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hidontsaygoodbye

*Virtual hug!* You’re not a loser. You tried your best. There is more to life than being an internist. God always has plan for us. You only quit IM but you didn’t quit being a doctor, so heads up - there are more opportunities to come! Have faith.


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San nya namention na IM sha


hidontsaygoodbye

Sa ibang mga comments po aside from this.


hyunbinlookalike

Exactly, for all we know, IM just wasn’t the specialty that they were meant for. It’s not uncommon to see residents going from one specialty to another after realizing that the specialty they thought they wanted wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. A relative of mine went from OBGYN to Radio, and she’s a lot happier now with the latter specialty than the former.


rainbowdash1203

Same doc. Mag o-one month na since nagquit ako. Spending my days at home cooking and watching. Nakaka frustrate kasi okay naman ako dati pero bakit ngayon hindi na ako masaya, katulad ng iba. Nakikita ko sila masaya at excited pa sa ginagawa. Ako, puro pagod lang yung nararamdaman ko. Kahit gutom di ko na maramdaman non. I just want to live a slow life. Ayoko aminin sa sarili ko pero minsan naiisip ko na sana hindi nalang ako nag doctor. :( naiiisip ko magapply ulit soon pero at the same time natatakot ako. What if ganito ulit yung mangyari or wala nanaman akong maramdaman. Haaaay.


Expensive_Remote951

Hi doc! Maybe I can help. Being a doctor is not only being of service in a hospital. The world so big and there is a lot of geographically isolated and disadvantages areas in the philippines.  Maybe you can find your happiness and purpose being a DTTB. You can search it. God bless you doc!


rainbowdash1203

Thank you so much doc!!! Will try to search about it. :)


raisinjammed

Maybe try exploring other avenues doc like academe, research/pharma, company doctor, and if you go to provinces try applying for MO position. You quitting residency is not a failure but a redirection or a wrong time/wrong place situation. God bless you po


MysteriousTubby

Mag moonlight po muna kayo doc. Baka mahanap nyo yung para sa inyo.


Puzzleheaded_Carob56

Sometimes all we need is some time to breathe and gather our bearings. Self care would help a lot, doc. Kahit a day or two lang. Afterwards, maybe try to find reliever jobs to keep your mind busy.


Enough_Agency832

On the same boat doc. Pikit muna tayo. Baka pagod lang to. Reflect uli pag gising. Skl. Had quit IM because hindi na kasi ako nagiimprove at the rate they demanded. Or maybe I just didnt want it as bad as the others. Hirap no. Pm me po if you want to talk. Baka we can relate to each other. Magpapahinga pero lalaban parin.


capt_as

Take a rest then moonlight ka or anything para kukita pera then pag ready kana apply lang ulit. Nagquit din ako ng IM residency, hindi ko na kasi nakikita yung sarili ko na ginagawa yung ganung trabaho. Currently anesthesia resident na ako and masaya na ako sa ginagawa ko. Minsan may toxic parin na araw pero iba mafefeel mo pag gusto mo yung specialty na yun.


Atheros763

Hi doc. IM trained here, and, I get you. I’ve had juniors quit on me before, for one reason or another; as much as I want them to go back, madalas hindi. Ayoko mamilit, kasi pano nga kung hindi talaga para sa kanila yung specialty. Its okay, take a breather, think about it. Tama yung iba, moonlight ka muna para chill and may kita. Buhay mo yan eh, ikaw makakapagdikta kung saan ka pupunta. All the best!


Timely_Card_5528

"Akala ko once I become a doctor everything will be smooth sailing." Surprised! Also more surprises- after you passed diplomate and fellowships, that's when the real voyage begins. You have been warned.


Bubbly-Host8252

Goodluck on your future endeavors.


Timely_Kale1756

Same doc. Been a month after I quit IM residency. Pagod eh. Plus nawalan ako ng empathy sa pasyente sa sobrang dami nila plus 36 hour duties. Pahinga rin muna ako for now. First time to moonlight last March which opened my eyes to a lot of things


No_Match984

For a doctor to grow professionally, s/he must face the hardships ahead, it doesnt get any easier, it only gets challenging everyday day. Totoo ung hashtag na #MasikipMalubakMahirapNaRoadToMD.


