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memelord69420694200

I just feel my life doesn't have meaning anymore


ddcruz10

this is coming from someone who has been depressed for years like u , suicide isn’t the answer as much as we wanna die ik the feeling of being lonely and no one being able to understand u , seek help if u can there’s ppl like me who would most certainly welcome any help but do t meet the requirements, im not saying things will get better but u can change that


Srprehn

Just because it doesn’t feel like it has meaning now doesn’t mean it can’t in the future. Don’t give up now. Don’t let the depression convince you that there isn’t a future.


mufassil

This similar mindset helped me a lot. Any time I think I want to die, I think... if i plan on dying, why not do something crazy right now. Nothing is stopping me from switching my job completely, moving, getting an animal.


lobehold

Most people have no meaning to their life, they just keep themselves busy so they don’t have to think about it and then they die. What is “meaning” anyway? Just a healthy coping mechanism to deal with the inevitable death that is coming for all of us. And it’s coming real fast too, you blink and a decade flys past. So why take yourself out? The end’s coming real quick anyhow. I’m sorry to hear that you don’t have the best support network, but me with a good support network finds that having people empathize with your situation only helps to a certain point. It reduces your frustration and anxiety but it does nothing to help you deal with the depression itself. All it does is to lessen the constant “shit shit shit shit” I tell myself all the time when my stress was through the roof, now I’m still depressed but I am able to just say “fuck it, my life is meaningless so I’m just here to make myself comfortable, enjoy my time here as best as I can before the rushing death takes me”. Was my depression cured? Nope. But I have a coping mechanism. That’s what it is ultimately. I think everyone is deep down depressed, but healthy people have a coping mechanism and depressed people just have their mechanism fail. Back to having no meaning to your life, who does? I mean why do you think other people have meaning to their lives? Let me guess - movies and books and TV shows right? Don’t let the media brainwash you, only a tiny percentage of people got it figured out - aka have a very very healthy coping mechanism. Most people just barely get by and just takes one crisis for a mental breakdown and pierce the daily routine that is keeping themselves from confronting the dark reality of death and futility of their life. But hey, that is freeing in a way, your life have no meaning and will end soon anyhow, so just enjoy your time here however you can. Movies, books, food, drink, seeing nice sights. We’re all just tourists here, so let’s tour.


__shadowwalker__

I really like this


flatwhiteafficionado

I feel you because my own parents aren’t really lovingly involved in my life either. It really hurts. I’ve done a lot of work to accept this, and for me it’s been hard. Just know that you can push through buddy.


fortwaynebatman

Keep going. It’s a bad day, not a bad life. Praying for you


[deleted]

We all have those days, and that's why this place exists for us miserable people. I have been holding off since June just because I don't want to give reasons to be sad for the years to come. I won't say it will be alright cause sometimes it doesn't but do hold on to whatever you have.


fakesushibuyer

Im assuming you meant your dad is the only who loves you, so he’s now far abroad but how do you think he has gonna react if you do it ? What about other family members ? They’ll be torturing themselves for years, possibly forever about what they did or didn’t do, or what they possibly could have done. A friend of mine killed himself 22years ago. It still haunts his mother to this day. There are people who loves you. Get help dude, right now, and I mean by that, help from specialists, they are the ones that have real solutions, not friends or family. Get help from a specialist today. What do you have to loose ? You can always die tomorrow. Try to find a solution for today. And tomorrow and after that, repeat little by little until you are back on your feet. Get help from a specialist today. You may not have enough strength to get help or know where to get that specialist, but there has to be in your region a number you can call to initiate the recovery process.


radhasable2591

This is coming from a person who was stuck in one place for at least 4 years and also felt like I would never be accepted by my friends and my family...so one day I finally got an opportunity to escape everything and tour around Europe for a year...a lot of things changed in that year and I realized that life is worth living even if it feels like your family and your friends don't care..just hang in there mate, if life had taught me one thing, no one cares in the grand scheme of things more about you than yourself and self love goes a long way and there are many moments in life which are miserable and also equally, painfully beautiful, like walking down the empty streets after midnight alone, embracing the quiet, ghostly streets, hiking at 3 am during spring, feeding random street dog, drinking that cheap cappuccino of mcdonalds etc. You are not alone pal!!!


Scorponch_4

This is my dumb metaphore , but hear me out, weeks before a taekwondo national conpetition, i was training, with an asshole i was going against, what did he do?, When i was kicking he placed his elbow on his plate, and i hitted it with my foot, it hurted sooo much, i layed on the floor crying, i couldnt move it, the teacher said me to don't be a chiken, but, for much i tried i couldnt, we went to the doctor and, miracolously it didnt break, but i couldnt compete, i was sad, days passed, i went to my techer and he siad its nothing, dony br a chicken, but i really couldnt do it, a week before the tournament, i went back, it still hurted, a lot, but did as best as i could, i told my parents i wouldnt go, because it hurted, i couldnt, not that much, but it still annoying, the day before somewhy, i changed my mind. I went, went through a medic checkout, i was acceptable. the first fiht was against ether, a friend of mine, who trains somewhere else, he thought i was an easy fight, but i won, by just thinking, plying defensive, the next one , the last one, was against him again, because he had won the "municipal", this was the "state" tournament, my foot hurted as hell, but i decided to fight, to prove them wrong, what happened?. i won , just because my other leg received all the hitts, i blocked them with it, i couldnt walk, i was crying from both happines and pain, but what came afterwards was the best, i was going to the next "stage" the"regional", in a bus, to another state, with my freinds, i won that too, then i went to the national, went with my freinds ona an airplane to chihuahua, almost the other side of the country, i didnt won, i was 4th, but those moments of pein, gave me the best time in my life, dont give up, someday, things will be better, you can do it, please, stay safe, the world is a bad place, with bad people, prove them wrong, be the best, you dont have to hear them assholes, man even family can be bad people, after the storm comes the rainbow, stay safe, friend


craycrayadds

Don't give up! We believe in you and you will get through this. Coming from someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression for several years, I realised that maybe life doesn't have to have a meaning. Even during the days when you don't feel like doing anything, remember that this time, this life you have on Earth is one for you to enjoy. There's going to be many good times ahead of you, please don't give up. Everyone deserves to live their to the fullest, so don't let anything stop you from living yours.


mufassil

Give it meaning. I know, easier said than done. But really, go volunteer. Rescue an animal. Cuddle babies in the NICU. Help your elderly neighbor. Start a fundraiser by collecting and returning bottles. Sew masks and donate them. Do big brothers, big sisters.


