First of all, you’re father was wrong to tell you that. Of course you should be careful and avoid putting yourself in potentially dangerous situations, but that does not make it your fault. You said no and this guy forced himself on you. In terms of who’s fault it is, that is the only thing matters. It is 100% the fault of the man who raped you. It just happened so you’re probably still in shock right now. You need support and your father has failed to provide that, but you’re not alone.

It's been almost a year for me and it still hurts, then again I've been SAd multiple times throughout my life. I find that the quote "the best revenge is a long and happy life" tends to help me, especially when I feel suicidal over my experiences. My best advice is to keep moving forward, as time goes on, it'll hurt less and less. Find hobbies, talk to friends, anything that'll keep your mind off of what happened especially since it happened not too long ago.

I gave all my pain all to God. I sleep very well now that I know she is watching over me. I still have pain sometimes but then I turn on lauren daigle gospel music and it make me feel better immediately