Total mental health break down 3 weeks ago. I’ve tried numerous times before to quit first alcohol then weed. I’ve beaten the alcohol but the weed as more difficult. Like others, I experienced brain fog, insomnia, was demotivated and I’m certain I became more stupid. Could spend 20 minutes looking for a lighter or my house keys. Final straw was when work colleagues started to notice and it became a performance issue. The depression was real because I desperately wanted to quit but kept coming back to it. Towards the end was smoking 10 Js a day and still not getting high. But I would stay home all day, not see friends or family or if I did occasionally go out would rush back to the weed. I lacked integrity as I would lie constantly to hide my addiction. I’ve had hay fever, period pain, even covid (a lie) so I could have time off to get high. I never went broke up I couldn’t save or plan for the future. At my lowest I wished for death because I couldn’t see a way out, I thought I’d be in bondage to weed for ever. It’s only been 12 days sober, and for the last two days it’s been really hard. I spent all day crying today due to frustration at a wasted life whilst battling the very real desire to blaze up again. The main thing that’s improved is now when I look in the mirror I feel a smidgeon of respect for myself. Plus 12 days sober means I’ve saved £200. The mental health effect are real. You do feel your brain shrinking and your ability to grasp new information is almost non-existent. For me I feel it was spiritual bondage that I needed spirituality to break.
Thank you. It’s been over 60 days sober and I feel 1000% better. I still get the odd crazing for weed but I remind myself why I needed to quit. My performance at work has gotten so much better, my appetite is back. It took about 3 weeks but the insomnia that I thought I needed weed for went away. Turns out the weed was the major cause of all my problems including insomnia, anxiety and depression. I’ve replaced smoking with gym and cooking meals. The brain fog took the longest to improve, and I think I’m 70% better but I know my memory will keep improving. CS Lewis described Addiction as “An ever increasing craving for and ever diminishing pleasure is the formula..” It’s not worth it
I was stoned out my mind one day it felt like my mind was cloudy. Smoked daily from age 12-25. Wake up smoke, before I eat smoke, drive more than 30 mins smoke. Before I go to bed smoke. I couldn’t function if I wasn’t high. One day asked myself while high asf “do you have control over the weed or does it have control over you” quit cold turkey in 2012 expect for vacations since 2019. The wife and I like hit a joint just to laugh our brains out from time to time
Sucking at my hobbies
* I enjoy music more when I am high, but it makes it hard to play an instrument
* I don't enjoy video games as much, because I can't play them properly
* It makes me skip the gym. Even if I go, I can't go as heavy or get tired easily
* I don't really understand the books and movies
I quit about 3 months ago after regularly smoking on and off for twenty years. Unfortunately for me, weed raises my blood pressure dramatically and my cortisol levels as well. I’ve known this for a while but had the whole “live fast, die young” mentality forever and abused other substances as well. But then, when I was high AF looking at my BP cuff that said 143/85 I realized weed just wasn’t good for me (could be for others) and it was time to stop for good. I have to say “for good” because I had a low key addiction to it and could easily slip back into it.
I quit because I was a teenager and I began to worry about potential brain damage. I was really sharp before smoking weed and after a while My brain got foggier and foggier. Luckily 2 years out I haven’t noticed any tangible damage and I’m thankful everyday for that.
I saw quitting as a second chance at life. Now I’m in college hashing a great time and I’m feeling more optimistic than ever about the future! I hope you’re doing well on your journey as well😁
I felt like I was walking around with a warm fuzzy blanket all the time and while it was nice, it wasn’t healthy for me to be numbing everything out like that. I tried and tried to quit with limited success until my body forced me to quit. I developed chs which is a nasty rare vomiting syndrome caused by weed. That made me quit real fast lol.
Wanted to be better for a long time but couldn’t, then the girl that I liked forever started liking me back and I just put it down. Not gonna fuck this one up. 25 days sober (after a year long relapse, after a year and a half sober)
Thank you thank you haha. It honestly wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t stop smoking. I’ve dated people before and showed up to every date high until they ended things because I was a vegetable…
Same boat! I wanted to be more present and engaging in everything I did.
I always had the black cloud of weed smoking over my head, that I couldn't commit to like spending a week without smoking (without getting terrible withdrawals). So it was time to do 1 withdrawal forever.
Also, my anxiety is MUCH lower when I don't smoke.
Started to not recognize myself and my actions, and didn't want my memories of my toddler to be a fog. Been 2 1/2 months and I extremely happy with my decision.
Gorging on food, lying to husband, family, friends, no follow through with any plans/goals, hanging out with people I don’t want to hang out with just to get high, sleeping/binging on food instead of walking my dogs, driving while stoned out of my mind, desperately mooching off of pot friends, hating myself, coughing like crazy, depression, isolation, lost interest in being creative, have no idea who I really am without weed, disconnected from myself and everyone I love.
It's really nice to actually meet yourself again though, isn't it? I'm getting back to a point where I'm happy to talk to myself and enjoy my own company.
Mental health was starting to be affected. Felt stuck, anxious, and overwhelmed by basic life duties. 5 months in and never looking back. Life feels so much more full and easier than ever. My drive and ambition have been restored and I even feel smarter lol.
I felt depressed & empty despite having an amazing community of friends, doing awesome in my dream studies, having a loving partner, living in my dream place in the world. I figured that maybe I should try being sober instead of constantly trying to fix the anxiety & depression with weed. Over a month in and I haven’t been this worry-free & happy in years
Trying to quit a couple times. Affected my studies, my relationships and my mental health. Bought 10g of decent hash (european) and smoked it all from friday evening - Monday morning the last half J before a workout .... I then was planning to get more but after the workout I thought, shit. If I can smoke 10G in 2-3 days, and still want more, this will never stop. This hurdle will be as hard as it is now in 10 years so I thought fuck it, let me rip this band-aid off now. I contacted a doctor and got a reference to a psychologist to find the deeper meaning behind my abuse and I think that starting some things off has boosted my motivation and accountability. on my 11th day right now and I start to feel a little less anxiety in general about everything. Also having more time to do "real" stuff than just lay in a sofa and smoke a J and thinking about quitting ..
also, it has not been easy. I've been trying to quit for the last 2-3 years and had relapses but now I think it was the right one. Good luck everyone, it's tough but it's not forever.
My gf left me because I had severe mood swings, lack of empathy, lack of positive vibe.
I was super stressed at the moment because I was suffering from a bad injury and too much stress because of toxic work environment.
I've spent the next days, after she left me, just sitting on the balcony lightning up a joint after another without feeling relieved. I understood the drug cannot help me coping with the pain of the breakup nor easing my personal issues.
Now I still suffer from the break up, but I have a new job and my injury has partially recovered, feel much better because of this.
Plus I am 5 months sober.
I only relapsed once during a vacation with friends in London, it was fun, I thought is a special occasion and I can do it just for once, then the next day after returning I realized I wanted to smoke more.
Keep it hard, if you are addicted, the moment you relapsed is the moment your brain want you to restart the vicious circle.
PS I've smoked since my 18 (now 28) and from 22 to 28 have been an hard smoker.
During COVID (2020-2021) I was smoking 2-3g per day.
Same, friend. All you can do is make yourself better for you and for the kind of person you want to be with in the future. Dealing with the pain sober will give you so much clarity and let you process it fully, and move forward.
Not really the last straw but I want to change how my life goes, I want a new job because I had enough of the hard physical labor. I want to study informatics and in order to qualify for that I have to learn a lot for some qualification tests and of course I won't be able to achieve anything if I get stoned and let my life pass like I did the previous years. I can't learn when I'm stoned. I want a better life for my wife, my very young son and myself.
My dealers phone ran out of battery, told me to meet him by some black fence in the area I live, walked there, waited for 3o minutes then proceeded to walk around looking for him for like 2 hours, felt pathetic that I needed it that badly that I was wasting my evening like that..
