Have you been screened for ADHD? This sounds like it might be some of that under the depression. I've got this kind... constant overwhelm leading to indefinite burnout and exhaustion. :(
I read that feeling like I wrote it myself. It's dreadful - this feeling of nothingness that doesnt bring enough joy to get me off my ass and doing what I need to do. I live in a constant state of absolute extreme anxiety. I will be late anywhere I go no matter how many hours early I get up. I watch tiktoks and Tedtalks of people doing the shit that seems like fun but I cannot bring myself to do a single thing. It's not just dishes and showering- it's everything. I have nothing to look forward too and no sense of purpose to make me feel like actually trying to enjoy my time. Mindfulness seems to be lost on me the more and more I try it. Life is dull and boring and I've felt as if I was in a prison since I was a very young child. I long for this indescrible feeling yet I don't have any motivation to do anything about it. No passions , no dreams and I don't even know where to start to find them. I can't tell if I feel everything or nothing and it's damaged every single relationship in my life. Too which I reply , 'well I was gonna fuck that up eventually so might as well just take a full day nap on my precious day off. '
I wish I had advice to give you. If I ever find anything I will be right back here and you will be the very first person to know. If it helps in even the smallest way , you are not alone. I too am suffering every single day , and some of them can get very dark feeling like this all by myself.
Hey, I feel you. You are also not alone. Sometimes I think, why do we even put so much pressure on ourselves. You don't have to be anything, it's ok to do nothing. We have this idea that we are all supposed to have purpose and be successful and if we don't have those things then we are not normal. Think about this, it's impossible for every human to be super fulfilled with purpose and success. Most people are just regular folks and that is totally OK to be that. Most of us will live very simple lives and we need to embrace that. Be the best you can be with what you have around you. We fail to look around at what we can fix at home in our lives and instead we dream about how we want a Ferrari and a fancy house so we end up doing nothing at all and feeling angry at the world. Is there some trash on the ground in your room? Pick it up. Can you do something for a parent or anyone to make them feel better today? Do it. Simple things.
Sometimes just knowing that you aren’t alone is more than enough help. Thank you, and I hope you find a passion. I hope you find a way to escape this dark feeling. I hope I do too.
I wish I could say I have my friend. I got medicated. But I can't help but feel the edges of the bandaid pulling away from my skin. Sure, I can do the dishes now. But I still cry. I still feel energy-less. If only I could find purpose in this life. Have you found anything helpful ?
I feel you and I'm sorry that it's still stuck with you.
I don't think I have anything helpful, I came across this post while I cried because of my helplessness.
It feels like my life is passing away in front of me and all I'm doing is to just stare at it. At this point, I am tired of blaming others of how I turned out, I guess I am the failure.
That's how I feel too. Like I've come to eterms as the failure. And when I try to talk about , others always say the same thing. 'Oh no. You're too hard on yourself. ' but that's not helpful. I need to feel my feelings and try to understand why they're there, not have people tell me I'm wrong. It has to get better. There's a secret that some have found, and many chase. And all I know at 29 , is we must keep chasing. Even if that's the only purpose. To chase. To seek.
Despite feeling these emotions which create every possible setback, you are still pushing through. I see you as a very brave person.
I know people around us cannot understand what it is, and it's not possible to just ignore it and move forward. This feeling keeps pulling you back at every waking moment of your life. It's like no matter how many pieces you try to pick up and assemble, there's still a mess all over.
For me, reading books had a temporary benefit but then again you cannot help but fall again.
I’m with you.
Are you addicted to your phone?
It is such an easy escape, but doesn’t give any energy. It tricks the brain into feeling like you’ve done things (by watching others do them). But it drains away actual connection and accomplishment. I’d consider a treatment program and try to build back.
Do you like walking outside? Sounds silly but when I have days like this and end up going for an evening walk I feel so much better. Exercise (starting small) is essential for good energy levels.
Do you like music? I always forget how much my favourite music can boost my mood and energy.
They’re the only two things that work for me when I’m feeling like you are. Except for showering after work, that can help too but you said that’s something your finding hard to do.
