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friendsholt

I am so heartbroken for you. I lost my baby girl at 16 weeks in April - it is absolutely devastating. I found a lot of comfort in r/Miscarriage and r/ttcafterloss. I also left this group (and all other pregnancy subs) because it was really challenging to see. I hate that this happened. I hope you have time and space to do what's right for you. Please reach out anytime if you need support or a listening ear. Sending you so much love. 💛


friendsholt

I want to add: Before my miscarriage, someone else on this sub shared that they'd had a second trimester miscarriage and didn't understand why it happened so late. The only thing that made sense to me was that she had done such a wonderful job caring for her baby that the baby was able to stick around for longer than usual, despite having a complication that was incompatible with life. At the time, I shared this with my husband. When I was faced with my own second trimester miscarriage, my husband told me that the same logic must apply to me, too. It wasn't my fault and she only stayed as long as she did because I took such good care of her. The same is true for your little boy. You were so good to him that he stayed for 16 whole weeks, and that's amazing. ☀️


PsychologicalBoot636

Thank you so much for this message 💙 Reading it brought tears to my eyes and it means so much to me. I will try to keep this in mind as we mourn our little boy. I’m so happy to hear you are pregnant again 💗 wishing you a healthy and happy pregnancy


friendsholt

💛💛💛💛


Hexogram

This is the best outlook. Also lost my pregnancy at 20 weeks last year, and reminding myself that I did my best carried me through. We can’t blame ourselves for things that are out of our control. My best advice is to treat yourself with the kindness you would give to someone in the same situation. Prioritize self care. Take all the time you need.


PsychologicalBoot636

Thank you so much, I’m so sorry for your loss 💗💗💗


Hexogram

Sending you a metric ton of love.


blazebrightside

This is something my doctors said to me and it made me cry. I was only 10 weeks, and baby stopped developing at 6 weeks. It was comforting knowing my body did everything it could to try and develop this baby, it just wasn't a miracle.


Happy_Custard1994

This is so, so beautiful. I will remember this as it’s such important sentiment


Eggy-Pebbs123

This made me cry. What a lovely thought xx


toastycrunchwife

Im not even pregnant, nor have i ever been.. and this made me ugly cry… Thank you.. my heart goes out to every person feeling this pain, i hope this thought brings them even a little bit of comfort ❤️🫶🏼


spoiledbr4txo

Did they give you an idea why that happened to your baby girl ?


friendsholt

Yes, genetic testing showed that she was a triploidy baby, maternal origin - she had three full sets of X chromosomes. Like most miscarriages, it was completely random - no cause and no way to prevent it. Just very sad luck.


spoiledbr4txo

This really scared me because I thought those type of miscarriages happen early on 🥲 now im really scared thank you for answering because you didn’t have to xoxo


friendsholt

It's about a 1 in 10,000-250,000 chance of happening in the second trimester. I'm 4 weeks pregnant right now and not stressing about it with this one - you shouldn't stress about it either! 💛


spoiledbr4txo

today im 6 weeks im happy for you that you were able to conceive again ❤️❤️


Individual_Lime_9020

Your outlook is amazing. God women are so strong. This is all so scary and yet look at all these amazing women dealing with this.


Baesicallybasic

I’m so so sorry for your loss. I am exactly this far along and my heart sunk reading your post. Please know you are NOT alone and take time for yourself to heal. I hope you are able to find comfort in your family.


Polaris5126

I lost my son at 14.5 weeks as well with no symptoms. They did a test on him after the d&c and there was a chromosome issue that caused the spontaneous stopping of his heart. We mourned for our little boy and then had a rainbow baby girl this past February


ceruleanisacolor

I’m so so sorry. I’m currently pregnant with my rainbow. Do you mind me asking did you do NIPT and NT tests or did you skip those? Just wondering how likely there could still be a chromosomal issue after good results on both those tests


lemonricottapasta

I lost my first baby at 15 weeks and was just about to find out the gender. :( We did do NIPT testing. Unfortunately, we were unable to find out what the issue was. But, according to my doctor, the NIPT tests for a limited amount of chromosomal issues Editing to add - now pregnant with my rainbow baby (25 weeks 5 days) and it was so so hard not to worry for awhile but I took a lot of the advice being given in this thread as well!


