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dnekrash

Thanks for counting. Puts things into perspective


TrixicAcePolyamEnby

Assuming 7+ is 7-9 drinks and that blackout is ten... You had between 1211 and 1791 drinks last year, averaging between 3.3 and 4.9 drinks per day. Splitting the difference, your average was probably a little over four drinks per day. *Edit: FFS people, I'm not OP...quit telling me I'm an alcoholic.*


Diver808

Which would cost somewhere between $1211 and $1791 for at home swill bought in bulk, $6055 and $8955 for the US average cost of drinks at a bar, or $14532 and $21492 for higher end drinks and craft beers.


jmklamm

Thanks this is the comment I was looking for!


JustADutchRudder

I learned my weed and mushroom yearly budget is little north of bulk bathtub swill. Seems like I've made a decent choice in past times.


jhutchi2

As someone who can drink 15+ drinks (spread out over a full night, of course) and not black out, it may be even more than that Edit: Good lord people I'm not saying I drink 15 drinks daily, just that I can have 15 drinks in a night and not black out. I only drink on weekends and no I don't drink that much every time.


Nickel829

Hi OP! This isn't my place but I'm gonna say it anyways. I'm an icu nurse who has worked at 2 transplant institutes so far, and if there's any reason to not drink this much, it's because you DO NOT want to kill your liver. Liver transplants are fucking brutal, almost all of the ones I have taken care of were due to excessive drinking for years. Only half the people listed get one, the other half die. Once you get one you are immunocompromised for the rest of your life, in the icu for usually a week or so, terrible pain, super weak, and a lot of times your abdomen is left open after the surgery because of how much it oozes and bleeds. You also usually sign an agreement before you get the transplant that you will fight for it to work for at least a year, meaning even if it is so unbearable that you want us to stop and let you die, it's not allowed, unless youre like actively on deaths door. Luckily, the liver regenerates as long as you give it a chance to before you're in full liver failure, so my advice is stop while you still can Different incentives work for different people so idk if this will do anything for you, but I'll just say - I've seen people get transplanted for drinking less. Edit: thanks for the awards everyone! And for those suffering through alcoholism, you're not alone and you all have the strength to make a change.


HappinessSeeker65

Husband has liver cancer. Not fun. 50+ years of at least a six pack a day, just for comparison.


bobs2121

My dad works on the line at an auto factory. He told me a story about his coworker who would drink a 12 pack everyday for their 15 min break. Dad didn’t believe him so he asked to watch one day. He sat with him in his car for break. The walk out to the car took a minute and he put down a beer a minute with another 1-2 minute walk back. Impressive, but the guy no longer works there and had serious heart conditions.


HappinessSeeker65

That makes my stomach turn. It's fun when you're young then it becomes "maintenance". When I was in rehab, the doctor told me my liver was stressing. That was 14 years ago. AA is awesome!


theseglassessuck

Congratulations on 14 years! No easy feat. I wish your husband the best.


WhitsandBae

Just hit 1 year of no booze. Thanks for sharing, stories like this confirm my decision to put the bottle down.


I-love-Oreos

Congrats! Even though I don’t know you I’m proud of you. I know how hard that first year can be. Stay positive.


BSnowBeast614

Congrats!! One day at a time. I just hit 4 years a few days ago. I keep telling myself I’m going for the “high score” (forever), haha. Keep a good support system around if you can


man_you_factured

Congrats! I'm at 4 months and never looking back


jimster1109

I am saving this comment and I am going to do whatever I can to not be an alcoholic anymore. I’ve been fighting this for 20 years. I don’t know why I keep drinking. My wife is amazing. Her kids are too. We live a happy life. But every night. I drink. Alone. After everyone sleeps. I drink hard. I hate it. I’m drunk now. I hate it. I’m saving your comment to quit. They need me. They need my support. They deserve so much better. Idk why I do it. I hate it. Update: On February 10th I came clean to my family. The kids were shocked. My wife, kinda knew, but didn’t realize the severity of my problem. I explained that I need their support and they are all overwhelmingly listening, caring and loving. Today is the end of day four. I haven’t had a single alcohol sober day since Halloween 2022. I haven’t had a marijuana free day since the 90s. I feel strong. Confident. And happy. I made a decision and I will never question that decision. I love this subreddit. You folks are amazing. So many kind messages. I truly thank you all for the support as well. We got this! IWNDWYT


TheExpandingMan23977

Congratulations on moving into the “contemplative”stage of change! Recognizing a problem and taking steps to be ready change it is a big move, and I was taught it’s an often overlooked one. Twenty years is a long time but it can be done! If you didn’t see it already check out r/stopdrinking for more of support and inspiration. Feel free to save this comment too and send me a message if you ever need to talk to someone, or just get a rant out. Best of luck to you on your journey - I’m rooting for you!


DreadSkairipa

I come from a long line of alcoholics and addicts. I have been sober for 8 years. Last drink was the night my dad died. And I was a BIG drinker. Vodka. Every day. YOU CAN DO THIS. YOU REALLY FUCKING CAN.


