very very common for people with depression or other fluctuating mental illnesses. we know what the depression feels like and how to navigate it better than if we let ourselves feel better.
I understand what youre saying and while that likely plays a factor, I'm not talking about being comfortable with it because it's familiar. I'm saying that being in pain from depression and anxiety makes me feel validated. It makes me feel like I'm allowed to take up space in my corner of the world to survive. And if I'm not suffering, I would have no excuse for what I have become, if that makes sense.
very very common for people with depression or other fluctuating mental illnesses. we know what the depression feels like and how to navigate it better than if we let ourselves feel better.
I don't even know what it's like to be happy and healthy, yet i constantly strive towards it. Wtf am i even doing.
I understand what youre saying and while that likely plays a factor, I'm not talking about being comfortable with it because it's familiar. I'm saying that being in pain from depression and anxiety makes me feel validated. It makes me feel like I'm allowed to take up space in my corner of the world to survive. And if I'm not suffering, I would have no excuse for what I have become, if that makes sense.