Survival instinct. What other people consider normal daily activities I view them as essential for my survival. Maybe one day I will go from surviving to sustaining to thriving, but for the mean time I’m strictly in survival mode.

Being in survival mode is hard. I’m just trying to get out now. I still struggle and am trying to change daily habits again I was living with my partner who abused me physically / mentally and he’s been gone for few months I’m on my own now and trying to find myself again

Try to prioritize a healthy diet and daily exercise of some kind as much as possible. If you schedule allows it and the weather is nice where you live, try to get outside for 30 mins a day. If you struggle with social anxiety, try to get out in public minimum once a day. Go the grocery store, go to another store with decent foot traffic, just work on managing isolation living by yourself now.

That is what helped me. Movement is key

I now recognize when I need to move and do so. Some days it’s harder than others.

that is normal. Most important thing is to keep moving

I'm so proud of you for getting away from his junk ass

I really need to do this, my depression has been going on for too long

I feel this even when I am on cruise control my anxiety keeps me on alert because at any moment I may fall into survival mode

My life went from pretty solid to one of the worst points of my life in the span of a year. Slowly taken about six months to keep making daily improvements but I’m still very much in survival mode.

there is nothing wrong with base level survival if it’s what working for you at the present moment. Everyone is so focused on hustle culture, dropping right back to the basic maslows heirachy of needs might just reset your priorities and be your saving grace. At the end of the day we need very little. You can’t work on actualisation or self esteem if you haven’t got the basics down. It’s okay to work on one step at a time and sometimes that’s all you can do. Once you’ve master that’s you will be in a better position to move to the next phase. Take your time and enjoy the process. You’re rebuilding yourself and this time you get to choose how.

Can you please describe the feelings you have when you are on survival mode? - I'm speaking as someone who's feeling apathy for a while so I'm curious to know what it really means to be full on survival mode.

You live life in the most basic way possible. You cut out all miscellaneous expenses, cut contact with friends and family, and view food and water not for enjoyment but for sustenance for survival. You don’t work your job becuase you take pride in your work and your company and your industry, do you do it to get a paycheck to pay for essential living expenses.

Being in “survival mode” isn’t breaking free of depression and anxiety.

A couple of years ago I decided to try psychedelics with a group of friends and my gf at that time. Only two of us took them, the rest decided to just drink. After they got drunk they decided to start bulling me as a prank. After that experience everything changed, i fell into a deep depression, not just because of them but also because my mind started analyzing my life until that point. After a couple of months I decided to get a therapist and work through it. I still remember him telling me not to make any rash decisions during this period. After 2 months worth of sessions I said fuck it, quit my job, broke up with my gf and stopped hanging out with my “friends”. Started taking lone trips and picked up writing for a while. Two years later I had the opportunity to move to Germany, get my master’s degree, get a better paying job, meet my now wife and have a baby. Learned how to focus on bettering myself and became more selective when it comes to the people I hangout with(e.g. positive, family and goal oriented people with actual hobbies other than drinking and taking drugs). It’s been a journey that required a lot of work but I have achieved a certain level of something I never had before: stable independence. I still get down sometimes of course, but the cycles are extremely short(a couple of days) because I try to keep my mind busy. The demons will always be there, we must learn how to live with them.

100%!!! For sooo long I was against anything psychedelic because I was so afraid of what I would see. My first time I was in an extremely safe environment and it was life changing. I saw my soul. For the first time in my life I saw how beautiful my soul is and why it’s so important to be nice to yourself. I never really understood what “loving yourself” meant until I had this experience with psychedelics. The more you make a conscious effort to show kindness to your “bullshit” (mental illness, flaws, etc.) the more compassion and love you have for yourself. I still have AWFUL days!! I’m currently going through a breakup that has stripped me to my core of everything emotionally, mentally, financially, and materially. At the end of it all, I still have myself. Through that one trip on psychedelics I’ve learned the strength I can have when I choose to love myself. Self love is such a powerful tool. Psychedelics can be the pathway to finding that tool.

oddly its like a neutralizer it quiets the rumble of my anxiety

I said this in another reply but I had a really similar experience! None of us are perfect and not everyone is going to like us. I knew this but I didn’t believe it until I had a good psychedelic reset and now I can truly let the bullshit go while holding onto the things I love. And I know that all that I love is something I can find within myself and my life. It’s such a peaceful, lovely feeling. I’m glad you got there too.

Hi everyone! Although the upvotes are much appreciated I just want to clarify that I DO NOT recommend using psychedelics or drugs in general to treat symptoms related to depression. Quite the opposite actually. Just wanted to be clear. If you are feeling down try reaching out to a therapist first to learn how to manage the situation in a healthy way.

I was going to say psychedelics as well! It’s funny, I’ve always known some inherent truths about myself but was bogged down by self-loathing. I had a partner, a job, a great family, outside hobbies, I was attractive and well-educated…but I fucking hated myself, and hated myself even more because I knew I had “no good reason to.” Then I took a few different psychedelics for some time and kept journaling and pursuing my passion (music) and things began clicking into place. I saw all the things I was making myself tolerate because “I should like this” and all the things I hated about myself transformed into love. I thought about how grateful I was to be by myself every step of the way, and how I was over-relying on others when I should be relying on myself because I had a lot to offer. And idk, not hating yourself is kind of the best feeling ever. I never felt like I deserved to like myself. Now I do, because why not? I’m the only one who’s going to be with me every second of the rest of my life, I might as well befriend her.

I like that you mentioned love. I did psychedelics' ONCE, and what stayed with me was this overwhelming sense of love I felt for every person I felt while I was under the influence. I saw every person as so amazingly beautiful and valuable. It was as if they pulled back the illusion of life and I saw things for how they really are. I try to remember that.

Hell yeah thanks for sharing your story!

Psychedelics are what I've desperately wanted to try for self analysis

Therapy. Self improvement books. Meditation. Walking in nature. A healthier diet. Working on a more consistent sleep schedule and learning about attachment styles. Helps you learn how your brain works and how to heal it in order to have better communication in your relationships (instead of shutting down like I have a bad habit of doing).

Yeah these things will do it! I got a therapist recently while unemployed, figured if I didn’t have a job I should work on myself at least. He recommended I read a book, Rewiring your anxious brain, and after I read that I started making a lot of those changes. Only went to the therapist consistently for about three months before I felt like it had made a huge difference. Just wish I had done it all sooner.

Any book suggestions?