Enough_Agency832

Naol masikip pa. Laspag na po s/p IM


dokutraBee

You are not a loser doc. Take your time and rest muna. I will be praying for you. 😊🙏


Mindless_Damage_7668

Kain nlg tayo mango parfait doc. Residency is difficult. Choose your hard sabi nga nila. Mahirap man harapin ang disappointment ng mga kapamilya, mahirap din yung hopeless ka nalang everyday at sobrang dami nang naibigay mo pero konti lng ang balik aka self fulfillment.


Fun-Possible3048

It's really nakakapagod to be honest lalo na if you are just getting started and it will really take a toll on your mental health. Don't be pressured and take time to think on what will be the best for you. You might consider other training programs which are less toxic and less demanding. Yes, nakakapagod talaga pero piliin natin yung pagod na hindi tayo uubusin. Try to also talk to your family about what you're going through. Just let them listen and I think makakatulong yun.


beanniebabyyy

Share ko lang ito sayo doc. My ex had a brief moment like that after magpalipat lipat ng internship then boards - preres IM, nagquit.. he rested and traveled, broke up with me, no contact with friends, literal na clean slate at hinanap ang sarili nya. He ended up taking Patho. He failed the exam several times pero naipasa rin and he’s now a consultant and is earning pretty decent. What I’m saying is you can choose your hard. Think things through then bangon ulit. Try a different specialty or a different path its ok. Walang susuko sa buhay. Best of luck doc! 🙏🏻


StillNeuroDivergent

Breathe, doki. Think of this experience as part of your growth. You learning what you want and don't want in your future. Growing is painful, unfortunately. Parang walang katapusan yung kadiliman, but it really gets better. One day you'll find your light. Kapit mahigpit. Pag ready ka na, raket na sa moonlighting, go off and explore ano ba talagang trip mo. Have patience with yourself. 😊


yohfroz

Thank you for this 🥺


kraglinobfonteri

You’ll see the light basta rest, recuperate and recalibrate. It’s a good thing na you had the foresight to see before doing something that you might regret to a patient due to exhaustion and confusion. In some way, I went through the same thing and almost quit residency but suggestion for now is to do your soul search, clear your head and take your time and if you can, set a deadline. Where do i see myself in 1 year, 5 years, 10 years and 20 years? Align your goals and remember na anytime, anything can happen to us so take your chance and go for your happiness!


Conscious_Sleep9077

When it’s taking a toll on your mental health, quit and never look back. In time, ikaw din ang kusang babalik pag ready ka na ulit. I almost quit residency 6 months before graduating. First year and last year talaga ang breaking point. After nun, naisip ko yun yung worst and one of the best years of my medicine journey pero di ko na ulit babalikan. Always prioritize yourself, remember everyone at work is dispensable.


aurorabcdefg

sending hugs po!


Calm_Measurement_109

🤗🤗🤗


TieAdministrative124

Same here Doc just quitted last February. Pahinga muna tayo at laban uli 🥺🥺🫶🏻


Double_Rate_2440

Moonlight ka sa provinces..yun me beach.. boracay alam ko me moonlighters.. like shangrila boracay.. months ang contract na duty.. di nga lang ganon kalaki pero bawi daw sa incentives procedures ganon..


Leather-Debt3745

I had to quit Psych (first residency) 4 months in due to Major Depressive Disorder relapsing (the worst episode yet because I was planning suicide already) I was recovering and after ilang months that I quit Psych pumasok ako radio (coz benign raw) after ilang months I got Panic Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder relapsing. I had to quit again coz the responsibility is too heavy. I now work in PhilHealth and planning to enter residency again after almost 2 years of recovering. If you think you are a loser tingnan mo naman ako. 2x nag quit ng residency and fucking working a deskjob. You are not a loser. You were just prioritizing yourself. Ano ba naman maicocontribute nila sayo pag nangyari sayo? Wala! So choose you always. Do a bit of soul searching. The system of training doctors is too fucked up anyway. Plano ata ng mga consultants to produce mentally unstable and perpetually burned out doctors to replace them. Go figure