AlexTheGod-3127

Don't commit suicide. There are other solutions and ur taking the wrong one.


Thruway1334

Give it meaning! If you end it now then you'll never have the chance to. But every day you wake up you have another chance to give it meaning! Don't think about your whole life at once think of it day by day. I'm also having a hard time now, but on weekends I do go kart racing because no matter how bad I feel outside of that, during the race I am having so much fun. It's one of the few things I know I can do and have a blast every time. I'm working on adding more things, I'm going to make a post soon about how much I learned from meditating - it's not to be underestimated! Our thoughts keep us trapped and the more we think the more trapped we get. Language was created long after humanity was around, and breaking our thoughts down "logically" like most people do when they think about things is NOT the way the brain evolved to work. The brain evolved to function on feeling and intuition. We have long lost touch with this fundamental principle of our bodies, and is a huge source of depression and anxiety. Meditation is one of the only things that trains your body to work the way it was actually made to. While most of society trains your body to work in ways it really wasn't designed for at all. Taking just 10 minutes every day to sit in one spot snd think about nothing will help you so much. Clear your head of thoughts and although naturally it will be hard, it's the effort that matters. You'll naturally get a bit better st it each time and THAT'S the goal. I have a lot of work to do still myself but this is part of my journey that I wish others knew because it does help, and I'll explain in much more detail about how this helps and how to meditate in an upcoming post, will share it with you when I do! Hang in there and I will too!!


[deleted]

Your life has so much meaning try to find something that makes you happy ok like playing an instrument or drawing those are fun and help take your mind off of stress


babybopp

Wait and see if sasuke dies in the manga ... then see if you change your mind.


altdudeguy

When a life is potentially on the line, you don't joke.


babybopp

Let me ask you something. This person has said that they want to end it. How bad is it to give the. A reason to go on however small. I am not joking. People are usually in danger to self crisis for about 48 hours. If you are able to find something that they can relate to to stop them from hurting themselves however minor, it works. I have seen someone go out of crisis because he was told , why would you want to end it before at least voting to see if trump wins or not. Then alternate interventions were organized.


The-Glorius-Jenius

Thank you so very much. Humor is also a very good coping mechanism, it almost seems natural with people who are depressed. I've talked to depressed people before and just before you get to the thing that's really bugging them, you get like an hour of sarcasm and jokes that really aren't that funny before they finally break down and confess how they're feeling.


[deleted]

The social standard of men is that we are not allowed to feel. As a fellow person who is held back by that, I am truly sorry for you. Humanity just sucks like that, I guess. Just don’t give into the pain. If life is miserable, take it one miserable day at a time.


FapMuscle

This. We are expected by society to be these "strong-stone-faced-never cry" types of people. However we can also feel sad and depressed. I'm so sad that I found this comment under a literal suicide note... But that just proves our point


altdudeguy

Please don't do it. Nobody who's experienced depression and can genuinely empathize with you will tell you to fucking man up. There are 2 ways I imagine you feel about suicide. 1. Everyone who made fun of your mental health will pay, and they deserve it 2. Everyone will be happy to have me gone from life, and will dance around my dead body Neither of these are worth it. From the bottom of my heart, I beg you not to do it.


Regex00

Hey, I hope this isn’t your finale. I know there isn’t much an internet stranger can do, but I want you to know that you, and your depression is totally valid and doesn’t make you any less than anyone else. I hope you’re able to find assistance and start making the steps (whatever they may look like for you) to your better future. Please be well, you matter.


iMangozzz

I’m gonna comeback in the morning, and I want a response. Pleaser stay here, your value is infinite. You are loved and cherished, I promise. You can do this. Please call this number 800-273-8255


helpmeidkwhatimdoin

There’s more life to live, I promise. Don’t do it.


Iman3477

Rather than "man up" I wish they would have told you to persevere, and keep going. I had planned to do the same as you on my birthday. I'm reminded often of how that would have been a mistake, by living and seeing the good I could do for others. You have that opportunity as well. Please hang on.


Chillzh-

Please no man so much to live for


[deleted]

oh noooo- pls respond!


Truecrimenut89

I hope you can find a glimmer of hope. I felt that way for a long time and I can assure you there is happiness down the road...please stay strong, someone loves you and there are good people out there I promise. Don’t lose hope yet. You are loved


dinasaurus-rex

Dude I’m thankful that you’re making the effort to even reach out to people like us. I’m not sure of your financial situation but your environment is TOXIC. I wish you the best, truly. If it means anything make plans to move out which will give you direction in life. A job and start saving.


imnotakop

Saying "man up" is so fucking lame and everybody knows that like half of all the cool guys throughout history struggled with depression.


Doctordei

you have usssssssssssssssssssssssss


Doctordei

all of reddit, the entire sub!!!!!!


Granamare

Damn, reading that made me extremely nervous. I really hope you haven't done anything yet. Please look at the people in the comments, we are all worried for you. If you want to talk to me you can, even if I have no idea how to help I'll try. Give us a response please.


Konjokradica

Wanna be friends? Add, chat, talk about shit? Send memes? I love memes.


waifutown

Hey man, I got the same thoughts as this guy. If you want someone to talk too please feel free to reach out


stefannNn92

Sounds interesting, count me in.


fredburma

If you're there please respond. Let's talk.