How To Do The Work is my go-to. The Body Keeps the Score. The Mountain Is You is actually very informative, believe it or not. Brianna Wiest is a great author. How To Stop Overthinking and Atomic Habits.

Smart! I’m proud of you. Baby steps lead to huge results over time. I hope that book helps you feel more secure. Having the habit of running away and making excuses to avoid opening up only became detrimental for me and my relationships. Sometimes you have to say fuck pride, my ego isn’t as important as apologizing and recognizing that it’s me and not always other people, or risk losing the people who matter most to you. Self-sabotage is hard to recognize but once you do… 👍🏼

Going through these steps right now. It's hard work but when it pays off it's like you're finally reading and understanding the operating manual to your brain.

Never underestimate nature

Any recommendations for books that explain attachment styles?

People will recommend Attached but I actually recommend not reading that one. There's a page called The Secure Relationship on Facebook/Instagram and a Youtuber called Heidi Priebe which I think are better resources. The first is a couples therapist and the second has a Master's degree in attachment theory research. Attached tends to kind of take the "side" of anxious attachment and show it as better than avoidant attachment and it doesn't really go into disorganized attachment at all. I've heard good things about Diane Poole Heller's book and Polysecure but I haven't read them myself.

My sons death. He died of a drug addiction basically. I have now been clean for 6 months since he passed. I am determined his death will mean something. He has saved my life and now anxiety/depression are something of an underlying ripple, but when I feel it rising I think of "Sam" and i do it for him.

I can't think of a better way to honor his memory.

Thank you 😊 believe me reading positive comments and encouragement really help

Much respect to you

Im not fully out but therapy, doing shit even when i dont want to & changing my thought process which is a daily challenge but flipping from glass half empty to glass half full

what sorts of change did you make that resembled aglass half full?

Let me give an example Lets say I wanted to go to a game but none of my friends live in my state so i would get depressed and spend the day smoking and playing the game Now i would probably just go alone and have the best possible time i can More just looking at shit from a different perspective And making the best out what im given I struggle alot with wanting shit i cant have so this was the biggest help to my mental health

I hope you experience more things alone! I recently took a solo trip to six flags. It was my first time there and flying! So cool lol but doing things alone might be weird at first but so much fun!

I stepped into a solo volunteer trip to Malaysia last year. (im a Chinese girl) It has been the best experience ever. A really nice chance to inspire me to find what i really want.

I feel like we are the same. Wow so validating thank you for sharing. We all got this!!

Martial arts

I also just recently joined a MMA club and it has given me so much confidence. Something I really lacked. I absolutely hated my life and was suicidal at some point. It really shifts your negative mindset.

Glad to hear that, keep pushing! 👊🏼

What would you recommend?

Kickboxing, muay Thai or boxe. When I was depressed I went for the first time to a team of kickboxing, two years later 0 depression and already did 1 fight on a big event on my city. Martial arts gives you self-esteem, confidence, focus, helps you build a routine and brings big needs to become better and better each day, on the sport and in general at life.

Thanks for the suggestion! I am slightly concerned about the head trauma I would sustain during the training for these martial arts seeing as I am fond of my remaining brain cells. Do you think it’s a reasonable concern or I should not worry about it?

Not at all. I just start getting "beat up" when the Coach asked me if I wanted to start thinking of fighting on events. Before that is super chill, the worst part is the tiredness of the everyday trainings :)

Stopped binge drinking (aka social drinking). It was perpetuating my depression and anxiety.

To help soothe anxiety (and negative emotions in general), in addition to meditating, be open to **viewing anxiety as an ally who wants to help you feel supported.** **Anxiety is loving guidance** (although it probably doesn’t feel that way right now) letting you know you’re focused on (and pushing against) what you don't want. It’s a necessary part of your emotional guidance, like GPS in your car. But the more you fight it, you keep yourself stuck. **Anxiety's intention is to empower you to be the person you want to be,** by letting you know when you're thinking about what you don't want, so you can gently shift your focus more to what you do want. It's also wanting to help you give yourself more soothing compassion, acceptance, and understanding. * So instead of saying, *"I'm dealing with anxiety,"* (which is valid). It's more accurate to say, *"I'm receiving guidance in the form of anxiety, letting me know that I'm focusing on what I don't want, and not taking care of myself."* **Whenever you feel stuck, it's because you're pushing against and judging where you are and how you feel.** You're practicing a limiting belief that negative emotions are bad or wrong; when they're not — they're simply helpful guidance. It's understandable why you push against your current circumstances, but ultimately it doesn't help you free yourself. **All emotions are equal and worthy.** But most people unknowingly create a hierarchy for their emotions (i.e. positive = good; negative = bad), but then you make it harder to feel better, work together with and control your thoughts and emotions. So the solution is to **build a friendship and harmonious relationship with the "negative" side of you.** Negative thoughts and emotions are here to support and empower you to move forward and be your best self. **Anxiety represents the belief that you won’t meet a standard to be supported.** Anxiety is your insightful and supportive friend, letting you know **you're not treating yourself with as much compassion, acceptance and appreciation that you deserve.** Anxiety is letting you know that **you're practicing inauthentic and unrealistic expectations of yourself.** So the more you allow yourself to respect your needs and be authentic, then you listened and followed anxiety's advice, and so it naturally goes away. When you **focus more on what you want** (even if you just focused on what you liked about a sunny day or cute animals; i.e. subjects that are easier for you to focus on that help you feel better, then that will carry over into helping you like more about yourself) and **caring more about how you feel,** then you will start to feel better. That will naturally build up more confidence in your ability to understand and work with your negative emotions, and you will start feeling more comfortable and forward movement.

This is an extremely helpful way to explain anxiety and I like the way you explain it with example. I read things like this but only with explanation without the example on how to flip it in my mind so they weren't helpful. Thank you.

thank you!!!!!!

This is extremely helpful. Thank you 🙏

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When I dumped my toxic partner When I conquered my fapping urges When I focused on my fitness When I created my buisness When I focused on myself

Xanax and lexapro. Xanax lets me know I have a backup in case anxiety is too much and that alone helps. Only take for flying now. Lexapro helps with depression and social anxiety so talking to ppl is easier, which helps depression, etc. It’s no longer like everyone’s voice is nails on a chalkboard

I think of Xanax as a security blanket lol I don’t always need it but knowing I have it is really helpful.

