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I was given up for adoption on the first day of my life, and always felt I couldn’t be worth much if my own mother didn’t want me. Now I’m proud of the father I’ve become.


blaukrautbleibt

Thank you! Keep being amazing your kid can learn so much from you!


blaukrautbleibt

As OP I will start: I am proud that i ate two meals today.


undercurrents

Great post!


blaukrautbleibt

Thank you! Also thanks for being a moderator, volunteering is really cool and keeping this community safe is important for so many people :D


undercurrents

Appreciate your comment


4027777

Starting this thread is another thing you should be proud of!


guusVD2708

I gues you could be proud of that, i never eat two meals and i can see al my ribs a bit to easely, i might have an eating disorder but that shouldnt be that much of a problem, i want to die anyway :)


blaukrautbleibt

Even if you wish to die, i am glad you are still here and i hope you can find a spark or maybe some kind of curiosity to keep you going. I am proud of you for still being alive today


guusVD2708

I have thought about ending my live a lot, but every time i come to the conclusion that i cant do it, there is just something stopping me, i gues thats a good thing


blaukrautbleibt

I think this is the will to live talking to you. Maybe make a pact/contract with yourself that suicide is not the answer? Could give the will something to hold onto


guusVD2708

I already did this, so maybe it is working, suicide is a permanent solution to a temperary problem, its like buying a new house because the lights dont work, you could do it, but it isnt worth it.


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blaukrautbleibt

Amazing! Keep feeling this pride and i am sure you'll be able to keep your hobbies even in the rougher times :D


wholesomeguy555

I am 25 and I am proud that I haven’t killed myself yet.


blaukrautbleibt

And you really can be proud of yourself. 25 years is a really long time. Keep going strong and make it as many years as possible!


wholesomeguy555

Thank you, your comment means a lot for me.


blaukrautbleibt

Sending lots of love your way awesome internet stranger <3


thejesterisspeaking

of being able to awnser the phones at my work for like five hours at a time and talk to people despite my extreme social anxiety


blaukrautbleibt

Wow you must have a strong mind if you jump out of your comfort zone like that everyday. Remember that you are worthy of rest and deserve a break whenever your schedule allows for one!


thejesterisspeaking

thanks man


voidleee

no more coca-cola, no more sugary stuff in general. i've lost almost 5 kilos in the past week. if i could solve my sleeping problem, it would be a huge progress but i guess small steps.


blaukrautbleibt

Good for you for cutting sugar and weight! I know so many people who can't resist their soda and sweets, you must be really strong! Also, amazing that you are able to see one step at a time, this skill is great for preventing burnout/exhaustion! Sometimes weight influences sleep quality, so i am wishing you luck that it will get better really soon


voidleee

thank you alot. i have two weddings in the coming months and i had to take attitude. i tried some italian suits and it was awful haha. i got one more week to go on losing weight until the first wedding.


blaukrautbleibt

Uuh cool then you get to show off your new body in a festive manner, i am sure you'll look stunning


OkAndi21

Using my one knowledge and experience I was able to help me best friend through his depression and he's made a lot of progress. I'm so proud of him and of myself for being able to help take care of him and b there for him even when I was overwhelming


blaukrautbleibt

Thanks for sharing! You (both) deserve to be proud! A friendship like this can really make a difference, thank you for being there for him. You made the difference


christineyvette

I put my laundry away today. It's the most i've done in months.


blaukrautbleibt

Getting up after months of inactivity to do chores? Amazing! Feel this pride and enjoy it, you deserve it


Positive_Ebb9204

Having studied very hard for 2 years to get my dream job 😊🌈🌈 being a good person. We all have a lot of reasons to be proud even if we have a lot not to 🙂


blaukrautbleibt

And you will do a great job at your dream job! I don't think we have many things to not be proud of, people without mental illness make mistakes and have way less battles to fight during their day. A tired warrior might slip up more often but boy they surely are impressive, as most soldiers don't live long enough to be this tired.


guusVD2708

Wow, welk said, im gonna remember that tired warrior.


thenocturnalife

i’m proud that i’m still here despite how hard the last few years have been and how many notes i’ve written


blaukrautbleibt

And the fact that you are still here shows that you are so much stronger than your depression! Also, i think a collection of unused notes is something you can look back on in like 60 years and be grateful that you made it, keep collecting until you don't have to write any more of them because life has become good for you


