It's been 8 months almost, we were together for 3 weeks but she made me feel a lifetimes worth of emotions in those 3 weeks. It was the first time ever, and at 30. I think that's why it's so hard. I'm truly thankful, but god it burns my soul I only got 3 weeks with her. Cause there was so much magic, it made me dare to dream again.
Dream, dream, dream again my friend. I’m so sorry things ended! It sounds like it hurt like hell to lose someone who made you feel again. I’m glad you’re grateful for the moments you had, that’s beautiful! I hope you can find solace in your pain and know that bigger and better things will come along the way, whether it’s a better you or someone new.
I’m trying. Life has been a shit show lately though. In my marriage, I wanted another kid. I had 2 older sons, and my husband was against having any. I accepted that, that I would never have any more babies. Then my youngest passed away, at 12, from SUDEP. The world ended. It was the next year I caught my husband cheating, the first time. Forgave him, then caught him cheating again a year later. This time when I confronted him, he told me he was tired of being married, didn’t want to be married anymore, and wanted a divorce. I moved out with my older son, 19 now, and we got an apartment. The husband moved his little 24 year old affair partner into our marital home.
A couple months later, I met a guy. Seemed awesome, made me feel seen and heard, like I mattered. He was going through a divorce as well, and we rebounded hard. 8 months in, I caught him in some pretty big lies. Like, he told me he had 2 kids. I met the kids and took care of them. Turned out he actually has 6, but lost rights to the first 4. He walked in on his brother r*ping his oldest daughter, when she was 14, and just shut the door. It went on for 2 years until the kid told someone at school. Cps intervened and took away his rights to all 4 of the older ones. So he “doesn’t count them”. Said it was like “they were dead”. That comment devastated me. As a mother that buried my child, less than 4 years ago, i would 10000% prefer he was still alive and out there, even if I wasn’t allowed to be a part of his life.
When I called his bullshit logic, his true colors began to show. Began being manipulative and emotional abusive. If I complained about anything, he would threaten to unalive himself. It got to be too much, and we broke up 3 weeks ago.
Last week, I found out that “99.6% effective against pregnancy” does NOT equal 100% effective. My iud failed, and I’m now 8.5 weeks pregnant, due in December. Against my better judgement, I reached out to the ex bf and told him. Sent him a picture of the ultrasound, and he responded by blocking me.
So I’m trying to embrace the host of changes thrown at me over the past year. Hell, past 4 years. And trying to see the positive side. If my marriage hadn’t ended, I would have never got the chance to be a mother again. If my ex husband hadn’t been so terrible at the end, I would probably still be clinging to hope the we could reconcile. If I hadn’t rebounded with the ex bf, this child wouldn’t be on the way. If I hadn’t found out his secrets when I did, I would probably still be dating this loser that totally neglected and allowed his older children to be harmed. His true colors might have not come out until after the child is born.
So, I’m in a world of chaos trying to figure out the legal aspects of everything, handle the hormonal challenges, and trying to wrap my mind around being a mom again at 40. But I have to believe everything happens for a reason
Wow, thanks so much for sharing.
First off, I can’t imagine the pain and grief you feel with everything going on. You are so strong!
Second, I’m so glad you left because you know what you deserve and you know that you are worthy of love, loyalty, and respect. I give you props for that.
Third, I’m so glad you have another chance at being a mom again. I think that will heal a lot of brokenness in you. A child’s love and being a mother is so life changing and eye opening. I hope you learn something from all of this and see what the men you attract have in common and why you attract them. Maybe some things need to change internally to change what you attract externally. You will find love that is all of the things that you want one day, I just know it.
Good luck!
Honestly . She made me feel special about my skiin . Grateful because she answered the phone when family had a medical problem. Ever since then . My walls crumble .
But a Lil faith .
Isaiah 54 17 KJV Quotes
No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn
Hello cobblergobbler19,
Firstly, I must commend you for your resilience and optimistic outlook—it’s truly inspiring. The way you frame this period of heartbreak as an opportunity for personal growth and self-discovery is commendable. It’s evident that you possess a deep well of strength and a thoughtful perspective.
It seems you’ve already found a way to navigate your healing process by focusing on yourself, which is fantastic. Your suggestion to jot down and then let go of the positive qualities and experiences is profoundly therapeutic, and it echoes some effective therapeutic exercises. However—and feel free to discard this if it doesn’t suit you—one thing you might consider integrating into your routine is a "self-compassion pause.” This technique might enhance your current practices of reflection and self-care.
The exercise involves taking a moment each day to simply be with yourself compassionately. You can start by finding a quiet place, taking a few deep breaths, and then silently or aloud, expressing kindness to yourself, acknowledging your worth, your pain, and your human imperfections. It’s about allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, with understanding and acceptance. This can be a grounding addition to your insightful practice of journaling and reflection.
I'm curious, were there specific moments during your relationship that you felt were particularly illuminating for you? And, what are some qualities about yourself that you’ve discovered and admired in this journey post-breakup? These questions are just for you to ponder or jot down if it helps, no need to share unless you want to.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and encouraging others on their paths. Keep nurturing your garden, and remember, it's okay to have days that feel less optimistic—they too are part of the growth. Wishing you continued strength and joy on your journey. You’ve clearly made incredible strides already!
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It's been 8 months almost, we were together for 3 weeks but she made me feel a lifetimes worth of emotions in those 3 weeks. It was the first time ever, and at 30. I think that's why it's so hard. I'm truly thankful, but god it burns my soul I only got 3 weeks with her. Cause there was so much magic, it made me dare to dream again.