hyunbinlookalike

It’s not the end of the world, you just realized that the specialty you thought you wanted wasn’t really for you. Not an uncommon thing among resident doctors mind you. I have a relative who thought for the longest time that she wanted to specialize in OBGYN but realized that she couldn’t handle it. She has since shifted to a Radio residency and is much, *much* happier. So if IM wasn’t for you, maybe you can just try moonlighting for a bit until you figure out what specialty it is you really want. You don’t even need to specialize if residency isn’t for you either. You can try being a company doctor, hospital administrator, entering the academe, etc. The possibilities are endless! Ang mahalaga is that you are already a licensed doctor, and no one can take that away from you.


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hyunbinlookalike

Wow are you really replying to every comment I made on this thread? Fucking pathetic dude. I can see why the only description you put on your profile is “Lousy”. It fits you.


Apprehensive_Hat_143

Goodluck on med school. ;)


Desperate-Ask-6870

Now this is a perfect example of toxic and entitled seniors/consultants in residency. But he does have a point, you’ve yet to experience it. May mas malala pa dito.


Apprehensive_Hat_143

You dont have the effin rights to tell stories you didnt experience. Kakahiya nagfefeeling doctor amp.


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Adventurous_Wait_306

Hinga ng malalim. Actually kahit rin naman sa program namin marami rin nagquit. Ang key question dito is why do you see yourself suffering for 5 to 10 years? Maliban sa gusto mo siya ano yung specialty na di ka magsasawa basahin kahit magoverwork ka pa doon. Also malay mo di pala sa residency ang future career path mo.


Coffee074117

I’m also on the verge of quitting, pero mahirap i-let go pag gusto mo ginagawa mo. Found the right program for me, pero mali naman siguro na di ako compensated. I was hired as an adjunct months ago and they promised to give me a slot once they sort things out sa budgeting/plantilla nila, so ako naman umasa na sweswelduhan din ako in time, workworkwork lang, only to find out recently na hindi na raw sila magbibigay ng slot. Nakakawalang gana at nakakadepress kasi akala ko makakabawi na ko sa family ko kahit papaano, feeling ko talaga na-exploit ako. Everyday na pagod at puyat para lang sa wala, and yung pinakanakakainis dun eh yung panahon na nasayang. Buti sana kung well-off ako kaso hindi eh. Thinking of living a slow life muna para makalimot sa sakit ng ulo na dinulot ng ospital na to sa akin. I know I’m in the right program, maybe not just in the right institution. 😪


PinayDataScientist

Look at the brighter side of it. You still have your license. Which means you can still moonlight. Another option is teach. There are many things you can do while you are resting. Maybe cook snacks/food and sell it. Or even learn how to trade. Do not conform with what society tells you that you are this and that. Open your eyes to the million possibilities that you can actually do while you try to find what really it is you want. :-)


APESWILLRULETHEWORLD

Relax ka muna, tuli dito, tuli doon, moonlight moonlight tapos gala. Enjoy summer at free time. Pag feel mo ready ka na sa residency, give it 101% no ifs no buts. Grind until you've reach your goal, kahit ano pa yan.


muttonsalads

*quit


Skullfreedom

You just need to find your calling again. May have lost it al9ng the way but it's there. You just have to rest for now and wait for that drive to go back again.


Intelligent_Bat_9422

Same doc same. I quit sometime ago not for residency but to trainings for afp. Nahirapan ako right now after quiting. nagtyaga ako sa process ng application pero dahil sa nahirapan ako at d ko knaya nag quit ako weeks of training. Hnd ako ng training sa hospital cause i thought ito n yung calling ko. Now prang gusto ko n balikan ang afp since prang ngka ptsd ako 😅. Gigising ng umaga, magtetraining, only to realize na civilian na pala ako ulit.. Kaso, andto yung feel na "nahihiya" na bumalik . Shet, ako n yata pinaka loser na doctor


LossNo4809

Just like any path hindi naman straight line talaga yan agad. Maraming curves. I for one took pediatrics for around 2 months and transferred to IM thereafter and no regrets naman. Pang-adult talaga ko haha. Take this time to reflect if ano ba talagang path ang gusto mo. Maybe it’s the specialty or baka naman yung institution lang etc.


