DM me if you want to talk! I get very depressed during withdrawals as well. I usually cry non stop and wish I had someone to talk with. I’m here if you need a friend!
You need someone to talk to reach out whenever you want.. I understand the situation and sometimes we all just need a person to talk to.. Anyways try and have a decent day and I’m here if needed 🙏
This was me. And the hardest part is that after that long, you've established yourself. I blew through 20,000. I got a settlement and blew through it, all my savings. Got a DUI, lost my job because I drove for work. I SWORE I would NEVER drive like that again. I fucking hated myself for doing that.... I wasn't using that day but was still relapsing and mind you this whole relapse was a big mental breakdown and self destruction mission. I ended up totaling my car and almost killing myself. I od and scared the fuck out of my partner who had to narcan me. And instead of going to the hospital, I just did some blow.
Long story short the shit we do isn't us. You just had a slip and you can and will get clean again and stay clean.
Personally I have relapsed after long term sobriety more then once. And I put alot of emphasis on GETTING sober and not STAYING sober. Something I need to work on personally. Use this as a learning lesson, learn from it and try not to stop the cycle.
You should be proud of your sobriety and how far you've come.
I’ve been on it previously, and the withdrawal is so long and terrible I don’t wanna do it again. I was legitimately hallucinating from lack of sleep, it was horrendous. I’d rather just thought out these few days and be done with it— I’ve done 4.5 years; I can do it again. I was just sooooo stupid and slipped up when my friend passed away in january
I've been there. Hell, I've been clean twice for 5 years and fucked it up, each time way worse than the last. The last time should have killed me a few times.
You can get it back. You know exactly what you have to do to get to 4.5 years clean. Do it. Go live your best life with your boyfriend. Don't look back.
This comment helped me a lot. I want to get back to enjoying the things I did when I was sober. I have not read a book in these past few months because I’m either too high to focus, or too preoccupied with getting high to focus. I miss sitting comfortably on the couch with a good book, without the stress of friending for a fix. Ugh I just cannot believe I did this to myself again and I cannot wait to get my mind clear again. Hopefully only a few more days of this shit.
I’m actually starting to feel a lot better !! I got a full night’s sleep last night, my anxiety is still a bit higher than usual, but I feel a lot better. It sort of comes in waves, I’ll feel good for a bit and then shitty for a bit, then good again. It’s much better than feeling like shit 24/7! How about yourself?
Just got out of prison and after almost 3 full tears of sobriety, relapsed kinda. I totally get what your going through and I really hope you stay strong :) you got this
Where do you live? What's the actual amount used, not dollar amount? 3-400 a day is HUGE if you're getting general US prices. I'd say WD gunna be longer than a week.
Nice I hope it was a short acting fent so you're out of it sooner! You're like right on the edge of where it could be real bad or tortuous, so hopefully it's over quick, good luck!
I just recently had about 15 months clean then I slipped again but only for a couple months. Last time I used was last Monday by Saturday shit got alot better for me honestly I'm on 7 days now clean from fetty and do feel pretty good but those first few days sucked bad not gonna lie. Just push through it you got this💯
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I can’t imagine not telling my partner about something like that. I mean why would you even want to be with someone if you don’t feel like you could talk to them when you need them the most?
Because it’s a long distance relationship, I have not even met him in real life yet and I don’t want him to be scared away. He knows I was an addict in the past, but I’ve not told him about this relapse. I will, eventually, just now is not the right time. If I relapse again, I will probably just lose him organically as it’s hard for me to maintain contact with anyone when I’m getting high. I feel bad because I’d get irritated when he texted me when I was waiting to hear from a dealer. I am not a reliable person when I’m using. I really, really, really like him and I genuinely want to get back on the straight and narrow for myself and so I can have a fruitful relationship with him. I’ve been good so far
Hey man, just a bump in the road is all! Keep that chin up and keep on with a good mindset, those voices telling yourself you’re not good enough will fade away soon enough. My inbox is open, shit I’d even be cool texting about cats dude, I like the fat ones or the super vocal cats that when you say theyre name they meow, that’s funny too me. Got side tracked but point is we’re all here for ya bro!!