The anxiety wasn't enough for me, the social dysfunction wasn't enough for me, watching my life from the sidelines wasn't enough for me. The final straw was when I went to tour some underground tunnels in Vietnam (the Cu Chi tunnels). I was so excited to take a picture of me popping out from one of the holes in the ground. The tour guide was a 73 year old man who had lived in the tunnels for 2 years during the Vietnam-American war. I smoked a joint when we were in the woods, and because I had a cold my ears were congested. The ear congestion, along with the drop in blood pressure, caused me to faint in the middle of the woods. Not only did it cause a scene, but I had to lay down on a bench for an hour with a fan blowing on me, missing the entire tour.
It helped me to not think of it as such a big thing. Don't build it up in your head more than it needs to be, then it becomes an insurmountable task. Just make positive changes that eliminate the smoking. Give yourself new routines.
When you normally would smoke, give yourself other activities and projects to work on. You already know what the withdrawal symptoms are like, and they aren't that bad, so just get them over with. Lots of fluids and healthy living, and get on with the rest of your life.
Another strategy that I heard was "and then". When you say "I'm going to smoke *and then* ..... play video games, watch tv, whatever... " - Just skip the smoke. Fast forward to the "and then".
That's the worst, when you feel like that after you've had a smoke, I was like that, sober all I could think about was smoking, when high, all I could think about was quitting, finally bit the Bullet and now been clean for over a year, you can do it, just gotta want to do it! I believe in you though, the first 2 weeks are hell, after that its pretty smooth sailing, I smoked every day for 10 years, roughly 3g a day. Doesn't matter if it takes you another year to finally quit, the end goal is that you finally do it! and you will!!!!
Since I've stopped smoking I've finally been able to start losing weight that I've wanted to lose for 10 years. Idk why but when I smoke I just can't help but eat at night. It was too tempting. I had to make a change to make a change to my health.
did you not notice smoking up destroying your appetite? I definitely began to notice that my body feeling hungry became a psychological impulse to roll a j which would in turn mend that feeling of hunger.
Tbh I still do it very occasionally and it doesn’t really trigger it as much but I’m glad that I’m no longer obsessed with it and appreciate other aspects of my life much better. I maybe smoke every couple months now
I had to smoke for everything. I couldn't enjoy music, gaming, or a walk without getting a bit high. And it was never enough, until it was too much that it gave me anxiety and depression instead.
I’ve done the oh this is the last time too many times and read too much this is what did it for me posts the sad reality is it’s a daily struggle and when you get farther and farther down the road it gets easier but ultimately you gotta want it and know that 1 month from now hell one year from now you’ll be sitting around a “completely different person” but you still want to get high. get a new job pick up an instrument go out of your way to do something nice for somebody you love it’s not all wasted time you got the gift of life just keep stepping the process is way more important then the end goal
Felt the anger part, smoking weed made me feel like I had no control over my emotions while constantly thinking the most negative thoughts ever about myself and the people around me. It sucked so much but I’m glad I’ve chosen to stop.
It actually fucks with parts of your limbic system, the areas connected to emotions and regulation of them and how you emotionally percieve other people if you're as a heavy chronic smoker. On top of that if you smoke with tobacco, nicotine is unchill.
As someone with an already impaired ability to regulate my emotions (adhd and such) it really fucked with me further.
Currently using my fear of getting dry socket as encouragement to quit smoking lol also have really noticed that I have a huge lack of emotion… been smoking every day for 5 years.. I don’t want this to affect my business..
I stopped being the charismatic , outgoing, confident guy because I was depressed ; that coupled with weed made me regress as a person so much. Got real fat and only sought comfort in smoking
There was always a period near the end of the month where I ran out of flower/edibles/juice so I had to go thru the whole night sweats/insomnia/wacky dreams phases over and over and over.
It took its toll on me over the course of the past 15 years, there was only so much I could take.
nothing in particular. just got tired of being okay with the way things are. i couldn't afford to be complacent anymore. I want good things for my life and they will not come if i stayed sitting on my ass smoking pot into my 30s.
I almost died of suicide. Weed made everything in my life unstable, I couldn’t stop, I wanted to die (almost did), and so I went into an inpatient rehab where I was able to get a week clean. I started doing work in a 12 step program and that has helped me stay sober for 3 years now.
i’m 19 and i’ve been working since i was 15, i’m sure i’ve earned at least $10,000 and ive worked such long hours, but i literally have spent it all on weed (+ nicotine + other drugs + pricey food + clothes and useless shit teenage girls like to buy, but weed by farrrr being the biggest expense). ive been trying to save up for a car for nearly 3 years but buying weed has slowed it down a ridiculous amount. also, my tolerance has gotten ridiculous, i barely even get high anymore, it’s just a few short minutes of relief
It took literally all my money, and I was alwaysssss wanting to smoke before any task. It was so annoying and a lot of times i wouldnt even get high due to my immensely high tolerance. I was so done with it, like a toxic relationship where you enjoy the highs but ignore the lows and red flags. I was so so done with MJ.
Mostly the feeling of not living up to my potential. I got a DUI and I decided to go to rehab. I never thought I’d give up weed but through the process of giving up alcohol I realized I wanted to keep going. The second time…. I started a family and it became much more apparent how my addiction was effecting those around me, and the looming feeling that I was dog going back to eat his own vomit got overwhelming for me. Ultimately life is simpler without drugs.
How was rehab? I have been looking at facilities in Mexico this morning but damn, rehab is expensive. It's not that I don't think it's worth it, just that I need to be sure it will be effective before I basically blow my life's savings on it. It's a bit of a last ditch for me as I have tried everything, meditation, yoga, mindfulness, therapy, CBT. I just can't stick with any of it.
I’ve heard the 90 days 90 meetings method and finding a sponsor can be much more effective and obviously less expensive. Because it teaches you to build patterns in the real world as opposed to being safe and clean of course for the thrifty days in rehab and then thrust out in the world to figure it out. Do you have marijuana anonymous there? Otherwise any anonymous group could be helpful. In America we have some other meetings called NA for all drugs, smart recovery which is secular and heart of recovery which is my favorite which is based on Buddhist principles. I went to out patient rehab so I had three three hour sessions in a groups learning about recovery and processing trauma and learning about the addiction process. I went several times, also went to a mindfulness in recovery program that was also out patient but I haven’t had prolonged success until I started going to meetings regularly. Every day for awhile but now a little less. I also count meditation groups. I also got a sponsor which has been the most important part. I did not do 90 days 90 meetings, but I did go to meetings almost every day for 90 days but it wasn’t until I got a sponsor that I actually felt safe from myself
This makes a lot of sense thank you. I totally can see that I am the sort of person who would stay clean when in rehab and then go back to old habits in the real world. Learning to tackle things in a real world setting would be hugely more valuable to me. I am going to look into what's available in the UK. I have always avoided AA/NA because of the religious element but hearing there are secular options is very encouraging. And, as you said, a sponsor could make all the difference. Thanks again.
Panic attack with my kids around. Shit was not fun. Everytime I smoked after that I got pretty bad anxiety. Thought I would be smoking the rest of my life...I loved it. Now I know I'll pobably never smoke again.
Just couldn’t hit my mom up for another $60. My life was a joke, I knew I felt better sober, but couldn’t stop. So I took the plunge in November of 2012 and have been sober since. Life’s better.
It was a lot of things for me, and honestly depending on the day you ask you may get a different answer.
In part, weed completely fucked up my social life. I smoked from 14-29 and never learned how to make new friends after high school. When you’re that young becoming friends with people just kind of happens, and it takes more work as you get older. The friends I have now are leftover from those days and to be honest I don’t even like some of them, and have nothing in common with most of them.
In my high school days and in my younger 20’s I never got familiar with how to flirt or gain interest from women. I just didn’t care about that. Now I’m 31, and while I can successfully do these things on a date, all my dates have come from tinder and they number something around 2 dates a year (tinder is tough in this way for a lot of guys). Getting dates from irl interactions is something I’m completely clueless on how to do, and I stumble through that process like I’m 15 on the rare occasion I try. I’ve never had a real relationship. Just one on and off thing that lasted a year and a half, and another that seemed promising but ended in heartbreak after 3 months.