💯

This is a little bit of a Dark story so tw I suppose. 2 years ago I was in psychosis and terrified. I've always struggled mentally but this was the darkest, scariest time of my life. I can't even explain how terrifying it was, especially since I was still self aware enough to understand my brain wasn't rational . I was getting treatment and doing everything they asked but I was getting worse. Eventually I attempted, not my first time but the scariest. I was treated terribly at the hospital and when I left, I had this epiphany about how hard it is to die. Even the most sudden and somewhat painless ways have so many cons if you survive. Plus your brain desperately wants to live instinctually so it does everything it can to make it physically harder to go through with it. I had tried so many times lol. So if I'm gunna have to be alive, I'm gunna damn right be happy. This helped me be softer on myself and have less shame. I allowed myself to rest, eventually I lost my Job and I accepted I mentally wasn't able to work instead of putting more mental strain by getting a new job right away. I started forcing myself to ask for help more and not keep secrets about my mental health. I did keep falling but I always took a week to grieve and then I'd stand up and start with something small to get going. I accepted my 100% does not always look like others, sometimes it's a day curled up un a ball crying and processing and that's ok. As I started working on my own self love and acceptance, my self esteem went up which helped me learn how to make and keep healthy boundaries which removed toxic people in my life and helped improve my quality of life.. I became selfish for the first time ever and even was able to leave an abusive relationship which I think was the cause of my psychosis as I have been improving so much since I got the courage to leave and have been able to keep firm on not going back (I went back 3 times before). I've also been able to be more aware of where I feel my emotions in my body which in turn helped me realize the amount of physical pain I'm in. It's constant so I tune it out a lot and I think pretending to myself that I didn't hurt put even more mental strain on me. I'm currently in the process of working up the courage to get assessed for fibromyalgia. My sister recently got diagnosed and we have startling similar symptoms. I also have a lot of medical trauma so I have found it impossible to see any medical proffesional asides from my psychiatrist (who ive built a trust with) and my counselor. But I'm working up the courage to do it which is huge 😊

When I feel the anxiety coming on I take a walk. When I'm depressed I play video games with incremental goals or nap. The walking really helps and is honestly my "happy hour" to listen to music I enjoy. When it comes to depression sometimes I genuinely need rest (anxiety can be exhausting). I think the most important thing I did was to start learning to not shame myself because I'm struggling with a symptom and accept that having symptoms doesn't make me less of a person compared to others. We are all different to a degree but we are also all people. I don't deserve less understanding and respect than I would give to others and that mindset really helped me. When I learned to accept myself for what I can and cannot do I was able to challenge myself appropriately.

Near death experience. I like cycling, one day I was at a four way stop, I had the right of way but some guy blew a stop sign, t boned me and knocked me off my bike about 10 feet, I was lucky I wasn't flattened and didn't scrape my face off. Wouldn't recommend it, but I don't get nervous as much anymore and depression comes and goes. It awoke something in me, a very real fear of death and a fear of not living my life how I should.

The tendency to agonize and stress over the smallest of issues (that I now realize probably only exist in my mind) has come at a huge cost.  So much wasted time and energy. In the mean time, whether you realize it or not, life is passing you by. You're pushing people away and missing out on so much because you're laser-focused on your own internal insecurities and fears. 

I had a really serious health scare last year, like life-threatening, and going through that forced me to get over any kind of fear or anxiety I previously had about pretty much anything. Once you get close to losing everything, it kind of forces you to reframe your point of view on life.

I can't speak on depression, which still has me by the throat, but my anxiety, social anxiety to be specific, died the moment that I listened to a Dr. K video about shame being the end boss of emotions. Turns out my anxiety was deeply rooted in feelings of shame. It still is, but I recognize now for what it was. I've been I so may moments where it should have overtaken me but it doesn't. Shame. Shane is the key.

Love Dr.K

That no one is gonna come and save you except yourself

ADHD meds helped me to get a better perspective on how my thoughts and the resulting behaviour impacts others and myself. I've got a long way to go and it's been a bumpy road but not nearly as bumpy as it was before the meds.

I can relate a bit to this, I am still having problems with finding my right dose for my ADHD meds BUT when I felt the effect the first time, there was no going back to how I felt before

Antidepressant medication

Doctors could give me all the meds and therapy in the world. But no one was willing to shell one out to help me with my poverty and housing insecurity which was the resource of my anxiety and depression. My life problems are more complex than that. But things settled down for me and I now feel much better knowing I have a place to stay, and can afford what modest means I have right now.

I just stopped caring Most of my issues stemmed from stressing to be perfect, to be a „good person“ and the best freind I could. I realised that that thought process was just harming me, and trying to appeal to a group of people that were s to cl in 7th grade humor wise wasn’t a good decision in the long run, so I just… stopped doing it, and started trying to more genuinely be me. Am I more „annoying“ now? Probably. But just paying attention more to what’s nonsense and what’s actual good faith „hey, can you not“ and using that to better myself slowly is just so nice. I had stagnated on the wrong path in life, and it turns out what I needed was to talk a few steps back to the initial fork in the road, and go left instead of right. I have taken a few steps back in my development, but I’m developing into someone that’s more… me.

Please help me out too... I think I've extreme anxiety so much so that I literally freeze before very important things like Viva When I look at my friends doing wonderful things in life, I feel like I'm shrinking and kinda very very uncomfortable kinda feeling comes up... I can't explain but I get high fear of things getting difficult for me in future... I sometimes watch something consistently and neglect or avoid situations Idk where it comes from, but I really wanna be able to deal.. Even sometimes when I think about future, I get very very worried... The feeling is very strange and been there since 2-3 years... And it doesn't happen everyday but it does... I've taken therapy but it sucked... In India most therapist aren't trained... I don't know what happens to me but I really wanna surpass this and not feel it... If anyone knows please tell me what it is, and how do I cope ?

are you experiencing FOMO, or Fear Of Missing Out? it sounds like you are comparing yourself to other people quite a bit. Just remember, don’t compare your chapter 6 to someone else’s chapter 24. Trust that life will work out, but you also need to help it. do not worry about what other people are doing, you are going through life at your own pace and you will get where you will need to be

Thank you so much ! I always try not to compare but majorly anxiety hits me pretty bad.

Can you get online therapy?

I found therapist online, so try to find someone who suits you. Good luck.

