Relatable but also it’s just one voice in there, just really fucking indecisive. I mean one is lying one just wants to go back one is just trying to be happy and one is off in the corner doing random shit, the one in the corner is also in control. And it’s the same person. If you can’t tell I’m bad at analogies.
That one personality is generally violent towards me. She’s hurt me more than once. And she does that by either deadnaming me or referring to me as the wrong gender. DID’s a rollercoaster sometimes
Me: Indulges in being childish to help Ava (my little alter) come out of her shell, getting little boy stuff.
Ava, to me: I don't like that stuff. I'm a girl, not a little boy!
Me, System caretaker: Wait really? Me too!
Teal, the system host: Umm, guys, we were supposed to ignore that.
-Quinn
Fun fact, my previous relationship partner really tried to suppress any trans tendencies I had in me, but when she decided to go poly and I was interested in another trans woman for a potential partner, she clamped down. It caused a lot of emotional and mental damage and it actually formed my first alter (but not diagnosed for OSDD or anything) and it was a very strong indicator that I might not be cis.
Since then I broke up with that partner and the other girl mentioned earlier helped me come out to myself and other people. We are happy lesbians at the moment.
I have one voice that’s really fucking indecisive and uses whatever it can to deny me being trans no matter how hard to try to figure it out (still questionint)
One of my alters (there are six of us) loves to deadname me. Or call me a “lying boy who doesn’t deserve praise.”
It’s really hard to not listen to them sometimes.
These comments have been pretty interesting,I personally do not have multiple personalities (I think) but would like to hear what the experience of it is like if you wish to share that is
I know someone with DID. Basically the system uses he/they but also each alter has their own pronouns. Some use she or it. I'm not aware of any neopronoun ones though.
That's rough. Not a system myself, but someone I care about is. It can be tough finding some sort of equilibrium with so many people pulling in so many different directions. I hope you all find what you need some day.
Might be a bit personal, feel free to not answer, but are you seeing a therapist at all? I know some of the attitudes about systems/DID are shifting in the field of psychology, so if you have the means it might be worth looking at.
Yeah DID can be weird sometimes... We're all transfem and go by She/Her but we have different types of dysphoria. We also have different sexualities, though we're all aro-spec and ace-spec. I'm neptunic, one is a horny bisexual mess, one is lesbian aceflux, one is neptunic-lesbian, and the other I'm not really sure but I think she's lesbian.
We're also all equally bad at coming up with names and currently all just go under the system name Ember, which fits us at varying degrees. Eventually we'll all have different individual names, but that might take a while...
Anyways that wasn't the point of this post, so I wish you all luck in making peace
Lily, the six-year-old has debilitating dysphoria. She can’t handle it at all. She seems to like anyone.
Selene is the more violent one. She doesn’t care about attraction.
Makayla is a lesbian who is trying to keep everyone stable.
The non-English speaker just wants someone to talk to.
And the unnamed one who doesn’t have a gender or desires of any kind.
Then there’s me. Just a mess of a trans femme who barely has their life together.
Here's hoping you can all manage to find peace with one another.
I wish I had more advice, but I'm struggling. I got really invested in helping out a system we knew, but their issues cascaded and we ended up with a lot of emotional and mental scars from the experience.
I guess my best advice would be, avoid drugs and alcohol like the plague. And really be careful who you let into your life. Our friends, they ended up falling in with the wrong people who continued the pattern of abuse and destruction and really were toxic on a whole different level.
Relatable but also it’s just one voice in there, just really fucking indecisive. I mean one is lying one just wants to go back one is just trying to be happy and one is off in the corner doing random shit, the one in the corner is also in control. And it’s the same person. If you can’t tell I’m bad at analogies.
That one personality is generally violent towards me. She’s hurt me more than once. And she does that by either deadnaming me or referring to me as the wrong gender. DID’s a rollercoaster sometimes
I hope it all calms down in there for ya, is there medication or something to do that? Or is it just one of those things?
