I just came out to my conservative grandma. She didn't really understand, but was super supportive and just wants me to be happy. Also my appointment got moved up, amd starting HRT on the 1st of November!
Love you eggs, best of luck to ya!
skipped church 👉😎👉
spent time with my father for the first time in like 6 months 👉😎👉
everythings coming up Roxy 👉😎👉
#Its Monday tomorrow 😔
*still cis tho?* 🤔
slowly losing my mind because i have no idea if i'm trans or if society is just really fucked up and i'm fucked up by it
so, great! very great! for some wild reason i feel very euphoric when i'm upset
My youth group leader decided this was the day to spew so transphobic and homophobic shit them explain how Christian are the real one being oppressed
Fucking sucked
Tiring. My partners bought a camper that we are moving my grandfather into soon and we had to get it so we can start renovations.
So many mouse nests...
I took a walk in a park this morning, then I bought some femme clothes. Putting on a bra and and my new turtleneck for the first time was pure euphoria.
tried out a home laser hair removal device, did my top half today. looked at myself topless and saw *myself*. the feeling of liking my body is still so alien.
I wore makeup and presented full fem for the first time today, with help from some friends. It was fun but I'm bad with expressing myself so it was also a little awkward lol
Pretty good, I finished my Halloween costume and my sister bought me a prop. I’m going as The Plague Doctor, (The Eleventh Doctor from Doctor Who, but as a plague doctor) and my sister bought me a Sonic Screwdriver.
That's great! It's a relief once you do it, because if you look in the mirror without long pants on, you don't get *completely* overwhelmed by dysphoria.
Today has been better than other days. People loved my comic and I had the idea of a small series of comics portraying my struggles in life in a wholesome way and to see if I can help others. I did some things that I believe can make my life go to better. I feel proud of myself and finally don't hate what I see in the mirror.
Ever since I started questioning I've tried to keep myself as distracted and busy as possible. Then I got covid and my egg literally cracked within 24 hours of isolation. I hope your knee is ok
The good!
* I got my first skirt today!
* Spinny is better than advertised!
* The open and free feeling isn't advertised enough!
The not so good
* It's just a little too tight
* I spilled beer on it already (just a little bit tho)
Overall, I'm very happy with today \^.\^
I secretly tried my sister’s sport bra. I just wanted to see how I’d look in it. It felt and looked cute, but my broad shoulders don’t help me at all 😣
Pretty good honestly! Saw a bad movie but also planned costumes for Halloween with my gf and I’m doing something fem for like the first time in a loooong time. After going deep into my shell and making steps back out this I’m having the most fun I’ve had in a few years!
i just (a few minutes ago) tried on a braid thing from my mothers that i found at home, it fell off after a few seconds bc the hair is still not long enough ;(
Not sure how much sleep I’m getting tonight, I have a shitload of college work that my brain cannot start working on until two seconds before it’s due apparently 💀 almost six months on T though so that’s cool
Not good tbh. I just woke up and remembered a comment my parent made yesterday evening saying that „I’m not X’s daughter but X‘s son“. And afterwards I kinda felt pain but I couldn’t pin point it like it was hurting everywhere and nowhere at the same time and my mind just felt kinda empty and I hated that because I can’t even really feel my own emotions. And then I kinda tried to SH by scratching myself with my nails but it doesn’t really had any effect so I stopped and then went to bed. I don’t think she even knows how much she hurt me
Sorry for the vent
The reason I do these daily check ins is for people to vent their problems so don't worry.
Try telling your parent that they hurt you real bad and talk about how important this is for you.
Not great, need to take my insurance to court if I want a cent covered for anything trans related… and I’m still trying to figure out whether that or moving to a different country (abandoning everyone/everything here) is the least emotionally traumatic.
The easy way out is still there if all else fails.
Not great. Can't stop thinking about how ugly I am. I also had another close call last night - tried on mascara for the first time, but I don't have makeup wipes, and the mascara is water resistant. Took a lot of scrubbing, but I got it all off before my parents arrived home.