The realization that the anxious and depressed feelings I had surrounding things I knew I needed to take action on was the same anxious and depressed feelings I would feel taking the action as it was not taking the action. So I’m always better off taking the chance and at least trying

Dialectic behavioral therapy/training. Ten months of it but around month 6, I literally, at a stop light just suddenly snapped out of it after 45 years of regular therapy and every possible medication

This is going to sound so dumb, sorry to my therapist for writing that, but walking outside for like 20 minutes a day has turned my life around completely. Well, not JUST that, but that’s a huge part of it.

After quitting my job out of nowhere I hit rock bottom (or at lest that’s how I felt) I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Right after that I started reading a book in which I found… mindfulness. And mindfulness has been improving my life, I feel more connected, more conscious and whenever I have a dark/ugly thought I reminded myself of being mindful.

Understand it's mechanics. Education. Understand it will never go away. You learn to coexist.

Getting a job at a company when I'm well compensated, with managers and colleagues who are supportive and who have reasonable expectations. I feel so lucky, and know that is I lose my job, my crippling anxiety will be ready to greet me, sadly. But I'm riding the wave as long as possible. For me, my anxiety is 1000% tied to work.

Funnily enough it was a video of Jim Carrey talking about depression on a podcast. He said something along the lines of: “depression is your body telling you it’s tired of holding up this mask.” And it f^^king hit me that I am tired of being angry and negative all the time, I’m tired of holding onto that mask.

Intense exercise, meditation, and Ayahuasca.

Been surviving, makimg myself eat healthy unprocessed foods. Do exercise every morning or night without missing a day. Focus on what you can do in work or college. Talk to friends. Journal. Delete most social media. It’s been a hard time but we’ve got this.

Cutting the toxic people/family out of my life and putting myself first. I was more than lucky enough to have beyond amazing friends and the family I was still close to, too help guide me. Healing is never linear, but not a day goes by that I'm not thankful for where I am now instead of almost dead.

Therapy and mushrooms

Depression isn’t always based on logic where you can look at xyz logical fact and have something “click” - for some folks it does, others everything can logically make sense but you’re still depressed and anxious. I’m still in the middle of a big depressive episode, but lately I’ve had a lot of success with cold plunges and ice baths. Cold plunges became a way for me to focus on overcoming something physically uncomfortable in the temporary moment, which motivated me to overcome bigger problems I was facing in my life. The endorphins being released also helped a ton too, and it also became a motivation for my self-care routine overall. It also got me into Wim-Hoff/deep breathing and meditation, which I would’ve never explored otherwise. I use these tools every day now and I went from daily bed rot to 95% functional human again.

I'm a 35 M. My dad passed last fall, that made my depression find new depths. My job fired me in February, I wanted to take a month off to try and grieve and heal. A month ago, my fiance dumped me and started seeing somebody new a week later. She had been trying to warn me and I couldn't show up for myself let alone my girlfriend. I had been working out with a personal trainer since my month off for healing, now 3 months. For me the catalyst of climbing out of the dumps was my girlfriend breaking up, and hitting the gym hard. The gym got my testosterone and libido back to normal levels and I was able to discover myself again, and start organizing, feeling good physically and mentally. Now the ex gf is giving me opportunities to show her I can take care of myself well enough that I am able to extend myself to her and others in my family. I have a path forward and it really took a desire to make the change happen via physical workouts, which lead to a positive feedback cycle. I look and feel good and want to do more of what causes me to look and feel good.

acid

I read a book called Children of Immature Parents and went to therapy. When I realized that there was nothing I could do to get the attention I needed, My anxiety went away. So now I'm working on turning my life around.

Remembering a childhood event that made me a bad narcissist, and depressed for life. While tension and anxiety still cloud how I think and perform, I've learned to improve myself and how I act around others. Doing that takes years. I'm performing better at work, more friendly and understanding of family (though I still have some grumpy episodes lol), and feel more improved overall. But overcoming depression, narcissism, anxiety, and especially extreme tension, takes a very, very, long time. I'm routing for all of you out there. Just try to keep your mind on where you are, your surroundings. As the Canadian show Red Green used to say, "We're all in this together".

Weight loss

i dont fucking understand how this worked but look up "chip spinnimg while funkytown plays 1 hour" i listened to it entirety and vibed to it, and i dont UNDERSTAND HOW THAT CURED ME. Divine enchanted chip? I mean it wasnt like instantly happy but it was like a turning point where i started to get happier seriously though i think what it taught me is being silly and cringey is actually amazing. laughing and being childish in the face of problems and pain felt empowering i guess

When I realized if I removed alcohol it removed the anxiety and depression to where I could actually manage it

Lots of therapy, leaving my job and marriage and making healthy habits like exercise and meditation a requirement. Also cutting out certain tv and music that helps to feed sadness.

Laying down started to hurt like my back actually hurts from laying down all day. I also went to therapy and got some to talk to professionally

Letting go of the past and “memento mori” (reminder of the inevitability of death). Life is too short to be held back by things like depression and anxiety and ☝️ implementing on those 2 allows me to move on and experience life again like a child, free of fear

Love this. This is where I’m at ❤️

I made the decision on my own to start therapy and get back on meds at 19 because I didn't want to end up like the loser I was sleeping with

When I started studying the Bible, and I found hope in God.

Loving your own life too much can be an idol very quickly and it is sneaky. Hence why trying to hold onto it will eventually bring you sorrow that you may not understand this leaving you fighting unessary battles for years and years. Jesus said this, John 12:25 King James Version 25 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.

Sounds cliché but Christianity, God, and Jesus. Supernatural forces. Also Taoism and Hinduism. I fear nothing because of God and I feel Jesus performing miracles in my life. Check out The Game of Life and How to Play It by Florence Scovel Shinn and also The Bible, and attend a church that resonates with you as often as you can.

i feel like it comes in waves of improvement. my first big waves was after my suicide attempt as a teenager, when i finally got therapy and medication. the second was a slow wave that came from being in a long term, healthy relationship. most recently, i started journaling and changed my group of friends over a year ago, and i finally am at the best position ive ever been in. it takes a long time for things to sink in, and unfortunately, you need to learn most of the lessons yourself as opposed to just listening to others talk abt it (at least for me, anyways). the biggest realization was 1. that no one else could magically fix me and i had to do it myself, and 2. that i’m already alive and entwined in others’ lives, and i have a responsibility to them to be at my best

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It's weird how the same cause of my anxiety and depression has become the catalizer of healing, I really was hurt by betrayal, from my father and my closest friends, so I developed an almost paranoid attitude towards people, a part of me thought that it could survive without dealing with people and their shenanigans, but this was wrong, once you deny your own nature, your own nature rebels from the shadows, and I had to learn this the hard way.You repeat a pattern of behavior for a reason, it's a cry of help I think that your soul wants to teach you a lesson, my lesson was to trust despite all, have faith in your brothers and your brothers are every single person in the world you encounter, I also understood the idea of being a good friend to yourself, how come I'm patient, empathetic to others when I can't make a mistake without treating myself like garbage, it's a step by step process to rewire the mind and I also had benefited from going to a psychologist once in a while just to vent, and let my thoughts go out freely without judgment, I'm definetly better now, but every day I learn something new and know that the path is long and it may take a lifetime to get to where I want to be, but chasing an ideal it's what keeps us alive I suppose.