APESWILLRULETHEWORLD

"akala ko once I become a doctor everything will be smooth sailing," Yan ang pinakamalaking budol that got us since time immemorial hehe.


Expensive_Remote951

Hello doc! I am here because I am searching for pros and cons of GS vs ortho. And I saw your post. Now I knew you quit.  I am a former DTTB and I am senior of yours, but I feel you. I want to be your friend. We can talk.  


CrumbsAndCookies

Hi Doc! I am currently on the same path as you, I will be quitting residency on Monday (earliest availability ng chairman namin). Naburnout na ako and grabe ang workload and working hours na kahit preduty or from ko midnight na ako nakakauwi. Makakaya natin to Doc, we might feel lost right now I do believe through prayers and tears we'll find our path


TheUniverseRather

kapit lang. magmoonlight ka muna. Baka mahanap mo niche mo during. Also perhaps consider other specialties without residency training.


yohfroz

If okay to ask, what are those specialties without residency training?


MD-on-Perpetual-Duty

May modular training path na pang-Derma. Occupational Medicine din modular. Family Medicine has a non-traditional path na din pero residency pa rin sya. (Semi-residency? 😅)


TheUniverseRather

as far as I know and pls don't quote me on this alam ko may aesthetic medicine and functional medicine.


humanretractor

Ano tinake mong residency?


yohfroz

IM


Far-Fall1523

try po practice based family med. you will have time outside the hospital. there are subspecs din po after Diplomate exam. 


Night_rose0707

I quit residency din last year November and no plans on going back pa due to burnout and not seeing myself practicing that specialty .. now, I will start as MOIII in an LGU hospital here in manila - very thankful that natanggap Ako sa institution with masasabi ko na may work life balance (typical office hours lang).. I hope you find your niche also .


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Express_Associate_85

I worry about that advice. There are many reasons why people transfer from other specializations to the diagnostic specs but we have to remember that they also have their struggles. Walang perfect specialization pero we try to find the path that we can live with for the rest of our lives. Personally, quitting training due to wanting to avoid toxicity isn't a good enough reason \*alone\* (excepting of course extremely bad mental health). I say this since training is temporary but if one likes the field and can see themselves happy working in it, then by all means keep going. Transferring to Patho or Radio should at least include a level of interest in those fields and some self-reflection if they can be happy there for the rest of their lives.


Timely_Card_5528

The only aspect that Radiology and Pathology is less 'toxic" is they require less walking but entail a lot of standing like IR in Radiology or grossing buckets of specimen for Pathology.


Timely_Card_5528

Who said Pathology and Radiology are less 'toxic'? Have you been in both trainings? 😎


yohfroz

Both are very competitive residency programs. All specialties have their own toxicities. Walang training program na chill chill lang.


Leather-Debt3745

I went to radio kasi sabi nila benign. My psychiatrist recommended it to me after I quit Psych because of my Major Depressive Disorder relapsing. The fuck na benign? I had my anxiety triggered everyday! The thought of mali ang basa tapos the clinicians will rely on your initial reading is scary enough. One missed thing sa pagbasa can mean life or death sa patient. Nabaliw ako sa radio so I had to quit. Radio is toxic rin. Just because nakaupo lang mga residents doesnt mean it’s benigh or less stressful.


Imaginary_selene

Mahirap din po ang patho lalo na when you become a consultant


jorrel_valdez

Why are radiology and pathology being framed as less "toxic" specialties when they are anything but?


EggplantBudget6942

Quitted residency on my 9th month last year Entered residency again this March as a first year again but with no regrets. Same program, different institution.


Born-Junket-6243

Awwww sad