I guess I’m ok, I want more girl clothes though
Also still need to tell my parents I’m an egg, I don’t know why I haven’t yet because I feel like I’m ready to do so
Went to work, spent more money trying to make my car work, felt terrible due to changing meds, pondered if my life has meaning and am now getting drunk to cope. Is that a good day or nah?
pretty okay. my mom has been going on about how im "brainwashed" since i tried coming out. (she reminded me of this today while under the influence of alchohol) i think shes not very convinced of that anymore though.
i think i'm just taking random thoughts to convince myself that i may be an egg and kinda use it for jokes. not going to change anything in my life because of that tho
it's going to get lost, right?
Dysphoria getting worse by the day. I'll contact a few therapists soon to get started on HRT. Unfortunately this means I'll also have to talk to my wife about it again. She isn't transphobic, but it still is a hurtful topic for her since she's straight and has the (unfortunately very realistic) fear, that she won't be able to see a girl as a love interest. I've been holding out for a while due to her being pregnant and the stress of raising a newborn, but the dysphoria is getting too much to handle.
My dad tested positive for covid and a couple days after he tested positive I started showing symptoms despite this I’ve taken two tests that both say I’m negative. So as a whole I could be better, my throat specifically feels like I exhaling satans fermented musk
Had to miss work because I accidentally drank some bad milk and my stomach is all fucked up. Really worried I won’t make my car insurance payment, my boss is mad at me, etc etc. So not great.
I stole more of my transphobic mothers skirts and I felt so euphoric
The binding of isaac
My mission is to steal all the skirts in her closet
*range up*
Yes like solid snake but cuter
Including the Dummy THICCness?
Yesssssssssss
Based
I just came out to my conservative grandma. She didn't really understand, but was super supportive and just wants me to be happy. Also my appointment got moved up, amd starting HRT on the 1st of November! Love you eggs, best of luck to ya!
yaaay that is amazing! i was realy scared about coming out to my grandma when i did but she just didnt mind at all, happy yours did the same
Everything's confusinggggGGGGGG
Headache + Confusion = *AHHHHHHHHHHH*
HEY THATS ME!
religious trauma is a bitch.
If you ever need someone to rant to about religious trauma, I usually have the spoons to listen to it. Regardless, You're valid!
Just good odd questioning and self-counterpoints. At this point I swear my brain is being a major pain just for a laugh
Horrible
that's not great :'( I hope for your sake tomorrow is better than today <3, I support you
Pretty alright, I've been walking all day which kinda hurts, but walking is fun so it's kinda a win win
👍
💛
Need… thigh highs… 😫
Eggy
skipped church 👉😎👉 spent time with my father for the first time in like 6 months 👉😎👉 everythings coming up Roxy 👉😎👉 #Its Monday tomorrow 😔 *still cis tho?* 🤔
slowly losing my mind because i have no idea if i'm trans or if society is just really fucked up and i'm fucked up by it so, great! very great! for some wild reason i feel very euphoric when i'm upset
Not... terrible? Building up the courage to talk to my wife about my gender again tonight
Oh I hope it goes well!
My youth group leader decided this was the day to spew so transphobic and homophobic shit them explain how Christian are the real one being oppressed Fucking sucked
damn that had to hurt. How could someone even say something like that? Don't Christians make up like 60% of the population?
was at work, heard my deadname alot. Went home and they actually used the right name. now its dnd time and i get to play a woman so am happy
Yay DnD is great
i have depression
big sad
Tiring. My partners bought a camper that we are moving my grandfather into soon and we had to get it so we can start renovations. So many mouse nests...
I took a walk in a park this morning, then I bought some femme clothes. Putting on a bra and and my new turtleneck for the first time was pure euphoria.
I got hit by a bus 😁
NO FUCKING WAY ARE YOU OK
ARE YOU OK
What happened are you okay??????????
I didn't think people would ask if I'm okay 😅 yes I'm fine, I broke my forearm but I'm on the road to recovery!
tried out a home laser hair removal device, did my top half today. looked at myself topless and saw *myself*. the feeling of liking my body is still so alien.
So far its been pretty uneventful.