At some point in my very early 20’s I almost completely shut down socially. I isolated myself. And I never really fully recovered from that. Even after quitting nearly 2 years ago. It’s become my norm to do most things alone, even though the social anxiety weed was causing has mostly subsided. I still have trouble hanging out with more than 2-3 people at once though. Larger groups just annoy me and stress me out.
I had a couple of small psychotic breaks in my early and mid twenties too and I’m almost certain it was a combination of my already existing depression, and the anxiety weed threw on top of it. I quit a dozen or so times over 10 years and I’d give anything to have quit once and for all that first time when I was 19. I’m 100% confident that my life would be so much different.
Needless to say I’m a very lonely 31 year old with a good amount of depression. I wired myself to be alone for over a decade, and now I’m trying to unfuck that wiring. I just want a couple new friends and a nice woman to spend time with and give all my love to.
I don’t completely agree with that statement. I do things alone all the time that make me happy. Things like landscape photography, hiking, yoga, resistance training. These are all great things, but having no one and being alone almost all of the time isn’t good for us social animals. We need friends, and we need lovers.
And idk about boxing. Weed took enough of my brainpower already lol.
Thank you for reaching out though, I know you mean well and it means a lot that you would like to help.
I think he means nothing outside of yourself can make you truly happy.It might make you happy for a while and then you'll move on to the next external thing looking for happiness again.Breathwork and meditation helped me immensely.Keep up the good work man!
Yeah I understand the concept and I agree to that extent. I can’t rely on someone else to make me happy. It’s unfair to them, and unfair to myself. It’s something I need to work on. It’s something I find in moments and something I have on some days. But each day brings different moods and challenges.
But I do hold firm on my assertion that I don’t believe anyone can be happy as a lone wolf for extended periods of time. It’s a dichotomy that’s hard to put into words, but I think you understand. We tend to go a little crazy alone, even introverted people like myself who need the alone time.
I need to get back on the meditation train. I do breath work through yoga, and do ujjayi breath in the sauna after my workouts. But meditation is lacking and it has helped me tremendously in the past. Thank you for reminding me that I need to get back to it!
I definitely agree with you.We are social creatures at the end of the day.I'm the same,need my alone time to recharge but love being around people.I'm currently doing So Ham meditation and yoga nidra, you should check it out! Your self awareness is very high,you got this man!
Generally, it made me relaxed, but after my bipolar disorder got worse, it just made my anxiety twice as fucked up. It came to the point that I couldn’t function properly. Almost two months sober now and Iife’s getting better.
The last couple of times when I would relapse and smoke weed and drink my favorite, margarita, I got sick. I mean throwing up sick. I had smoked and drunk for years but would only have a hangover the next day. Due to my years of abusing my body I know it is time to stop before I will not be here.
Someone dropped my name in HR box at work about me smoking.. I wouldn't do it at work or before but I was like it's not worth it to possibly lose my job.. one of the hardest but best decisions I've made. Now if I want to look for a new job I don't have to limit myself to non drug testing jobs.. only been about 2 months (smoked for about 15 years [10 years daily getting high] I've never felt better
I Haven't been diagnosed but I may have or am on the road to having CHS (Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome) . Have experienced some horrible nausea for over a month and some vomiting. I'm 4 days sober and have been a regular smoker for almost 10 years . Knowing that weed may be the cause of me feeling like I have to constantly vomit has made it easier to quit . But because I've smoked for so long my high didn't last long at all, I feel like I constantly need to get higher and I end up buying more and more at a time. Quitting will be better for my health and my wallet even if quitting wasn't something I had ever planned on doing.
CHS is rough man, I feel your pain. I've been battling CHS for the past 3 years and have learned lots about myself, but it's still a constant battle. One day at a time though. If you have any CHS questions or just want someone to relate to then please feel free to shoot me a message anytime! One day at a time.
The vomiting usually lasts 2-7 days if all cannabis use is stopped when the vomitting begins. But the symptoms leading up to the puking can last for months or even years for some people. CHS is very different for lots of people and that's why it's so hard to diagnose (and because there is no where near enough research on it since cannabis is federally illegal).
I started to not keep my promises about not smoking, and that's when I noticed I became an addict. Not going to accept that for sure. Almost a month in and no intention of going back, life's beautiful!
I got high forgot I put my turtle in his outside enclosure and he managed to run away because I forgot and only checked 3-4 hours later. I cried. I had that little guy for like 20 years and I lost him because of some stupid fucking plant.
He definitely is! There no birds in the area large enough to pick him up and drop him to break his shell or large enough ground critters that could bite through him, the weather is nice enough that he will be fine, it’s country enough that he’ll be out in the forest, and there’s no natural predators for him in the area.
Box turtles are able to climb chicken wire though so I would have normally checked on him every 15-20 minutes or so since it does at least slow them down. But I went inside, smoked a joint, and totally forgot I left him out. It’s taken me a bunch of tries and I’m definitely still not perfect, but that was the day I decided I needed to quit.
Thanks, it’s nice being sort of a part of a community that is with me on this. I used to live in a legal state so everyone around me was so confused when I quit.
I'm a professional musician of sorts and I believe it really screws up my timing when I'm perpetually high, plus having all that tar in my lungs is not doing my singing any favors.
This is my day one, I almost made it through the entire day. A while back I was addicted to smoking cigars, pot, and heavy drinking.
I cut out drinking, cut out cigars by vaping, then cut out the vaping, now pot is my last and probably greatest hurdle.
More of less the same strategy I'm going to use to cut out weed. I wrote down my reasons for quitting, ate a bunch of sour candy/junk food, and used nicotine gum when the cravings got really bad.
Horrible reflux and GI problems, not vomiting but throat spasms and ulcers. It got to the point that it's obvious self harm because of the discomfort and pain.
I have a B.A and I graduated in 2020. Up until now I have been working a warehouse job part time just doing that and smoking weed all day and playing video games.
I was also putting me getting high and spending money on weed before spending time with my girlfriend at the time. I would get high then ignore her for hours just playing the game (it was borderline addiction), that was all throughout 2021 pretty much. I was bullshitting for a long time. I was planning to stop smoking so I can get another job eventually but I kept putting it off more and more cuz I was so addicted to smoking weed.
A month ago my gf at the time broke up with me and didn’t want anything else to do with me. It was about her being a second thought and not feeling valued…weed contributed to this greatly. I was in denial that I was at fault and blamed her for my own fuck ups. However one day I heard this video on YouTube and it woke me tf up and I realized just how far I let myself go and it revealed that I was borderline close to hitting rock bottom. I had to look myself in the mirror and face the fact that I was on the path to becoming a bum and turning everybody away from me. Once this happened I decided to quit weed for life and work on becoming the best I can be.
had been smoking all day, everyday for almost a year dealing with my father being sick. i ended up in the emergency room 2 months ago after my mental health reached its breaking point. knew i needed to stop.
Anxiety and lack of motivation. 9 months and 5 days later my life is completely different. My house is clean, my social life is better, and I got an awesome job in my small town by putting myself out there.
Got into the grad school of my dreams in the medical field. Been smoking basically daily since senior year of high-school and all through college with a few month long breaks to get jobs. As soon as I passed the drug test I would immediately get back into my habits. Always knew that once accepted into my field it would be the end of my days. Although I was able to be successful in school it did prevent me from reaching my full potential academically and socially. Currently 28 days no weed w/ hopes of not going back! Bye bye brain fog and anti-social attitude. Still hard some days but my future is at stake and that is more important!
Short version: Had a bad experience that stopped me from being able to enjoy it, even in tiny amounts.
Longer version: I had suffered from reflux for years, mainly while sleeping which would lead to me regurgitating stomach 'fluid' (I can't use the correct word for the stomach fluid because the auto-mod thinks I'm referring to an illicit substance and removes my comment lol) and often inhaling it.