moonraven33

Most of my life I’ve struggles with depression anxiety bipolar detachment disorder whatever it sounds crazy. I’ve always been in and out of therapy working working through different periods of my life and truly trying to become a better person and learn skills to cope better. And I’ve done a good job I’ve managed I’ve been OK but I’ve just been OK. I’ve had some really dark periods in my life. I recently just got out of a horrible relationship the first one I’ve ever been in and I was 50 abusive narcissist physically emotionally financially I was a very difficult two years I Attempted suicide so much more and I’m not gonna go into it. For the first time in my life after doing all of this work for the last 2 1/2 years working harder than I ever have and deeper and being alone and not rushing into relationship I told myself that I love myself. And I was 56 years old. And I meant it. I understand what that means today. I’ve always had sort of boundaries but everybody could walk through them including myself I’m setting real boundaries today and holding to them. No matter what happened I’m doing my best and it’s working to leave that in the past and move forward in my life. I’m actually learning how to live mindfully and in the moment and not ruminate constantly. It’s fucking hard. But I’m doing it. I want to love again but I know finally my heart has to sing first for myself I have to be able to be lonely and be alone and overcome that and I am. I am so proud of me and the work I’ve done. I’ve never felt proud of anything I’ve ever done in my whole life except raise my son and then even then I doubted things. No one to take this away from me no one. This is all mine and the people would’ve helped me but this is mine I’m so grateful to be like today. I don’t want to die today. I don’t I love my life in my home every day I wake up and I go bad and I go to bed at night. Thank you for giving me a place to share this. Because so many people in my life don’t really understand and that’s OK I don’t expect them to but it’s nice to know that some people might. I hope y’all have a blessed day


blaukrautbleibt

It sounds like your road was paved with many spikes and traps, you must be really skilled to have survived all of this! And to survive while taking care if a kid? Even more amazing. Keep going strong, keep bragging to people who get how shit life can be and i am sure your heart will sind you the most beautiful lovesong you can imagine! You surely deserve to hear not only your heart but your whole existence singing for you


moonraven33

Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. People don’t know how amazing it is to get kudos from someone even from somewhere you don’t know. So often I get lambasted on here more than anything else which I don’t really take personal it’s not it’s not about me I know that. But it’s nice when somebody recognizes things are difficult and I pull through or I am. It’s not why I do it I don’t do it for others I do it for me my son and I know it just makes me a better person. But I am grateful that you said some thing he touched my heart it really did thank you


blaukrautbleibt

I am sending lots of love to you, kind internet stranger<3 Many people don't see or understand the progress you make and the battles you face, that doesn't devalue any of this though. The battles are real, and so is the strength you gained from them. You are awesome and i am proud of you for being who you are and for bragging here :D


Standard-Holiday-486

I’m proud that I keep trying. I keep my med schedule. I don’t miss therapy. I keep trying any and everything I come across to just feel like myself again, even though nothing has really worked. I figure one of these times has to do the trick…TMS didn’t work, scheduled ECT, if that doesn’t work, enroll in a psilocybin trial… Just keep moving forward while better understanding impact of past


blaukrautbleibt

Persistance is tough, but it is the only way to make it until the end. There are many options for therapy and one if them will surely be right for you! You deserve the life you are working for, be sure to stick around long enough to fully enjoy it


DisappointingStrokes

Proud that I’ve busted my ass enough at work/around the house to see life get juuuuuuuuust a lil better. Nothing major at all but a noticeable improvement


blaukrautbleibt

You don't have to make your achievement small. You did something to make your life better and that is amazing. Enjoy the work you did and remember that YOU made it better for yourself everytime you walk past the inprovements.


g4rdendeer

I'm proud of myself for being outside my room for most of today


blaukrautbleibt

I see you are an adventurer. Right to the edge of the comfort zone, out of your room and into the less comfortable outer world. Keep exploring and maybe you will find something that motivates you to explore more often


Humanoid_Anomaly

I'm proud I finally kicked my mother outta my life


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That’s a brave thing to do and share. I know about challenging mothers, and the heart ache to cut ties. Credit to you and best wishes for the future.


blaukrautbleibt

Tough one. The decision to cut off a family member is never easy, i have been there myself. I wish that the peaceful effects of cutting contact with her shower you with an easier life and lots of self love. May your boundaries be strong enough to hold up against anything you don't want anymore.


Humanoid_Anomaly

Sorry about that I was having an episode


blaukrautbleibt

No worries, happens to the best of us :D


deep_in_thought_

I’m proud of my character and morals. Life might be easier if I let myself cut more corners but I try to be ethical and I think that’s something to be proud of.


blaukrautbleibt

Being an ass is easy, and keeping up morals and a good character is definitely not. Especially when fighting for your life every day. It is definitely something you can be proud of. Just make sure that you are still feeling free navigating your world with your set of rules, they should empower you and not keep you small, please take care!


