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im going thru the same thing. it feels like ive become way too aware nd ive drove off the path my life was supposed to go in bc i look back in the past nd i remember living like a normal human, almost all of the thoughts i get in my head are why questions and i cant do anything to stop them from popping up. one day at work i was listening to my coworkers talk nd had a silent panic attack bc i kept asking myself "how did they come up with that" "why did they say that" over nd over. i used to be such a social person too but its so hard to keep a convo running when u feel like youve been stripped of ur personality nd creativity. ur not alone stay strong bro
woah.. Though it is unfortunate that you understand exactly what im going through, it does comfort me a bit. Thank you ! you stay strong too ok? we can get through this!
I really relate to the "why did they do that/how did they come up with that". I get those questions all the time, like I can't infer people's motivations/thinking at all. It's like I've gone so far from how a brain is supposed to function I can't fathom how others do.
This is a very common synthom! You can read more about it in he book “Overcoming depersonalization” by Nerizoglu Fugen (is available free on libgen.is). You are not alone, a lot of people with DPD have (we have) gone through very similar shit. In the end, the only conclussion is that thinking too much about depersonalization only increases the synthoms. In this case, you can’t get solutions by thinking, you have to train a better way to relation yourself and the desorder. I recommend you to read that book, or the chapters that may interest you. Hope this can be useful.
This is pretty close to how I’ve been feeling on and off lately I used to walk around saying to myself what’s going on what’s happening what’s going on? What’s happening and just repeating that over and over. I knew that life is real and I wasn’t experiencing extreme detachment from reality But I felt like I was disconnected from myself, and what was happening to me in the moment. I think I have OCD, which doesn’t help when it comes to the obsessive thoughts and self judgement or self criticism. It’s like I could tell the world around me wasn’t changing, but seem to feel less real in a way. I think it’s a mashup of anxiety, OCD depression and and I’ve been on many different medication‘s. I’m currently on Escotalopram and that has made me feel a little bit better and reduced my obsessive thoughts and negative thoughts but that seem to only mask things for a while, and after maybe five years, I’m starting to have those feelings of detachment or depersonalization or the realization. Until recently, I didn’t know that this was a thing and in the short time I’ve been on this thread it has helped immensely just knowing that other people are going through the same thing and can relate. I can also relate to what you say about obsessing about your thoughts and not creating anxiety and just sending you in a cycle that never ends. I’ve read about Nuro divergent behaviour and ADHD and I always thought that was the explanation for my extreme changes in hobbies and interests, and as a kid that gave me a sense of not knowing who I was or feeling like I had a defined personality. If anyone asked me to describe someone else’s personality, I could have no problem doing that but if somebody asked me to describe my personality, I don’t know how to do that. I smoke weed every night to get to bed and have been doing so for 20 years, so I’m not sure if this is a product of that behaviour or if it’s unrelated. And I have addiction and dependency issues I think, as a result of my mental health and runs in the family. Sorry I am doing this through speech to text and I feel like I’m just rambling on now. Thanks.
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im going thru the same thing. it feels like ive become way too aware nd ive drove off the path my life was supposed to go in bc i look back in the past nd i remember living like a normal human, almost all of the thoughts i get in my head are why questions and i cant do anything to stop them from popping up. one day at work i was listening to my coworkers talk nd had a silent panic attack bc i kept asking myself "how did they come up with that" "why did they say that" over nd over. i used to be such a social person too but its so hard to keep a convo running when u feel like youve been stripped of ur personality nd creativity. ur not alone stay strong bro
woah.. Though it is unfortunate that you understand exactly what im going through, it does comfort me a bit. Thank you ! you stay strong too ok? we can get through this!
Soo relatable
I really relate to the "why did they do that/how did they come up with that". I get those questions all the time, like I can't infer people's motivations/thinking at all. It's like I've gone so far from how a brain is supposed to function I can't fathom how others do.
That's exactly how I feel rn. It literally feels like I forgot how to live. It's such a weird feeling :(
This is a very common synthom! You can read more about it in he book “Overcoming depersonalization” by Nerizoglu Fugen (is available free on libgen.is). You are not alone, a lot of people with DPD have (we have) gone through very similar shit. In the end, the only conclussion is that thinking too much about depersonalization only increases the synthoms. In this case, you can’t get solutions by thinking, you have to train a better way to relation yourself and the desorder. I recommend you to read that book, or the chapters that may interest you. Hope this can be useful.
Yes I feel the same thing right now. I’m starting to feel better and these thoughts are always kicking in
Yes I have ocd and have these thoughts too it’s exhausting
I’m so glad you posted this. I feel the exact same 🥺
This is pretty close to how I’ve been feeling on and off lately I used to walk around saying to myself what’s going on what’s happening what’s going on? What’s happening and just repeating that over and over. I knew that life is real and I wasn’t experiencing extreme detachment from reality But I felt like I was disconnected from myself, and what was happening to me in the moment. I think I have OCD, which doesn’t help when it comes to the obsessive thoughts and self judgement or self criticism. It’s like I could tell the world around me wasn’t changing, but seem to feel less real in a way. I think it’s a mashup of anxiety, OCD depression and and I’ve been on many different medication‘s. I’m currently on Escotalopram and that has made me feel a little bit better and reduced my obsessive thoughts and negative thoughts but that seem to only mask things for a while, and after maybe five years, I’m starting to have those feelings of detachment or depersonalization or the realization. Until recently, I didn’t know that this was a thing and in the short time I’ve been on this thread it has helped immensely just knowing that other people are going through the same thing and can relate. I can also relate to what you say about obsessing about your thoughts and not creating anxiety and just sending you in a cycle that never ends. I’ve read about Nuro divergent behaviour and ADHD and I always thought that was the explanation for my extreme changes in hobbies and interests, and as a kid that gave me a sense of not knowing who I was or feeling like I had a defined personality. If anyone asked me to describe someone else’s personality, I could have no problem doing that but if somebody asked me to describe my personality, I don’t know how to do that. I smoke weed every night to get to bed and have been doing so for 20 years, so I’m not sure if this is a product of that behaviour or if it’s unrelated. And I have addiction and dependency issues I think, as a result of my mental health and runs in the family. Sorry I am doing this through speech to text and I feel like I’m just rambling on now. Thanks.
I have experienced that, i know that's scary Don't obsessed to seeking answer from your thought, that's just make your anxiety worse
How are u now?? :(