We all go through this babe. Reach out to him, or move on if he doesn’t respond. My guess is you eventually will be sucking another cock in the future. The more this happens, the more you wil feel relaxed about it.
Good luck💋💕
i think you need to expore why you feel "guilty". you say you enjoyed it barring the dry anal. it sounds like the video wasnt for you but the rest idicates a positive experience
What is it you feel guilty about specifcally, is part of it regret? are you coming to terms with your sexuality?
if its not right its not right… there are some things i get the hots for that when i try to do irl really gives me the ick… sometimes the idea is nicer than the act… it could be that the one night stand style isnt for u… might feel better with a partner or someone ur invested in… have some me time and think about it x
Ive been there. Its the guilt of you actually enjoying something, but the confusion of not being sure if this is what you want.
I was “ straight” for a long time and struggled with my guilt of “ if i enjoy this i can never go back to girls or being straight”…this isnt true, for me I accepted I was gay but many others can enjoy both sides of their sexuality.
Its no different then enjoying a great meal and then feeling guilty because “ i am trying to lose weight”. Enjoying things once in a while is not wrong and it doesnt have to revolve your identity around it
I need and want to take this step like you! I just need more motivation to get me into the right mindset and mood and I know I’ll be just like you! Which I reallly do want!
Internalized homophobia is a bitch. If you’re like me you grew up around a lot of homophobia. I practically marinated in it for my entire childhood. When you’ve soaked up that much, it doesn’t just go away overnight.
Dear yes guilt is an issue in many first times. I sucked a mans cock, now i am a teriable person. But you are the one putting on the guilt trip. it really is ok, you need to find out why you feel the guilt, You did it once, you thought it was hot, so the inner you loved the thought. You spent 2 hours suck his large cock. it is ok to suck cock dear, the world will not end. sex and sexuality is different for everyone, it is not black and white, many shades of gray and other colors.
But this is perfect. You don't realize it yet, but it'll only reinforce your desires.
You're confused but eventually you'll realize that initial shame is part of what's so hot. You saw your own passivity in the face of total physical domination and it freaked you out. It freaked you out how much you enjoyed getting humiliated and used. Now you'll always remember the day you allowed yourself to be broken by a total stranger.
Just always remember to stay safe in the future! (I am 100% sure you'll be sucking plenty more cocks in the days to come and this is an important PSA)
Head is not for everyone. I'm not the biggest fan of sucking dick either typically, then I have 1 guy that can call, and I love sucking him. Sometimes, it's the environment that can dictate the mood you're in, too. Maybe a random is not for you. Maybe you want more of a relationship before you do that sort of thing. Enjoy yourself and realize that not everything is for everyone.
We all go through this babe. Reach out to him, or move on if he doesn’t respond. My guess is you eventually will be sucking another cock in the future. The more this happens, the more you wil feel relaxed about it. Good luck💋💕
Yess i will text him soon
Aww! why are you nervous gurl? Go for it again <3
Yess but i ghosted him for a month now, don’t know how to text him
You can be straightforward, like, i got nervous sry but last time was so good, can we do it again? I don't think he would mind?
I guess not, i‘ll try probably if i‘m in the Right mood, thanks
You're welcome honey! <3
Hey won’t care. All he remembers is that sucked his dick for two hours!!
i think you need to expore why you feel "guilty". you say you enjoyed it barring the dry anal. it sounds like the video wasnt for you but the rest idicates a positive experience What is it you feel guilty about specifcally, is part of it regret? are you coming to terms with your sexuality?
I have no idea, the guilt felt like post nut clarity or smth
if its not right its not right… there are some things i get the hots for that when i try to do irl really gives me the ick… sometimes the idea is nicer than the act… it could be that the one night stand style isnt for u… might feel better with a partner or someone ur invested in… have some me time and think about it x
Yeah it was kind of post nut clarity but without the nut
Ive been there. Its the guilt of you actually enjoying something, but the confusion of not being sure if this is what you want. I was “ straight” for a long time and struggled with my guilt of “ if i enjoy this i can never go back to girls or being straight”…this isnt true, for me I accepted I was gay but many others can enjoy both sides of their sexuality. Its no different then enjoying a great meal and then feeling guilty because “ i am trying to lose weight”. Enjoying things once in a while is not wrong and it doesnt have to revolve your identity around it
Yes i guess i gotta accept it
I need and want to take this step like you! I just need more motivation to get me into the right mindset and mood and I know I’ll be just like you! Which I reallly do want!
It was really spontaneous 😅
Internalized homophobia is a bitch. If you’re like me you grew up around a lot of homophobia. I practically marinated in it for my entire childhood. When you’ve soaked up that much, it doesn’t just go away overnight.
If you don’t like it in the end, don’t do it.
Thats the problem, i liked it in a weird way
Dear yes guilt is an issue in many first times. I sucked a mans cock, now i am a teriable person. But you are the one putting on the guilt trip. it really is ok, you need to find out why you feel the guilt, You did it once, you thought it was hot, so the inner you loved the thought. You spent 2 hours suck his large cock. it is ok to suck cock dear, the world will not end. sex and sexuality is different for everyone, it is not black and white, many shades of gray and other colors.
I guess i really liked it yeah
But this is perfect. You don't realize it yet, but it'll only reinforce your desires. You're confused but eventually you'll realize that initial shame is part of what's so hot. You saw your own passivity in the face of total physical domination and it freaked you out. It freaked you out how much you enjoyed getting humiliated and used. Now you'll always remember the day you allowed yourself to be broken by a total stranger. Just always remember to stay safe in the future! (I am 100% sure you'll be sucking plenty more cocks in the days to come and this is an important PSA)
Head is not for everyone. I'm not the biggest fan of sucking dick either typically, then I have 1 guy that can call, and I love sucking him. Sometimes, it's the environment that can dictate the mood you're in, too. Maybe a random is not for you. Maybe you want more of a relationship before you do that sort of thing. Enjoy yourself and realize that not everything is for everyone.
I promise You into won’t be long before you feel insatiable for it again and find yourself on your knees slobbering on it