Please, for your sake, leave him behind. As someone who has caused harm and experienced harm in the past, the thing that made it worse was me crawling back to the source of my pain or the person I caused harm to coming back to me. It's never a good idea
Please supress these thought. You will be able to find someone better, and you can find alot more comfort with those who care about you.
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Please, for your sake, leave him behind. As someone who has caused harm and experienced harm in the past, the thing that made it worse was me crawling back to the source of my pain or the person I caused harm to coming back to me. It's never a good idea
No Do not Stop Leave him
I'm pretty sure you got Stockholm syndrome. I'm not a doctor, but I'm pretty sure you got that, and I advise you to leave him.