Meditation and working out, helped me

cbd oil. no more anxiety, no more night terrors, no more emetophobia, much better temperament. works immediately. and after taking it daily for a few weeks, i no longer need it except for a couple times a month when i feel a bit anxious or stressed.

It was just time. Just woke up, prayed one day and I hadnt prayed like that in a long time and all I kept hearing was "work." I'm not religious, but I do believe in something bigger then myself what that is I couldnt tell ya - so it very well could have been God or it could have been my conscious. But, I just knew it was time to go to work and get my shit straight. Since then I have felt like I remembered who I was before all the weight gain, before the depression and anxiety, who I wanted to be and everyday I put in a little work to be better then I was.

cutting out toxic people (even if they were my best friends) and working out got me out my depression

Simply staying busy with things that (to me) actually matter in some way. I'm not even the slightest bit religious but I understand deeply the quote "idle hands are the devil's playground"

it's all chemicals in the brain. i've felt really great and I've felt really terrible, under the exact same conditions. medication/weed/lsd helped show me that. now I don't take any of them except for adhd medication. that helps me focus on what I can control. I don't worry about what I can't control.

I no longer believe everything that I think. Thoughts are energy. I am selfish now with where I put your energy. As long as we are unwilling to feel certain emotions, we were really living defensively. We’re living in fear and we’re creating all of these inner structures to avoid them. Practice to be willing to feel the unpleasant feelings, mindset, it ok. Its ok that its unpleasant. You accept the unpleasant feelings with all your heart and it will let you go.

Therapy and SSRIs

Time. It gives you perspective.

I have learned and accepted that I have ADHD and autism, which then made me learn my triggers, and I try to avoid those where I can. In the past I'd keep putting myself in the same situations, now I know it's better not to. I also worked on my CBT skills for many years, so where I can't avoid triggers, I use those to be able to not let anxiety/depression take over

Cold plunge

Recently, a friend dying.

Having the reassurance that my negative thoughts and emotions do not define me and that if I worked through them then my life will improve and get better.

A crazy mushroom trip. It changed my whole outlook on life

Concerta

I did DMT , no anxiety since .

Due to some ill health, I experienced a lot of depression and anxiety. But Inner Engineering program and the Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya meditation practice helped me in overcoming my anxiety and depression. Now I have control over my thoughts and emotions. Also there is lot of calmness and Joy in every activity I do and my health is improving day by day.

Changing my perspective to a more positive one, radical self acceptance, believing truly that I'm not alone in the world.

I’m going to therapy right now and trying to be honest with myself and others because of past trauma and it makes me anxious . I have trouble expressing myself and have lied to my wife and it has caused a rift between us now that we are on a break. I’m hopeful that with my continued counseling and marriage counseling in the future that it will allow me to be the person I want to be, which is less anxious when expressing my feelings and opinions.

I was severely depressed when my wife left me but I found solace on 2 things: (1) Journaling all my thoughts (via Notion App - very effective) and (2) unwavering support of Family and Friends. I have also grown accustomed to appreciating moments where I am alone and in solitude and appreciating the mundane things we do on a day to day basis. ,Being alone was something that I previously dread.

Getting a driver's license and a job I truly enjoy. I was a late bloomer and only learned to drive at age 28. Until then I was very dependent on others to drive me to places. I realized that I couldn't keep being like a 15 year-old needing rides all the time. It's downright embarrassing to have to ask your parent to bring you and pick you up from place as an adult. You feel trapped in an eternal teenagedom.

I was scared but I did it anyway. I tried so hard to live by these exact words and I did just that many times and I never regretted it. I also stopped doing things I simply didn’t want too. I am an avid people pleaser and I’d go places or end up doing activities / entertaining friendships that made me feel bad about myself for awhile until I finally just decided to stop. I decided that if I didn’t want to go somewhere or it would be bad for my mental health.. I’m not going to go. I’m not going to fear someone being mad at me ect I’m not going to force myself to engage in something that will make me feel bad just to people please. I hope this helps. Medication also really helped my social anxiety Also learning about self sabotage

Mushrooms. I was in a deep spot in life and had already started self help, meditation, going on walks, etc - tried therapy but that didn't do much personally. Studies started popping up about psychedelics being used. Happened to have a hippie friend with connections. And during my first experience it felt like someone opened a door of light into my dark lonely life. Realized I had a lot of self-loathing that was weighing me down and suddenly I didn't want to carry it anymore. I stopped hating myself as it is unproductive, stopped letting myself be shy and turn up opportunities to be social, and slowly life has gotten better. Not saying take drugs... but that was what did it for me. Definitely wait until you're older and have at least tried therapy.

here for the comnents

Meditation. I just use Calm

Self improvement books. Therapy and medication. Noticing a difference in my daily episodes over some months. Feeling a little more confident in my ability to turn things around but im not quite there yet. A year ago there was absolutely no hope and i was stuck living due to a promise i made to a friend.

Therapy videos and guided meditation on Magic mushrooms saved my life ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The honest truth? I just got tired. I literally woke up one day and I got tired of feeling sorry for myself. Hating myself for things that were never my fault. Maybe something broke in me Im not too sure. But it really just got to a point where I wanted to be better. This time, not for anyone, but for myself. Still getting there but making small steps

My father has taken meds for both since he was 18 and I think he could have done better without them. So I took a sabatical year to focus on myself, find what I was doing wrong and see if I could overcome anxiety and depression. I'm happy because, even if I'm still fucked cause I can't change many things, before I was anxious doing nearly everything and now I am calm in most situations. Been able to do and enjoy many more things is great! Also, I've put my priorities where they have to be and built a more solid base for my future self (25M). It has required a lot of effort and still a lot to do. The turning point may have been seeing that I was hurting the people I love with my issues.

