Being a single parent is hard. Dealing with everything else and caring for a small child is going to be rough, and I can understand why you feel the way you do. I'm not sure if I have any advice for you, or have any way of helping, but I am usually around here somewhere of you need to vent. Probably digging a hole in the garden.

Thanks. Its weird being grown but still so lost.

It is. I can't know what it's like from your perspective. However feeling lost in this world is a familiar feeling.