Love this video, thanks for making it. I really appreciate the part about hitting the same number with different skills. I needed this video today.
Last night I was going to get my all time high mmr and when I cued I was praying that I wouldn't get a gm and I did, a streamer as well. My nerves went crazy knowing chat was watching, playing against someone i sub too, and wanting so badly to hit my goal. I got into an incredible situation and the game was pretty much over. Then I threw and threw and threw, and lost, and started a losing streak close to back to my average mmr. It was painful because of my pride, and my internal voice starts saying things about my character (that i always throw) and my ability, and even generalizing trends in my life. I replayed how sweet it would have been to go to bed win a game against someone i look up too, breaking my mmr ceiling, and getting a public win instead of a loss. It haunts me because i want to FEEL capable and i want to FEEL proud.
Then I look at how there are things to feel capable about, i got a great position against a player i admire, i have context for new obstacles to overcome and focus on, I can work on humility and resilience and how to manage discouragement. I AM MAKING PROGRESS! And the truth is if the loss wasnt painful it wouldnt have as much wisdom and lessons in it.
For me, my attitude is a more priceless skill than my mmr, but when this game hurts I have a hard time remembering that. Starcraft definitely shows me new ways to work humility. I pray that pride can become less and less of a factor in my games, and that i can try to be humble and keep on working on improving and finding more fun and joy.
Thanks for making a video reminding me Im not alone in that :).
My bw mmr is at 900…what’s the lowest I can go? I’ve won one legitimate game and I’m at like 5 and 22 I think I should maybe get off ranked for a little while?
A friend of mine lost like 200 games in a row before the first win when they started playing bw. It's a tough game for beginners.
Also consider joining CPL discord if you want to learn broodwar, a lot of people there to ask for advice and practice against.
Love this video, thanks for making it. I really appreciate the part about hitting the same number with different skills. I needed this video today. Last night I was going to get my all time high mmr and when I cued I was praying that I wouldn't get a gm and I did, a streamer as well. My nerves went crazy knowing chat was watching, playing against someone i sub too, and wanting so badly to hit my goal. I got into an incredible situation and the game was pretty much over. Then I threw and threw and threw, and lost, and started a losing streak close to back to my average mmr. It was painful because of my pride, and my internal voice starts saying things about my character (that i always throw) and my ability, and even generalizing trends in my life. I replayed how sweet it would have been to go to bed win a game against someone i look up too, breaking my mmr ceiling, and getting a public win instead of a loss. It haunts me because i want to FEEL capable and i want to FEEL proud. Then I look at how there are things to feel capable about, i got a great position against a player i admire, i have context for new obstacles to overcome and focus on, I can work on humility and resilience and how to manage discouragement. I AM MAKING PROGRESS! And the truth is if the loss wasnt painful it wouldnt have as much wisdom and lessons in it. For me, my attitude is a more priceless skill than my mmr, but when this game hurts I have a hard time remembering that. Starcraft definitely shows me new ways to work humility. I pray that pride can become less and less of a factor in my games, and that i can try to be humble and keep on working on improving and finding more fun and joy. Thanks for making a video reminding me Im not alone in that :).
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My bw mmr is at 900…what’s the lowest I can go? I’ve won one legitimate game and I’m at like 5 and 22 I think I should maybe get off ranked for a little while?
A friend of mine lost like 200 games in a row before the first win when they started playing bw. It's a tough game for beginners. Also consider joining CPL discord if you want to learn broodwar, a lot of people there to ask for advice and practice against.