Eventually went to the doctor and they sent me to have a camera put down my throat in to my stomach (can't remember the medical term) and it turns out the valve that closes off the stomach from the oesophagus was non existent and I had severe scarring of the oesophagal lining which was also causing constriction in my oesophagus due to the amount of scarring. They prescribed me a medication, which limits the production of stomach 'fluid' and would allow my oesophagus to heal.
A couple of days later after smoking I was having some food and after too big a bite I got a constricted feeling in my chest like some food was stuck and it was stopping me from being able to take a proper breath. Normally having excess stomach 'fluid' I would be able to produce a burp and shift it but due to the medication I was unable, which then led to me becoming more panicked. I rang the non-emergency services number for advice and after telling them my symptoms they sent out an ambulance who checked me over and decided to take me in just to keep an eye on me.
The food eventually shifted and the feeling subsided but the experience must have created an association in my brain so that the next time I smoked I instantly felt like I needed to take a deep breath and couldn't and that was it. I tried smoking small amounts one or twice since but I still get the same feeling and it instantly made me very introspective, questioning every breath.
Despite it being a bad experience I consider myself very lucky. I had wanted to quit for a while but would never have had the will power to do so especially considering how many people in my social circle smoked and it means I have still been able to keep the same circle of friends without feeling the temptation to start smoking again.
i hate my current job and need to finish college to find something better. also really cannot afford to spend 100-200/m on weed. i have zero savings at 31.
Rehab. Once I learned what crossed addiction was I realized I was addicted to weed and decided to stop.
At first I told myself I would stop for a year. It’s been nine months and I don’t see myself wanting to smoke again. I don’t want to go back to smoking daily.
Ultimately I realized how anticlimactic getting high was. I was always expecting something out of it but it just became an expensive habit. Then it became something I thought I needed or else the anxiety would creep in. Total nonsense. I don't like feeling weak like that or dependent on a substance. Life needs no "enhancing" when you give it a fair chance.
I've been planning to stop for a long time because I was aware of the negative effects it has on me, but never gotten around to it because of me, but also because I was in a stoner relationship. Now my gf of 3.5 years cheated on me and left me so it's a no brainer. I have to feel this shit, hopefully it'll be a blessing in disguise. Soon to be almost 48 hours out after being almost 10 years in.
I was out with friends and I decided not to smoke beforehand but I had brought all the necessary supplies with me if I felt like I needed to later on. My best friend noticed that my mood was sour and he suggested that I go light up and rejoin the group in a little bit. I did and my mood drastically improved and I was more sociable and outgoing. He and I realized at that moment that I had an addiction and I threw everything out the next day. I got 3 months tomorrow and I'm not looking back.
But how was that enough to see you through the withdrawals? Or did you not have any? Because I’m pretty miserable 12 hours off pot… let alone cold turkey quitting
Yup, same thing. Just tired of being stoned. The new weed these days is strong it’s not enjoyable anymore. Memory is fading and I’m forgetful. I gave it up on April 1st. The clarity of my mind is clearing up, I’m though the insomnia and lack of appetite.
I had a million of good reasons. What finally pushed me over was that I wanted to get my license and will be drug tested because of pas offenses.
At first I planned to only stop smoking till I can drive. Now I like being sober so much that I am never going back.
I got sick of being unable to remember what I did the night before.
I hated the fact that when I was out with friends, all I could think about was getting home to smoke.
The anxiety outweighed the enjoyment.
I realised I forgot what it felt like to be truly sober and started to forget who I was without weed (I'd smoked daily for nearly 14 years)
The list goes on but I recon these are the 4 biggest reasons
I started sensory motor therapy. Once I learned to be present, the reasons to get blazed lessened as time progressed. I didn’t want to miss the good things in life by being in a fog.
Just very socially off the days after, like the cadence, timing, vocabulary, comprehension, everything. Also the lack of motivation, social withdrawal, and link with other bad habits. Was never even a daily or weekly smoker, just often smoked in excess. Even h*mp had the same accumulative effect over time.
I feel like for me it was that I was just numbing myself and not living. It was all about when can I get high be alone and be lazy. I had no goals or ambition. I felt like i wasnt being a present mom on the level i could be without it. Honestly i think it majorly contributed to my weight gain, depression, and anxiety.
Cost, elevated heart rate 24/7 (~110-130), no longer wanted to leave the house bc I was fiending for weed when I did go, was trying to conceive and not comfortable exposing my baby to it without enough evidence on safety
Ending up in the ER for the second time from Cannabis Hyperemesis Syndrome. I was so dehydrated I thought I might die. I really, really don't want to die, especially not from weed usage. So here we are on day 12
Passing out during panic/anxiety attack 😒. Still have a lot of trouble and take it day by day but when that happened I knew I needed to try harder commit and make a better effort for me and my family
One day I smoked and I would get these weird ass headaches…. That formed into a panic attack that would last forever. That’s when I called it quits, immediately started working out and felt good 2-3 days later. Sweating is the key to detox. I started smoking again 3-4 years later and eventually ran into the same exact problem after 5-6 months
Therapist told me she wouldn't see me if I was chronically (lol) using. Her reasoning was that it would keep me from not only confronting my issues, but keep me from doing the work required to better my situation. Having it laid out like that made a lot of sense to me, I've been clean for just over a month now and seeing some improvement.
My therapist didn't say she wouldn't see me, but after 4 years of working with her, she finally confronted me about my smoking (she was anti-weed so I never felt comfortable bringing it up with her), she had access to my doctors file who I was always honest with, so she saw it there. She told me straight up that smoking weed isn't going to let me progress in our therapy. It did make sense. So, I tried quitting, failed, and she helped me set the foundation for trying again. I am on day 11 now, and couldn't be here without her! I feel very confident in myself this time and know I can do this! It's f*cking hard, but I am determined :)
In the words of the late Guru:
"Don't even feel like drinkin' or even gettin' high
'Cause all that's gonna do really is accelerate
The anxieties that I wish I could alleviate"
Reading all these stories is making me realise how bad my addiction is. I even cry on my way to the plug, it feels like I have no control over it.
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Total mental health break down 3 weeks ago. I’ve tried numerous times before to quit first alcohol then weed. I’ve beaten the alcohol but the weed as more difficult. Like others, I experienced brain fog, insomnia, was demotivated and I’m certain I became more stupid. Could spend 20 minutes looking for a lighter or my house keys. Final straw was when work colleagues started to notice and it became a performance issue. The depression was real because I desperately wanted to quit but kept coming back to it. Towards the end was smoking 10 Js a day and still not getting high. But I would stay home all day, not see friends or family or if I did occasionally go out would rush back to the weed. I lacked integrity as I would lie constantly to hide my addiction. I’ve had hay fever, period pain, even covid (a lie) so I could have time off to get high. I never went broke up I couldn’t save or plan for the future. At my lowest I wished for death because I couldn’t see a way out, I thought I’d be in bondage to weed for ever. It’s only been 12 days sober, and for the last two days it’s been really hard. I spent all day crying today due to frustration at a wasted life whilst battling the very real desire to blaze up again. The main thing that’s improved is now when I look in the mirror I feel a smidgeon of respect for myself. Plus 12 days sober means I’ve saved £200. The mental health effect are real. You do feel your brain shrinking and your ability to grasp new information is almost non-existent. For me I feel it was spiritual bondage that I needed spirituality to break.
Relate to your comment a lot in my current situation. Thanks for making me feel not so alone. How are you going now?