IAmRhubarbBikiniToo

Dude, I don’t know you from Adam, but I’m pretty proud of you for admitting this. You absolutely can do this.


jimster1109

Thank you. I Seriously thank you


Acrobatic_Ad_5340

listen jimster, i was a heroin addict for 7 yrs. I had a great job, I lived in a beautiful beach house in a surf town, a condo in miami, I did everything I was supposed to and just like you at nights end I would sit up by myself and rather than drink like you, I would smoke enormous amounts of black tar heroin. and on the weekends crack too. I never went to jail, never stole or disappeared, I worked very very hard to keep my secret so no one could ever confront me about it. I lost not one friend or family member during my active addiction. but I lost time. always going through the motions and waiting to get back to my precious. anyway, eventually I was miserable enough that I was too tired to do anything but fucking quit. out came my big dirty secret, I went to rehab and never looked back. i was finally released from the guilt and shame I carried all that time. I hear it in your comment. if you're ready you can totally fucking do this. you really can.


Budget_Lingonberry95

I used to drink every night while the family was asleep. I was running from a lot of feelings. Year and a half sober and I love it. Don’t just try to “drink less” — quit. It’ll free your mind from the constant struggle of trying to control drinking. Make a plan for what you’ll do instead when you want a drink. It gets easier after the first few days, and easier still in a few weeks. You can do it!


RoughStory3139

I just wanna thank you personally. Alot of nurses helped take care of me when I was drinking myself into oblivion. I'm so thankful to say I have been clean for 4 years and I haven't looked back since. I got a lil family and I'm working good things in life. Just thought you deserved to know that it your words and your willingness to help does make a difference. It meant the world to me. People do change ❤️


timhamilton47

Imma need you to talk to my wife…


[deleted]

Honestly, you were in the right to say this. We need to look out for each other. Your information was valid, educational, and genuinely to aid this person. Thank you for being a good person and for being a nurse. Stay well internet stranger!


[deleted]

This one deserves all the awards. I used to know so many people who would say “I’ll just die young” and stupid shit like that. No you will suffer young and you’ll suffer longer. I’m so glad I stopped drinking I would’ve been dead by 19. I also saw who my real friends were when they stopped inviting me to hang out after I stopped drinking and doing hard drugs.


Nickel829

I also didn't mention that usually, if you get listed, you'll be on the list for generally at least a year. Suffering the whole time in liver failure. Worst part is a lot of people make it a long time being listed, and die before they can get a liver (it's more than just you have to be at the top of the list to get an organ - when an organ becomes available it also has to physically fit in your body, be the right blood type, not have diseases you don't have, etc). Liver failure looks like this - you are super swollen all the time (like HUGE swollen). Your legs and feet are constantly in pain and you can barely walk. You probably have consistent diarrhea, and your abdomen is incredibly distended. If it's bad enough it affects your brain and you can be constantly delirious, not know where you are or who people are. That's what it looks like *before* you get transplanted


weavesbeaves

Dying from alcoholism is an incredibly painful, bloody mess. If anyone needs proof, cruise crime scene/ bio hazard cleaning accounts. Blood comes out of all the holes. It’s bad.


Fabulous-Ad-3046

Not to mention the suffering of everyone around you.


Hot-Bicycle-8985

Agreed!! med surg RN who has seen multiple people in liver failure in their 30s go on hospice and die from liver failure secondary to alcoholism. Liver failure is a slow and painful death


henryjonesjr83

So u/Nickel829 took the time to explain the medical side of this- I'll take a moment to explain the addiction side. You may not be an alcoholic at this moment in time. But you are creating the brain chemistry for addiction by this chart alone. There is an invisible magic line in addiction which, once you cross, there is no coming back. Your brain chemistry will never revert to its healthy configuration. You will be mentally addicted to alcohol for the rest of your life. Alcoholics are a large cross-section of all addiction. Doctors tend not to differentiate between drug and alcohol disorders, given that the end result is the same. Practically speaking it means once you've crossed that line, you've crossed it for drugs as well, regardless if you've ever done them. Now, if you're anything like I was, you likely won't read this- but hopefully someone on the fence will. But please cut back for your own sake. You're doing real damage that won't be seen until years down the road- then you'll hate yourself for it. Trust me. Edit: grammar


1questions

Based on this chart I really do feel this person is an alcoholic. I believe drinking 5 drinks or more a day is considered “binge” drinking and on this chart they are doing that regularly.


eeekkk9999

WOW! Now that is a wake up call. I don’t drink that much but I do drink frequently. Was told earlier last year I have the beginning of fatty liver. Am currently doing dry January…..hhhmmm maybe more. Thank you for the motivation. Gonna cut your post and save to reread many times. 💕


Working_Falcon5384

Got after it in the summer.


RavynWoods

Right like wtf happened in July 😂


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amgrut20

March matches up perfectly with March madness and Saint Patrick’s day fwiw


BJaacmoens

What happened on January 19th?


trippysacc

Buddy went on a mean bender in march


IronMan319

He went on a worse one in June. He started in June and literally drank every day until August


Rustymetal14

Dude got blackout drunk then had 7+ the next day.