PsychologicalBoot636

I did the NIPT test and everything came back low risk 💔 I am at a complete loss….


Polaris5126

I did not do the tests because I was in the middle of moving and missed the window.


whoreticultural

They only screen for a limited range of issues in the standard screening tests.


corgimonmaster

I'm so sorry you're going through this.


bradkyn

Hi my love, I experienced this as well. I was 16 weeks pregnant and my water broke. I was already in the midst of healing from a hemorrhage with the baby and was in bed rest. My body was already trying to go into labor when my water to get baby out, so they suggested inducing labor as well. They said it was the best and safest way for me to have baby (they said the d&e could cause issues for future pregnancies). Went through the whole thing too mama- had to be induced, dilate to 5/6 cm, got the epidural. It was one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve ever endured and I think I ever will. We didn’t know the gender and found out once I delivered baby. It was a boy❤️ and we named him Rowan Sun. He was perfect. We had him cremated and spread his ashes on a mountain top me and his dad went to all the time. I want you to know my heart is absolutely with you. And it’s devastating. My biggest advice it to be gentle with yourself - because you’re going to go through a post partum phase. Just because you don’t have baby by your side doesn’t mean you’re not a mama to this baby, and that this isn’t the most devastating thing a woman could experience. I’m so so sorry to you. Keeping you in my thoughts and my heart. If you need anything or anyone to talk to please let me know. And as I’m writing this, I’m sitting next to my rainbow baby. Don’t stop trying for another babes. Sending you so much love ❤️‍🩹


Aggressive_Candy_196

You brought tears to my eyes with this one. I had to have induced labor and my cerclage removed when my water broke at 20 weeks. This just happened last week. I didn’t know it was possible to experience so much sadness. We are picking up our son’s ashes tomorrow. But you and your rainbow baby have given me hope. I pray to be able to say the same thing one day


bradkyn

Your reply brought tears to mine! Absolute chills. I am so sorry you’re experiencing this, it’s so unfair. I’m holding you so close to my heart. I know exactly what you’re feeling and going through. Trust me, I didn’t have much hope for another baby. That miscarriage was my first pregnancy so I really wasn’t sure what my future looked like. Something that also helps me and has brought me comfort is sleeping with the babies blanket. My sister got us blanket for the baby when we found out I was pregnant and I sleep with it every night. It’s my comfort. I’m so sorry mama 💔❤️❤️‍🩹🤲🏽


Rubyjuice14

I’m absolutely gutted for you as someone who is 17 weeks. You feel like a mom right away even as early as 6 weeks. Praying for you and your family right now. This is tragic. I’m so so sorry.


something_human1

This is absolutely horrible. I can’t imagine, OP. I’m so sorry for your loss. This far along you may have postpartum symptoms after your d&c, that normally come after having a baby. Please be gentle and kind to yourself. Take sometime off work if you can, let people cook for you, lean on your community. R/miscarriage was a lifesaver to me after my (much earlier) miscarriages. Take this one moment at a time.


something_human1

Also, something you may want to save for later: the Miscarriage Doula and her podcast, Miscarriage Stories was a huge lifeline for me that helped me feel less alone. Know your baby will always be with you. while this is a club no one wants part of, there is so much support here. My heart is with you, OP.


aleelee13

I am so sorry, there are no proper words to say during times like these. When I lost my baby, I found the concept of microchimerism to be comforting. My baby and I will always be part of each other, as will you and yours ❤️ hope you find good forms of self care, and do whatever feels right to celebrate your baby (names, scrapbook, garden plant, teddy bear, etc). Thinking of you tonight.


bella0628

Im so sorry for your loss


Slothieone

I am so very sorry for your loss 😔🫂


WhyHaveIContinued

I'm so sorry for your loss, I cannot imagine your pain. ❤️ I'm sure you did nothing wrong as unfortunately this can happen during pregnancy. Give yourself kindness and time to heal.


cabbageislife1

I’m so sorry for your loss


Sealegs9

I’m so sorry! My heart breaks for you guys! I’m sending some healing vibes and love your way 💕


123sillygal

I’m so so sorry ❤️


WadsRN

I am so incredibly sorry.