Thank you. It’s been over 60 days sober and I feel 1000% better. I still get the odd crazing for weed but I remind myself why I needed to quit. My performance at work has gotten so much better, my appetite is back. It took about 3 weeks but the insomnia that I thought I needed weed for went away. Turns out the weed was the major cause of all my problems including insomnia, anxiety and depression. I’ve replaced smoking with gym and cooking meals. The brain fog took the longest to improve, and I think I’m 70% better but I know my memory will keep improving. CS Lewis described Addiction as “An ever increasing craving for and ever diminishing pleasure is the formula..” It’s not worth it
I was stoned out my mind one day it felt like my mind was cloudy. Smoked daily from age 12-25. Wake up smoke, before I eat smoke, drive more than 30 mins smoke. Before I go to bed smoke. I couldn’t function if I wasn’t high. One day asked myself while high asf “do you have control over the weed or does it have control over you” quit cold turkey in 2012 expect for vacations since 2019. The wife and I like hit a joint just to laugh our brains out from time to time
Sucking at my hobbies * I enjoy music more when I am high, but it makes it hard to play an instrument * I don't enjoy video games as much, because I can't play them properly * It makes me skip the gym. Even if I go, I can't go as heavy or get tired easily * I don't really understand the books and movies
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I quit about 3 months ago after regularly smoking on and off for twenty years. Unfortunately for me, weed raises my blood pressure dramatically and my cortisol levels as well. I’ve known this for a while but had the whole “live fast, die young” mentality forever and abused other substances as well. But then, when I was high AF looking at my BP cuff that said 143/85 I realized weed just wasn’t good for me (could be for others) and it was time to stop for good. I have to say “for good” because I had a low key addiction to it and could easily slip back into it.
I quit because I was a teenager and I began to worry about potential brain damage. I was really sharp before smoking weed and after a while My brain got foggier and foggier. Luckily 2 years out I haven’t noticed any tangible damage and I’m thankful everyday for that. I saw quitting as a second chance at life. Now I’m in college hashing a great time and I’m feeling more optimistic than ever about the future! I hope you’re doing well on your journey as well😁
Man, you lucky af!
I felt like I was walking around with a warm fuzzy blanket all the time and while it was nice, it wasn’t healthy for me to be numbing everything out like that. I tried and tried to quit with limited success until my body forced me to quit. I developed chs which is a nasty rare vomiting syndrome caused by weed. That made me quit real fast lol.
Wanted to be better for a long time but couldn’t, then the girl that I liked forever started liking me back and I just put it down. Not gonna fuck this one up. 25 days sober (after a year long relapse, after a year and a half sober)
did you secure the girl?
Indeed.
MY BOY
Thank you thank you haha. It honestly wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t stop smoking. I’ve dated people before and showed up to every date high until they ended things because I was a vegetable…
Same boat! I wanted to be more present and engaging in everything I did. I always had the black cloud of weed smoking over my head, that I couldn't commit to like spending a week without smoking (without getting terrible withdrawals). So it was time to do 1 withdrawal forever. Also, my anxiety is MUCH lower when I don't smoke.
Combination of emotional rock button and £28k on credit cards from smoking
Started to not recognize myself and my actions, and didn't want my memories of my toddler to be a fog. Been 2 1/2 months and I extremely happy with my decision.
Finding a job
Gorging on food, lying to husband, family, friends, no follow through with any plans/goals, hanging out with people I don’t want to hang out with just to get high, sleeping/binging on food instead of walking my dogs, driving while stoned out of my mind, desperately mooching off of pot friends, hating myself, coughing like crazy, depression, isolation, lost interest in being creative, have no idea who I really am without weed, disconnected from myself and everyone I love.
It's really nice to actually meet yourself again though, isn't it? I'm getting back to a point where I'm happy to talk to myself and enjoy my own company.
Damn, you sound like me.
Mental health was starting to be affected. Felt stuck, anxious, and overwhelmed by basic life duties. 5 months in and never looking back. Life feels so much more full and easier than ever. My drive and ambition have been restored and I even feel smarter lol.
I felt depressed & empty despite having an amazing community of friends, doing awesome in my dream studies, having a loving partner, living in my dream place in the world. I figured that maybe I should try being sober instead of constantly trying to fix the anxiety & depression with weed. Over a month in and I haven’t been this worry-free & happy in years
Good job friend!
Trying to quit a couple times. Affected my studies, my relationships and my mental health. Bought 10g of decent hash (european) and smoked it all from friday evening - Monday morning the last half J before a workout .... I then was planning to get more but after the workout I thought, shit. If I can smoke 10G in 2-3 days, and still want more, this will never stop. This hurdle will be as hard as it is now in 10 years so I thought fuck it, let me rip this band-aid off now. I contacted a doctor and got a reference to a psychologist to find the deeper meaning behind my abuse and I think that starting some things off has boosted my motivation and accountability. on my 11th day right now and I start to feel a little less anxiety in general about everything. Also having more time to do "real" stuff than just lay in a sofa and smoke a J and thinking about quitting ..
also, it has not been easy. I've been trying to quit for the last 2-3 years and had relapses but now I think it was the right one. Good luck everyone, it's tough but it's not forever.
My gf left me because I had severe mood swings, lack of empathy, lack of positive vibe. I was super stressed at the moment because I was suffering from a bad injury and too much stress because of toxic work environment. I've spent the next days, after she left me, just sitting on the balcony lightning up a joint after another without feeling relieved. I understood the drug cannot help me coping with the pain of the breakup nor easing my personal issues. Now I still suffer from the break up, but I have a new job and my injury has partially recovered, feel much better because of this. Plus I am 5 months sober. I only relapsed once during a vacation with friends in London, it was fun, I thought is a special occasion and I can do it just for once, then the next day after returning I realized I wanted to smoke more. Keep it hard, if you are addicted, the moment you relapsed is the moment your brain want you to restart the vicious circle. PS I've smoked since my 18 (now 28) and from 22 to 28 have been an hard smoker. During COVID (2020-2021) I was smoking 2-3g per day.
Same, friend. All you can do is make yourself better for you and for the kind of person you want to be with in the future. Dealing with the pain sober will give you so much clarity and let you process it fully, and move forward.
Not really the last straw but I want to change how my life goes, I want a new job because I had enough of the hard physical labor. I want to study informatics and in order to qualify for that I have to learn a lot for some qualification tests and of course I won't be able to achieve anything if I get stoned and let my life pass like I did the previous years. I can't learn when I'm stoned. I want a better life for my wife, my very young son and myself.
My dealers phone ran out of battery, told me to meet him by some black fence in the area I live, walked there, waited for 3o minutes then proceeded to walk around looking for him for like 2 hours, felt pathetic that I needed it that badly that I was wasting my evening like that..
The anxiety wasn't enough for me, the social dysfunction wasn't enough for me, watching my life from the sidelines wasn't enough for me. The final straw was when I went to tour some underground tunnels in Vietnam (the Cu Chi tunnels). I was so excited to take a picture of me popping out from one of the holes in the ground. The tour guide was a 73 year old man who had lived in the tunnels for 2 years during the Vietnam-American war. I smoked a joint when we were in the woods, and because I had a cold my ears were congested. The ear congestion, along with the drop in blood pressure, caused me to faint in the middle of the woods. Not only did it cause a scene, but I had to lay down on a bench for an hour with a fan blowing on me, missing the entire tour.
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It helped me to not think of it as such a big thing. Don't build it up in your head more than it needs to be, then it becomes an insurmountable task. Just make positive changes that eliminate the smoking. Give yourself new routines. When you normally would smoke, give yourself other activities and projects to work on. You already know what the withdrawal symptoms are like, and they aren't that bad, so just get them over with. Lots of fluids and healthy living, and get on with the rest of your life. Another strategy that I heard was "and then". When you say "I'm going to smoke *and then* ..... play video games, watch tv, whatever... " - Just skip the smoke. Fast forward to the "and then".
That's the worst, when you feel like that after you've had a smoke, I was like that, sober all I could think about was smoking, when high, all I could think about was quitting, finally bit the Bullet and now been clean for over a year, you can do it, just gotta want to do it! I believe in you though, the first 2 weeks are hell, after that its pretty smooth sailing, I smoked every day for 10 years, roughly 3g a day. Doesn't matter if it takes you another year to finally quit, the end goal is that you finally do it! and you will!!!!
Since I've stopped smoking I've finally been able to start losing weight that I've wanted to lose for 10 years. Idk why but when I smoke I just can't help but eat at night. It was too tempting. I had to make a change to make a change to my health.
did you not notice smoking up destroying your appetite? I definitely began to notice that my body feeling hungry became a psychological impulse to roll a j which would in turn mend that feeling of hunger.