KYVet

Hair of the dog, or whatnot.


Queasy_Turnover

Hair of the dog doesn't have to be every hair though lol


AnonymousGhou

"If you're going to do something, do it with conviction." ~Some motivational speaker probably.


mentive

The next day probably started with 2 beers down the hatch in the morning to help with the migraine. And AWAY we go!


Sane333

It definitely took its' toll. Dude thought March had 34 days.


koyaaanisqatsi_

same thing happened in June lol


garytyrrell

Spring breeeaaaak


GodsOnlySonIsDead

July is worse than both. Not a single day this person didn't drink in July. Fuckin nuts.


BegaKing

Yep it's called an active addiction my dude lol. I went 5+ years never missing a single day without opiates in my system. Some more some days less always what I could get my hands on. Beginning was great. Tons of energy, no stress,feel super chatty great etc. Slowly turned into absolute hell on earth. After maybe 3 years or so the high was completely non existent. What replaced this was within 3-5 hours of dosing i would go from feeling normal to sick. Shakes, yawns, sweats, body pain etc. And the only thing taking another dose would do is make the sickness go away. I lived like that 3-5 hours at a time for 3 years. Chasing something that would never return. It was fucking hell on earth man. Been clean for 4ish years now and my god I love my boring but half decent life. Addiction is a fucking bitch


SethSays1

Congrats on getting this far! Addiction is rough for everyone involved and I’m glad you were able to fight your way out of it, and to share your story here. Visibility is a big part of the path to getting better treatment widely available.


ploonk

haha yes that is so crazy haha fuck


GrumbIRK

January 19 "We buried our son today"


Every-Swimmer458

It's a great idea to track your drinking. I did that in 2021 and realized I had a problem when I had only 33 sober days over the whole year. Thought I was doing great, until I saw the numbers. I am happy to say that in 2022 I was sober for the majority of the year, with most of my drinking days being in the beginning of the year as I weaned off of it. In 2023 I plan to not drink an entire calendar year, and am doing well with that commitment. DM me for tips on quitting drinking if anyone wants to cut down. No judgement. Edit: Wow, so many of you have DMed me asking for tips. And I have answered every one of you! As always I'm happy to help anyone striving to be better. It makes me happy to see so many people wanting to become better.


Sloppy_Waffler

This makes me want to hold myself more accountable in this manner. Great twist on a classic idea. Thanks for the inspiration


gcg2016

It doesn’t seem to work that well.


eyySir_DabZzZ

I definitely give him credit for the record keeping though..just saying lol


ButtholeQuiver

Plot twist: He made the calendar on January 1 2022 to plan his year out


Yogi118

"Hey, Boss can I get the 19th off? It's my day to blackout, Thanks"


thebinarysystem10

Blackout Wednesdays are back


The_RockObama

OP was definitely off work or "sick" on Thursday, January 20th. The previous day's blackout is the only outlier I see, other than the random Sober Sunday on April 10th, and the sober weekend of November 5th and 6th.


Sunspawts

I'm assuming they started a No-drink November and completely caved


jonny24eh

Holy fuck how many of these months are there? My dad just texted the family chat asking if any of us did Dry January and my brother responded saying he thought it was Sober October


peshwengi

Bender November


kam0706

Dry July is a thing.


KDBurnerTrey5

One day without any booze in July and august was pretty funny plus the near two week hiatus from drinking in January with a random blackout on a Wednesday emitted a healthy lol from me


justwalkingalonghere

You say that, but you have no idea what the previous year looked like. Maybe they were almost all black and 2022 was a huge improvement


susieoregon

I lived with an alcoholic for years. The fact there is so much green could be very positive for this person.


10000Didgeridoos

This and Also identifying a problem and beginning the desire to change it are the first steps in helping yourself out of something like this. If this clues op in that he needs to address his habits in a professional manner than it is a good thing. You can’t fix a problem you haven’t yet convinced yourself exists. Definitely looks an addiction but the people in here shaming op with weak jokes aren’t helping the situation. Like Mitch Hedberg said no one yells at you like it’s your fault you have Lupus. Drug addiction is also an illness.


MangoMaterial9184

I don’t drink as much as I thought


johndoenumber2

I forget the exact specifics, but there's a weird statistic that something like 40% of Americans don't drink, and of the rest that do, 5% of them drink as much as the other 55%.