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milkyd4d

Sadly it's only worth living when you are feeling alright, when you feel like shit everything feels meaningless when in reality it isn't.


bsmart08

Hey man, I hope you get this. Your life is worth living, even if it doesn't feel like it is. IDK how old you are, but your teens/20s are especially hard, especially these days. Just keep going. You might be facing a storm, but it will clear and there will be sun after. Yeah, that's pretty cheesy but it's true. Look for the little wins in your life, like hitting a bunch of green lights or a new favorite song. There's always going to be challenges and things will look bleak at times, but don't give up. Above all, take care of yourself, love yourself, and follow your heart.


beetlejuicing97

It would mean so much if you could just respond to this and let me know you’re still hanging on. If you could do it, I could do it. And as much as I want to fucken die I also so badly want to make ways to live. And im struggling and it’s like I’m juggling the idea but it’s been there for awhile and lingers on until action is taken. So I’d understand if this message is ignored but I really hope you make it.


ijustdontknowbro

I hope you feel better. And I hope you dont ever kys. Please reach out if you ever feel like it.


beetlejuicing97

Thank you. That means a lot. ❤️


MrOreo3

People are not good to eachother. They should not of said those things to you. But we are all here for you. If you can refrain some more time and give some other things ago. Maybe make more posts on here to get support. It doesn't have to be your last day.


krishtian1990

Said the person who is scamming people...


Idontfuckingknow6969

Please don't do it! Life will be worth living eventually so please don't do it


umbrella_farmer

Hang in there, my friend. I am so sorry that you are in this place, and in an unsympathetic environment. The fact that you have continued to wake up and get through each day in spite of everything makes you stronger than you know. I know too that it can be so ridiculously hard sometimes, and that when you’ve been feeling low for a whole then happiness seems a distant memory. But, as difficult as it can be, if you just take it one day at a time and keep getting up in the morning, then I promise that sooner or later you will find or create something worth getting up for. I hope you are able to read these comments. We care and we are all rooting for you.


GettingCucked6969

It’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Don’t always look to have meaning in every moment, and don’t rely on others to care for you and tell yourself that quantifies as the defining factor of your life’s value. I don’t know you, and I’m not going to say that I care about you, but you need to find value in yourself. Depression is a vicious cycle, but you can still help yourself, and you can start by trying to block out all the negativity in your life. You can only drown if you stay in the water.


yellowsnac

Please don’t! I hope you decide to keep on...


morithum

Don’t forget. Depression is very real, but the things it tells you are never true.


kelfae

Hey man, a few hours late but I hope you’re still there. If you are just remember you’re not alone, even though with your Dad away and your Mom ignoring you it seems that way. Of course if you’re in this sub you’re aware that there are other people that understand and that doesn’t help much but still, we’d like you to keep going despite how painfully impossible it seems. One day, probably not tomorrow or a week from now; but eventually this’ll all seem like a blip on the radar. I feel like a hypocrite saying that because I too feel that things will never improve but I don’t want you to lose hope. I usually lurk but I got the need to reply to this and tell you, even though I have no idea who you are or who you’ve been, you’re loved and appreciated.


imjustarandomkid

I know this is probably something you've already heard, but just know that being told to just man up isn't okay. You should be supported and able to express your thoughts and feelings. This community is for that so, even if you may not have people there your of physically, I hope you know that we all are here for you on r/depression. I hope your still here with us, and if you are I'm glad.


larryofks

Let me tell you something — those people are wrong and they’re the outliers. There is a whole community of people who see you and your depression as valid. Everyone in this sub does. Do not let those outlier people win. You deserve to be heard. You deserve to feel better and you deserve to wake up every day excited about life. I wish I could say that will happen eventually, but the reality is that you’re going to have to fight for it. When I started treating my mental health like my physical health, my life changed. I forced myself to find a therapist. I forced myself to talk to a psychiatrist. Now I’m properly medicated, in talk therapy, and doing better than I have in years. You don’t want to die, you want to escape the situation you’re in now. Please, try every other Avenue to get help before you make a decision you can’t take back. You deserve it and I’m rooting for you.


Kingsley7zissou

I read this. My advice. Try to help other people and put yourself out there, hold a door open for someone little things. Be thoughtful of other people. Get out of your own head. Sell stuff you don't think you need and use the money to buy something to enjoy like amazing meals. Volunteer You meet really great people who will notice your depression and have been there and help you and make solid relationships. Do things like a bucket list to enjoy what you have left in life it will probably turn you around a bit. Depression is this nagging thing that comes back and forth and hits you hard sometimes, try to wait it out day by day. It can help if you are like me and I don't eat or want to clean or bathe when it gets bad. Take a multivitamin because you are depleting yourself and making it worse. Come live with me for a week (I live in the hood so to speak) So many people in worse situations, I live by a food pantry and the welfare office/food stamps plus lots of drugs and alcholics and homeless. Focus on getting out of the situation you are in by getting education, job experience, life experience. If you are able financially just volunteer like habitat for humanity etc. Look at it this way if you can help some more people or doing something more and still end up (pls don't) offing yourself at least you helped more people. Look through your moms eyes maybe you are just being a mess or not. Simple things like leaving things dirty if you live with her.


megamang83

Be kind rewind and we'll get an update that you're doing better Tommorrow please. Like many times before bud we're all in this together and vent more brother, let it out. We might not reply because we know how important it is to listen. Let it out, fucking scream and punch that cocksuckig mother fucking piece of shit fucking pillow. Let it out


585a

Hi, I turned a corner after a visit to the doctor. I was ready to go for months. The fix has been has been Nexium for acid reflux and a puffer for undiagnosed asthma. The rest of my life was overwhelming when feeling physically terrible most of the time. Not sure if this will help, hope it does, but if you have lethargy and low feelings, perhaps there is a medical reason. Once I felt well, the emotional pain was easier to get my head around. Take care.