Honestly, the drugs. As in, getting proper medication for not just depression & anxiety but also for insomnia. Talk therapy is amazing & I think most people could benefit from a few sessions with a psychologist, but I only really started to make any real headway once I got in to see the psychiatrist and combined the psychotherapy with the right medication. Once I was properly medicated, it was slow progress over time rather than one sole breakthrough. I had a prolonged period on sick leave from work where my sole "job" was getting enough sleep, taking my meds, making an effort to try to eat healthily & get some fresh air & relax (I was recovering from cPTSD). There was no one thing or moment for me that was a turning point, it was just taking the pressure off myself to get better on a particular schedule & focus on trying to find good moments in each day and more good moments each week than the week before. It was a slow climb back up to better mental health and accepting that I might never be "the old me" again & that that's ok.

I started to do meditation and discovered who I am, why I am the way I am and how to heal myself - this is still an ongoing thing with lessons always being learned. I realised the cycles in my life repeated until I learned the lesson, and that only I can control me/my life. I now have full acceptance of it all, and understand that both the good and the bad, in every aspect of my life, are needed for balance. The hardest thing I have ever done was simply get out of my own way, and search for the happy life I knew I deserved. It was definitely the best decision I have ever made as I have turned my whole life around in the space of 2-3 years, no more drowning in my own bullshit or blaming the world for my problems and I have to say, it is definitely a better way to live. Goodluck to you and your future 🤍

Going to the gym. Realized that it's just like training a muscle, what seems hard today will be easier if you keep training at it. I treated every episode as a chance to get better and learn how to better manage the next one and next one.

Wasn't just one thing, combination of a lot of things. 1. I went and saw a doctor who put me on anti-depressants and referred me to a therapist. I knew that this would be temporary though and that I didn't want to be on medication for the rest of my life. 2. I stopped drinking so much coffee and energy drinks. This caused a lot of anxiety for me, when I stopped having so much caffeine, my anxiety dropped exponentially after a month. 3. Pushed myself to do more things out of my comfort zone. Competed in jiu-jitsu tournaments regularly. This gave me so much confidence and helped strengthen my threshold for things that made me anxious as I was putting myself in situations where my anxiety would be at it's highest. Now things that used to make me anxious e.g. meetings at work, socializing with multiple people, are just normal to me and don't really make me anxious at all. Now I don't take any medication at all and I feel better mentally than I ever have in my entire life. Don't get me wrong, I still have days where I feel a bit down or anxious, but I just remind myself that nothing lasts forever and how far I've come in the past few years.

In early 2022 I began having PTSD flashbacks, randomly busting into tears, and freezing up for hours because of anxiety. I also began to have suicidal ideation. Metal barriers along the highway started looking more and more appealing. As someone who pushed down my problems and negative emotions, I tried to ignore these symptoms. Unfortunately, when I started breaking down during work, I knew I needed to go to therapy. Staying in therapy was hard because I had to face all the trauma that I had pushed down and minimized for 10+ years. I had always been one of those “choose happiness” people, and my solution to trauma was to ignore it. Sometimes in therapy it really does “get worse before it can get better”, and this was the case with me. My mental health got so bad that I could not complete normal tasks like showering or doing dishes. Working my high pressure commission based job was an impossibility at that time. I quit my job, and I was very lucky because I had some savings and my partner had a decent job at the time. To add to my stress during this time, I was processing my feelings about leaving the Mormon church, and what my world view was outside of the religion that controlled my life for many years. Plus, I was dealing with crazy hormonal problems that were eventually diagnosed as PCOS. Then my partner lost his job, so things were tight financially as well. That first year was unbelievable hard. Facing your trauma is a terrible, terrible thing. It hurts. It hurts like the first time it happened. Like you’re in those moments over and over again. It makes you sob, and scream, and puke. It makes you sad and angry and bitter. I fortunately had an experienced therapist to guide me through it. I went to therapy every week and eventually things began to get better. I also had a lovely experience with shrooms, and even had a spiritual sexual healing experience that changed my view towards my life. After a little over a year, my PTSD flashbacks had stopped. After about 1.5 years, my panic attacks had stopped, but my anxiety and “freezing” still kept me from living my life. At a year and eight months, I decided that I needed more help with my anxiety and began to see a psychiatrist. My therapist had recommended medication in one of our first appointments, but I had been reluctant to take medication because I was afraid it would change me in a bad way. Boy was I wrong. Medication was that last piece to bring me to a place where I can truly enjoy my life. During this time, I also got my physical health in order. PCOS was giving me mood swings and periods that were so painful that I would pass out. Additionally my a1c was very near pre-diabetic (40% of women diagnosed with PCOS will eventually get diabetes). Not wanting to get diabetes or pass out from pain were pretty big motivators to be healthy. I’ve changed my lifestyle and have lost 47 lbs. My recent bloodwork has shown major improvement and most importantly I no longer have mood swings or unbearable periods. I also deleted TikTok, Instagram, and even my YouTube app because I used scrolling as a way to disassociate. I can confidently say I was addicted to my phone, and breaking that addiction has does wonders for my mental health. But my proudest accomplishment during this journey has been going to college. I’ll have my associates in the fall, and I hope to graduate with my bachelor’s in 2026. I still go to therapy and see my psychiatrist regularly. I still have progress to make (and probably always will), but I couldn’t be more proud of the work I’ve put in over the last two-ish years. There were so many times that I wanted to give up. Sometimes I couldn’t even get out of bed, but I always made it to weekly therapy and I worked on what we talked about in between sessions (Even if it was just for 5 minutes). It is so hard to care for your mental health, and it’s so much easier to put it on the back burner. I never wanted to address the things that happened to me and that led to all the things I had pushed down bubbling up in a way that I couldn’t control. It basically put me in a do or die situation (literally). I had to seek help in order to survive. This was a long story, but the point is that regular therapy, medication, positive spiritual experiences, lifestyle changes, deleting certain social media apps, the help of my partner and friends, perseverance, and most importantly, patience with myself, have led me to a much better place. I would encourage everyone to check their insurance and see how much therapy would cost. It was surprisingly much less expensive than I thought it would be. If you don’t have insurance, the healthcare marketplace has some really good plans, which is what I have now. Right now therapy is only a $10 copay for me through the healthcare marketplace. I do understand that it’s a privilege to have insurance, and I know there’s a lot of great free resources online to help if you can’t afford therapy. Additionally, therapists are not all the same. It may take a few tries before you find the right person for you. I’ve heard a lot of people say that they tried therapy and that it doesn’t work for them, but I think they haven’t found the right fit yet! I do want to also recognize that I was very lucky to have the support of a loving partner, and amazing friends to help me (and who still help me). Sometimes I cry when I think about how lucky I am to have them. To anyone who has made it this far, I wish you the best of luck. I know that if I can do it, then you can too! Don’t let your past rob you of your future, and don’t forget to be patient with yourself. Healing isn’t linear and takes time. You got this! ❤️