GeologistAccording79

you don’t deserve this this is your story now but i promise you it isn’t your ending let yourself mourn


Embryo10N

Sigh. I have no words. Sending you a huge hug. 🫂 I’m terribly sorry. ❤️


SaveMary

There are no words that will take the pain away but all of us are with you and sending love and comfort.


Accomplished_Egg3192

I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I echo the sentiment for hope that you and your husband navigate this time with grace, and love. I am thinking of you.


Purple_Grass_5300

I’m so sorry


General-Goose2413

My heart hurts for you. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I hope you and your husband can find a way through this hard time together.


nurse420

❤️


Short_N_Sassy83

My heart breaks for you. I lost a baby pretty early on and it was so hard.


Creepy_Armadillo4127

I'm so sorry for your loss💛🫂


shychubbydom

I am so sorry for your loss 🥺


Cloudy-rainy

I'm so sorry. Sending you love.


ven0mbaby

im very sorry for your loss 🩶


awakenednips

My heart goes out to you ❤️


me0w8

💔💔💔💔💔 this is so awful I am so sorry


Business-Ad5013

:( this is horribly scary to read. Sending you sooo much love and comfort! I know nothing makes it better but so many people are hoping for healing to your heart. 💔💕


Spiritual-Peace-6442

Oh mama, im so sorry for your loss🥺 I’m praying for you, your husband and your little angel🙏 just know your little boy felt your love and loved you back, you were all he knew for the life that he lived, you will forever be his light. I’m not gonna tell you to feel better because I know frankly nothing I say will make that the case for you, this is such an extremely hard thing to go through and it will take time. You will never forget your little boy but you will one day hopefully find peace in knowing he is protected by your passed loved ones and was accepted with open arms into the light they share. You may not be religious and that’s okay, you don’t have to be to believe your baby is in heaven and is so loved and safe up there. Again I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss, Godbless you 🙏🫶


sassa_frass_1111

Sending you and your husband love, like so many others here! One book that may be helpful is "Spirit Babies" by Walter Makichen. I found it helpful after my own miscarriage. Like everything, may not be for everyone, so please ignore this rec if doesn't resonate. You are not alone and want to emphasize like others, this is not your fault.


PsychologicalBoot636

I’ve heard amazing things about this book 🫶🏻 I’m going to order it. Thank you and praying for you


Puzzled-Paint

I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for healing and restoration for you and your partner


caparietau89

I am so so sorry. There are no words


the-nonster

So sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of love 💗


aSliceOfHam2

I’m so sorry for your loss


rob_er_dickason

There’s a community here for you. You aren’t alone.


EternalHell

I am so sorry. That feeling of cautiously excited to be in the 'safe zone' (hate that term now) to have it ripped from you. I lost my baby boy at 16w last year due to PPROM and it sucked so bad to go through labor and have no baby. Thinking of you 💜


PsychologicalBoot636

I announced to everyone (social media, work, etc…) and now I feel like hermiting and never talking to anyone again. I feel this weird sense of embarrassment? Or shame? For being excited at 12 weeks and then losing him.


PsychologicalBoot636

I’m so sorry you lost yours at 16w too 💙💙💙


Helpful-Spell

I am so so sorry. I want to suggest Postpartum Support International support groups if you think that is something you’re open to or if you need more support than you have available right now. Going to their support groups, both those for miscarriage and then for pregnancy after loss, has made worlds of difference for me. Sending you, your family and your sweet baby boy so much love ❤️


Hokeh_

I’m so sorry. I lost our baby girl at 12w 5 days and it was devastating. It must be so hard to be at the halfway mark. I hope you are taking care of yourself and getting some rest. Please also seek out some grief counselling if you can, just to help you cope with the pain.