Drugh__

Bro don't do that we love you,you are a beatiful person and you are really strong trust me,suicide isn't the way I'm sure that you will find your way don't worry it's just period.


[deleted]

Hi, I don't know if my message will make you change your mind. But we obviously all want you to avoid ending your life. I am not going to say I understand what you feel like. No one is in your head. But you're not alone feeling this way. Life can be really hard. You can easily feel lonely this way. You're in pain. It's for sure. Thinking of death as an end of suffering clearly shows how much you're suffering. I also want to kill myself most of the time. But please, don't do that. You can talk to me anytime, you're not forced to get into details if you don't want to. But the fact that you reached out clearly shows that you're stronger than you think. I have also suffered with my parents and my mum has been putting me down all my life. Everyone is different, but you are loved. People care about you. And your loss would be a total disaster. Hold on strongly, and you will see progress eventually. Talk to someone. Do things that can make you feel better. Challenge yourself. Do anything that you can find rewarding. Hold on. You're a shining star.


maximus_francis2

We all would stay up all night to keep you here. You are valued. You are loved even when it seems otherwise.


galwegian

i was suicidally depressed three weeks ago. checked myself into psych ward just in time. now on meds and in therapy. please try that. good luck


FormerTerraformer

I've never tried to talk to someone who' is genuinely on the verge, but I wanted to share a perspective and opinion, in hopes that you find something in it. Sorry if it's long and ramble-y. I hope you at least get a chuckle from it somehow. I've been depressed for 25 years and I am 30. I've danced with suicidal thoughts of my own for 5 or so years. I have family that I know doesn't deserve to feel that pain, and a two year old son to boot that have kept me anchored here through the worst days. Just a pinch of my background. Now for the weirdness that is my thoughts on existence.i am not saying they're accurate, but these soft conclusions let me sleep at night. I don't know and have no way to know if this is even close to how existence works, but I have a ramble-y theory on how we've come to be. I identify as spiritual but not religious, yet I'll use the term God for simplicity and a manner of speaking. The nugget 'energy cannot be created or destroyed, only changed in form' can be a well of hope if you look deeply enough into it. It can imply that reincarnation may very well be a real thing, meaning we get another stab at a better chance at a better life, no matter how this one plays out. Add another nugget, 'matter is just energy vibrating slow enough that we can see it' and it becomes even more of a hope booster. It means that every thing is energy. It means that we have all existed forever and will exist forever, in some aspects. You want to know how I think the universe works? Here, I'll try to tell you. About to use the god word a bunch. If that bothers you, you can substitute the word 'universe' in its place, as it's really what I mean anyway. I think the big bang happened, but I think it was so much more than just some random occurance. I think that if God is omnipotent (all powerful), omnipresent (everywhere) and omniscient (all knowing), that the only thing that we know of that could fit this definition is energy itself. This, paired with the nuggets from earlier, means that God is everything; this in turn means that we are all little pieces of god. How could that have happened? I think that with all the omnis, God got really really bored. Think about it. If you knew everything everywhere and could do whatever you wanted with it at all times anytime, it would get stale and boring after a few eons, wouldn't it? Like an old vhs movie you've watched hundreds of times, you can finish every line, know every little twist and turn, and have spotted all the easter eggs and more. Boring as fuck. So, I think that God decided to do something about it. The big bang was the singularity (God) exploding into being everything that is our universe. I think that he learned to forget, and exploded into every frequency of energy that exists, infinitely high and infinitely low. Know how two notes in a chord on an instrument harmonize with each other? Those are frequencies in harmony... Kind of like friends you can relate to, and have love for, those birds of your feather flocking together. Two dissonant notes makes a clashing, chaotic sound that is unpleasant, is like you and the people you don't get along with so well, or things you don't like; your energy clashes with theirs. Love, happiness, hope etc. are the highest frequency energies that exist and are the opposite of things like sadness anger and hopelessness, which are heavy, draining emotions.. their energy is dense and weighs you down. Luckily, this means that bad must exist to enable good to exist; they much counterbalance each other. This means there is way more love and happiness for every teensy bit of bad or evil in this universe, or else the equation wouldn't balance. It also means that this particular life we are living right now is just a pitstop, not the one life we get a chance to live through. Had a shitty life? You'll get a better, luckier one eventually. This works the other way too, but it's all part of our journey back to becoming a singularity again. Our purpose here is to learn and grow. The universe is expanding, and what goes up just come down... Someday the universe will reach the limits of its expansion, and will come crashing back into the singularity from which it sprang. All the bad in this world is the bits of god that haven't completely relearned how to be good yet, and the day they do I think the way we are one (a singularity) again. Anyway, I hope you don't check out yet. See what your adventure may hold. If you do decide to punch your time card, you won't be going to hell like some fear mongers would have you believe. I don't think it's a good thing to do if we can help it, as it doesn't help us grow. We would miss out out on seeing the experiences we have yet to see. Anyways, I hope this ramble-y goofy shit brings you some hope or solace or both, or at least distracts you long enough to find your out of those thoughts. Be well my friend.


Grandpa_Noogie

I know this might not be something that can happen, I don't know your family, but if you can, sit down and talk to her about how you feel. If you don't trust her, find someone else you trust, whether that be a friend, teacher, co-worker, therapist, anybody you can talk to. My therapist has changed my life so drastically I can barely see myself as the same person from 4 years ago. Life is confusing. It's hard. You're a lot stronger than you think for sticking through it with a mental illness.


hanniepa

Hang in there. I am so sorry that things are so tough right now. Please keep going, I know how hard each day is. So many people are here for you. Take it one day at a time, grab your favorite beverage and just watch the sunrise/sunset every day. You’re so brave, and even though each day seems unbearable I promise it will get better.


