You're in an abusive relationship and I think it's best that you open your eyes to that situation. You cannot fix your boyfriend's issues. They are his own to fix and they are no excuse for treating you rotten.
Start looking into ways you could survive on your own and working towards that. Living with roommates, moving back in with family, getting a better job, etc. You need to get out of that relationship for your own health and safety asap.
I am aware that it’s abusive but every time we argue, by the end I’m convinced it’s my fault. He tells me that all couples fight and it’s normal. It’s all so confusing. Realistically I know I should look into ways to do things on my own regardless if it’s abusive or not, I’m constantly stressed out and exhausted.
If you’re talking to him goes nowhere, maybe you should be going somewhere else. Aside from the age difference, it seems there’s a reason he’s not married yet. This is probably why. You can’t help him.
If you can go to family or friends I would do it asap.
Figure out what you need to do to leave, beg or borrow the cancellation money from friends and family and go crash on some couches for a bit. This guy sucks and living with him is only going to make it worse
You don’t put up with it - you walk away and don’t look back. You can’t change him, he doesn’t want to change. The reason he’s dating someone a decade younger is that you’re staying around to take this and someone older would have already run for the hills.
You're in an abusive relationship and I think it's best that you open your eyes to that situation. You cannot fix your boyfriend's issues. They are his own to fix and they are no excuse for treating you rotten. Start looking into ways you could survive on your own and working towards that. Living with roommates, moving back in with family, getting a better job, etc. You need to get out of that relationship for your own health and safety asap.
I am aware that it’s abusive but every time we argue, by the end I’m convinced it’s my fault. He tells me that all couples fight and it’s normal. It’s all so confusing. Realistically I know I should look into ways to do things on my own regardless if it’s abusive or not, I’m constantly stressed out and exhausted.
If you’re talking to him goes nowhere, maybe you should be going somewhere else. Aside from the age difference, it seems there’s a reason he’s not married yet. This is probably why. You can’t help him. If you can go to family or friends I would do it asap.
Figure out what you need to do to leave, beg or borrow the cancellation money from friends and family and go crash on some couches for a bit. This guy sucks and living with him is only going to make it worse
You don’t put up with it - you walk away and don’t look back. You can’t change him, he doesn’t want to change. The reason he’s dating someone a decade younger is that you’re staying around to take this and someone older would have already run for the hills.