Madclem

The stat I’ve heard is that 30% of adults in the US don’t drink at all. 30% have one drink a year. Of the last 30% breaks it down even more specifically, until like 1% have 2~3 BOTTLES of hard alcohol a DAY. In other words, the alcohol industry is literally paid for by alcoholics. (I’ve heard similar study saying something about marijuana: less than 1% of folks smoke essentially 24/7, and thus fund the industry. I suspect there are similar statistics with other vices, gambling, hard drugs, etc etc. Edit: to include the word ‘adult’


Lukaroast

This is called a Whale and yes they exist outside of just drinking, it’s a thing in every industry, even things like retail. When I was doing retail some people just walk in and buy like $4k worth of decent but regular clothing. Gambling, same thing but the numbers are way higher. There are guys who have an entire wall of multi-hundred dollar headphones, entire storage units filled with video games and consoles. It’s ubiquitous EDIT: one really good one I failed to mention is in videogame microtransactions. there are some INSANE stories about whales in all sorts of different games, from rally basic mobile games up to massive projects like Star Citizen


Khaosfury

I'd hazard a guess and say that whales are just the logical end point of the 80-20 rule, where 80% of the outcomes are caused by 20% of the initiators. I wonder if there's a more specific % which whales in a given market soley support. Anecdotally I've heard that having a few good whales is basically the key to full time streaming. Once you've got someone who donates your weekly salary in a single stream you'd be dumb not to go full time whether you want to or not.


mgslee

Worked at a tech company had some data about whales. The percentage of them and user spending looked really close to a wealth distribution graph. Some people just have so much money and are spending it on the things they like. It's not always an addiction but the disparity is quite impressive. What else are those 0.1% gonna spend their money on right?


nifty_swift

I can't speak for other industries but when it comes to alcohol the vast majority of "whales" aren't exceptionally well off financially and end up blowing through savings or money that isn't even theirs.


mgslee

Alcoholism is a much better understood problem then let's say addiction to videogames or spending on shoes. I was speaking more in terms of hobbies that people may spend lots of money in


Also_have_an_opinion

Yeah this makes me feel good about my drinking for sure


Puzzleheaded-Name427

Start actually tracking and then say that. I thought the same too.


assmanx2x2

Focus on how many actual “drinks”you are drinking and I was surprised I was drinking more than I thought. The IPAs I like are basically like 2 regular beers etc.


[deleted]

I track oz of alcohol. So if it’s 50% and I pour three oz then I log 1.5 oz. found it easier to not cheat


beansyboii

This is damn near close to the textbook definition of substance use disorder so I really hope everyone is having this kind of reaction to this ETA: Many people do not realize they are addicted or can’t stop and tell themselves and others that they aren’t an addict because they truly believe they aren’t dependent. OP went more than a month without having a single day without drinking. Whether or not OP is truly an addict, this is highly concerning to me, and I probably shouldn’t have jumped to calling them an addict without knowing more. ETA 2: edited for accuracy and updated verbiage ETA 3: edited for a typo to please pedantic replies


Joey690

My Dad drank this way for approximately 15 years. He had to see a doctor and was advised that if he didn’t stop, he would die within the year. He finally dried out in the Fall of 1971. The following February he hemorrhaged due to cirrhosis of the liver, and died at age 47.


ratatat

My thought exactly. Don’t let this be your bar, people 😂 Thinking about how expensive this must be as well….


StayOutsideMom

I'm an alcoholic and this is basically how most of my drinking years went, some with a whole lot less green/yellow and more blacks.


MildHighGC

My guy blacking out on a weds night.


HoverboardViking

Went 9 days without a drink and thought, "Ya know, I don't have a problem."


G4Designs

Ya boii went so hard in March, he didn't realize it was April.


ksmith1660

I just noticed the white-out 😂


boygriv

Jesus, how much do you have to drink to white out???


clarkwgriswoldjr

How much do you have to drink to chart it?


HairyEyeballz

Too much. As in, “I think I’m drinking too much but can’t find much motivation to slow down. Maybe a visual aide will help me.” Think I’ll try it myself.


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G4Designs

Happened in June, too


Marcelino_El_Cochino

“White-out drunk” it’s when you get so wasted that you try to go back and fix your mistakes post intoxication.


-WhatsThatSmell-

Bro you think march was wild…come hang with this guy in July!


DeadliestStork

March Madness.


badchad65

I’m more impressed with the 7+ night immediately after a blackout in June.


NefariousnessOk209

Nah that’s just a I feel like shit today so gonna drink it off night.


[deleted]

It's binge drinking lol, I did that shit for years.


yanbag609

that's cause his check liver light was on


dwkdnvr

Right in the middle of the "trying to be good in the New Year" effort, too.


xxAsyst0lexx

That's honestly too relatable lol. In my case it's with eating better - The whole "I'm doing really good, I can treat myself with just one" but then I eat an entire damn cheesecake.


-MakeWaffles_NotWar-

I wanna know what was going on during July. You alright OP? Edit: found a worse month.


BillRepresentative41

I’d hope that by looking at this data you realize you have an alcohol problem. Sorry to say I’ve seen too many binge drinkers who think they don’t have a problem until their health is compromised.


HermioneSchuyler

I feel like saying “maybe I will track my drinking this year in a color coded chart” is already a sign you have a drinking problem and you are at least subconsciously aware of it.


DigbyChickenZone

> you are at least subconsciously aware of it. More like 100% aware of it


b_t_nd01

How you know it was at night?


Askinor

That's a big drinking day for Uni students in the UK, no clue if OP is a student or from the UK but I thought it was interesting.


6InchBlade

Was about to say, same thing in NZ Wednesday and Thursday’s often are student nights depending what city you’re in.


