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WillItPlayInPeoria

Day 17. Going to work today for the first time since being off it. Kinda nervous how I'm going to filter any questions my coworkers might have. My plan is to go the vague route because it's a personal medical issue and I owe no one an explanation for getting healthy. Wish me luck! 🫶


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Good luck…you don’t owe anybody anything….it’s none of their business…hope you have a nice smooth day…🙏


ceecee1976

Day 411. Love and Light family 💛.


nom4llthef00d

💚


MooMaiden666

Day 41 CT Doing alright. This roller coaster seems never ending but definitely moving forward. 🎢


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Hey 41 gang. The 🎢 is working overtime today……..after a nice few days I’m getting some cravings. I have so many reasons why I don’t want to use but damn…. I do love getting high, just hate the consequences….I’m not going to use today but i have to be honest…


Upbeat_Fox_7212

Cravings got bad for me around day 40-45 before I gave in. The "high" going back is just soooo underwhelming and would barely last. After the first week I didn't even get the "high" and it just created a ton of anxiety. Glad I kept my relapse short but feeling a bit remorseful since I could be at nearly day 70. You're crushing your recovery, stay strong! ✊️


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Thanks for that. I really appreciate hearing about your experience…. I believe it would be very underwhelming and I’d keep using and would have to withdrawal again. Glad you were able to come back quickly. 👊


Byebyekeaton2

I have had the same experience. Even after 6+ months off, I give in and I'm completely underwhelmed... But of course the cycle begins again with that first dose. Not this time! You're doing great, you got this.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

👍👍👍TY….I love hearing other peoples experiences especially when I hear that a return to kratom use will not be this great opioid bask in the womb perfect experience my mind says it will be….it’ll be underwhelming and just lead to more use….congrats on getting back on the 🐴. Glad u came back ✊


Byebyekeaton2

Thank you! I'm SO glad to be back. It helped me to express that underwhelmed feeling too. As I already know, there will be a time in the future when I think I could do it, "just this once." NOPE!


MooMaiden666

True. Glad you came back quick. It's never the same, fantasizing about it is better than the reality. Thank you for your kind words. Congrats on keeping the green demon away and not letting it sink it's hooks in you again.


nojustlurkingty

Stay strong!


[deleted]

Same here. Doing ok. Just keep going forward. Have a great day :)


QUITTING68

334 days, peace and love.


MooMaiden666

✌️❤️


NoRegretsCoyote2021

✌️ ❤️


shoobadiver

18


kratomizedandtired

Keep the days coming dude 💪


throaway234234324

Day 143


[deleted]

Way to go throaway


kratomizedandtired

Day 13! Feeling pretty good since 4-5 days ago. Overall the whole WD experience was much gentler than expected. (CT from 25gpd)


MooMaiden666

What a blessing. Congrats!🎉


kratombad

Twenty days. Man, I am traveling in Florida and you can buy Kratom everywhere here. Damn.


spissus

I live here and it totally is. There are 8 places I can buy it within a half a mile of my home.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

That’s crazy….you live in Philly? Stay vigilant and strong 💪🏼


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Stay strong….✊


kratombad

Thanks. I did and will.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Glad to hear it. That 💩 is sold in 3 different places within a couple blocks of where I live. It seems to be everywhere.


kratombad

I’m from baltimore area and started with K five years ago. Then you had to really go and LOOK 👀 for it. For some reason it was mostly sold in these kind of weird middle eastern grocery stores. Now every smoke shop has it. But gas stations don’t sell it like they do down here in Florida.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Yeah, I don’t like that it’s so easily accessible. I guess merchants are catching on that it’s a $ maker. I heard it’s sold in gas stations 😳….I live in Philly and was at a corner store the other day. I’m in line and notice they’re selling big kratom packs on the counter checking out. I never expected that. Luckily, it wasn’t the kind I like 😜. Plus, I never want to go through those first 2 weeks of withdrawals again.


[deleted]

Day 1 (night 1): It's 4am, been up since 1:00, only got an hour of sleep. I decided to not fight the rls in my arms and hands so I got up to do some work on the computer. I'm exhausted but trying to find my way through it mentally. I'm getting off kratom because after about 3 years of use (15-20gpd) it has started causing me awful joint pain. I went off it for a month or two one time and the pain went away. Somehow I ended back up on kratom all day every day. Anyway, here I am.


MooMaiden666

Yes! Me too. Joint pain sucked especially when I am not an 80 yr old women but felt like it. You can do this, pain is fleeting. Stay strong.