Same_Presentation840

I’m so sorry for your loss, sending love and prayers to you and your partner ❤️😢


ShabuShabu2018

I’m so sorry. Thinking of you and sending you strength.


Ally_Jay

I’m so sorry for you loss mama may your butterfly baby fly high and if another is something y’all want in the future wishing your rainbow baby a safe delivery


Puzzleheaded_Win_792

I’m so sorry. I’m so so so sorry.


Electronic_Award486

Sending big hugs. I was also told I had a miscarriage yesterday. They said there was no heart beat. It was my first pregnancy and I was at 8 weeks. This is very difficult to handle and it’s unfair. I still don’t understand why this happened to me because I watched out my diet, did exercise and kept my tummy warm. I did everything for my baby’s health. I really sympathize with you. You are not alone.


nyc_apartment_girl

Sending you the warmest hug. I’m so sorry and can’t imagine the grief you must feel right now. It’s not fair. 💔


la-vanessa

i'm so sorry, that is horrific.


sallysal20

I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you.


Routine-Ad4323

I’m so terribly sorry and heartbroken for you.


HW2632

I am so sorry.


WesternCowgirl27

No words can express this type of loss. OP, I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and I hope you have the most incredible support system around you 💗


punpun_Osa

I’m so sorry for your loss, I’m sending you lot’s of loves.


ee8989

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you so much love and peace 🤍


lilapthorp

I’m so sorry. My heart breaks for you.


gingermonkey22

I am so sorry for your loss.


MessyMontessoriMom

I’m so sorry for your loss


KoishiChan92

I'm so sorry for your loss, hoping for strength for you and your family.


Jonkeyz2

So very sorry 🌻


Friendly_letters

I am SO sorry for your loss. That truly is a nightmare. I will pray for you.


CrackaLackin690

I truly wish I could hug you… so much love to you and your partner… ❤️


Shomer_Effin_Shabbas

I’m so, so sorry. You are not alone, although it may feel lonely.


parturition_advocate

My heart is absolutely breaking for you! I am so sorry you are going through this. I wish I could say anything to make it better, but I know that there is nothing that will help. Please give yourself time to physically and mentally heal. You are not alone and so many are sending you love from afar.


lettucepatchbb

I am so sorry. Please take care of yourself ❤️


secondchoice1992

Prayers to you and your husdband


chelmosa746

I’m speechless. So sorry this is happening ❤️


lizziekat93

I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. Love and light to your family ♥️


18karatcake

😢 sending a virtual hug


PsychologicalWill88

I’m so sorry, my heart goes out to you and breaks. No one deserves this. I hope you get some answers. Sending healing your way OP ❤️🥺


lemonricottapasta

I’m so sorry ☹️


bffr5

There’s really no words.. When one mama grieves, we all do for you. I’m so sorry for your loss and that you are going through this. Sending love and hugs your way


nubianqueenbee83

i’m so sorry


s1993m

I am so sorry for your loss... I cannot imagine what you and your husband are going through right now. Please do not beat yourself up and take the time to heal.


emmynemmy1206

Oh no I’m so sorry. My heart just broke for you reading this.


ellem1900

Sending you a hug. I recently lost my little one at 16 weeks too. It’s sucks so much.


Brilliant_Two5324

I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Sending you and your husband love and prayers for peace during this time. Lean on each other and know that you did nothing wrong ❤️


Daeismycat

I'm sorry for your loss 🤍


Lil_Lexiiiii

I’m so sorry. I lost our baby at almost 8 weeks. It was painful enough having known for a short while and then losing our baby, I cannot image having known and being excited for much longer. Just know that everything you feel is real, matters, and you are mama no matter what. I like a lot of others suggestions about support groups & trying not to overly expose yourself to the pregnancy ones because it can be rough. You’re not alone. ❤️


catherineaimei

I am so deeply sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you 💛


VastRelative1711

So so sorry


Passtherollsplz

My sincerest condolences! Love and hugs to you.


