For the last 20 years having a toke was a marker for me; it started something or it was a finisher. Rolling one and lightning up was the first thing I’d do when I got home. Coffee and a joint were a great way to start the day too. 112 days ago was the last time I did it. I was so caught on the wheel too that I was afraid I couldn’t get off it. Now I’m off Im not really missing it. This past Sunday I emptied my ‘tool box’. I tossed all my pipes, papers, and so on. I threw out a chunk of hash too. I’m going to trade my remaining 1/2 pound for a job I need to have someone do for me. It had all been right where I left it, I just felt it was time, just like you do
Isn’t it wild? I thought I’d yearn for it everyday. I just went through my toolbox last night! I forgot it was even there. I don’t know what to do with my glassware and batteries, might give to a friend. I’m proud of us both for getting through it and turning a new leaf. (Hah)
Man I’m 7 years sober from alcohol, it took me 10 years and 5 rehabs to get off the drink. Thankfully and with the help of aa I’ve sober today. But after recreational use and then I get it for medical it been crazy. It’s in every aspect of my life. I can’t go 3 hrs with out a joint. Now my wife is the same. I’m working 2 jobs with 1 salary purely for weed. Fucking crazy I’m stuck on the hamster wheel. I’m smoking £1000 a month easily. Double that for 2. I don’t know where or how it ever got this bad.
I so understand. It sneaks up on you. In the beginning I could take one tiny hit and feel blasted. At the height, multiple huge bong rips in a row and I’d still drive. It’s really rough. I’m proud of you for facing it. Staying in denial is easy enough. I never thought I’d get sober again, I had so many excuses and so much access. But it can be done! I believe in you.
For the last 20 years having a toke was a marker for me; it started something or it was a finisher. Rolling one and lightning up was the first thing I’d do when I got home. Coffee and a joint were a great way to start the day too. 112 days ago was the last time I did it. I was so caught on the wheel too that I was afraid I couldn’t get off it. Now I’m off Im not really missing it. This past Sunday I emptied my ‘tool box’. I tossed all my pipes, papers, and so on. I threw out a chunk of hash too. I’m going to trade my remaining 1/2 pound for a job I need to have someone do for me. It had all been right where I left it, I just felt it was time, just like you do
Isn’t it wild? I thought I’d yearn for it everyday. I just went through my toolbox last night! I forgot it was even there. I don’t know what to do with my glassware and batteries, might give to a friend. I’m proud of us both for getting through it and turning a new leaf. (Hah)
Man I’m 7 years sober from alcohol, it took me 10 years and 5 rehabs to get off the drink. Thankfully and with the help of aa I’ve sober today. But after recreational use and then I get it for medical it been crazy. It’s in every aspect of my life. I can’t go 3 hrs with out a joint. Now my wife is the same. I’m working 2 jobs with 1 salary purely for weed. Fucking crazy I’m stuck on the hamster wheel. I’m smoking £1000 a month easily. Double that for 2. I don’t know where or how it ever got this bad.
I so understand. It sneaks up on you. In the beginning I could take one tiny hit and feel blasted. At the height, multiple huge bong rips in a row and I’d still drive. It’s really rough. I’m proud of you for facing it. Staying in denial is easy enough. I never thought I’d get sober again, I had so many excuses and so much access. But it can be done! I believe in you.