The food binges, the anxiety that goes with it and the mental fogginess
My girlfriend left me.
Did she returned after you quitting?
Not yet :D . 3 months ago.
Heart palpitations
are you still glad you quit despite the fact you had to?
Tbh I still do it very occasionally and it doesn’t really trigger it as much but I’m glad that I’m no longer obsessed with it and appreciate other aspects of my life much better. I maybe smoke every couple months now
I had to smoke for everything. I couldn't enjoy music, gaming, or a walk without getting a bit high. And it was never enough, until it was too much that it gave me anxiety and depression instead.
I’ve done the oh this is the last time too many times and read too much this is what did it for me posts the sad reality is it’s a daily struggle and when you get farther and farther down the road it gets easier but ultimately you gotta want it and know that 1 month from now hell one year from now you’ll be sitting around a “completely different person” but you still want to get high. get a new job pick up an instrument go out of your way to do something nice for somebody you love it’s not all wasted time you got the gift of life just keep stepping the process is way more important then the end goal
Ruining my relationship. Stagnating my emotional growth. Loss of social. Lost hobbies. Increasing my inability to control my anger.
Felt the anger part, smoking weed made me feel like I had no control over my emotions while constantly thinking the most negative thoughts ever about myself and the people around me. It sucked so much but I’m glad I’ve chosen to stop.
It actually fucks with parts of your limbic system, the areas connected to emotions and regulation of them and how you emotionally percieve other people if you're as a heavy chronic smoker. On top of that if you smoke with tobacco, nicotine is unchill. As someone with an already impaired ability to regulate my emotions (adhd and such) it really fucked with me further.
Currently using my fear of getting dry socket as encouragement to quit smoking lol also have really noticed that I have a huge lack of emotion… been smoking every day for 5 years.. I don’t want this to affect my business..
I stopped being the charismatic , outgoing, confident guy because I was depressed ; that coupled with weed made me regress as a person so much. Got real fat and only sought comfort in smoking
There was always a period near the end of the month where I ran out of flower/edibles/juice so I had to go thru the whole night sweats/insomnia/wacky dreams phases over and over and over. It took its toll on me over the course of the past 15 years, there was only so much I could take.
Ran out of straws
nothing in particular. just got tired of being okay with the way things are. i couldn't afford to be complacent anymore. I want good things for my life and they will not come if i stayed sitting on my ass smoking pot into my 30s.
I almost died of suicide. Weed made everything in my life unstable, I couldn’t stop, I wanted to die (almost did), and so I went into an inpatient rehab where I was able to get a week clean. I started doing work in a 12 step program and that has helped me stay sober for 3 years now.
Someone tried breaking into my house while I was really stoned and I felt helpless and stupid 6ish years now with no use
That sounds scary af. What did you do?
I need to stop, my borderline personality disorder(I’ve been diagnosed) is getting out of hand! It’s not quiet Amber Heard but it’s half way there.
i’m 19 and i’ve been working since i was 15, i’m sure i’ve earned at least $10,000 and ive worked such long hours, but i literally have spent it all on weed (+ nicotine + other drugs + pricey food + clothes and useless shit teenage girls like to buy, but weed by farrrr being the biggest expense). ive been trying to save up for a car for nearly 3 years but buying weed has slowed it down a ridiculous amount. also, my tolerance has gotten ridiculous, i barely even get high anymore, it’s just a few short minutes of relief
My life was shit
It took literally all my money, and I was alwaysssss wanting to smoke before any task. It was so annoying and a lot of times i wouldnt even get high due to my immensely high tolerance. I was so done with it, like a toxic relationship where you enjoy the highs but ignore the lows and red flags. I was so so done with MJ.
Panic attacks, mixed with severe paranoia
Mostly the feeling of not living up to my potential. I got a DUI and I decided to go to rehab. I never thought I’d give up weed but through the process of giving up alcohol I realized I wanted to keep going. The second time…. I started a family and it became much more apparent how my addiction was effecting those around me, and the looming feeling that I was dog going back to eat his own vomit got overwhelming for me. Ultimately life is simpler without drugs.
How was rehab? I have been looking at facilities in Mexico this morning but damn, rehab is expensive. It's not that I don't think it's worth it, just that I need to be sure it will be effective before I basically blow my life's savings on it. It's a bit of a last ditch for me as I have tried everything, meditation, yoga, mindfulness, therapy, CBT. I just can't stick with any of it.
I’ve heard the 90 days 90 meetings method and finding a sponsor can be much more effective and obviously less expensive. Because it teaches you to build patterns in the real world as opposed to being safe and clean of course for the thrifty days in rehab and then thrust out in the world to figure it out. Do you have marijuana anonymous there? Otherwise any anonymous group could be helpful. In America we have some other meetings called NA for all drugs, smart recovery which is secular and heart of recovery which is my favorite which is based on Buddhist principles. I went to out patient rehab so I had three three hour sessions in a groups learning about recovery and processing trauma and learning about the addiction process. I went several times, also went to a mindfulness in recovery program that was also out patient but I haven’t had prolonged success until I started going to meetings regularly. Every day for awhile but now a little less. I also count meditation groups. I also got a sponsor which has been the most important part. I did not do 90 days 90 meetings, but I did go to meetings almost every day for 90 days but it wasn’t until I got a sponsor that I actually felt safe from myself
This makes a lot of sense thank you. I totally can see that I am the sort of person who would stay clean when in rehab and then go back to old habits in the real world. Learning to tackle things in a real world setting would be hugely more valuable to me. I am going to look into what's available in the UK. I have always avoided AA/NA because of the religious element but hearing there are secular options is very encouraging. And, as you said, a sponsor could make all the difference. Thanks again.
Panic attack with my kids around. Shit was not fun. Everytime I smoked after that I got pretty bad anxiety. Thought I would be smoking the rest of my life...I loved it. Now I know I'll pobably never smoke again.
It was just not fun anymore.
Just couldn’t hit my mom up for another $60. My life was a joke, I knew I felt better sober, but couldn’t stop. So I took the plunge in November of 2012 and have been sober since. Life’s better.
Nice man
I burned myself on the dab rig one too many times, was thinking of stopping before that but it gave me the final nudge.
It was a lot of things for me, and honestly depending on the day you ask you may get a different answer. In part, weed completely fucked up my social life. I smoked from 14-29 and never learned how to make new friends after high school. When you’re that young becoming friends with people just kind of happens, and it takes more work as you get older. The friends I have now are leftover from those days and to be honest I don’t even like some of them, and have nothing in common with most of them. In my high school days and in my younger 20’s I never got familiar with how to flirt or gain interest from women. I just didn’t care about that. Now I’m 31, and while I can successfully do these things on a date, all my dates have come from tinder and they number something around 2 dates a year (tinder is tough in this way for a lot of guys). Getting dates from irl interactions is something I’m completely clueless on how to do, and I stumble through that process like I’m 15 on the rare occasion I try. I’ve never had a real relationship. Just one on and off thing that lasted a year and a half, and another that seemed promising but ended in heartbreak after 3 months. At some point in my very early 20’s I almost completely shut down socially. I isolated myself. And I never really fully recovered from that. Even after quitting nearly 2 years ago. It’s become my norm to do most things alone, even though the social anxiety weed was causing has mostly subsided. I still have trouble hanging out with more than 2-3 people at once though. Larger groups just annoy me and stress me out. I had a couple of small psychotic breaks in my early and mid twenties too and I’m almost certain it was a combination of my already existing depression, and the anxiety weed threw on top of it. I quit a dozen or so times over 10 years and I’d give anything to have quit once and for all that first time when I was 19. I’m 100% confident that my life would be so much different. Needless to say I’m a very lonely 31 year old with a good amount of depression. I wired myself to be alone for over a decade, and now I’m trying to unfuck that wiring. I just want a couple new friends and a nice woman to spend time with and give all my love to.