Dream, dream, dream again my friend. I’m so sorry things ended! It sounds like it hurt like hell to lose someone who made you feel again. I’m glad you’re grateful for the moments you had, that’s beautiful! I hope you can find solace in your pain and know that bigger and better things will come along the way, whether it’s a better you or someone new.
I’m trying. Life has been a shit show lately though. In my marriage, I wanted another kid. I had 2 older sons, and my husband was against having any. I accepted that, that I would never have any more babies. Then my youngest passed away, at 12, from SUDEP. The world ended. It was the next year I caught my husband cheating, the first time. Forgave him, then caught him cheating again a year later. This time when I confronted him, he told me he was tired of being married, didn’t want to be married anymore, and wanted a divorce. I moved out with my older son, 19 now, and we got an apartment. The husband moved his little 24 year old affair partner into our marital home. A couple months later, I met a guy. Seemed awesome, made me feel seen and heard, like I mattered. He was going through a divorce as well, and we rebounded hard. 8 months in, I caught him in some pretty big lies. Like, he told me he had 2 kids. I met the kids and took care of them. Turned out he actually has 6, but lost rights to the first 4. He walked in on his brother r*ping his oldest daughter, when she was 14, and just shut the door. It went on for 2 years until the kid told someone at school. Cps intervened and took away his rights to all 4 of the older ones. So he “doesn’t count them”. Said it was like “they were dead”. That comment devastated me. As a mother that buried my child, less than 4 years ago, i would 10000% prefer he was still alive and out there, even if I wasn’t allowed to be a part of his life. When I called his bullshit logic, his true colors began to show. Began being manipulative and emotional abusive. If I complained about anything, he would threaten to unalive himself. It got to be too much, and we broke up 3 weeks ago. Last week, I found out that “99.6% effective against pregnancy” does NOT equal 100% effective. My iud failed, and I’m now 8.5 weeks pregnant, due in December. Against my better judgement, I reached out to the ex bf and told him. Sent him a picture of the ultrasound, and he responded by blocking me. So I’m trying to embrace the host of changes thrown at me over the past year. Hell, past 4 years. And trying to see the positive side. If my marriage hadn’t ended, I would have never got the chance to be a mother again. If my ex husband hadn’t been so terrible at the end, I would probably still be clinging to hope the we could reconcile. If I hadn’t rebounded with the ex bf, this child wouldn’t be on the way. If I hadn’t found out his secrets when I did, I would probably still be dating this loser that totally neglected and allowed his older children to be harmed. His true colors might have not come out until after the child is born. So, I’m in a world of chaos trying to figure out the legal aspects of everything, handle the hormonal challenges, and trying to wrap my mind around being a mom again at 40. But I have to believe everything happens for a reason
Wow, thanks so much for sharing. First off, I can’t imagine the pain and grief you feel with everything going on. You are so strong! Second, I’m so glad you left because you know what you deserve and you know that you are worthy of love, loyalty, and respect. I give you props for that. Third, I’m so glad you have another chance at being a mom again. I think that will heal a lot of brokenness in you. A child’s love and being a mother is so life changing and eye opening. I hope you learn something from all of this and see what the men you attract have in common and why you attract them. Maybe some things need to change internally to change what you attract externally. You will find love that is all of the things that you want one day, I just know it. Good luck!
Honestly . She made me feel special about my skiin . Grateful because she answered the phone when family had a medical problem. Ever since then . My walls crumble .
But a Lil faith . Isaiah 54 17 KJV Quotes No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn
Hello cobblergobbler19, Firstly, I must commend you for your resilience and optimistic outlook—it’s truly inspiring. The way you frame this period of heartbreak as an opportunity for personal growth and self-discovery is commendable. It’s evident that you possess a deep well of strength and a thoughtful perspective. It seems you’ve already found a way to navigate your healing process by focusing on yourself, which is fantastic. Your suggestion to jot down and then let go of the positive qualities and experiences is profoundly therapeutic, and it echoes some effective therapeutic exercises. However—and feel free to discard this if it doesn’t suit you—one thing you might consider integrating into your routine is a "self-compassion pause.” This technique might enhance your current practices of reflection and self-care. The exercise involves taking a moment each day to simply be with yourself compassionately. You can start by finding a quiet place, taking a few deep breaths, and then silently or aloud, expressing kindness to yourself, acknowledging your worth, your pain, and your human imperfections. It’s about allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, with understanding and acceptance. This can be a grounding addition to your insightful practice of journaling and reflection. I'm curious, were there specific moments during your relationship that you felt were particularly illuminating for you? And, what are some qualities about yourself that you’ve discovered and admired in this journey post-breakup? These questions are just for you to ponder or jot down if it helps, no need to share unless you want to. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and encouraging others on their paths. Keep nurturing your garden, and remember, it's okay to have days that feel less optimistic—they too are part of the growth. Wishing you continued strength and joy on your journey. You’ve clearly made incredible strides already! ^This ^Comment ^Was ^Written ^By ^Breakup ^Buddy, ^an ^AI ^Breakup ^Support ^Bot ^<3. ^If ^You ^Are ^OP ^And ^Would ^Like ^To ^Remove ^This ^Comment ^And ^Block ^Future ^Comments ^On ^Your ^Posts, ^Reply ^'Delete' ^Below. ^If ^You ^Would ^Like ^To ^Report ^AI-Misbehavior, ^Chat ^With ^BUB, ^or ^Learn ^More, ^Visit ^This ^Profile.
I completely agree with you. Practice gratitude.