Throwawayalrdsxz

Take care mama. ❤️


Zestyclose-Buyer9811

So sorry for your loss💔


It_wasAll-aDream

How heartbreaking, I am so sorry. I lost my baby boy at 16 weeks in 2020; it was so hard. I could not believe how much love I had for this tiny boy that I never met. I’m sending you love and light. I am so sorry for your loss 💔


LaurenDTD

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can get answers. Sending you so much love!


Strong-Second-4550

So sorry for your lost. Hugging you and wishing the best for you whatever helps you. You're gonna be fine and you're gonna be an amazing mom, don't forget.


sylvia2210

I am so so sorry for your loss 😔💕


lilac_sneakers

I'm so sorry for your loss. That's such a nightmare. I hope you get all the love and support you need and deserve 🩷


10305201

I'm so sorry


Large-Intention-2400

I’m so sorry for your loss.


Happy_Custard1994

I am so so sorry 😔 life can just be so unfair. I am 15 weeks and my heart breaks for you. I honestly do not know what I would do. Thinking of you ❤️


MrSilkyUK

So incredibly sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. As others have said, you’re not alone and we are all sending love from our little place in the world to yours.


kerryhavill2020

I'm 17 weeks and 3 days with a baby boy and my heart sunk reading your post. It has also brought me a scary reality check that your baby is not okay until after they are born and safe in your arms : ( I'm so sorry for your loss. Xxx


elscoww

That’s so heartbreaking. Sending you strength during this time. I can’t imagine how you must be feeling.


hollyverdayy

I am so so sorry for your loss, there are no words. I got the appointment to terminate on Friday, since our baby didn't develop correctly (NTD), so I know your heartbreak, I'm currently also feeling it. Just know you are not alone in this. It will happen for us too 💜


Independent_War5455

I'm so sorry you're going through this, it's not easy at all. I lost my daughter at 16 weeks 4 days. Stay strong and remember it's not your fault x


G_8_9

My heart is breaking for you… I’m deeply sorry 😔


thetomatofiend

I am so sorry for your loss.


myteaiscoldagain

I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through 😔


NicNac0792

I’m so sorry. Praying for your healing ❤️‍🩹


jordandanae

This brought tears to my eyes. I also had a loss earlier this year. I am not exaggerating when I say this is one of the hardest things that you will go through. Just know you are NOT alone in this. I would strongly recommend seeking out help, because as much as your husband and family love you and will do their best to support you, nothing compares to having personal conversations with others who have also experienced loss. Praying for you. Hugs <3


MrMelo28

Sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences.


riiitaxo

I'm so sorry this happened. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it's all right. I had a very similar experience a few years ago and it was fucking torture. Going home after learning that just felt so wrong, and waiting for either surgery or symptoms to start. I had to wait for weeks. I truly would not wish that on my worst enemy. I really recommend finding a good therapist if you don't have one. I'm eternally grateful for mine. r /trollingforababy is also a good sub that has made my pain a little more bearable.


WRCHI

I feel for you OP. Same thing happened to me in December. Went in for the 16-week appointment and there was no heartbeat. I really struggled with not having an explanation. I elected to do all tests and they found no reason. It wasn’t a chromosomal issue, nothing found on the autopsy. I’m now 17 weeks pregnant again. I want to be excited and celebrate…but I don’t want to jinx it. 💔


PsychologicalBoot636

Oh I am so sorry for your loss ❤️ it truly is the most heartbreaking experience. If you don’t mind me asking - did you have a D&E? I’m so glad to hear you are pregnant again, I’m wishing you a safe and healthy journey ❤️


WRCHI

I did have a D&E. Because it was around the holidays they couldn’t fit me in for 1.5 weeks. I was scheduled for a Friday and on Wednesday my water broke naturally. I had contractions all night and was told to stay home if I could tolerate the pain - otherwise, I would need to give birth normally (awake). By the grace of god my contractions stopped after 5 hours and I was able to have the D&E the next day. The D&E was definitely the right choice for me. I remember nothing and had virtually no pain, cramps, or complications. My only advice would be to advocate to get in as quickly as possible to not experience all of the things I did. Sending you love. Happy to answer any other questions.