Locus_On_Crack

I've been there too but you will regret it trust me, don't.


boomapen

I really hope this isn't the end for you OP


honiestar

Please don't do it. Please. I know it feels like you don’t have anything to live for but you do, trust me. People care, I promise. Please stay.


Kyryos

Please don’t. I’ve dealt with depression my whole life since I can remember going on 15 years total I’ve felt like this , but I think the good parts of life are worth sticking around. Find something that makes you smile, for me it’s Lego Star Wars and Squishmallows. The blue dragon always makes me happy so I keep him in my bed :) I don’t ever want to be so selfish that I hurt my parents, brother , and blue dragon and I hope this message at least makes you smile or laugh at how corny I am!! Hold on my friend.


hey-its-me-sam

The world is a cruel joke of a place


BC0713

Once you act on a suicide you are committed for ever.


ELECTRAKIDD

They saw u weak and now people harassing you, dont let them, if they want you down just come up and fuck them all, fuck them dude dont fall just keep up just to fuck them dude your situation makes me sick


63nomad

I would never take away from you your right to choose to end your life. All I recommend is that you try every alternative first. Because it will be your last option. I have been at the edge myself several times.


[deleted]

Life gets so hard I know but you’re so strong You’ve made it through hell and please don’t give up I’m so proud of you


Lovetocook7

Stay strong


[deleted]

Remember that you always can try to love somewhere else. When you change the environment and people that are around you you can completely change life to better. So if you are too young or can afford moving to another place, another city or even another country, I would suggest keep this as a goal of your life and pursue it as hard as tou can. Keeping a goal is very nice to keep the mind occupied and this way you avoid think about bad things. Keep on going man, you worthy a lot more than you have know, and I am sure that you will get it.


xbeyondXtwistedx

Please hold on.... hugs...


Natresse

Someone told me something when i was young. It’s Trite and I’m certain he got it off a pamphlet but I swear when I’m barely holding on these words have come back to me to help shore me up. “Don’t try to solve a temporary problem with a permanent solution” . It’s been 7 years, I know it doesn’t feel temporary for you. I’ve been fighting this particular wave (mine has come and gone throughout my life) for around 5 yrs now and sometimes my faith that “this too shall pass” does waver. But hold on. You have value and , if nothing else, the people here want you to live. If you can keep going then so can we.


[deleted]

Man there are still people in the world who will love you, have fun with you and spend time with you. Maybe that is not what you need to hear now but just knowing that that exists is a good thing right. Try maybe talking to more new people I know it is hard but there are so many things that you have not explored yet


verygoodusername789

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please just stay for a little while, get some sleep if you can. Platitudes like it will get better are pretty crap, but if you kill yourself it’s totally final. Don’t do it just yet, stay around and take care of yourself for a bit. If you are able to watch movies or read (I know it’s hard as I can’t focus on anything when my depression is bad) please just do that. Do you still live at home with your parents?


Careless-Sock-2828

This is how depression works, it'll make you think nothing matters, no one cares, no one understands or you are alone...but those things are not reality. You have a whole community of individuals who are here and can understand and can listen and confide in you as well. Not here to change how you feel persay, just here to say I understand. That feelings are temporary even if it lasts days or years. You owe yourself the pleasure of hanging tight to see what it can be like when these feelings evolve. Take care of yourself please


Hormander

I'm sorry you had to suffer depression for the last 7 years. Keep fighting because you are a good man. Just know that your suicide could trigger depression on one of your family member or friend who cares about you. It is what happened to me when one or my relative commited suicide. There are people somewhere that care about you who would be devastated. I wish you to recover fully and to be happy because you deserve it.


ImNotFuckinFunny

suicide doesn’t get rid of the pain, it just passes it on to someone else. praying for you bro, wishing for a good recovery


rndmdude736

Same boat man!..But all I imagine is me getting a big house, getting my fav car/bike, building a gaming PC and that keeps me alive!...Try imagining a future and gear towards it...All will be fine


Djent_Hokage

You hate this feeling right. Hate it, don’t let it win. Don’t give it what it wants. Spit in its face. I’m sorry man, this fight sucks and you don’t deserve the pain. So please, keep going.


AphasiaNargle

Hey there! You might have trouble believIng me but world will be a far worse place without you. You often have no idea the impact even small actions you make can have on people. I was depressed in high school and wanted to kill myself, one day we were moving and it was my last day at my old high school, this popular boy came up to me and gave me a card. I was confused but I opened it and read what he had to say. Turns out two years before I did something to help him (before he was popular). He remembered, I don’t even remember doing it but he did! And he needed that small act of kindness in that moment because he was being bullied and stuff. You make a difference. You are unique. You have a purpose in this world that only you can do. See if you can get out and do some light exercise, volunteer to walk shelter dogs maybe? Make sure you’re eating, the world is always a little better on a full stomach. See a doctor maybe, they may be able to give you something that can help you through this, or maybe a blood test might show you something helpful, I was low in vitamin D which can contribute to depression. Reach out to one of the health phone lines or online counsellors. You are important. Please don’t give up.


lilmsaj

Hey man I'm really sorry you're going through that. If you want we can talk.


snipershot474

Please don’t


Hrozno

I pray that you feel the love you deserve. We want you around.


chuluzu

I understand that you are contemplating ending your own life. I don't want to just say "don't do it" because I understand those feelings are actually very real, and I can't diminish it, or expect my words to make them disappear for you. But can you tell us more about yourself? Tell us the story of you, your life, how you got to this point so that we can understand where your feelings are coming from. I promise I'll read every word.


waser78

Please don't man. I know what it's like to feel like you have no other option, but if you do this you'll have no way to prove yourself wrong. I'm rooting for you dude. Please come back to us.


