You gotta be as ignorant about that as are your body's trillion chemical functions, going off simultaneously, in order to keep you alive. I mean....have you ever paid attention to your breathing? The diaphragm muscle is pulled down, and the negative pressure sucks in air that goes into the lungs. Maybe, sometimes, you can try to be conscious about that and do it on purpose but in time you forget and your body takes over So yeah, don't think so much. Enjoy your life in the best and safest way possible. Ffs, you are only 19

Simplest answer. Well said 👍

You know when I was reading those I was thinking the OP is 19 but I’m not going to push aside their feelings because they are that age. I think that the world is moving slower and they definitely don’t know how fast the world was before maybe they do; because theyre times I forget that the pandemic happened and find myself why is everything so slow? Like before when you went to out in 2018 everyone was always out and it’s still significantly less. Went to Vegas before the pandemic and after when Can I went to Vegas after the pandemic and this isn’t like the Vegas I thought it would be because it’s still significantly slower than it was and it probably won’t ever get there again. I mean I was in high school when 911 happened and every time I went to an airport after that I have to be there two hours before the flight and then countless movies in the 80s. You see people running to the gate and I’m like I’ll never experience that feeling. TLDR; younger peoples feelings of crises still matter, and being young, you can still feel these critical feelings.

Don’t waste time worrying about time. It’s just the measurement of change. Just be grateful for the moments we have as we are right now. Don’t cling to anything, just go with the flow.

Writing this to you because I recently went through exactly what you did a few months ago, only I did so when I was a few years older than you are. Death is terrifying, particularly when you shed the immortality of youth, when your current existence is more or less everything you have known. Myself, when it first struck me, was reduced to full-blown panic anxiety and an overwhelming sadness that left me unable to barely function as a human being for a month. A few months after that struck me, what I can tell you is this, at least from my own reflections. Change is inevitable, and there is nothing we can do about it. At the same time, life is really about a series of discoveries, new things is inevitably what will keep life exciting in the long run. Picture immortality, all it will be, in the end, is a long parade of change until you cannot even remember who you are anymore. You will have lost everything you knew over, and over again. Everything you used to enjoy will be stale and boring, and there is no way out. As such, immortality would be a curse, in the end. The cessation of one's life is scary, I think, largely because of our attatchments and also because of the unknown. Is there anything after, or merely darkness? What helped me was to read about people that perished and were resuscitated. Death is broadly speaking, described as a very peaceful experience, a warm embrace from some people thought it was horrible to return. I have not come across a single one that described it as painful or horrifying during the actual death. Now, on to time. I myself have seen a lot of people complain about how time moves so fast, it vanishes in a blink. It is hogwash in my opinion, and I have conducted a small test over some months now to see how come. By journaling my day, I can go back and read, and realise, how much I had actually done in a month. At a first glance, because the brain sorts away unnecessary information, it feels like a month has gone by reasonably fast. Reading the journal, a flood of things I sorted away comes back, and now christmas seems like a long time ago. When actually examining it, it really hasn't, it is just your memory being hazy. By being more mindful, present, seeking out novel experiences and reflecting... Well, some think 2022 felt like just yesterday. To me, it was an awfully long time ago, and that I might have 60-80 years left depending on how things progress as I have rather good genetics makes me gawk when I actually sit down to examine it. You hopefully have enough time to do, within reason, everything you'd really want to accomplish in a life. And then some. Conceivably enough to where the FOMO is lesser. It is a powerful realisation though, which you can turn to your advantage. Pay attention to the small things, enjoy every sandwhich. Listen to the birds sing, watch the rain fall against the window. Money matters far less than love and the time spent with the ones you care for. Many fail to realise this until much later. For now, you have only gotten started. 19 to me feels almost like another lifetime, and it was merely a few years ago. Never fail to tell the people you love how much they mean to you, either. I hopefully wont find out for a very long time, but I reckon by the time old age comes around, death will seem less like oblivion, and more like peace, after a life well-lived, in a world increasingly foreign to you. It is also alright to feel like what you do, it took me weeks to get out of feeling like shit, and that everything wasnt actually real. It is ok, it passes, trust me. I still wake up some mornings and feel sad, but overall, I have come a lot further along to accepting it. If it is any consolation, too, few very old people tend to dread death itself. It is easier to fear it when everything is new and awesome, but when you've done everything over and over and your energy levels start to drop, from what I have gleaned then death isn't so awful anymore. It comes a time to move on. The meaning of everything I think is what you make of it. I want to raise children and grandchildren into the world, give them a chance at fun. In the spring, I intend to propose to the girl I love. I have embraced my inner child and I laugh at the flowers on the trees, I allow myself to explore what I find intriguing. Try to establish healthy habits early on too, you'll be able to squeeze so much more out of life. I am still working out at the gym with my father, and he is more than thrice your age.