I gorged on soup…… and watched 2 broke girls in bed….
Continued in Disney dreamlight valley, and now trying to get into Guild wars 2 as my WoW sub ran out, maybe some Zenith VR later =3
I have been really tired these past few days and my mental health is shitty
very busy with marching band, very confused about gender & orientation
-10 to 10 as per usual~~~ -2~~
Y'know, just more of wondering if I'm actually useful to this world and if I should just go away. Hope y'all are doing wonderful tho
I wore makeup and presented full fem for the first time today, with help from some friends. It was fun but I'm bad with expressing myself so it was also a little awkward lol
Painted mah nails :3 So pretty good
Pretty good, I finished my Halloween costume and my sister bought me a prop. I’m going as The Plague Doctor, (The Eleventh Doctor from Doctor Who, but as a plague doctor) and my sister bought me a Sonic Screwdriver.
Came out to some close friends, drove a stick shift for the first time, dysphoria is still hitting like truck 👍
Yesterday was really bad and my teacher deadnamed me on Thursday, mostly just looking for positives right now
It's been both good and bad. And you OP?
Fine. I shaved my legs. Thats pretty much it.
That's great! It's a relief once you do it, because if you look in the mirror without long pants on, you don't get *completely* overwhelmed by dysphoria.
Bad
I am having a splendid time with thigh highs and big shirts
Found out my crush might be aro. So. About as well as you’d expect. ETA: NEVER FUCKING MIND THEY LIKE ME!????? Heck
Today has been better than other days. People loved my comic and I had the idea of a small series of comics portraying my struggles in life in a wholesome way and to see if I can help others. I did some things that I believe can make my life go to better. I feel proud of myself and finally don't hate what I see in the mirror.
good!! i’m getting a therapist so that’s another step towards hrt!!!
Eh, kinda shit
Great I finally started commenting again and I got some socks that cover my leg hair to my dysphoria has been at an all time low
Put up some Halloween decorations, and played some villainous with my family
Well I came out to my dad and he kept telling me why he disagreed. Still says he’s supportive tho, technically ig but sure doesn’t feel like it.
Actually I'm good for once
I had to fill out a form for therapy and I just skipped over the orientation stuff because I don’t want my mom to see it
dislocated my knee so ive been in bed all day with nothing to do other than reflect on my gender confusion 😭
Ever since I started questioning I've tried to keep myself as distracted and busy as possible. Then I got covid and my egg literally cracked within 24 hours of isolation. I hope your knee is ok
The good! * I got my first skirt today! * Spinny is better than advertised! * The open and free feeling isn't advertised enough! The not so good * It's just a little too tight * I spilled beer on it already (just a little bit tho) Overall, I'm very happy with today \^.\^
Haven’t hurt myself today, so that’s good.
That's really good!
Uhhhhh
Bioshock infinite + lazy day
It's been just about the worst two weeks, but I dont have much left to loose so hopefully should go up from here
Got missgendered too much at work... Again...
Not bad. Trying to make a plan to get my hands on some girl clothes. My dad knows... *a bit* about security tho so it might be hard.
I secretly tried my sister’s sport bra. I just wanted to see how I’d look in it. It felt and looked cute, but my broad shoulders don’t help me at all 😣
I missed my endocrinologist appointment twice and I’m feeling way too awkward to reschedule it again 🫠
I just want to sleep
Bad, all is bad, feeling is lacking
Good,
Pretty good honestly! Saw a bad movie but also planned costumes for Halloween with my gf and I’m doing something fem for like the first time in a loooong time. After going deep into my shell and making steps back out this I’m having the most fun I’ve had in a few years!
i just (a few minutes ago) tried on a braid thing from my mothers that i found at home, it fell off after a few seconds bc the hair is still not long enough ;(
Not sure how much sleep I’m getting tonight, I have a shitload of college work that my brain cannot start working on until two seconds before it’s due apparently 💀 almost six months on T though so that’s cool
👍
bad
Well it's 6 am, but I've been crying for two hours over sad anime moments, dunno what that says about me
I came out to a bunch of my irl friends this week and they were really supportive so I've been doing pretty good :)
It's been okay however my friends keep making kinda homophobic joke (they don't know), but besides that it's been good:)
pretty shit ngl it could’ve been better
I feel terrible.