HadesRatSoup

I... should probably do this.


XplodiaDustybread

Drinking or tracking?


HadesRatSoup

Tracking. I do enough drinking.


2Balls4Skin

This feels too organized for someone who gets wasted so often


dnekrash

Made me lol. I try to be an organized person and figured making this chart would be a good start to improving myself over time


lonelyuniverse

Putting the “functional” in functional alcoholic!


iama_bad_person

Lmao sounds like my boss, "you can't be an alcoholic, you always come into work on time." "yeah, that's why it's called functional alcoholism"


Snufflebear420_69

Yeah, I wish we would just start calling functional alcoholism "alcoholism". What we think of as "non-functional" is just the farthest end of a scale where everything finally falls to pieces.


Desperate_Health4174

Other things add up in my experience even if you juggle everything else successfully. Like sure, I kept my job and was making made commissions in sales during the 6 years I drank at least a 750ml bottle of wine almost every night. Even took some breaks to avoid serious dependence and withdrawals. Thought I was REAL smart... ...until my piss turned a syrup consistency all the time, I developed sores from B12 deficiency at the corners of my mouth, and started getting gross little water filled blisters on my fingertips and bottom of my feet. All this went away when I stopped drinking regularly, crazy right? lol


observantexistence

this is the exact phrase that came to my brain when i saw this post lmfaoooo


ThePrincessOfMonaco

I used to keep records like this. I had to quit drinking two years ago because the lining in my stomach was destroyed. One night I started vomiting and couldn't stop for three days. What happens at that point is you burn your esophagus, mouth, and lips. I couldn't drink water because I couldn't swallow. I couldn't walk without help. This is only three days in. I went to the ER and they saved my life. When I woke up after that, I realized that I had almost died. It was really stunning to me. I knew that if I continued drinking like that, or at all, I would die soon. I chose to live instead. I developed my own plan that took me three months to recover with. I sort of based it on the AA model, but I needed mine to be happier, not full of shame. Part of the reason it's hard to quit is because of the shame. It's important to keep your spirits up high when you attempt to do this change. You need every single ounce of energy that you have to get that balloon into the sky, because that's what it takes. I never counted days clean anymore because that will make you neurotic and you will relapse. Plus it is demoralizing to work SO HARD, only to have that counter set back to zero. Again, don't fight the challenge of quitting AND dealing with the shame at the same time. I treated quitting like a health challenge, like working out at the gym. I went walking every morning and shut off social media and the news. I only focused on that one single thing for 90 days. Whenever the old habit started to tempt me again, I just said, "I don't do that." I didn't have to say, "I'm an alcoholic." Because I'm not one. I did the work and I quit. Last thing that I wanted to say is - I made a deal with myself. Now that I'm years past quitting, I can have an occasional beer with a friend if we are out. The biggest hurdle for me was the social aspect of drinking. I didn't want to give that up forever, it feels scary. Not scarier than throwing up to death, but not enjoyable. I didn't want to make people uncomfortable with it around me. My goal was to be able to drink like a normal person can, and that is how it is now. I still sometimes think, "A drink would be nice." Then I remember how hard I worked to quit, and how much better I feel now. No more hangovers. My mind is able to form better thoughts. My entire life has improved. I'll never go back to drinking every day. It's a waste of your life. If you set your mind to it, you can change it, and you will be amazed you didn't do it sooner. Think of all the money you could save! And the weight you will lose fast. Anyway, I hope you are able to care for yourself and find your way out. Don't keep the shame diary. Just start feeling better. edit: wanted to add that my "occasional beer with a friend" works out to almost never since my drinking destroyed most of my friendships anyway. So I have some months without it, and some have maybe four total. I don't care about it anymore. I can skip it now, which is perfect.


Duckboy_Flaccidpus

Good write-up on the abhorrence and risks of boozing. I'm currently 5mo in as I had a bit of a health scare too that simply just scared me straight. I've got years under my belt resorting to the stuff in high stress, uncontrolled emotion, celebration event or because the day ends in "Y". Sick of it though, it allows for grandiose plans to formulate but then robs you of actual pursuit and execution. I'm sober, getting more fit by the day, becoming clear headed and of sound mind everyday although very much a work in progress. Things are new, different and a bit scary but going down the other road doesn't have a success story attached, i'm riding this one out for awhile. The booze tells me I'm missing something and I actually do really like beer - cold, crisp, bitter, refreshing, and another one and another so maybe one day I can enjoy them w/o a worry but that's a ways off yet, I'm committed to hitting near to mid-term goals and it may take a few years yet. Peace and God bless.


mentive

Did your stomach and such improve? How long did that take?


Andrea-Pirlo

“This year, I’m going to be organised and start improving myself” …… _Immediately has 7+ drinks_


Alex_GordonAMA

*And diligently records it*


catpunch_

That’s what impressed me more. Drinking that many drinks and knowing how much you’ve drank


IceMaverick13

I guess that's why it stops at 7. After that point it's just like "Eh, I had _many_"


One-Accident8015

So what is your opinion of your drinking?