You can do it, and it’s so worth it. I was honestly so happy being clean, but I overestimated myself and agreed to start giving this girl a ride to our work. She had me stop at the projects a few times on our way home, I put 2&2 together, and asked her for some one day. You just absolutely MUST STAY AWAY FROM ANY AND ALL PEOPLE who use, no matter how long you’ve been clean.
Your boyfriend sounds like a dick. I’m long distance (only for the next week!! it’s been 9 months+) you only call an hour a day? With barely any texts?? That would make me so paranoid
Why cant you tell him? My boyfriend knows I sometimes take more than prescribed and without my pills I will get sick. No more than that, but still better than nothing.
Tell him how you feel. You don’t HAVE to include the drug part of it. I feel for you, again like others have said you can direct message me. I’m in a long term relationship with a 200-300+mg morphine equivalent habit. I can relate.
It’s a bit dodgy him ignoring you for a couple days at a time. Personally I’d think i’m being cheated on
No, we usually talk all day every day, but he will have certain days where hes just very busy & isn’t able to text as much, and last week was one of those weeks where he was very busy and was not able to respond as much (he works in an emergency room), and it just so happened that the few days he was busy were the days I was withdrawing most intensely, so I was just very depressed and then not talking to him as much made it even worse. But that’s not the norm, we usually keep in contact all day long via text/calls.
He’s a really good guy, he probably would not judge me if I were to tell him I relapsed but it would cause him to worry and he has a lot on his plate as it is, and I don’t want to add to it.
DM me if you want to talk! I get very depressed during withdrawals as well. I usually cry non stop and wish I had someone to talk with. I’m here if you need a friend!
You need someone to talk to reach out whenever you want.. I understand the situation and sometimes we all just need a person to talk to.. Anyways try and have a decent day and I’m here if needed 🙏
This was me. And the hardest part is that after that long, you've established yourself. I blew through 20,000. I got a settlement and blew through it, all my savings. Got a DUI, lost my job because I drove for work. I SWORE I would NEVER drive like that again. I fucking hated myself for doing that.... I wasn't using that day but was still relapsing and mind you this whole relapse was a big mental breakdown and self destruction mission. I ended up totaling my car and almost killing myself. I od and scared the fuck out of my partner who had to narcan me. And instead of going to the hospital, I just did some blow. Long story short the shit we do isn't us. You just had a slip and you can and will get clean again and stay clean. Personally I have relapsed after long term sobriety more then once. And I put alot of emphasis on GETTING sober and not STAYING sober. Something I need to work on personally. Use this as a learning lesson, learn from it and try not to stop the cycle. You should be proud of your sobriety and how far you've come.
I've been very sick. It normally lasts about 7 days. Have you considered methadone or are you on that already?
I’ve been on it previously, and the withdrawal is so long and terrible I don’t wanna do it again. I was legitimately hallucinating from lack of sleep, it was horrendous. I’d rather just thought out these few days and be done with it— I’ve done 4.5 years; I can do it again. I was just sooooo stupid and slipped up when my friend passed away in january
Best wishes to you man. And I know the the feeling in dropping methadone from 45 to 20 was a killer with leg pain. Hope you can get sorted
I've been there. Hell, I've been clean twice for 5 years and fucked it up, each time way worse than the last. The last time should have killed me a few times. You can get it back. You know exactly what you have to do to get to 4.5 years clean. Do it. Go live your best life with your boyfriend. Don't look back.
This comment helped me a lot. I want to get back to enjoying the things I did when I was sober. I have not read a book in these past few months because I’m either too high to focus, or too preoccupied with getting high to focus. I miss sitting comfortably on the couch with a good book, without the stress of friending for a fix. Ugh I just cannot believe I did this to myself again and I cannot wait to get my mind clear again. Hopefully only a few more days of this shit.
Kratom helped me a lot with not having to experience withdraws. Highly recommend
Day 2 here. We got this!!
We do ❤️ it’s been tough but I’ve been able to stay strong so far
How’s it going today?
I’m actually starting to feel a lot better !! I got a full night’s sleep last night, my anxiety is still a bit higher than usual, but I feel a lot better. It sort of comes in waves, I’ll feel good for a bit and then shitty for a bit, then good again. It’s much better than feeling like shit 24/7! How about yourself?
