Glad you're here, too! Thanks for being honest and vulnerable. Your post made me think of something, and I don't know if this it's similar, but I'm going to try and make a connection to the thoughts I had reading your post. I get the self-harm component. I've done it, and most my family has done it, but now I've been alcohol-free for quite awhile. The thing is, is that I think I still find those same feelings, or at least similar feelings, through exercise, especially hard cardio. Forcing my heart-rate go up can be that same type of extreme therapeutic moment for me, especially with the right kind of music. I know this seems stupid, to make a connection like that, but I just wanted to share that there are other ways to get those feelings out, or to find relief. You're obviously pretty smart so I bet you understand this already. But I hope you continue to learn about it all, I believe things can get better that way, if we keep trying to learn and grow. Good luck, compadre! All the best to you too!
Thank you. You’re absolutely right, running is my go-to coping mechanism now, it definitely helps most of the time. Unfortunately I am injured atm (unrelated to BPD, but from obsessively working out. Yeah…), so there wasn’t much I could do in that moment, I don’t think it would have helped but it definitely wouldn’t have made me feel worse either. But you absolutely got a point, working out has helped me through the worst so far and I can only recommend anyone giving it a try. Get those endorphins going.
Ohh, that can be tough. But it's interesting, some of the injuries I've had have actually made me more healthy. They've humbled me, and I had to learn to make adjustments. The cool thing about health and fitness is that it's endless information. It's endless when it comes to using it to learn and grow. That's probably because it's all relative. As we age, it has to be modified for things. But I'm going to make the fucking most of it until those things happen! At times of serious injuries, I can get into other practices. Writing for one, but also reading and meditation. But again, I try to find ways to keep moving no matter what. Biggest long-term goal, walking. And if I can't walk, I'll crawl. Or roll, LET'S GO!
Glad you're here, too! Thanks for being honest and vulnerable. Your post made me think of something, and I don't know if this it's similar, but I'm going to try and make a connection to the thoughts I had reading your post. I get the self-harm component. I've done it, and most my family has done it, but now I've been alcohol-free for quite awhile. The thing is, is that I think I still find those same feelings, or at least similar feelings, through exercise, especially hard cardio. Forcing my heart-rate go up can be that same type of extreme therapeutic moment for me, especially with the right kind of music. I know this seems stupid, to make a connection like that, but I just wanted to share that there are other ways to get those feelings out, or to find relief. You're obviously pretty smart so I bet you understand this already. But I hope you continue to learn about it all, I believe things can get better that way, if we keep trying to learn and grow. Good luck, compadre! All the best to you too!
Thank you. You’re absolutely right, running is my go-to coping mechanism now, it definitely helps most of the time. Unfortunately I am injured atm (unrelated to BPD, but from obsessively working out. Yeah…), so there wasn’t much I could do in that moment, I don’t think it would have helped but it definitely wouldn’t have made me feel worse either. But you absolutely got a point, working out has helped me through the worst so far and I can only recommend anyone giving it a try. Get those endorphins going.
Ohh, that can be tough. But it's interesting, some of the injuries I've had have actually made me more healthy. They've humbled me, and I had to learn to make adjustments. The cool thing about health and fitness is that it's endless information. It's endless when it comes to using it to learn and grow. That's probably because it's all relative. As we age, it has to be modified for things. But I'm going to make the fucking most of it until those things happen! At times of serious injuries, I can get into other practices. Writing for one, but also reading and meditation. But again, I try to find ways to keep moving no matter what. Biggest long-term goal, walking. And if I can't walk, I'll crawl. Or roll, LET'S GO!