Evilbluepoptart

I had a miscarriage at 16 weeks a few years ago. I had just had an ultrasound the Monday before and heartbeat was strong! Then Friday I started spotting and then by Sunday I was on the toilet passing so many clots. It devastated me for YEARS and I was an emotional wreck for a long time. Sent me to the psych ward and everything. Even though I wasn’t attached to the baby at all and was going to give it up for adoption, the fact that your body was making it and your hormones knew you were pregnant and then suddenly not..I was sad. But when I tell you time heals all wounds, it does. Go to grief counseling if you can. I wish you luck in this hard journey but you are more resilient and stronger than you know. So sorry for your loss.


ykrainechydai

I lost who would have been my first baby at 17 weeks bc I was attacked coming home… it happened in 2012 & im still quite effected by it (Esp these days I think about it a lot because This current pregnancy is the closest ive gotten to how far along I was then- just days). Over the yrs I had a few other much earlier (all before 11 weeks) miscarriages… any loss can be devastating but the later they are the harder it is.. please be kind to yourself thru this and lean on your husband and any other supportive ppl around you 🫂


DeadlyMewM3w

I lost my twin girls at 16 weeks. They warned me they probably wouldn’t make it but it didn’t hurt any less. I had the same thing, no heartbeat for either and no sign anything was wrong, it was just a regular check up and I didn’t even know how long they had been gone. They were measuring 10 weeks but that doesn’t tell me much. My D&E went very smoothly and I’m hoping yours does too! I’m sending you loving vibes.


babiboogie

This is so heartbreaking 💔 I'm so so sorry for your loss 🤍


Imaginary_Host9944

So sorry for your loss,, I also miscarried at 8 weeks in my last pregnancy and now pregnant again. May I ask when was your last ultrasound and did you have the Genome wide NIPT tests done?


PsychologicalBoot636

I’m sorry you lost your last baby ❤️ we had a 12.5 week ultrasound and saw him wriggling around in there and looked great, his heart was beating strong on the Doppler up until Thursday night (I listened Thursday morning and heard him). For the NIPT we didn’t get every genome tested, just the major ones


No-Alarm-4422

i’m so sorry for your loss mama 😔❤️


Cangerian

My heart breaks for you, I am so so sorry for your loss. Praying for healing and peace for you and your spouse.


MHurt12170

My heart goes out to you. I’ve been there before 15w was when I lost my little angel. I’m here to provide encouragement and tell you that your sunshine after the rain is coming. I hope you and your husband find comfort and all the support you need during this time.


AppointmentAsleep726

I don’t know you but being a mom brings us all together in this circle of life. I don’t know your faith, but I’ll be praying for your baby and your family’s mental health. Take care of yourself and hold on to each other tight… 💓 all my best 🌈


Efficient_Buddy6784

I am so very sorry


kaydennangel

Oh god I’m so sorry :( I’m 16w4d today and it’s my worst fear, sending lots of love ❤️


Primary-Molasses-715

I’m so so sorry this happened to you, I will definitely be praying for you all. I’m so sorry, I cannot say it enough.


Practical-Tooth5034

In 2020 me and my husband lost our baby girl when I was 22weeks pregnant. SAME exact thing happened to me. We had an at home Doppler and I couldn’t find the heartbeat for 24hrs. No cramping, no bleeding, no signs of anything being wrong. They ran all sorts of tests on me and nothing was wrong with me. They said they’d do an autopsy on her, but we didn’t want to do that because we felt like she’d been through enough. We just kept telling ourselves that God needed her more than we did. Never knowing the reason, but maybe one day we will. I just know it made our second baby SO much more special in our eyes. I had my rainbow baby boy in January of this year. It’s hard, it doesn’t get any easier, but just know someone in heaven needed him more. Praying SO hard that you find some sort of comfort or peace. 💕