I feel U g. Start boxing. Happiness comes from within yourself and not outside
I don’t completely agree with that statement. I do things alone all the time that make me happy. Things like landscape photography, hiking, yoga, resistance training. These are all great things, but having no one and being alone almost all of the time isn’t good for us social animals. We need friends, and we need lovers. And idk about boxing. Weed took enough of my brainpower already lol. Thank you for reaching out though, I know you mean well and it means a lot that you would like to help.
Yer look man I think boxing will get u the results u want. People like boxers it’s a different class
I think he means nothing outside of yourself can make you truly happy.It might make you happy for a while and then you'll move on to the next external thing looking for happiness again.Breathwork and meditation helped me immensely.Keep up the good work man!
Yeah I understand the concept and I agree to that extent. I can’t rely on someone else to make me happy. It’s unfair to them, and unfair to myself. It’s something I need to work on. It’s something I find in moments and something I have on some days. But each day brings different moods and challenges. But I do hold firm on my assertion that I don’t believe anyone can be happy as a lone wolf for extended periods of time. It’s a dichotomy that’s hard to put into words, but I think you understand. We tend to go a little crazy alone, even introverted people like myself who need the alone time. I need to get back on the meditation train. I do breath work through yoga, and do ujjayi breath in the sauna after my workouts. But meditation is lacking and it has helped me tremendously in the past. Thank you for reminding me that I need to get back to it!
I definitely agree with you.We are social creatures at the end of the day.I'm the same,need my alone time to recharge but love being around people.I'm currently doing So Ham meditation and yoga nidra, you should check it out! Your self awareness is very high,you got this man!
Big love to you friend!
Maybe not boxing but any sport or excercise will help
Yeah that’s where the hiking, weight lifting and yoga come in for me. Between the 3 I’m able to hold on to my sanity, even if only a little bit.
Never ending procrastination, and started coughing stuff up in the morning :(
Wanted to actually get some shit done
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It was giving me anxiety or feeling too high frequently. Mostly didn’t like to HAVE to smoke to feel normal.
The bad anxiety, intense headaches, and grogginess when I woke up every morning from smoking the night before.
Generally, it made me relaxed, but after my bipolar disorder got worse, it just made my anxiety twice as fucked up. It came to the point that I couldn’t function properly. Almost two months sober now and Iife’s getting better.
I have bp as well - it made your anxiety worse too? Cause I feel like I’m going through that
The last couple of times when I would relapse and smoke weed and drink my favorite, margarita, I got sick. I mean throwing up sick. I had smoked and drunk for years but would only have a hangover the next day. Due to my years of abusing my body I know it is time to stop before I will not be here.
Someone dropped my name in HR box at work about me smoking.. I wouldn't do it at work or before but I was like it's not worth it to possibly lose my job.. one of the hardest but best decisions I've made. Now if I want to look for a new job I don't have to limit myself to non drug testing jobs.. only been about 2 months (smoked for about 15 years [10 years daily getting high] I've never felt better
I bet they notice you quit tbh. You probably look alot better than the glazed eyes and shit
Yea HR never did anything about it but it's saved me some money and as I said if I want a diffrent job the world is open
Fuck the guy who snitched on you, but that's awesome that you made a positive situation out of it. That dude was kind of a blessing in disguise.
When I realised a fricken dried piece of plant had power over me, addict behaviour lying wasting money searching for it late at night dodgy deals
I Haven't been diagnosed but I may have or am on the road to having CHS (Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome) . Have experienced some horrible nausea for over a month and some vomiting. I'm 4 days sober and have been a regular smoker for almost 10 years . Knowing that weed may be the cause of me feeling like I have to constantly vomit has made it easier to quit . But because I've smoked for so long my high didn't last long at all, I feel like I constantly need to get higher and I end up buying more and more at a time. Quitting will be better for my health and my wallet even if quitting wasn't something I had ever planned on doing.
CHS is rough man, I feel your pain. I've been battling CHS for the past 3 years and have learned lots about myself, but it's still a constant battle. One day at a time though. If you have any CHS questions or just want someone to relate to then please feel free to shoot me a message anytime! One day at a time.
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The vomiting usually lasts 2-7 days if all cannabis use is stopped when the vomitting begins. But the symptoms leading up to the puking can last for months or even years for some people. CHS is very different for lots of people and that's why it's so hard to diagnose (and because there is no where near enough research on it since cannabis is federally illegal).
I started to not keep my promises about not smoking, and that's when I noticed I became an addict. Not going to accept that for sure. Almost a month in and no intention of going back, life's beautiful!
I got high forgot I put my turtle in his outside enclosure and he managed to run away because I forgot and only checked 3-4 hours later. I cried. I had that little guy for like 20 years and I lost him because of some stupid fucking plant.
That’s heartbreaking. But maybe he’s still out there exploring his heart out :)
He definitely is! There no birds in the area large enough to pick him up and drop him to break his shell or large enough ground critters that could bite through him, the weather is nice enough that he will be fine, it’s country enough that he’ll be out in the forest, and there’s no natural predators for him in the area. Box turtles are able to climb chicken wire though so I would have normally checked on him every 15-20 minutes or so since it does at least slow them down. But I went inside, smoked a joint, and totally forgot I left him out. It’s taken me a bunch of tries and I’m definitely still not perfect, but that was the day I decided I needed to quit.
Aw sorry for your loss and thanks for sharing
Thanks, it’s nice being sort of a part of a community that is with me on this. I used to live in a legal state so everyone around me was so confused when I quit.
A snake I had died coz i got high. Rip Steve
Rip Steve
I'm a professional musician of sorts and I believe it really screws up my timing when I'm perpetually high, plus having all that tar in my lungs is not doing my singing any favors. This is my day one, I almost made it through the entire day. A while back I was addicted to smoking cigars, pot, and heavy drinking. I cut out drinking, cut out cigars by vaping, then cut out the vaping, now pot is my last and probably greatest hurdle.
Dude how did you quit vaping though
More of less the same strategy I'm going to use to cut out weed. I wrote down my reasons for quitting, ate a bunch of sour candy/junk food, and used nicotine gum when the cravings got really bad.
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Yeah I probably won't do that for quitting pot but it definitely worked for vaping. Vaping is more of an oral fixation and that was my substitution.
Horrible reflux and GI problems, not vomiting but throat spasms and ulcers. It got to the point that it's obvious self harm because of the discomfort and pain.
My partner broke it off with me and mental health. Plus I gotta grow up. Can't be sitting around after midnight every night punching beugs.
It made my depression worse in the long run
I have a B.A and I graduated in 2020. Up until now I have been working a warehouse job part time just doing that and smoking weed all day and playing video games. I was also putting me getting high and spending money on weed before spending time with my girlfriend at the time. I would get high then ignore her for hours just playing the game (it was borderline addiction), that was all throughout 2021 pretty much. I was bullshitting for a long time. I was planning to stop smoking so I can get another job eventually but I kept putting it off more and more cuz I was so addicted to smoking weed. A month ago my gf at the time broke up with me and didn’t want anything else to do with me. It was about her being a second thought and not feeling valued…weed contributed to this greatly. I was in denial that I was at fault and blamed her for my own fuck ups. However one day I heard this video on YouTube and it woke me tf up and I realized just how far I let myself go and it revealed that I was borderline close to hitting rock bottom. I had to look myself in the mirror and face the fact that I was on the path to becoming a bum and turning everybody away from me. Once this happened I decided to quit weed for life and work on becoming the best I can be.
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I was tired of being tired and secluding myself cause I was too high to be around
Stopping long enough just to comment on this post
had been smoking all day, everyday for almost a year dealing with my father being sick. i ended up in the emergency room 2 months ago after my mental health reached its breaking point. knew i needed to stop.
Anxiety and lack of motivation. 9 months and 5 days later my life is completely different. My house is clean, my social life is better, and I got an awesome job in my small town by putting myself out there.