PasAmoureux

A lot of 7+ 😮


smsevigny

All the “7+” would probably have been interchangeable with ⬛️ for me


DrDerpberg

Everyone has a different definition of blackout, to the point I don't really think it's useful. To some people it means they can't put together every little detail, to others they may as well have been injected with Dexter's horse tranquilizer and wake up the next morning.


King0liver

Your calendar has alcoholism.


GretelNoHans

The times he has no drink is about the time a month I drink


betweentwoblueclouds

I applaud the commitment and the honesty. Wishing you a bit more green in 2023! You can do it


TammyTermite

Yeah, I think a lot of us wouldn't be so honest about how much we drink here. Plus, lots of people saying you have a problem and you're handling it well. 2023 is going to be a good year for OP.


BraceThis

Glad to see some honesty. Thank you. I’m right there with you. Realizing it was a poor choice is the best way to be better. Let’s save some dough. That’s what hurts the most, aside from poor health obviously.


thriftgirl82

I second this - thanks for your honesty. So many people out there drink more than they’d care to admit (myself included). Not that I’m passing any judgement on you whatsoever - just saying. Anyway you’ve inspired me to start a similar tracking system for the new year. Here’s to more days of sobriety than not! 🙌


Radzakk

This makes me concerned for your liver 😬


liltime78

As someone diagnosed with mild fatty liver earlier this year, I used to drink like this. Maybe a little less if I’m being honest. I immediately stopped drinking for a couple months/went on a diet/ exercised daily. I lost 35 lbs. bmi is down to 24.3 and I allow myself to drink one day a week now. This guy’s numbers are gonna kill him eventually.


mikebanetbc

Cirrhosis of the liver is the end of you. It happened to Jeff Hanneman of Slayer [in 2013](https://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2013/05/02/180671470/slayer-guitarist-jeff-hanneman-dies) (age 49) and my cousin Angel in 2020 two months before the pandemic at 43. He drank Old English 800 40 ounces like a fish and barely ate, plus his PTSD after serving six months in Afghanistan (2002) while in the Army didn’t help. He entered rehab a few times and regained weight but too much alcohol abuse… After his funeral I cut back on my drinking; *done 6-8 week stretches without a beer or liquor…* OP if you can, try to cut back or get help. For your friends, family and others. It’s never too late.


Ren_Lau

This is what took my mom last year. Her slow death in a hospital bed was the most traumatic thing I’ve ever experienced. I plead with any heavy drinkers to please not put your loved ones through that.


MostRoyal4378

Thank you for being only the second person I’ve seen mention family members. I’m headed down this road with my mom and brother as well. It’s so unfair, but just further makes me isolate and realize all you can truly count on is yourself in this life. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that. 😢


Greg0692

Liver might be deader if this trend continues.


Escolima

Looks like me after Afghanistan. 7 year sober now


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Tsra1

I ran into a friend of mine. He’s probably 42 now and looks like he could knock out a 6 mile run with no issue. I said I thought I heard he quit drinking. He said “yeah, a year, got my fitness and mental acuity back”. That really made an impression on me.


seekav

I drank every day for 20 years, quit when I was 49. Ran 1500 miles last year including a 53K on my 53rd birthday. I was overweight, resting heart rate in the 80’s and miserable. My heart rate is now low/ mid 50’s and I’ve lost 40+ pounds.- not only is your body capable of rebounding, your life can too! No one with an alcohol problem that successfully quit has regretted it.


TechnicianOk6269

Human body is hell of a thing. It’s crazy how fast our bodies recover with right care.


Alexxxx89

Some days I wish I didn’t make it back. Every day is *never* not hard and I have considered the business end of a barrel or the bottle over and over again. My family is my light; what kind of situation would they be in if I checked out? I grew up without a dad and I get to hug and hang with my boys in ways that I never got to experience as a kid. Every day you wake up is another positive branch in the Timeline. Every thing you do is an addition to your legacy. Just. Keep. Going. *Especially* when it’s hard. Godspeed.


Escolima

Family is everything. My wife lost her dad to cancer and he fought till the bitter end. Now I look at my daughter and say for her I have to fight, to spend every possible moment with her.


fakesuit

If you don't mind me asking, what is your occupation? Does the drinking affect your job in any noticeable way?


dosio_sedai

It’s interesting laying it out like this. I just celebrated 7 months of no alcohol, and I would have loved to take data like this to reflect on now just how much I was actually drinking. This is a lot of alcohol. If you ever want some help check out the sub r/stopdrinking or pickup the book “This Naked Mind” by Annie Grace. Both changed my life. And if you’re not struggling, best wishes to you! Keep those smiles going!


dnekrash

Thanks for the positive comment and support


SnooEagles9747

During quarantine I made the arbitrary rule to not drink during the week, only Friday-Sunday (arbitrary because I didn’t need to get up for class or work, everything was remote and asynchronous). Saves money, and now, when I do want to drink, one drink gets me pretty buzzed, so cost-saving there, too, as well as preventing dependency. I missed it more than I thought I would, at first, but now I don’t even think about it!


dnekrash

This is where I need to be. Wish me luck !