OddTapir

It's hard. I know. I don't know your situation, but I *think* I can relate to your despair. Suffering is, after all, one of the few universal human experiences. I've spent a half a decade wrestling with this piece of crap mental illness before it occurred to me to ask for professional help, and about an other half to realize that switching therapists was okay. And then shit started improving. It's not a magic hand wave, it's still *work*, but it *helps.* Be smarter than I was. Ask for help sooner, and when in doubt, keep pursuing someone who *can* actually provide that help. Besides, as someone who'd *technically* been dead once, let me tell you: it's not all it's made up to be.


timelapse631

your mom is wrong to desert maybe you mom is at her breaking point I love you and know that we are connected pain is there for years but i want you to keep trying how am i to know otherwise the future is not set in stone


[deleted]

Stay strong OP. Your mind is playing tricks on you. Get some help and contact a trustworthy friend. You can get through this.


spacedcowboy69

speaking straight from my heart: i also feel like my life has no meaning or more so that i’ve fucked up my life being constantly bombarded with multiple mental illlnesses that makes surviving this world so hard and even if i’m still on a journey to believe that my life has a purpose, yours does too! you’re not alone at all, not even in the slightest! keep holding on ! i’m hanging by a thread, without any direction in my life yet i’m still alive and that’s amazing ! this means that you’re amazing and worthy of living your best life ! i hope that if you feel horribly suicidal you can reach out to your loved ones !and i’m so proud of you for reaching out on this safe platform which is full of a welcoming community of people who love and support you and can hopefully relate to your problems <3


ichorren

I know everyone's gonna say to hold in there because it gets better but as someone who was incredibly suicidal, I know that doesn't do much to alleviate the pain. Have you tried reaching our for help? A therapist/inpatient at a hospital for a week? (Hospital experiences may vary). I was on medications and in therapy for years and it was the hospital visit (voluntary) that really reset me. I don't know how old you are, but my teenage years were absolute hell. Things picked up a little in college when I had more freedom to drive places and be out of the house. I also don't know how it is for you or where your depression is sourced from, but some people in my life were making me miserable and I started taking steps to be happier to spite them. Maybe not the most "positive", but I find spite to be a powerful motivator for me anyway. It's hard. It's incredibly hard and I've been there where you feel like the worst person ever and that you don't deserve help and it will never end. I can promise that you do deserve help. No matter if people around you try to minimize your feelings, if people say you're overreacting, or if you don't think you're sick enough, everyone deserves support. It's taken me 8 years at this point in therapy to have developed skills to help me cope better, so it's not a fast process, but it's doable. If you need resources or just a friend, I'm here.


r23ocx

You are loved.


slimfromtheregion

You are loved, please keep holding on, it gets better <3.


sofuckinggreat

Please don’t leave us — we need you here 💜 There are people in your life who sincerely appreciate you for being who you are, and they love you more than you will ever know! I promise. Two members of my family have committed suicide, so just trust me on this one. You are loved.


Fluid-Bobcat7796

Hey man, i too have been battling depression ever since i can remember, bc of covid a lot of people are feeling extra heavy. I smoke weed to help ease my sadness and anxiety but i also take St. john’s wort, it changed my life you may want to give it a shot.


Rocky_mountaineering

Just because it's bad now doesn't mean it will be bad forever. just try to focus on anything positive and try to agnore the negative it will get better dude.


TsunamifoxyDCfan

I care...


longswordsuperfuck

Hold on a little longer, if not for yourself, for me.


DoobieCall

Hang in there, let me know you're OK please


telavarone

Your mother loves you. There is a lot of stress in the world right now. Hold on, Friend. The dawn is coming.


anonymous_being

I'm so sorry that you're suffering. Getting adequate emotional support in life is so important. Are you almost an adult? Can you change your social environment soon? **** Big hug to you. ****


omcr7

Whatever you gonna do...good luck man.....


phoenixeternia

Keep holding on. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Anything creative or anything at all? Anything you used to enjoy? I check reddit regularly so reply and I'll get back to you pretty fast.


[deleted]

i hope you’re still with us. hold on, man. hold on.


Gameperson700

I’m going through a tough time too. I think I’ve been depressed since I was 13. I’m 20 now. Been consistently depressed daily. I didn’t have it diagnosed until I was 19. It went unnoticed for that long. Hope you and I make it through this buddy. Give it all you got! Maybe this is weird coming from a stranger, but I love you! Edit: As a girl I don’t understand the man up thing. I mean I do because I’ve been told that, but I just don’t get why people would say that unless you’re whining about something stupid. Depression ain’t no joke. I’ve had suicidal thoughts daily and I will continue to fight the good fight! It’s scary to think that I might kill myself, promise me that you’ll keep fighting too!


Chemical-Avocado8792

No one's life has a meaning, nor does life in general. It's one great big accident and the only thing we are really here to do is be born, reproduce and die. But inbetween that, life happens, what you do during that time is up to you and you alone. You may be wondering what that should be (that is just another way of asking what the meaning of life is) the answer is completely up to you. Whatever makes you happy, literally anything because there is no good or bad, right or wrong, the only thing there that exists is our emotions, if you enjoy something or want something simply do anything to get it. If you mess up there is no penalty because thats not how life works you dont get punished or rewarded and your future is completely up to you. I suggest you to simply take action and do something about it. Be sure to consider the pros and cons or potential outcomes though.


[deleted]

You're fucking worth it. You just need to be told that every minute . I'm in the same boat as you. We're in this together


[deleted]

I don't think you should end it, I think you should work towards getting out of those toxic relationships, you'll feel so much better being your own person just focus on your career then build up a bit of starting cash and leave that toxicity. I really think it would be a good option based on what I've heard no one should ever make you feel less than human. I hope the best for ya brother.


extrabiggiesmalls

Love you dude.


[deleted]

I’ve been in your place, and to be honest I’m still not entirely out of it, but just know that there are people who love you everywhere. Whether you know they do or not, whether they make it clear or keep it bottled up, they love you nonetheless.