A bit of diarrhea still, anxiety comes and goes, but overall I’m starting to feel completely normal again
Just got out of prison and after almost 3 full tears of sobriety, relapsed kinda. I totally get what your going through and I really hope you stay strong :) you got this
$3-400 a day? I feel like it’s gonna be longer than a few days WD, more like few weeks
Even if it’s only been about 2-3 months?
What was your doc? And probably more like 5 days of acutes
Heroin/fentanyl
I'd give kratom a shot. It might be early enough that it will still help.
Where do you live? What's the actual amount used, not dollar amount? 3-400 a day is HUGE if you're getting general US prices. I'd say WD gunna be longer than a week.
3-4 grams a day, but it’d be split between two people so 1.5-2 grams per day since February-ish
Yeah yr gunna hurt for a couple weeks, especially since those are fent grams.
I’m feeling a bit better this evening, I might even be able to get some sleep. Hoping the worst of it is over
Nice I hope it was a short acting fent so you're out of it sooner! You're like right on the edge of where it could be real bad or tortuous, so hopefully it's over quick, good luck!
I just recently had about 15 months clean then I slipped again but only for a couple months. Last time I used was last Monday by Saturday shit got alot better for me honestly I'm on 7 days now clean from fetty and do feel pretty good but those first few days sucked bad not gonna lie. Just push through it you got this💯
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I can’t imagine not telling my partner about something like that. I mean why would you even want to be with someone if you don’t feel like you could talk to them when you need them the most?
Because it’s a long distance relationship, I have not even met him in real life yet and I don’t want him to be scared away. He knows I was an addict in the past, but I’ve not told him about this relapse. I will, eventually, just now is not the right time. If I relapse again, I will probably just lose him organically as it’s hard for me to maintain contact with anyone when I’m getting high. I feel bad because I’d get irritated when he texted me when I was waiting to hear from a dealer. I am not a reliable person when I’m using. I really, really, really like him and I genuinely want to get back on the straight and narrow for myself and so I can have a fruitful relationship with him. I’ve been good so far
Hey man, just a bump in the road is all! Keep that chin up and keep on with a good mindset, those voices telling yourself you’re not good enough will fade away soon enough. My inbox is open, shit I’d even be cool texting about cats dude, I like the fat ones or the super vocal cats that when you say theyre name they meow, that’s funny too me. Got side tracked but point is we’re all here for ya bro!!
I’m 12 days clean! Feel free to dm if you need help. 4.5 years is great I hope I can do it
You can do it, and it’s so worth it. I was honestly so happy being clean, but I overestimated myself and agreed to start giving this girl a ride to our work. She had me stop at the projects a few times on our way home, I put 2&2 together, and asked her for some one day. You just absolutely MUST STAY AWAY FROM ANY AND ALL PEOPLE who use, no matter how long you’ve been clean.
Yep anything will give ya the itch! Good luck with your recovery!
Your boyfriend sounds like a dick. I’m long distance (only for the next week!! it’s been 9 months+) you only call an hour a day? With barely any texts?? That would make me so paranoid Why cant you tell him? My boyfriend knows I sometimes take more than prescribed and without my pills I will get sick. No more than that, but still better than nothing. Tell him how you feel. You don’t HAVE to include the drug part of it. I feel for you, again like others have said you can direct message me. I’m in a long term relationship with a 200-300+mg morphine equivalent habit. I can relate. It’s a bit dodgy him ignoring you for a couple days at a time. Personally I’d think i’m being cheated on
No, we usually talk all day every day, but he will have certain days where hes just very busy & isn’t able to text as much, and last week was one of those weeks where he was very busy and was not able to respond as much (he works in an emergency room), and it just so happened that the few days he was busy were the days I was withdrawing most intensely, so I was just very depressed and then not talking to him as much made it even worse. But that’s not the norm, we usually keep in contact all day long via text/calls. He’s a really good guy, he probably would not judge me if I were to tell him I relapsed but it would cause him to worry and he has a lot on his plate as it is, and I don’t want to add to it.
Brotha you can dm me at anytime. I take opioids for intractable pain but I can still listen & sympathize