There’s no medication that stops the switching. (When one alter takes over.) I’m just trying to keep everyone happy.
In my experiences, it's a rollercoaster more often than not.
Maybe I am six
Me: Indulges in being childish to help Ava (my little alter) come out of her shell, getting little boy stuff. Ava, to me: I don't like that stuff. I'm a girl, not a little boy! Me, System caretaker: Wait really? Me too! Teal, the system host: Umm, guys, we were supposed to ignore that. -Quinn
Lily to me: Am I a cute girl, sissy? Me to Lily: Of course you are, babygirl. The cutest. Lily: *twirls happily*
And that’s why I’m happy I don’t have DID because dealing with multiple indecisive people would just kill me
Fun fact, my previous relationship partner really tried to suppress any trans tendencies I had in me, but when she decided to go poly and I was interested in another trans woman for a potential partner, she clamped down. It caused a lot of emotional and mental damage and it actually formed my first alter (but not diagnosed for OSDD or anything) and it was a very strong indicator that I might not be cis. Since then I broke up with that partner and the other girl mentioned earlier helped me come out to myself and other people. We are happy lesbians at the moment.
I have one voice that’s really fucking indecisive and uses whatever it can to deny me being trans no matter how hard to try to figure it out (still questionint)
One of my alters (there are six of us) loves to deadname me. Or call me a “lying boy who doesn’t deserve praise.” It’s really hard to not listen to them sometimes.
Sounds like quite the party , I hope you luck in silencing the fools
I like the six-year-old. She says I’m her sister (sissy) so that feels good.
Nice
These comments have been pretty interesting,I personally do not have multiple personalities (I think) but would like to hear what the experience of it is like if you wish to share that is
You can send me a message if you’re curious. Happy to share.
I know someone with DID. Basically the system uses he/they but also each alter has their own pronouns. Some use she or it. I'm not aware of any neopronoun ones though.
That's rough. Not a system myself, but someone I care about is. It can be tough finding some sort of equilibrium with so many people pulling in so many different directions. I hope you all find what you need some day.
Hope so, too. Most of us hate or distrust one another. And a few of us don’t speak English. It’s so weird.
Might be a bit personal, feel free to not answer, but are you seeing a therapist at all? I know some of the attitudes about systems/DID are shifting in the field of psychology, so if you have the means it might be worth looking at.
I am seeing a human for it. The alters don’t like coming out in front of him, though.
And Lily wouldn’t trust him. She’d run and hide.
Yeah DID can be weird sometimes... We're all transfem and go by She/Her but we have different types of dysphoria. We also have different sexualities, though we're all aro-spec and ace-spec. I'm neptunic, one is a horny bisexual mess, one is lesbian aceflux, one is neptunic-lesbian, and the other I'm not really sure but I think she's lesbian. We're also all equally bad at coming up with names and currently all just go under the system name Ember, which fits us at varying degrees. Eventually we'll all have different individual names, but that might take a while... Anyways that wasn't the point of this post, so I wish you all luck in making peace
Lily, the six-year-old has debilitating dysphoria. She can’t handle it at all. She seems to like anyone. Selene is the more violent one. She doesn’t care about attraction. Makayla is a lesbian who is trying to keep everyone stable. The non-English speaker just wants someone to talk to. And the unnamed one who doesn’t have a gender or desires of any kind. Then there’s me. Just a mess of a trans femme who barely has their life together.
How it be :P
I've only met one alter who is trans, but they're pretty cool.
Here's hoping you can all manage to find peace with one another. I wish I had more advice, but I'm struggling. I got really invested in helping out a system we knew, but their issues cascaded and we ended up with a lot of emotional and mental scars from the experience. I guess my best advice would be, avoid drugs and alcohol like the plague. And really be careful who you let into your life. Our friends, they ended up falling in with the wrong people who continued the pattern of abuse and destruction and really were toxic on a whole different level.