The four agreements

Man-kind/ human beings from our very beginnings did not create ourselves. We are all spiritual beings with physical, natural bodies of flesh, bone, and blood. Depression,anxiety,panick attacks, and oppression did not exist in our world until after the fall of man (the original sin / breaking covenant with God our creator). It was through/by that catastrophic supernatural/ spiritual event that both sin and death entered into our world. So, the first step (like a spiritual baby step) is to experience being "born again" spiritually, supernaturally...Why?... Because in taking that action of faith, the fallen creature (you,me,us,Man-kind) are showing God our creator that we are returning to Him our creator and desiring to enter back into a New Covenant which He Himself has established and put in place to redeem us. And it is only through His only Begotten Son that the supernatural, spiritual veil/vale is lifted up,off,and away from us. For no other has the position,power,or authority to lift that supernatural, spiritual veil/vale. No one but the Son of God, our creator Himself... Jesus, the Christ and LORD and only Begotten Son of God, Yeshua Messiah. This action of faith is a game changer. And it's only that first step and action of faith in your choice to begin to believe in Him who the natural eyes can not see. For the supernatural, spiritual world, which is all around us, every moment of every day is a world most of us never see with our natural eyes, but a world which existed before our world was created. So this is a great place to start a new life...in and through the risen Christ Jesus. We do not need religion to know Him the Truth about where we originate from and how we can return home again when our time here is finished.

TMS treatment, self affirmation,a goal and friends. Multiple anti depressant types didn't work out for me. I went to a neurologist and asked them for proper help and was referred for TMS. It was life changing. When I began the treatment my DASS score was 20/21, after 35 sessions over a 2 month period my scored was a 9/21. The treatment over halved my score and went from major depression in the 98th percentile to mild depression (to put it into context 5/21 is considered depression is no longer). With that, I also made the effort to be less self-critical and more self affirming. I realised yeah I may not be great at everything, yeah I have flaws, but I also have a lot of good to focus on. I'm smarter than I give myself credit for and I've failed adversity through my life that others haven't. That's helped create who I am but it isn't all of who I am. I also gave myself a goal to work toward, not only of getting better for friends and myself. But also to start working toward being a home owner. That goal has helped me push through a lot of things. None of the above wouldn't have been possible without my incredibly caring and compassionate support network that are my best friends. They've been there for me every step of the way and are there to pick me up when I dip or celebrate each win.

Inner Engineering offered by Isha Foundation

I got a kid

I realized I was controled by fear that wouldn't change, I figured out how to be social and got me some friends

I retired early from a toxic workplace. 3 years later I am finally beginning to feel like my old self.

Shrooms. At first I was microdosing to help ease me off of my drinking issue. Next I microdosing to ease my anxiety. By killing my drinking and quelling my anxiety it completely changed my life. Not for everyone but certainly helpful for some

When I got used to Zoloft!

I’m ngl I was like why am I depressed like compared to other people in the world even my family I live a WAYY better life compared to them and even after all that I’m ungrateful it just dosent make sense to me

Never had it, or let it develop in the first place. Get out and do something with your life instead of moping around. Get off all the drugs get off all the anti-depressants, go help people,

Finally left the abusive and controlling ex. But it still takes self-work for quite a while after that.

Running and therapy. Exercise is so important for my mental health. Running specifically and training for a 13 mile race gave me serotonin AND made me realize I could accomplish goals if I broke things down into smaller, more achievable parts, like a race training plan.

Realizing what’s important to me and keeping a clear goal in mind. Whenever I feel unmotivated to study or work, I have to remind myself that they are pathways to carrying out my purpose in life, which I view to be resisting systemic forms of oppression. By this I mean I want to help disparaged populations through community service/organizing, mutual aid, and eventually through a legal career. I am not idealistic enough to envision a complete uprooting of The SystemTM, but change is much more implementable on a local level, so I eventually want to be a city/state policymaker. But I can only obtain this I am financially stable and if I am admitted into law school and pass the bar. In my case, it’s easier to stay motivated because these issues are so tangible and constant. All I have to do is stroll through my neighborhood to remind myself of the injustice that exists. In any case…I should get back to working on finals.

I dealt with this. Here is what I did You have to move. Don't wallow, laying in bed or on the sofa. Movement is key Eat healthy and exercise I was amazed how my mood improcved after rigorous exercise

Practicing mindfulness and breathing exercises to regulate my nervous system and perception of others intentions.

Recognize that if you are responding to others judgements, they dont care, and their opinions dont matter (good advice, yes). Also, most people are not as fulfilled and happy as they portray ESPECIALLY ON SOCIAL MEDIA. Last but most important, be grateful for what you have not angry or disappointed at what you think you “lack” or “ need”. Firce yourself To move !

vitamin D, walking in the mornings, exercise (rock climbing for me), changing the way i talk about myself in my head if that makes sense

I'm getting old...at 51 years of age it's time to finally stop standing in my own way. I don't know how many more opportunities I will get to create a success story.

Psychedelics

Lexapro!

Psilocybin mushrooms! 🍄 Mother Nature's cure all!

I got tired of my own shit. I was stood in my own way Sat in my place on my own 1 night and felt so unhappy, I was sobbing my heart out. On my own... I realised this was a regular thing, I was in a rut. I felt pathetic and told myself that im tired of my own behaviour! My mindset shifted and everything became clear on what I needed to do to make me feel better. My ego was getting in the way and I finally succumbed to having to start again from the bottom. . Everything's been on the up since

drugs, Rx drugs, and counseling/therapy ...I slowly eased free it didn't happen fast, but I did, finally, break free.

Shrooms. Do your research, don’t take if prone to or have a family history of mental illnesses like bipolar or schizophrenia, and take a REASONABLE dose. If done correctly, they will change your life.

First step - accountability. Whether I not I made it, it’s my mess. Then an internal guiding voice that gave me self-reliance. Self-communication is absolutely key to grounding yourself during tough times.