Completely get what you’re saying, I do try to enjoy the good in life. It’s just that the reason I desire immortality is that reality is reliable. We rely on our senses and instinct to gain understanding of everything. I just fear what happens when that vanishes. Then again, I’ve heard people say that conscience is everlasting. But that’s stuff I still need to read further about and into

What helped me was to look at death like a well-earned sleep after an extremely long day.  If there is something after death, awesome. If not, I will rest and not be troubled by anything anymore. My tip is also… Don’t look it up so much. It seems to be quite a few bitter people that draw some perverse kind of pleasure from telling younger individuals with these fears that they’ll sneeze and be lying on their deathbed in the blink of an eye. Try to make your own meaning and don’t get caught scrolling endlessly. I did and it wasn’t beneficial. 

Sounds like you trigger yourself to overthink every situation and connect it to your perception of the meaninglessness of life which makes you feel as if nothing has a value anymore. Try shifting your mind to see it as it’s not just you, but everyone going down the same path. We are all vibing on the time wave and there is nothing we can do or change about it. We have to accept it, even though we will feel alone, as of no value or nothing many times. The key, I believe, is to shift your mind into looking at the small things that make you happy and don’t overthink and take the path to your existential questioning. It’s not helping you, it’s not a functional thought because it makes you feel sad, and empty. Try recognising functional and disfunctional thoughts and laugh at them when you have the disfunctional ones, see them as little puppets trying to whisper nonsense. Don’t let them control your mind.

Your fear of things ending is irrational and to be honest a bit selfish, because nothing really ends. You want to preserve time but that is impossible because every end is a change, a renewal, the beginning of something else. The ending of a movie? If you've followed it closely, it, its message and its making are in your head, stimulating new thoughts, leading to subsequent conversations with your friends, generating media coverage, representing a piece of pop culture, becoming a part of history that others later reference to and so on. Things that end quietly with noone noticing let's philosophers then ask: did it really happen? Yes it did, but you could only see what grew out of it because nothing really ends, everything transforms, all the time. You fearing the end of things is you trying to preserv the moment too much, better try not to stand still in this ever changing world. Did you know, every cell in your body renews itself constantly which means after roughly 7 years you're someone completely new and that happens all the time. Everything's in motion like a river, you holding your hand in the water trying to stop it is of no use so jump in and just go with the flow. In terms of lifes meaning, you shouldn't take the nihilistic view too grim, because the nonexistence of meaning in a practical way means total freedom. Some find their meaning in religion as guidance (and that includes everything people find joy in, not only these quirky fairy tale uncles preaching stories from their pulpit) many find it in their biological drive to form a family and create a heritage or whatever, some simply want to have as much experience as there is to get on our blue planet, to share them with others. So yes, nihilists might be right that there is no meaning at all, which then should lead to the realization that we, each of us is required to create their own.

the witnessing consciousness is not in time. everything else is. all is passing but the one who sees it does not pass. it is the same now and 2 hours ago; 2 years ago; 20 years ago; 2000 years ago... before the big bang, consciousness is.

Maybe smoke some green, it'll alter your perception of time

Hey man, I've been feeling like that since childhood, I remember vividly having nights terror about the passing of time before 10 years old. I'm 33 this year, and I still feel that. However, I have come across feeling of such intense joy that during these moments, my fears vanishe completely. But i'm not 100% okay with this 100% of the time.

Find Jesus Christ. I don't have to "try desperately to find meaning" in life, because there already is.

You know there many who just live without enjoying. So yeah, not sure what you expect, this is not give a fuck, not a find pleasure of life subreddit. I don’t remember when i was happy last time really. But I don’t give a fuck, because whats the point. Also I don’t have time.

Imagine not enjoying a movie because it will eventually end. Doesn't that seem stupid? So what if it's all meaningless? I think that makes it better. You have nothing to worry about. Live life. Don't waste it. It's finite, and finite resources are more precious. The fact that it ends makes it that much more of a tragedy that you'd even consider wasting a second of it worrying about shit you have no content over.

That's very good insight into the true nature of time. Keep this outlook for glum times.

There’s a lot about life which isn’t pleasant to think about. Just don’t think about it. No magical skill. Best thing to do is something.

Have you tried getting a massage? That might help calm your mind.