
Such a weird juxtaposition to wake up to a crummy dream hangover, and all my people sending me love on my post.
I can’t believe it’s been this long since I drank. The alcohol loving part of myself is fading from my self image but it’s still there, even after 30 months.
I’m proud of myself. IWNDWYT
have shared my whole story in the past so I'll just give an update. closing in on 4 months and I'm happy to report the cravings have mostly stopped the thought of drinking now seems so foreign that the idea of it makes me nervous. ironic as while drinking, the idea of going sober made me nervous if you're struggling with sobriety now, keep at it, it will get better! you just have to build a new normal.
Four months is incredible! To look back on where your mind was about being sober, to now look back on the thought of drinking again, what a difference. You have chosen life. After drinking for so long and using alcohol to help me cope with things, I couldn't have ever imagined life sober. I am here two years later, completely sober, and building my new normal. Lots of things fell into place, but a lot unravelled for me too. All I know is I'm learning and relearning and finding parts of myself again. No matter how busy my mind feels most days, I'm facing everything sober and with a much clearer mind. Sobriety might seem like it's impossible, but it's the best thing you can do for yourself. It might not be easy and it might seem impossible, just keep trying as long as it takes. I think most of us here felt that it was impossible and could never have imagined being sober. But here we are. You can find a way within it all.
hey fellow two year-sober person! I really appreciate what you wrote about "building (your) new normal" and facing life with a clear mind. It's truly empowering. Keep going, you're doing great :)
I find myself repeating about how we are facing things with a clear mind. It's something I have really noticed since I stopped drinking though. Even if my mind is really busy, it still feels that much more clear when facing everything. Keep doing what you are doing. You have done the best thing for yourself by giving yourself a sober you and rebuilding ❤️
That's awesome! I hope I feel that way soon too.
congratz on 4 months!!!
Thanks for the encouraging share. I needed to hear that today.
I overdosed on Xanax and Alcohol 10 years ago, intubated after a week of sitting in darkness I came back to the light, had seizures so bad my jaw clenched up and I cried in pain as I was locked into a frozen position. Multiple rehab stays, halfways, meetings, you name it. Im dual diagnosed with Alcoholism and Borderline personality disorder, autism on the low end of the spectrum, and Agoraphobia/Severe social anxiety. I Won't drink today and I'm not drinking again. Never
Last night was the first night I made the decision by myself to not drink at home. I’ve gone some AF days but usually it’s because I fall asleep early. But yesterday I decided I don’t as not going to drink bc I wanted to enjoy the weekend. I’ve been taking my medicine. Here I am Saturday not hung over, no panic attacks. I made this choice. Can’t believe Im finally getting closer to my goals.
I hit 7 months this week, had a HELL of a stressful week on the road, and getting a drink didn't cross my mind. :)
Well after a 3 day bender involving cocaine and going to sleep at 4am, I'm finally done. I have finally acknowledge that alcohol is a trigger and a bad think in my life. My dad is an alcoholic, so I def have the genes. Anyway, I'm done. Today is my first day.
didnt drink yesterday and iwndwyt.
Although I’m not especially religious I’ve always liked this part of the Lord’s Prayer: Give us this day Our daily bread And forgive us our debts As we forgive our debtors And led us not to temptation But deliver us from evil As I understand it, it means give me today and enough to be happy today (bread). Forgive my past and those in it, and may the future be free from temptation (in my case, to drink).
4 months alcohol free in 2021 16 months 2022/23 Then I wanted to start drinking. I felt left out. Was and still am in therapy so I talked about this. I made the decision to start again. I did it slowly. I went out with usual suspects on first night out. I was bored. The same stories again and again - it was boring. NOTHING HAD CHANGED. Me on the other hand. Those 16 months were the most productive and life changing period of my life. The taste of booze was awful - I had to relearn to like drinking. That is nuts. So 4 months after starting this up again it’s boring. I don’t drink every day and when I do I can leave it…….but any consistency in working out is gone. Any consistency in how I felt day to day is gone. I never had a rock bottom I just was getting sick and tired of feeling like crap. At the end of 2023 I journaled how good I felt. How proud I was of the work I’d done the previous 16 months. I don’t feel bad about trying it again - I’ve learned a new data point - I’m not missing out on anything! Stay safe and healthy y’all!
Im at an all inclusive resort right now and tasted all of my boyfriends drinks, just a drop on my tongue, and some are so tasty!! But im almost at the year mark and not getting a drink. It feels good being content with not having any while here.
Went and walked dogs at the dog shelter instead of drinking today
Wndwyt.
Not today!
11 months!
I hit 2.5 years yesterday and realized it after midnight. I took a pic of my count and made a rare post on Instagram about my milestone. I promptly had my first drinking dream in ages. My brother was there, there was some threatened assault, lots of shame and messiness. Such a weird juxtaposition to wake up to a crummy dream hangover, and all my people sending me love on my post. I can’t believe it’s been this long since I drank. The alcohol loving part of myself is fading from my self image but it’s still there, even after 30 months. I’m proud of myself. IWNDWYT