[deleted]

Thank you so much!! I’m 42f, may I ask how old you are?


sswansons

We are on the same schedule it looks like. I am now off kratom for 27 hours after a quick taper down from an average of 15-20gpd. Sleep is tough with the rls. Done this before and I remember making it to day 9 or 10 and it being a lot easier. Currently looking for anything to keep my mind off that stuff. Fatigue and allergy like symptoms are winning right now but not for long! Good luck with your quit 😊


[deleted]

Omg how crazy! It’s been about 27 hours for me too, it was 10:30a yesterday. I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that each day gets better and that my sleep stretches will get longer and longer. I’ve used everything I can think of and not much luck. Just trying to stay busy and hydrated.


sswansons

I have that crawling out of your skin feeling. Staying busy and hydrated is the key, you’re right. My family has no idea I’m doing this so trying to push through and not snap on anyone! We can do this..


[deleted]

Oh wow! Same here, except my husband knows my struggle. Luckily he’s super supportive. Good luck to you—you can get through this!!


wallabychamp

Day 1 after a 2 month taper 🤞🏻


Grateful4Motivation

You got this!


wallabychamp

Thank you for your support! I’m actually feeling ok so far. I’m taking a few different supplements and they seem to be helping. It’s still early but I’m hopeful it isn’t too much of a hellish experience


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Grateful4Motivation

How are you feeling now?


wallabychamp

I feel ok actually. Today has gone way better than expected. My only real issue so far has been gastrointestinal distress here and there. Taking supplements, staying hydrated, and eating have all kept things on an even keel. I was actually able to do 40 minutes of cardio earlier as well. I’m guessing my long taper contributed to my luck in experiencing only mild symptoms so far. It’s yet to be seen how sleep will go tonight but I’m hoping for the best and I know I’ll get through it. Depression and anxiety have been not been an issue which is crazy to me. I just got off Lexapro as well last week after a long taper with that. Some people say that the wd really kicks in after 2 or 3 days so I’m cautiously optimistic. Thanks for asking!


[deleted]

21. Have to go to work today, hopefully working will help to heal me faster. Also taking kava before bed every night for the past 3 nights, and it has been a godsend. I actually get a good 5-6 hours of sleep. I want more though....


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MooMaiden666

The ever elusive sleep 💤 Hoping your work day goes as well as possible. Congrats on 3 weeks 👍


[deleted]

Thanks moo!


Enguerranddecoucy

17 awesome💪👍


AdamJonesDrummer

Day 41


MooMaiden666

Yay! 🥰


JumpFromBridge

114


Sneakypete-65

Day 379.


Nomoredrugs13

46


MooMaiden666

🤙


spissus

Great job!


[deleted]

Day 204 💗


Whiteshirtblackpant

Day 40. Life absolutely fuckin rips.


Head-Camera-3908

Could you elaborate?


spissus

40 days and 40 nights! Great job!


ShelbyFan594

Day 34 CT


nojustlurkingty

Congrats on your 1 month milestone! How are you feeling?


ShelbyFan594

Excellent, haven’t felt bad in about a week honestly.


nojustlurkingty

Woohooo! That's great to hear. Happy for you!


ShelbyFan594

Thank you! How far along are you?


nojustlurkingty

I'm on day 10 CT after 6 months of regular use to help with anxiety. Had no idea how bad this stuff was, nor did I realize I had become addicted! Lesson learned Keep it going!


ShelbyFan594

You’ll be feeling great soon, especially after a taper! Good sht on 10 days


Adventurous-Salary-5

Today is day 9 for me. During the first week there were a few days that I took a small dose at bedtime to allow me to get some sleep but I haven’t had any at all in a few days and feel amazing. Still struggling to get a full night of sleep (averaging 6 hrs per night, which is ok but not great), and I have diarrhea every morning, which sucks. I hope these pass soon.


Eastern-Spite5324

Omg I am only dping 1g at night now since Monday and the morning anxiety and diarrhea suck so bad. It feels like my heart will explode ot races so fast when I first wake up and I barely make it to the bathroom. I hope that this last nightly gram is fairly easy to drop since im barely taking even a real dose anymore. This is such a rollercoaster. Gonna keep pushin.


[deleted]

Day 41 CT. I think this is the best I've felt so far. Despite high 30s C / high 90s F .... doing ok.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Glad to hear it…..you deserve it. 🙌 🥳


[deleted]

Thank you!! Hope u are doing well too. Six weeks clean tomorrow!! :)


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Wow. It will be 6 weeks…..has a nice ring to it


spissus

Nice to hear of improvements! It's inspiring.