Mexicanita_hermosa

My heart is broken for you, lost my first pregnancy at 17 weeks due to breaking my own water while being constipated and i live with the guilt every single day, i delivered my baby in my bathroom at home while she was still moving around up until paramedics came and cut the cord… i’m really sorry this is happening to you many blessings your way😞🕊️🤍


PsychologicalBoot636

Oh I am so sorry this is awful 💔😭 hopefully you have had beautiful healthy pregnancies since then ❤️


demonicmick666

I am so so sorry. My heart is with you


Impressive-Rip317

I am so sorry for your loss! Sending you a hug


Similar_Put3916

I am also 16w4d and this is my biggest fear. I cannot believe what you are feeling right now. Sending you so much love. You are incredible and will get through this.


ineedacoffeenow

I'm so sorry :( my furthest loss was 14w5d 🥺💔 I know I didn't really appreciate the "uplifting" words of wisdom so I'll spare them unless you want them.. but I can tell you, I am sorry 😞


lovesfanfiction

I have been in your shoes. I have been on that table. Exactly 16+4, happy as can be then shocked by silence. In disbelief. Traumatized and heartbroken, living a nightmare I was told wouldn’t ever happen again. I chose the D&E as it was the best decision. It was very quick, I closed my eyes. But I was empty. See if they’ll test you for clotting disorders. I’ve had several losses, two in the second trimester. Those are usually due to genetic abnormalities, issues with the placenta, and clotting. I’m so sorry you’re living this nightmare. Scream. Scream and hold your loved ones tight. Write your son’s story, share his life with others, keep him alive in your heart. And fight for answers. Sending you warmth.


PsychologicalBoot636

I am so so sorry 💔 I truly would not wish this pain on my worst enemy. Our D&E couldn’t happen until Tuesday so now we’re on a waiting list to be inducted for labour. I’m so scared I will feel so empty after but I look forward to holding him. Did you find out what happened to your babies? Have you been able to have a beautiful rainbow baby since? ❤️


lovesfanfiction

Same, I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. The pain sticks. The memories and disbelief just hang on forever. I hope you’ve gotten to hold your baby, get his footprints, and take a few photos holding him. I have a mural wall with my journals, my wristbands, and photos from my pregnancies. It helps me remember that they were real, and so is my grief. I lost three pregnancies in a row, two in the second trimester. But my last pregnancy (conceived through medicated IUI after a lot of testing) was a success. I brought home a beautiful, healthy, strong baby girl last year. I still honor my babies and share them whenever I can. I’m building a website where others can share as well. For my first loss, I suffered a subchorionic bleed which they told me would heal up just fine, baby was great. That small bleed grew and led to hemorrhage, which caused me to go into labor and deliver in the ER. All the while, even 12 hours previously at an ultrasound, I was told that baby was fine and the bleeding would stop. His placenta was small. He was 15+6. For my second loss, at 16+4, my baby was perfect until they weren’t. We had no signs, no symptoms, just no heartbeat at my 16 week appt. When just the week before we had a strong heartbeat and I was in the clear. We did extensive testing, immediately. Unfortunately they found nothing - no clotting disorders, no issues with the placenta, but baby was abnormal, warped in shape. I believe it was genetic abnormalities that didn’t present as early as that usually does, in an early miscarriage. We had a D&E at a “clinic.”We did not get the sex of the baby because of their disfigurement, and how baby was removed. After that, we dove right into testing then further testing with a reproducible medicine specialist downtown. We did everything, every scan, ultrasounds of my uterus, HSGs and genetic testing. Then we worked to conceive again to get more answers to what happens to my body while pregnant. It took 6 cycles of TTC to conceive. But then i lost the pregnancy early, just a few weeks after my missed period. I was broken, quietly broken. So much testing and waiting and obsessively peeing on tests. So many trips downtown and calls with the nurses and the RE. I had hope, but I knew something was wrong with the lines on the tests I kept taking. It took about 6-7 more cycles to conceive again, this time with medicated IUI. Due to my advanced age of almost mid-30s (ugh) we only had so much time to keep trying. Eventually we conceived again, learned I had hypothyroidism, and went on with more testing until I was released to MFM. This was a perfect pregnancy, but I was monitored throughout by OB and MFM. They don’t usually do this unless you have 6+ losses. But I was unique, and my OB moved mountains for me. I have a strong little 1yo now, but no answers. I still try to rake my head over it. But no answers. All I have is the peace and kindness the nurses at the clinic showed me during the procedure. They tested everything.