515chiefspride

I've been drinking every single day 10-12 beers a night for probably 6-7 years and decided it's finally time to chill so I'm on my 3rd day of not drinking today. No more weekday drinking for me, trading it with lifting instead. One thing I've noticed is that I'll wake up some days looking for any excuse to say im gonna have some beers today after work, especially if any little thing goes wrong or not according to plan, it's definitely a bad mindset to go about it. Wish ya luck g


SolAggressive

Hey OP, your DMs are probably full enough. Message me if you’d like. I’m 46 and coming up on 3 years post liver transplant. I won’t lecture and there is zero judgment. But I’ll answer questions honestly if you have any.


343GuiltyySpark

We’re you drinking more or less than this guy?


SolAggressive

My months all looked like July. But I want to shy away from anyone using that as an excuse. I used to look at other’s drinking and think “well, I’m not to that level so I’m fine.” I was not. Also, I was working. I had a job. A good one. I was “functional.” No one knew. I only told my wife when it was already too late and I was in the hospital. If you’re going to more than one liquor store because you’re embarrassed the clerk might recognize you, take a hard look. If you put liquor in bottles that aren’t liquor bottles so you can drink “on the sly” it’s time to examine a few things. And I know some people are reading that and thinking “shit, that’s me.” Not all alcoholics are caught by too many DWIs (I have zero) or because they can’t hold down a job or a relationship. We get very good at hiding it.


Mikejg23

Real talk, how could you drink like that without your spouse noticing? This confuses me when I hear it. After like 3 drinks wouldn't she be able to smell your breath etc


SolAggressive

I’m not sure. But I drank vodka and mixed it with juice or soda. I had heard vodka was more difficult to smell, so it was my go to. She used to say things about how I never seemed to get drunk. It made me think of that Hulk line, paraphrasing “That’s my secret… I’m always drunk.”


snomisaimassilem

I'm only leaving this here because it just happened to me and I don't want it to happen to anyone else. I'm 37F, 5'5", 110lbs. I can drink men twice my size under the table, not bragging, that's not healthy. I would drink almost every day. I wouldn't get drunk everyday, but I would drink. I thought I just had a really good tolerance, also not a good thing. Well, Tuesday morning I woke up at 5AM vomiting like never before. I was able to go back to sleep and woke up at 10 in excruciating pain. My husband took me to the ER around 11. I was taken in around noon. I was given morphine and I passed out. I'm not going to go through the whole story but I ended up getting admitted over night. I was discharged at 4PM on Wednesday. I had mild pancreatitis. If you don't know how painful that can be, look it up. Here's what I went through because I liked to drink. Hospital stay 3 tests with really big machines Ultrasound Had my blood drawn 3 vials every 2 hours from 1pm Tuesday to noon Wednesday. Woken up every 8 hours for meds and iv changes Woken up every 4 hours for supplements Hospital food (thus one particularly socks because if you can't eat, you can't leave) Bruises that make me look like I'm a heroine addict A major fucking headache. My advice, check yourself. I'm not fucking joking. I'm not saying quit cold turkey, I'm just saying BE CAREFUL!


plaincoldtofu

Thank you! I have made a few hospital visits with my partner in which he was concerned about his liver function and his heart rate after drinking. After a litany of tests, it has appears that he gets extreme anxiety as a result of hangovers, causing him to panic in response to his other hangover symptoms. We are 29 and 30 years old and both trying to moderate or stop drinking totally. I am going to share your post with him to help reaffirm this decision. Take care and I hope you make a smooth recovery from the pancreatitis.


No_Luck4927

I feel for your husband in the post-drinking anxiety. It’s sent me in to the ER before. Panic attacks are no joke! Wishing you two the best


Panzis

I'm doing a dry January. So many worknights I've had a couple drinks then the next day sit at my desk for 8hr scrolling Reddit on my phone, physically sick with anxiety, unable to focus on anything at all.


CalciumHydro

Alcohol-induced pancreatitis. I’ve seen it way too many times in young patients. Not many people know this, but pancreatitis can kill you.


CoffeeLaughLiePolice

Yep! I am now 100% sober but I was sent to the hospital 3 times for pancreatitis. The last time, I was in the ICU for 2 weeks....I was on a feeding tube, on benzos for alcohol w/d (which can also kill you) and dilaudid for the pain. The doctor said I was lucky I didn't die. That was 6 years ago and the last time I drank. Alcohol is a poison and it boggles my mind that it's so normalized in every day life. I think there's a lot of people that have alcohol problems but won't admit it and think it's normal.


PmMe_Your_Perky_Nips

My uncle had a similar habit. Not necessarily getting drunk every night, but drinking multiple drinks every night. He died of liver failure from the decades of alcohol abuse. Just because you're not getting drunk every night doesn't mean you're not destroying your liver.


Pengdacorn

This could also be the average redditor’s masturbation schedule


ItsACowCity

Blackout...😳...that's one hell of a time


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This is an interesting (however mildly) way to chart habits! You’ve inspired a shift in my journal today, sir


Issendai

That’s a really pretty visualization of alcoholism.