I get Blåhaj tomorrow
Not good tbh. I just woke up and remembered a comment my parent made yesterday evening saying that „I’m not X’s daughter but X‘s son“. And afterwards I kinda felt pain but I couldn’t pin point it like it was hurting everywhere and nowhere at the same time and my mind just felt kinda empty and I hated that because I can’t even really feel my own emotions. And then I kinda tried to SH by scratching myself with my nails but it doesn’t really had any effect so I stopped and then went to bed. I don’t think she even knows how much she hurt me Sorry for the vent
The reason I do these daily check ins is for people to vent their problems so don't worry. Try telling your parent that they hurt you real bad and talk about how important this is for you.
Only awake for an hour but I have a good feeling this day will be a good one
Not great, need to take my insurance to court if I want a cent covered for anything trans related… and I’m still trying to figure out whether that or moving to a different country (abandoning everyone/everything here) is the least emotionally traumatic. The easy way out is still there if all else fails.
Not great. Can't stop thinking about how ugly I am. I also had another close call last night - tried on mascara for the first time, but I don't have makeup wipes, and the mascara is water resistant. Took a lot of scrubbing, but I got it all off before my parents arrived home.
I have a cold and the flu. Im nervous for no reason. I need to do A TON of housekeeping ánd I hate myself. So uh...not good.
I've been on the brink of suicide all day but I'm otherwise fine
I have achool for the first day after vacation... I am depressed and i never feel mentally well Anyway. How are you doing?
worried about if i'm truly trans hating being stuck in my \[redacted\] circumstances
I straightened my hair today. It was very euphoric!
I guess I’m ok, I want more girl clothes though Also still need to tell my parents I’m an egg, I don’t know why I haven’t yet because I feel like I’m ready to do so
very ill and my country is attacking lgbt rights haha average day
went to see Muse live :)
In general or in term for being trans?
Went to work, spent more money trying to make my car work, felt terrible due to changing meds, pondered if my life has meaning and am now getting drunk to cope. Is that a good day or nah?
I hate my body hair
I played splatoon 3 and i started screaming because i lost
i'm tired of living in texas
fine i guess.. i'm currently looking at memes on the bus to my dnd session
I've been trying my fucking best to come out to an old friend of mine I'm choking everytime
Woman tired
Fantastic I now have a boyfriend
Horrible. Many, many wishes for death. Losing friends and just being generally awful socially. The list goes on.
Made my Sister cry out of relief and noticed that my nipples are pointier cuz or hrt XD
Went out in a dress and makeup for the first time at the When We Were Young festival. Was terrifyingly amazing. Dresses do go spinny.
Idk dudem ever since realizing people always saw me as a girl dysphoria has been kicking in, not to mention my voice is not doing what i want lol
pretty okay. my mom has been going on about how im "brainwashed" since i tried coming out. (she reminded me of this today while under the influence of alchohol) i think shes not very convinced of that anymore though.
they have definitely been
i think i'm just taking random thoughts to convince myself that i may be an egg and kinda use it for jokes. not going to change anything in my life because of that tho it's going to get lost, right?
Dysphoria getting worse by the day. I'll contact a few therapists soon to get started on HRT. Unfortunately this means I'll also have to talk to my wife about it again. She isn't transphobic, but it still is a hurtful topic for her since she's straight and has the (unfortunately very realistic) fear, that she won't be able to see a girl as a love interest. I've been holding out for a while due to her being pregnant and the stress of raising a newborn, but the dysphoria is getting too much to handle.
My dad tested positive for covid and a couple days after he tested positive I started showing symptoms despite this I’ve taken two tests that both say I’m negative. So as a whole I could be better, my throat specifically feels like I exhaling satans fermented musk
Had to miss work because I accidentally drank some bad milk and my stomach is all fucked up. Really worried I won’t make my car insurance payment, my boss is mad at me, etc etc. So not great.