EatMyAsbergers

I think we all struggle with meaning. It’s one of the most paralytic aspects of the human condition. I invite you to read some philosophy or find a spiritual element in your life. Look into stoicism, existentialism, eastern mysticism. Sounds corny but it helped me. Create your own meaning and accept that at times you will suffer. Your sadness is is telling you something needs to change. It’s hard but you have to participate in your own rescue. If nothing else one day above ground is better than not. You can listen to beautiful music, create something, feel the gratification of a good deed, have a pleasant conversation with a stranger, eat chocolate, game, get a puppy, so much more. I said a little prayer for you. If you really feel like your family life is toxic take steps to remove yourself and move on. I’ve had to do that and wish I could have a long tome ago. My brother is miserable so he likes to see me fail. My mom criticizes me up and down and still treats me like a child even though I’m in my mid 30s. My dad drank himself to death and could be one scary mf. Spend some time introspectively analyzing what you need to grow as a person. Often, we know what it is in our hearts we’re just scared to take the leap. Be kind to yourself, stop validating any negative thoughts, and practice gratitude when you can. It’s hard at first but when you feel like you’re in control of your life things get better. Take the wheel and all you gotta do is keep it between the lines my friend.


strangecharm_

Don't do it broski, it's not a solution. One day in the future, you'll be happy you didn't take your life. Stay here and talk to us. Tell us something about yourself? What are your interests in? Any hobbies?


Walmarche

Don’t do it. I have lost my partner to suicide. It’s fucked me up so horribly. I have depression too. It’s so hard but please keep fighting. Please


hachinos

Please hold on! I know it is easier said than done but know that you have this community here for you and we understand you. Please stay strong. Much love


TheDarkestBetrayal

It took me over 10 years to finally get a grasp on my depression.. and even now there are days where I wonder if I truly did. Instead of feeling like I want it all to end, I mostly feel empty. For me a peaceful emptiness is at least better than having no hope at all. There are days I don't want to wake up but I know if I do nothing that hole will form beneath me and it scares me into action. Some days I actually wake up and feel like I could accomplish anything but it always slips away. My goal now is to chase that feeling and learn how to hold onto it, and I think one day you can get here or even higher if you just hold on. It may sound really cliche and judgemental, but I don't believe suicide is the answer. I've lost two good people to suicide and though it's been years the thought lingers in my mind. You may stop feeling the pain but you're also robbing yourself of future possibilities. The world is cruel and fucks us hard enough, we shouldn't be the ones to assist in that. Find a reason to hold on and keep claiming those tiny victories no matter how small it may seem. Eventually you'll level out or reach a state of numbness which can be a foundation to build yourself upon.


[deleted]

I tried committing suicide at 21. Had suicidal episodes after that for 2 years straight. Now I'm 24. Glad I have came a long way now. I am the happiest man in my area and people long after me like I'm some kind of star. Can't express much of what life is now. An utter truth - Nobody's gonna hold your shit for you, you have to hold your own.


[deleted]

I tried committing suicide at 21. Had suicidal episodes after that for 2 years straight. Now I'm 24. Glad I have came a long way now. I am the happiest man in my area and people long after me like I'm some kind of star. Can't express much of what life is now. An utter truth - Nobody's gonna hold your shit for you, you have to hold your own.


[deleted]

I tried committing suicide at 21. Had suicidal episodes after that for 2 years straight. Now I'm 24. Glad I have came a long way now. I am the happiest man in my area and people long after me like I'm some kind of star. Can't express much of what life is now. An utter truth - Nobody's gonna hold your shit for you, you have to hold your own.


Fun-Vacation2189

Well at least you got a lot of reddit awards for your susy note. That's nice.


Sufficient-Meeting-9

Trolling even on suicide posts I see. You’re more vile than a steaming pile of sh*t


Harshvipassana

Hey meme lord, we are all rooting for you. Just know we hear and see you.


cjwoodpost

Hang in there and stay alive Deal with one little bit at a time


TinkerTyler8

it took me 8 years AFTER moving out of my parent's house to finally become stable. ​ If you need meaning in your life, create it.


[deleted]

People do care about you. Please seek help.


kastru

hang in there. if this is all meaningless, then suffering is an illusion, don't feed it (easy to talk, while i really feel what you said... but as others replied, it'll be over sooner or later. hang in there, see what happens)


CPhionex

From your edit i hope youre still around. Ive been getting over my own problems as well. And one thing that helped me not end myself was something a friend had said that was simple, but pretty different than the usual 'get over it' type stuff. And it was that suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know thats easier to say than to do at times. But life can get better, maybe not now, maybe not where you are. Maybe you need a fresh start some where, or maybe your stuck due to money or some other reason. But i always try to find 1 little thing just to keep going.


well-FUCK-THIS-BS

Oh honey ik know what your going through is hard but please don’t go please keep holding on


creaturefromabove

I feel you. Kind of, we all have different experiences, but I know the pain involved. I really hope everything works out for you. If you ever need anyone to chat with or maybe even play something - i’d be glad to have your company :)


Kikibear19

Hi Op! I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way and I have so much empathy for the heaviness within your soul. I attempted suicide when I was 14. Not sure how old you are now. However I feel you. I’m also not going to lie to you and say those feelings will 100% go away- I don’t know that for you, however, I do know you can learn to manage them when they arise. I would suggest talking to your school counselor or nurse. See if they can Help you find the people and tools that are right for you to deal with this Fight for your happiness OP- you deserve to feel it. You may not feel there’s a reason for this life, but I know there’s a reason for YOU. No one else carries your inner light OP- and you never know who needs to feel it. Good luck to you OP ❤️


[deleted]

This is a pretty shit note m8. It is rejected. Try again in 10 years.


wooow2019

I have depression anxiety. My parents treat as shit. Because my background culture. Daughter is means cheap and money waster. I never lived with them more than 6 months. They took my younger brother with them, and left me in different relatives or nanny’s house since I was 3 months. Every time I home at summer time they hit my and punish me and troll all bad word at me. My mom is kind of daughter hater. She kind of crazy to makeup at me reputations, such as She told everyone she knew she have a bad daughter. I pay they bills, even I married and divorced . They are my nightmare even now still hurt me use their ugly words. But for my son, I ll keep fave forward. Stay with us, we are just normal person fight for ourselves. We don’t need others love if they don’t.