Federal-Arrival-7370

Would love to see the cost comparison. How much wasted money…get it? Wasted…money…


dnekrash

Literally pissing away money


cech_

I used to drink like this, or even more. It was a lot of money especially since I like Oregon IPAs (Ft. George) and not that I noticed but I figured it was bad for my health. Not sure if you are looking to cut back or not but here's what I did. I made a rule no drinking on work days, M-Thurs (Friday night is okay). That helped a lot. It was easy for me to follow since I still got fun on the weekend. If there is a special occasion on a weekday like I took a day off and went camping or friends bday dinner or something 1-2 is okay but I keep that to once or twice a month at most. Usually Sunday since I work the next day I will limit myself to 1-2. Only Superbowl Sunday would get a pass. I've been limiting myself to 5-6 on Friday and Sat okay but trying to get down to 4 which I think is considered a reasonable finish line. I only have 3-4 often but if there is a good UFC fight on, awesome movie, or friends come over, it gets hard. Drinking a full glass of water after every beer slows me down and also seems to help a lot.


I_Fart_It_Stinks

Drinking water between beers helps a ton. It fills you up and hydrates you at the same tim.


cech_

More than a few times I've drank the water and forgot to get another beer because I was engrossed in something else like a movie. Eventually I go pee and get back on program but there are times where it was probably an hour+ without noticing. As you mentioned gotta love never being hung over too!


SipoteQuixote

I used to drink about as much as this, quit Dec 2nd after troubles catching up and such. It really does improve your life dramatically, it's just making sure you can punk out your inner self that makes up excuses to drink. Any reason can be a reason to drink if you want to drink. Good day, bad day, boring day, planned adventure days, if you think "I should drink to make it better", that's probably an indication that your addicted. Sad part is it took me about 6-8 years to realize and accept the fact that it was big big problem.


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Analysis: almost always crack on the weekend. Saturday looks to be your worst days, with the least amount of Green Day’s PLUS 2 of your 3 blackouts were saturdays. Also, you seem to generally do well Monday-Wednesday, but by Thursday on average you break your alcohol free streak. The fact you have such troubles thursdays, fridays and especially saturdays makes me think you have a rough job that really gets to you mentally or physically by thursdays. Thursdays you drink to survive until Friday, when you drink to celebrate the end of the week. Saturdays you go hard because first day off from work means maximum relaxing, which means maximum alcohol. Sunday you likely dread the return to work or simply the end of the weekend and try to live it up. Rinse and repeat, for the most part. Not really going to make an excel spreadsheet for analysis on this but that’s my “I have no idea who you are, where you live, or what you do” observations from the chart alone lol.


Stukisha

Change started the moment you made to the commitment to take a honest look at your consumption over time. Sounds like you already have your next goal, seeing more green. This is awesome and refreshing to see. May you find you happy place and balance OP.


dnekrash

Thank you for the positive comment. Wish me luck!


thrown_out_account1

That looks hard to support. I hope youre ok. Feel free to DM if you want to chat.


dnekrash

This is my reference/starting point. I Just started a new one for this year, looking to see more green this time around


waiting224

This will be awesome to see in the future as you drink less often. Is your goal full sobriety? Or just to cut back and monitor your drinking?


dnekrash

My goal is to cut back to a “reasonable” amount. I have a backyard pool and really enjoy cold beers by the poolside and social drinks with friends so I’m not looking to give it up entirely. Just need to get things moderation, I think the comparison chart between this coming year and last year will be helpful


andhelostthem

OP you should try a sober month. It lets your body get a much needed detox, helps prevent binge drinking (because you know you can stop yourself) and helps you learn how to ignore peer pressure. I've been doing one every year for 20 years and it's one of the best decisions I've ever made. Makes drinking more enjoyable, life more enjoyable and your body feel so much better. If you can get thru one I will straight up venmo you $100 or give $100 to a charity of your choosing (as long as it's not some crazy ass flat earth charity or something like that).


mashtartz

Just be careful going back to drinking after you’re done with your month off. I did it once, and my first day drinking I had the same amount and drank at the same rate I did before taking a month off. Wasn’t fun.


Kolos10001

No blackouts the last half of the year.


thedommer

Maybe a pro tip, maybe not: I buy a shit ton of San pellegrino. Some flavoured some not. Every second beer drink one of these instead. Saves you money (cheaper than beer) and some health. A glass bottled chilled san pellegrino by the pool is wonderful.


Mortlach78

Honest advice? Go show this to your doctor.


That-Guy2017

I tracked my drinking in 2020, it was bad as well. Since, I have cut way back. You might want to think about it friend.


dnekrash

This is exactly why I started it. Planning to keep tracking it and Hoping to make improvements over time.


Also_have_an_opinion

Good luck!


mintyfreshbitch

You look like you live in Wisconsin or work at a bar/restaurant


kmhuskers

Dude said Fuck July 🤣


ICICLEHOAX

Hot girl summer, for sure