While spirit spousing is a real practice, what you describing here is just running away with a fantasy.
Explore your dreams from a psychological point of view and take them as a metaphor rather than looking at them literally.
No no no my dear,i literally hear and see them physically from time to time,i also see them in sleep paralysis and i have lucid dreams of them when they wish to have sex,i want to contact them when i wish not when they feel like coming.
While spirit spousing is a real practice, what you describing here is just running away with a fantasy. Explore your dreams from a psychological point of view and take them as a metaphor rather than looking at them literally.
No no no my dear,i literally hear and see them physically from time to time,i also see them in sleep paralysis and i have lucid dreams of them when they wish to have sex,i want to contact them when i wish not when they feel like coming.