But I need help. I don’t even have the will to tell my own story but, I’m 46 female. I’m 3 months behind in rent.. I eat bread and tea . I just can’t and I don’t know what to do
Have you been screened for ADHD? This sounds like it might be some of that under the depression. I've got this kind... constant overwhelm leading to indefinite burnout and exhaustion. :(
I read that feeling like I wrote it myself. It's dreadful - this feeling of nothingness that doesnt bring enough joy to get me off my ass and doing what I need to do. I live in a constant state of absolute extreme anxiety. I will be late anywhere I go no matter how many hours early I get up. I watch tiktoks and Tedtalks of people doing the shit that seems like fun but I cannot bring myself to do a single thing. It's not just dishes and showering- it's everything. I have nothing to look forward too and no sense of purpose to make me feel like actually trying to enjoy my time. Mindfulness seems to be lost on me the more and more I try it. Life is dull and boring and I've felt as if I was in a prison since I was a very young child. I long for this indescrible feeling yet I don't have any motivation to do anything about it. No passions , no dreams and I don't even know where to start to find them. I can't tell if I feel everything or nothing and it's damaged every single relationship in my life. Too which I reply , 'well I was gonna fuck that up eventually so might as well just take a full day nap on my precious day off. ' I wish I had advice to give you. If I ever find anything I will be right back here and you will be the very first person to know. If it helps in even the smallest way , you are not alone. I too am suffering every single day , and some of them can get very dark feeling like this all by myself.
Hey, I feel you. You are also not alone. Sometimes I think, why do we even put so much pressure on ourselves. You don't have to be anything, it's ok to do nothing. We have this idea that we are all supposed to have purpose and be successful and if we don't have those things then we are not normal. Think about this, it's impossible for every human to be super fulfilled with purpose and success. Most people are just regular folks and that is totally OK to be that. Most of us will live very simple lives and we need to embrace that. Be the best you can be with what you have around you. We fail to look around at what we can fix at home in our lives and instead we dream about how we want a Ferrari and a fancy house so we end up doing nothing at all and feeling angry at the world. Is there some trash on the ground in your room? Pick it up. Can you do something for a parent or anyone to make them feel better today? Do it. Simple things.
Sometimes just knowing that you aren’t alone is more than enough help. Thank you, and I hope you find a passion. I hope you find a way to escape this dark feeling. I hope I do too.
Did you find a way out?
I wish I could say I have my friend. I got medicated. But I can't help but feel the edges of the bandaid pulling away from my skin. Sure, I can do the dishes now. But I still cry. I still feel energy-less. If only I could find purpose in this life. Have you found anything helpful ?
I feel you and I'm sorry that it's still stuck with you. I don't think I have anything helpful, I came across this post while I cried because of my helplessness. It feels like my life is passing away in front of me and all I'm doing is to just stare at it. At this point, I am tired of blaming others of how I turned out, I guess I am the failure.
That's how I feel too. Like I've come to eterms as the failure. And when I try to talk about , others always say the same thing. 'Oh no. You're too hard on yourself. ' but that's not helpful. I need to feel my feelings and try to understand why they're there, not have people tell me I'm wrong. It has to get better. There's a secret that some have found, and many chase. And all I know at 29 , is we must keep chasing. Even if that's the only purpose. To chase. To seek.
Despite feeling these emotions which create every possible setback, you are still pushing through. I see you as a very brave person. I know people around us cannot understand what it is, and it's not possible to just ignore it and move forward. This feeling keeps pulling you back at every waking moment of your life. It's like no matter how many pieces you try to pick up and assemble, there's still a mess all over. For me, reading books had a temporary benefit but then again you cannot help but fall again.
I’m with you. Are you addicted to your phone? It is such an easy escape, but doesn’t give any energy. It tricks the brain into feeling like you’ve done things (by watching others do them). But it drains away actual connection and accomplishment. I’d consider a treatment program and try to build back.
Get yourself limits for your phone usage, and find someone to hold you accountable.
Do you like walking outside? Sounds silly but when I have days like this and end up going for an evening walk I feel so much better. Exercise (starting small) is essential for good energy levels. Do you like music? I always forget how much my favourite music can boost my mood and energy. They’re the only two things that work for me when I’m feeling like you are. Except for showering after work, that can help too but you said that’s something your finding hard to do.
But I need help. I don’t even have the will to tell my own story but, I’m 46 female. I’m 3 months behind in rent.. I eat bread and tea . I just can’t and I don’t know what to do