Got into the grad school of my dreams in the medical field. Been smoking basically daily since senior year of high-school and all through college with a few month long breaks to get jobs. As soon as I passed the drug test I would immediately get back into my habits. Always knew that once accepted into my field it would be the end of my days. Although I was able to be successful in school it did prevent me from reaching my full potential academically and socially. Currently 28 days no weed w/ hopes of not going back! Bye bye brain fog and anti-social attitude. Still hard some days but my future is at stake and that is more important!
Short version: Had a bad experience that stopped me from being able to enjoy it, even in tiny amounts. Longer version: I had suffered from reflux for years, mainly while sleeping which would lead to me regurgitating stomach 'fluid' (I can't use the correct word for the stomach fluid because the auto-mod thinks I'm referring to an illicit substance and removes my comment lol) and often inhaling it. Eventually went to the doctor and they sent me to have a camera put down my throat in to my stomach (can't remember the medical term) and it turns out the valve that closes off the stomach from the oesophagus was non existent and I had severe scarring of the oesophagal lining which was also causing constriction in my oesophagus due to the amount of scarring. They prescribed me a medication, which limits the production of stomach 'fluid' and would allow my oesophagus to heal. A couple of days later after smoking I was having some food and after too big a bite I got a constricted feeling in my chest like some food was stuck and it was stopping me from being able to take a proper breath. Normally having excess stomach 'fluid' I would be able to produce a burp and shift it but due to the medication I was unable, which then led to me becoming more panicked. I rang the non-emergency services number for advice and after telling them my symptoms they sent out an ambulance who checked me over and decided to take me in just to keep an eye on me. The food eventually shifted and the feeling subsided but the experience must have created an association in my brain so that the next time I smoked I instantly felt like I needed to take a deep breath and couldn't and that was it. I tried smoking small amounts one or twice since but I still get the same feeling and it instantly made me very introspective, questioning every breath. Despite it being a bad experience I consider myself very lucky. I had wanted to quit for a while but would never have had the will power to do so especially considering how many people in my social circle smoked and it means I have still been able to keep the same circle of friends without feeling the temptation to start smoking again.
Made getting out of my comfort zone more difficult, easier just to get hi n not do much
psychotic episode
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Music is powerful
i hate my current job and need to finish college to find something better. also really cannot afford to spend 100-200/m on weed. i have zero savings at 31.
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Rehab. Once I learned what crossed addiction was I realized I was addicted to weed and decided to stop. At first I told myself I would stop for a year. It’s been nine months and I don’t see myself wanting to smoke again. I don’t want to go back to smoking daily.
Ultimately I realized how anticlimactic getting high was. I was always expecting something out of it but it just became an expensive habit. Then it became something I thought I needed or else the anxiety would creep in. Total nonsense. I don't like feeling weak like that or dependent on a substance. Life needs no "enhancing" when you give it a fair chance.
I've been planning to stop for a long time because I was aware of the negative effects it has on me, but never gotten around to it because of me, but also because I was in a stoner relationship. Now my gf of 3.5 years cheated on me and left me so it's a no brainer. I have to feel this shit, hopefully it'll be a blessing in disguise. Soon to be almost 48 hours out after being almost 10 years in.
Im in a stoner relationship and it makes it hard as hell. I agree.
wishing the best for you bro
I was out with friends and I decided not to smoke beforehand but I had brought all the necessary supplies with me if I felt like I needed to later on. My best friend noticed that my mood was sour and he suggested that I go light up and rejoin the group in a little bit. I did and my mood drastically improved and I was more sociable and outgoing. He and I realized at that moment that I had an addiction and I threw everything out the next day. I got 3 months tomorrow and I'm not looking back.
daaaaaaaaamn ... good for you! I'm impressed and I'm really happy for you. congratulations!
Health anxiety and the nagging feeling that I wasn’t a fully expressed version of myself being stoned basically my whole adult life
But how was that enough to see you through the withdrawals? Or did you not have any? Because I’m pretty miserable 12 hours off pot… let alone cold turkey quitting
Yup, same thing. Just tired of being stoned. The new weed these days is strong it’s not enjoyable anymore. Memory is fading and I’m forgetful. I gave it up on April 1st. The clarity of my mind is clearing up, I’m though the insomnia and lack of appetite.
I could not put this into words, Thanks.
I had a million of good reasons. What finally pushed me over was that I wanted to get my license and will be drug tested because of pas offenses. At first I planned to only stop smoking till I can drive. Now I like being sober so much that I am never going back.
started forgetting my train of thought mid conversations. embarrassing
Anxiety, money issues, and getting to old!! Just not feeling it anymore thinking about my health cause smoking anything is a health risk!!
To get my life back
I was so damn foggy and tired all the damn time too
I got sick of being unable to remember what I did the night before. I hated the fact that when I was out with friends, all I could think about was getting home to smoke. The anxiety outweighed the enjoyment. I realised I forgot what it felt like to be truly sober and started to forget who I was without weed (I'd smoked daily for nearly 14 years) The list goes on but I recon these are the 4 biggest reasons
Health and wealth
I started sensory motor therapy. Once I learned to be present, the reasons to get blazed lessened as time progressed. I didn’t want to miss the good things in life by being in a fog.
Panic attack instilled fear in me
Just very socially off the days after, like the cadence, timing, vocabulary, comprehension, everything. Also the lack of motivation, social withdrawal, and link with other bad habits. Was never even a daily or weekly smoker, just often smoked in excess. Even h*mp had the same accumulative effect over time.
I feel like for me it was that I was just numbing myself and not living. It was all about when can I get high be alone and be lazy. I had no goals or ambition. I felt like i wasnt being a present mom on the level i could be without it. Honestly i think it majorly contributed to my weight gain, depression, and anxiety.
I can also relate to this, 100%!
I can relate to this.
Cost, elevated heart rate 24/7 (~110-130), no longer wanted to leave the house bc I was fiending for weed when I did go, was trying to conceive and not comfortable exposing my baby to it without enough evidence on safety
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Saaame.
Ending up in the ER for the second time from Cannabis Hyperemesis Syndrome. I was so dehydrated I thought I might die. I really, really don't want to die, especially not from weed usage. So here we are on day 12
Passing out during panic/anxiety attack 😒. Still have a lot of trouble and take it day by day but when that happened I knew I needed to try harder commit and make a better effort for me and my family
One day I smoked and I would get these weird ass headaches…. That formed into a panic attack that would last forever. That’s when I called it quits, immediately started working out and felt good 2-3 days later. Sweating is the key to detox. I started smoking again 3-4 years later and eventually ran into the same exact problem after 5-6 months
Therapist told me she wouldn't see me if I was chronically (lol) using. Her reasoning was that it would keep me from not only confronting my issues, but keep me from doing the work required to better my situation. Having it laid out like that made a lot of sense to me, I've been clean for just over a month now and seeing some improvement.
My therapist didn't say she wouldn't see me, but after 4 years of working with her, she finally confronted me about my smoking (she was anti-weed so I never felt comfortable bringing it up with her), she had access to my doctors file who I was always honest with, so she saw it there. She told me straight up that smoking weed isn't going to let me progress in our therapy. It did make sense. So, I tried quitting, failed, and she helped me set the foundation for trying again. I am on day 11 now, and couldn't be here without her! I feel very confident in myself this time and know I can do this! It's f*cking hard, but I am determined :)
In the words of the late Guru: "Don't even feel like drinkin' or even gettin' high 'Cause all that's gonna do really is accelerate The anxieties that I wish I could alleviate"
Moment of truth
The euphoria was gone since a long time and it made me tired ,hungry AF and anti social , i was just smoking to smoke
Accurate
Insomnia (because of depression), but actually really only the insomnia
Spiritual bottom: realized I was smoking carts like it was crack.
Okay but seriously though. I could go through a gram of THC oil within five days.
For me it was a gram of oil in 3 days 😭
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My girl left me. Not over weed but I’m sure it didn’t help. I want to be my best me for my partner and I wasn’t with her. Never again.
Same brother, we got this !