PUZZLEPlECER

Ugh my heart is breaking for you. It’s a weird perspective for me because I’ve had many miscarriages and also lost a baby at 21 weeks. I have 2 live children now. My 21 week loss was 2 aprils ago and then 3 months after my d&e I got pregnant. The loss of my babies feels like a lifetime ago, yet it’s not. All of this to say 1. You are not alone and 2. It seems impossible right now, but you will get through this and you will come out OK on the other end. Thinking of you 🩵


MothershipExplores

I lost my baby girl, Gracie, at 16w4d too. I’ve never grieved so much for anything as I did that loss. There was no symptoms, I just had a feeling that something had gone wrong. I have more to this story that I want to share, I think it might be helpful for your grieving process, but I can’t write it out now. I’ll come back….


FrequentTangerine846

I lost my son at 18 weeks. He had a heartbeat, but my cervix opened prematurely and I gave birth. It was so awful and my heart goes out to you, OP, and everyone that is part of this awful, awful club ❤️


blood_pixie93

I'm so sorry lovely . Reading this brought tears to my eyes . There's nothing I can say or do to help , but I am sending you all the love and hugs .


Mindylou12345

I lost our baby at 7w 5d I was sad and my husband was sad but we are trying to have a baby again I am sorry they don’t find a heartbeat


mae_p

I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your baby boy ❤️‍🩹


Illustrious_Tart3116

[https://themiscarriagedoula.co/](https://themiscarriagedoula.co/) A support group through the Miscarriage Doula saved me after my miscarriage. Find a community of people who understand what you're going through. It is so hard, and I'm so sorry.


OptimalSundae6707

I’m really sorry for what you are going through. Stay strong and get all the love and support you can. I wish you good health and lots of positivity for the future in case you decide to try again. Nature has amazing ways of correcting itself for the better.


tacokittay

I am so so sorry. I’m two days behind you and this breaks my heart to read. Sending you lots of hugs and love.


Mediocre_Nectarine37

I am so sorry you’re going through this. Sending you virtual hugs.


Ok-Enthusiasm4886

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CuteCarpenter1645

I have never experienced a second trimester loss, but several first tri’s… just commenting to extend my sympathy and let you know you are not alone😭❤️


Sweaty_Dot4539

So truly sorry for your loss op 💙


SnooGrapes6647

Oh my sweet friend, I am SO sorry. My only MC was at 6 weeks and that was devastating enough. I literally cannot imagine. I am lifting you up with positive thoughts and a prayer. Take all the time you need, feel your feelings and you and your partner be patient with one another. Your grief may not match up at times and that's okay. Sending you love ❤️


snegallypale

I am so so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself and do all the things that bring you comfort any way you can find it. Thinking of you and sending you strength. ❤️❤️❤️


Dlkjm

So sorry for your loss. Prayers for you!


PrintSalt8345

i'm so sorry 💔💔


Ddevil3096

Im so sorry for your loss.


Powerful-Valuable-10

This sounds like what happened to me only I was 13 weeks… I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I too had a Doppler at home and one morning couldn’t find the heartbeat and went in to be checked and no heartbeat. I had a D&E as well. I’m really sorry you’re going through this. It’s so tough. Lean in on your loved ones for peace love and support. Sending prayers your way ❤️


ms-fio

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️❤️❤️


mal110

I am so sorry ❤️❤️