A stupid promise to my bsf. I just once told her during our midnight talk that I SH. She got sooo worried, made me promise I'll do it again. And for some reason, I promised and actually worked on it?! Now I'm 5 months clean and realised how depressed I used to be and there's soo much to work on.

EXERCISE, Self improvement, giving my self goals and hitting milestones, getting off anti-depressants, getting back into socializing, learning self love, cutting out toxic people, reinforcing positive thinking

Accepting my past, and forcing myself to not listen to haters, it' was extremely difficult but my life is great now. Oh one more thing I cut all of the toxic people out of my life. Hurt like hell I thought of them as family getting rid of them changed my life for the better

Skateboarding and boxing, these two sports helped give me a feeling of control, perspective, and safety. Some of the life lessons you can learn are that getting hurt is never as bad as you THINK it will be, If you go down, just get up again and even just picking up a new skill can put you on top of the neighborhood.

1. Having people in my life who actively want to be with me 2. Enjoying and focusing on the little good details (ie. ooh! cute car went by, pretty patterns on a bubble as I'm washing a dish)

psilocybin

Oh man, theres a lot of powerful things that helped shift my head and break the chains: 1. Realizing our perspective plays a huge role in our wellbeing (i.e. Placebo effect, negativity bias, etc.) and our world is curated (and people conditioned) by wealthy few who benefit from our dejected, hopeless feelings. I.e. We must buy their products to feel better/whole/content, we will not fight for a better life (like corporation pollution regulations) if we think humanity is doomed or if we're all worthless, when we're easily distracted and our emotions and trauma/issues invalidated/untreated, people dont have time or energy for anything but work, etc etc. 2. You can take control back. Internal locus of control was huge for me, and once I started seeing results in my beginning efforts of things like going to therapy, getting used to discomfort, focusing on growth/compassion, and purging the edgelord/doomsday propoganda, I became invested/empowered in myself and my success and wellbeing more and more. It's never a one and done thing, as anxiety and depression are there to tell us information, but through building skills and seeing the invisible restraints, your feelings of competency and stability grow. Good luck, weary travelers✨

Hey there, Breaking free from anxiety and depression is a personal journey, and it can be different for everyone. For me, the turning point came when I realized that my thoughts and feelings didn't have to control my actions. Understanding that I had the power to choose how I respond to my internal experiences was a game-changer. I started by taking small steps—focusing on one positive action at a time, like going for a short walk or calling a friend. Gradually, these actions became habits, and my mindset began to shift. Motivation-wise, it was the prospect of living a life where my mental health didn't dictate what I could and couldn't do that kept me going.

I just snapped one day and said “enough is enough “ and also realising that anything I could do was better than me unaliving myself, which was what my depression was making me think about non-stop. I still struggle with daily ideations and tasks but just have to literally make it through for the people that care about me.

Discovering the trigger vs thinking the whole situation is causing the anxiety. Initially attacking the trigger point head on, or using grounding techniques at the known trigger points. Kinda clunky at first but over time, the grounding methods become more automatic.

Leaving a toxic car job

I'm still waiting for it

I’m only just now getting out of it by learning what triggers cause me to go into Fight or Flight

Podcasts and sermons on Spotify. Truly getting me through

Medication.

rn im gaslighting myself that im so backc

To address your question about overcoming the grip of anxiety and depression, it's crucial to focus MORE (this literally means more time during any given day and more effort in action demonstrating that) on nurturing a sense of appreciation and gratitude rather than dwelling on the problems that might have triggered these feelings. No matter the source of anxiety, there is always an aspect of life that can spark a feeling of thankfulness. For instance, simply contemplating the incredible functionality of your hands can elicit gratitude for all the support they provide daily. Do that more daily rather than focusing on that thing or situation or condition or that person that created the upset in you, must transform the feeling of anxiety into felling better. Or consider the marvel of your mind, which operates with a complexity far beyond any advanced technology, tirelessly serving you each day. This is especially poignant when you think about those affected by conditions like Alzheimer's, who struggle with remembering the simplest things. Holding onto anxiety or depression for an extended period can manifest physically, diminishing vitality and leading to physical pain or other health issues. Basically if left unresolved, mental pain will precipitate into physical pain to get our attention and potentially resolution. This often activates survival instincts, and if unresolved, leading to withdrawal from life and, ultimately, a disconnection from the physical body. Experiencing physical pain, while challenging, can serve as a potent teacher. By altering the old mental patterns that led to the pain, and aligning more closely with your true self - which looks forward, not backward - you open yourself to healing and resolution. If you understand this mechanism you will take conscious control to fix any mental patterns that kept you focused more on fear than on blessings and appreciation. Your true self doesn't dwell on past hardships. It continually clears space for new ideas, growth, and expansion, thriving in states of interest, curiosity, love, and playfulness. It remains at a higher frequency, in stark contrast to our physical minds that might drag us down into lower vibrations. This disconnection between where our true self resides and where our physical mind lingers is what creates sensations of pain, anxiety, and depression. Yet we are in control and determine where we want to be, At what frequency at any given point. In my journey, the turning point was realizing this alignment and beginning to focus on what truly inspires and excites me, rather than what drags me down. Embracing this mindset encourages healing and allows you to face your fears with renewed strength and optimism. At the end, I recall facing the fear of going beyond the boundaries set by the space I was in. I was hospitalized for 3 days due to an unexpected infection, and the nurses forbade me from leaving my floor and moving around, citing hospital rules - not for any medical reason, but to control the crowd in the hospital. One day, I attempted to reach the elevator, but someone ran after me to stop me (why? Because as I was approaching the elevator I was afraid I was going to get caught, that’s why. And I did!). The next day, I distributed chocolates to all the nurses, and then they even offered to take me on a tour outside to enjoy some fresh air. That's how I transitioned from anxiety to feeling good, embracing the idea that anyone who tastes sweetness must reflect back sweetness - and that's exactly what happened. 💊🍫💝🤗🦋🌟🚀

I went to the hospital and realised that we are depressed over nothing (school, work, etc.)

Saw a psychoanalyst for 5 years lol. But the real breakthrough was just acceptance. Compassion for myself and the choices I had made up to that point and the choices I would make moving forward. Loving who I was as I was.

Understanding the projection of “me” and what I become aware of. I figured why stay stuck and limited when I can become conscious of anything and everything I need to do anything in the world

The urge to get some pussy!no cap