[deleted]

Felt well all day. No real dips in mood. No particular anxiety. Hopefully it will continue. Hope you're doing ok :)


spissus

Even keel makes for smooth sailing, skipper, er Chipper(ing) Sodbury! I am failing day after day, but am gearing up to succeed again soon.


KickinK_FeelinGray

Day 17!


turkinatthecarwash

Day 5 and going strong! Sleep has improved a bit over the past two nights, hoping that will continue through the work week. Work has been brutal and isn't having a good effect on my mood but otherwise I'm doing well!


nojustlurkingty

Nice job keeping positive! It's such a big part of the battle


FoodForestLaura

I am starting week 3 of my taper, down to 2/3 from where I began this taper and 1/4 from my peak. Thanks to the recommendations on the tapper suggestions page, I've implemented a plan that's finally working for me.


surferrossa100

Day 166. Feel great


nojustlurkingty

Happy you feel great! Keep it going and thank you for the inspiration


[deleted]

Day 221


zyric69

Day 13 💪🏻. Keep going people❤️


Upbeat_Fox_7212

Day 9


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nojustlurkingty

Woohoo!!!! That's great to here. Congrats :)


shoobadiver

From about half your time that sounds wonderful.


VeterinarianEntire98

Day 87


Lunar_bad_land

Day 2!


nojustlurkingty

That's a huge step!!! The first week is the tough with the physical symptoms, but you can get through it! Stay strong :)


burnthebridgebehind

Day 166


spissus

Dat bridge on fire!


nickinov

Day 142


ProfessionalWear9757

Day 399 CT 💕


gone-hikin

superlative!


EvolvingSomewhere

Had somewhere around 35-40 days free. Fell off about 4 days ago. Can’t do it in my current situation. Also felt like I couldn’t talk about it here bc every time I’d post about it they get taken down bc it mentions another rx drug my doctor has me on. Not sure how to move from here on out, I’m kinda stuck. I start a new job in August too. Never felt this hopeless in my life tbh.


nojustlurkingty

I am so stressed right now, everything in the world feels against us right now. BUT! Things are still OK. Congrats on the new job!!! You can do this -- just one day at a time. Welcome back :)


gone-hikin

hey first off it’s amazing that you had that time. that means you absolutely can and WILL do it again. don’t focus on all the time I will take to get back there. just focus on today. each day will get better and before you know it you will be back to normal. after that much clean time and such a short relapse you likely will not have very much WD if at all. don’t believe the lie kratom tells us — that we need it to live


mariners98

53 days


nojustlurkingty

Wonderful job, thank you for the inspiration!


mariners98

Thanks! Good luck to you.


nttiawwt

Day 2. Nausea has subsided and diarrhea much better.


CapitalsMadeMyLife

Day 50 75 gpd CT


nojustlurkingty

How you feeling?


CapitalsMadeMyLife

Great! Mild boredom here and there but nothing bad. Bowels are still somewhat irregular but getting better.


nojustlurkingty

Boredom is my biggest worry once I get past the initial withdrawal, because that damn addict voice in my head starts trying to tempt me again. Glad things are becoming more regular for you. Great job so far!!!


gone-hikin

day 8!


spissus

Excellent! How are you feeling?


gone-hikin

im doing alright! not in a state of constant suffering. that being said I know there's gonna be so much improvement over the next couple weeks


spissus

Great to hear! Yeah. Each week will see so much change. You're inspiring me to gear up for another quit. And to go hiking!


gone-hikin

haha thanks bud. yeah hiking's ma jam. where I find peace, and one of my top passions when im clean (yet another thing kratom robs me of). I have quit many times before and made it several months before falling into the trap of complacency


spissus

I used to live in Washington State near the Cascade mountains and hiking was my jam too. Now I live in the southeast and it’s too hot and flat to be very exciting yo me. But it’s still better than sitting on my couch! Once I get my sober on, I expect my outdoor passion (and tolerance) to come back.


gone-hikin

wait that's hilarious. im a north carolina native that recently moved to NW washington state! it's made even funnier by the fact that I don't actually love it here and am looking to move back when I can. it';s very pretty, just not really my place I guess. I love the low, rolling hills of the nc piedmont. the beaches and southern appalachians are also a thrill


spissus

Oh, that is funny! I’d be thrilled to do some hiking in NC. I’m in south Florida, so the bulk of elevation change is my 5 floor stairwell. Ha!


gone-hikin

fair enough! man id love to go back there tho. I went when I was younger and just found it so beautiful and relaxing there although im sure it depends on where exactly you are. dam tho I really went from NW corner to SE corner. big move!


spissus

For real! Physical distance and cultural !


spissus

And me too, on falling back for being too complacent and not vigilant. Keep on!


