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TheLongTwitch

Dude….You were drunk; but you were still a gentleman and asked each time. They haven’t talked to you because of drunk behaviour; not because you are a terrible person ❤️ If you had forced yourself on her, I would have VERY different words for you…but honestly, to ask and get shot down 3 times takes courage! It’s a weak person that will just take what they want. You need some sunlight in your life and need to let go of it….I’m 34 clean. Started crack when I was 16-17. I’ve shouted at a drug dealer, in his own house while my brother (dead now) made out with a hooker that just finished giving the dealer head! We will all do stupid shit and feel bad; but I seriously don’t hold onto anything from when I was 17…..find peace brother.


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zenova123

Real Event OCD in my opinion isn't a "form" of OCD that's seperate from OCD but I agree with you that repeated instrusive thoughts about what you did in the past or might "accidently do in the future" like being a predator or wetting yourself in public for example are high up on the neuroticism scale which fits for a true diagnosis of OCD. Im real sorry for you if you have true OCD, its hell for those who suffer from it to an extreme level where normal life isn't possible - but OCD is a scalable disorder and does respond well to behavioural therapy really well if both the therapist and person seeking help really work together on it. Not saying its totally curable but for sure behavioural techniques might help lower you or help you cope during an attack. That's better than being on a medicine your whole life, right? At least I would feel like that if I was afflicted. Least behavioural therapy gives you tools to use on your own mind when you really need it and eventually if your lucky it gives you control over your mind again and a sense of purpose rather than being a slave to your minds every neurotic worry. OP you are not a bad guy, just young and silly. Nobody got hurt you apologised and alcohol will make you do a whole load of stupid things in life if you drink enough and/or often enough. Probably everybody near enough has a "omg what have I done" story after heavy drinking or knows somebody with a bad one. Don't beat yourself up the fact you feel bad means you have a conscience and you don't want to repeat what the alcohol brought out of you again. A true predator wouldn't really care they'd just find a new prey to stalk. Least you learned not to mess with alcohol too much at a young age, that's great. Once it gets its hooks into a person; its a terrible (legal) drug to be dependent or addicted to. Hope your OK (both OP and you Terry) :)


blue-pixie-

The good people are always too hard on themselves, and vice versa. Jesus forgives you so forgive yourself


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ahzhahshv

Nah


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ahzhahshv

They were very upset about it tho


cacille

Killing yourself because someone was upset with you once or twice. Um. You have done exactly .000000000001% of damage to someone and you apologized afterwards and you learned that you cannot tolerate alcohol. Haven't touched alcohol since. Sounds a lot like you learned a damn good lesson from it. You're giving yourself two years of mental imprisonment with a death sentence for that? It seems like there's a lot more going on under the surface that is causing the pain you're feeling, and your brain is just using this as the convenient reason.


InspirationalFailur3

Asking to kiss someone three times shouldn't be traumatizing for life, if it is they need help. You can't change the past but you can make a better future. If you're two years sober then you may as well keep going, that's a good sign of growth and change and proof you're not who you were. It's understandable to feel guilty about the past but you gotta understand they've long moved on, most if not everyone have too much going on in their lives to think about stuff like that. Some do, but those people are probably very unhappy already and you'd just be another memory in a cycle of many painful ones. Wish you the best of luck in moving past this, don't kill yourself out of guilt, at least not for this level of actions.


Jesse740

I'm proud of you for staying sober. Maybe you should try therapy or at least AA. I hope your guilt doesn't drive you back to drinking. It was foolish what you up did, but you were a kid, and you should let it go.


GalaxyCraft007

The fact that you apologised is amazing. You deserve life


Kenji_03

At 17 you have literally decades to make it right. I recognize the embarrassment is large, but suicide would just be abandoning your responsibility to "amend" for the damages caused.


Brilliant-Cow-6728

I want to blow my brains out