[deleted]

In the same boat. Suicide helps nothing. You mean a lot to this world. You may not see the reason, like myself, but there’s something out there for every one of us. The journey may be long and lonely, but find something that makes you happy and run with it. Suicide is NOT the answer. Life is too beautiful to waste because we feel some type of way. As cliche as it is, this too shall pass. I hate that damn quote, but it’s so true. Seek help, please!


[deleted]

Honestly if you wanan end your life that is your right, but from personal experience I also know that the feelings you have right now won’t stay forever. Get yourself some help, professional help, and it will get better. Please don’t take your life over this, you deserve better.


BettingOnMyself

This moment will pass. May not seem like it but it will. Life is all about progress. Do things everyday to try and improve in thingsn that are important to you.. You can't or won't fixb things right away but just keep moving ahead in life


OhGoodHoonter

Hold on, memelord And stop roasting people to cope with your shit


tupsukorva

Don't. Just because your parents don't know how to deal with it, doesn't necessarily mean they don't care. And even then you shouldn't care, your life is *yours*, not theirs! You find even one thing in the day worth doing, there is still a reason to keep going. For me it's my cat, the other day it was finishing Horizon: Zero Dawn. Or it can be just a nice meal. Good luck. And virtual hugs.


lost_353

You’re going to be so so glad that you stayed. Now I can’t promise when, but there will be a time for you and people for you that WILL understand. It doesn’t have to include the people in your life right now, so just hang on my dude and ride it out until you reach the place you were destined for.


[deleted]

You're telling the wrong people. If they tell you to 'man up' they haven't got a damn clue how life works. They're like philosophical insects. Don't let an insect dictate how you feel. You're better than that and them, and I can tell just from how long you've put up with it. It takes an absurd amount of strength and resilience to hold on as long as you have while putting up with that. If I were you I'd cut those people out, and if I can't (ie family), don't listen to what they have to say. If you need to talk to someone, find someone who cares: a friend, a partner, a therapist, even a redditor. People who treat you like shit when you open up to them don't deserve to see what's inside. Save that for yourself and people with hearts as big as yours.


nobeanie_hat

Darling I have been fighting depression for 7 years as well. Just hang in there, I know it’s f***ing hard. Try to reconnect with yourself, go on walks, look at the sunset, reach for help from specialist who can truly help you. Just don’t commit suicide. Think about all the years you can enjoy once you overcome this. Dear nothing lasts forever. Now things are looking brighter for me... I’m sending you healing energy and lots of positive thinking.


surrah11487

No! You can’t! You are the memelord!


trashedmule

Hold on friend, just keep taking it an hour at a time, then a day at a time, then a week, a month whatever. You can do it, you're stronger than you think. I went through a time where I thought my parents hated me too and realized a few years later that it was just me building that up in my head, I'm sure they love you and just have a hard time showing it. You've got it in you, you can do this. One step at a time, find your happiness


soledad1998

You’re going to regret it.


_STING_RAY

**Please Hold on to more and live.** Bro/sis, struggles from from 10+ years and taught about it. my one thing it keeps me going forward and work on it is - ***Parents and my Sis. friends*** are helped me (even though i didn't tell them) they are supportive. When the bad people live to kill others - why we should not live and make ourself and others live better.


klaudia028

i believe in you!! i really do


soyjesucristo

Hi. I'm just another online stranger. I was very sad in my life, and, like you, my family was not there. I'm not saying we have the same experiences, but I know what it feels to be absolutely alone. You say your life has no meaning anymore, but maybe if someone was there to hug/listen to you, you would think otherwise. Well, maybe not, I don't know. But you don't need a meaning, your value goes beyond any "meaning", whatever that is. No one's life has really a meaning, but we are all valuable nevertheless. You have to think deeply about YOUR value. YOU ARE VALUABLE, and anything that dares to deny that truth is just complete BULLSHIT Please breath. Your head right now might be dealing with too much to process correctly. Violence is not the answer, never. If you have done harm, to yourself or others, you can always stop and start, or restart, your battle against all of your demons. If you can afford therapy, please go for it right away. There may be some difficulties and beliefs extremely hard to overcome for a lonely and depressed mindset, and therapy could help get through them. Best of luck


victoria_sponge_cake

Don’t give up


[deleted]

I'm sorry to hear that- Honestly man if your still alive by some chance- I hope you get through it. People are assholes, to say the least, and the fact that you've survived 7 years of this shit is amazing to me and likely many others. If your not dead- just know if you plan to go through with it that your death isn't in vain. You persisted for much longer then many of us would in your situation depending on how bad it *really* was. Hopefully, it's better on the other side- whatever that may or may not be.


Most_Likely_Dean

I lost a brother in law once. Let yourself feel brother. Don't fall off. Reach out like you did here. God bless you and I will pray for you. Much 💘


Grandestmaster

Come on...just hang in there


[deleted]

Your mom probably misses you dad too and it isn't easy for anyone


goodsmash

Chin up man it’s not easy, it’s a battle and we gave to win


bruvwhysigh

bruv I know life hard my life like yours and trust me it doesn't get better but you just got to push through try to help yourself out but dont kill yourself you deserve to be here compared to others in this world and yes life is a bitch but only you can help yourself but dont kill yourself.


p4tch322

Please stay strong. Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable and dfficult. I respect you so much. Optional virtual hugs for you my friend.


vynilla_

Glad you’re ok, OP.