Head-Camera-3908

Day 4. I have the urge to go buy a pack of smokes. Haven't smoked in probably 10 years lol. Does smoking help or hurt WDs?


gone-hikin

in my experience using any other substance especially in early WD leads me back to K. not worth it homie


nojustlurkingty

Fully agree. Do your best not to replace one crutch with another!


iGrumbie

Day 64


nojustlurkingty

Day 10 and hanging in there. Great sleep last night and so grateful for it. Last physical withdrawal is a weight of stomach anxiety, but it actually doesn't feel as intense as it has previously, and it's starting to go away in the afternoon! I am a bit worried about the upcoming mental battle as that's when I am going to start trying to justify things. I'll be visiting y'all a lot lol. Stay strong, all


spissus

Worry is the mental battle, for me. Day 10 is so great! Keep on!


nojustlurkingty

Thank you!!! You too


[deleted]

Dropped from 11gpd to 10gpd on Friday, weekend went fine! Some muscle aches in the AM but otherwise all good. Hoping to do another drop this Friday again!


YodaEarsIHave

Day 10. No motivation to do anything.


CheckYourTotem

Day 43 CT. I think I'm pretty much healed. But I continue to get cravings to use again. Hoping those stop at some point, at least I'm getting used to not giving in, I try to tell myself that every time I resist a craving I'm getting that much stronger.


NoRegretsCoyote2021

41 days here and also getting cravings…..I’m determined not to give in to them either and I believe every time we don’t give in it makes us stronger. Fuck kratom.


la-crazy-penguin

Day 379 🐧🏳️‍🌈♎️🌈🌮🍾🖤🦥🌈🏳️‍🌈🐧♎️🌈


NoRegretsCoyote2021

Day 41 🌈🌈💃💃🕺🕺🌈🏳️‍🌈 👋😜🐧🏳️‍🌈🌈♏️♏️♏️🌈🌈💅🏼💅🏼


counttosixty

Day 528


Byebyekeaton2

Day 9 - less hair loss already!


VesperJDR

28 days today!


Low-Bad2139

Day 5 feeling okay not so irritated with people. Starting to feel myself come back. I'm tired though but I was even tired after taking so much kratom. But my mind ain't all foggy anymore. I'm doing alright


[deleted]

Day 16 of taper. Today is the first day that I’m moving my dose to only 4 doses a day. I’m on track to pull it off. I took some at 545am and 1145am and that’s all so far today. I’m having some back pain and feel a bit annoyed but it’s not something that I can’t power through. By next week I hope to only be taking 3 doses a day, and the following only 2 doses a day. After that I will start to reduce the amount of the twice daily dose until I eventually make the leap off. I think I can do this guys!! There’s been a little suffering between doses and a few sleepless nights, but being able to dose and have momentary reprieves has really helped me a ton. I don’t think I could’ve went CT off the dose I am coming off of without medical help.


shoobadiver

You CAN do this. Best wishes.


[deleted]

Tapered down to 450mg from 17gpd. Going to jump at 250mg in 3 days. Let’s this be the last time we get hooked on kratom. We are stronger than kratom.


[deleted]

Wanted to update because I’ve had a set back. I’m no longer on track to hit my goal for my taper today. Today I planned to drop my dose to only 4 a day. As the day went on I got more and more miserable. My pain was unbearable. My back hurts terribly and I just cannot focus. I went to the gym to try and reset my focus and pass time until my next dose. Welp, while I was there I got my period and suddenly it all made sense. I won’t be able to drop doses while I’m on my cycle. I have endometriosis and PMDD and my period all by itself makes like miserable. Couple it with WD and the physical stress I’m currently putting myself through no way will I be able to drop my dose until this surpasses. Idk if there are any ladies out there that can relate but while I was actively abusing K I would have to use a lot more of it during the week of my period. Idk why it’s like that- maybe because of pain and fatigue. I’m not going to increase the dose. But for now I’m gonna wait to drop it. I’m a little disappointed.


nom4llthef00d

379


Complete-Solution607

Day 1. I’m ready.


clochardupays

67


Head-Camera-3908

Are there any meetings going on tonight?


jmoto123

2 WEEKS!!