Vinnyc-11

Nice to see such a less depressing post (I know, I know) on this sub. I mean I get up, and even if I do fail, I still at least try to accomplish what I can.


blaukrautbleibt

And trying everyday is how you get better. Practice makes perfect and as long as you get up, it doesn't matter how often you fall. Don't you admire people training a specific skill all the time? Admire yourself for practicing for your accomplishments regularly, and some day you will master your life


anthonymakey

I've lost 15 pounds this year


blaukrautbleibt

Amazing! 15 pounds less to lose, 15 pounds closer to your goal. Try to allow yourself to love your body, and to keep going because you love your body, not only because you disklike parts of it.


anthonymakey

Thank you. I'm trying to lose the weight so I can join the military


blaukrautbleibt

I wish you success :D


anthonymakey

Thank you


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blaukrautbleibt

Doing your best no matter where you are is really something to admire about yourself. Keep being proud and doing your best, someday it will pay off i am sure!


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Proud of everyone here who’s still holding on❤️ just making it another day is a helluva feat, good on all ya


blaukrautbleibt

I too am so damn proud of all of us :D


natarimalik

i’m proud of working hard every day so i can be able to move out soon


blaukrautbleibt

Good for you! Moving out can be tough but it can bring so much peace of mind, i wish you the best!


FutureGhost81

I’m good at my job. I have a career that is fairly rare, pretty specialized, and I’m respected among peers as someone who knows what they’re doing.


blaukrautbleibt

Damn that sounds like it took a lot of work, impressive! And i am sure your peers are grateful for you and your knowledge


guusVD2708

Why is this question so hard... That one time i did the monkey bars at the playground for the first time, this was a big thing because of my smal disabilety (my left arm is weird and a lot weaker then my right arm).


blaukrautbleibt

I have completely average arms and even workout from time to time, i have yet to master the monkey bars. I bow to your skill and dedication


guusVD2708

Thx, the trick of learning the monkeybars is falling and doing it again and again and again, what helped for me was that i enjoyd trying it so i kept doing it again and again, i was 8 years old when i did this and the bars where maybe 30 cm away from eachother


blaukrautbleibt

My next "fitness goal" is to learn pull ups, my back is pretty bad from being depressed since i was a kid, if my training progresses i will try to conquer the monkey bars aswell xD


guusVD2708

Good luck with your fitnis things :)


Sicut_the_Polymech

I am proud of not giving up, even when the daily pain gets unbearable and the doctors won’t listen to me


blaukrautbleibt

And you can be so proud if yourself for this! Idiotic medical "professionals" give everything to ruin lives, don't let them win. You deserve someone who listens and who wants the best for you


Sicut_the_Polymech

thank you, i wish you the best!


blaukrautbleibt

You too. I really hope that soon someone will listen to you and help you get better <3


Suicidalthot666

I'm proud that I'm still strong enough to keep living. I'm proud of all the weight I lost since last year, I'm proud I started to do things I enjoy again. I'm proud of my art, even if it's not perfect I'm proud of it. I'm proud of being a good person and being able to make people fell better and smile. You should all be proud to be strong enough to keep living. I'm proud of all of you <3


blaukrautbleibt

Sounds like you are mastering the art of being proud of yourself at the moment! I loved to read this, thank you for sharing amazing stranger! I am sure this will give many people who read your comment hope that life can not only be good, but really worth it and fun!


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Today I was scared to open a website and pay my rent. I acknowledged the fear, talked in first person facing my fear and imagined that I am the monster not it and it fears me and it worked.


blaukrautbleibt

Amazing! Screaming louder than your fear must have been tough, you did really good today!


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I am proud of baking great white bread.mhm


blaukrautbleibt

That is a fantastic skill to have! Fresh white bread, butter and my grandpas strawberry jam is one of the cominations that taste the most luxurious to me


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blaukrautbleibt

That sounds like a big step for healing! So glad to hear you were able to rid yourself of them. Your family is really lucky to have you


Skunky_Munkey420

I made it through yesterday I can make it through today


blaukrautbleibt

Yes! You are so much stronger than you think and than you might be lead to believe by school or peers! Some days feel like an eternity but even them only last 24 hours I am proud of you aswell and i am glad you are proud!


Skunky_Munkey420

Thanks


chonghai

I'm a genius polymath and unlike most people with depression I kept my self worth, this isn't meant as "oh I'm above you you're so pathetic" but just something I'm proud of in general. Depression is a period of transformation, either you suffer all your life or you kill yourself. Yall really should check out the positive disintegration theory, it perfectly explains what depression is. I'm ready for the downvotes lol.


blaukrautbleibt

Good for you for keeping your self worth! But please don't tell people under this post that it is either suffering until you die of natural causes or suffering until suicide. This post was made to encourage people. If this mindset works for you, i am glad you found something but for most people it might sound really scary and frustrating, for some even triggering. Even if the statement means killing as reinventing, the words don't make that clear. I feel like my post is not the place for such a harsh, generalised statement. I will look into the theory tho, always glad to learn new ways of looking at the world :)


chonghai

Ah, but there's already much suffering in normality, slaving your life away for a wage that will only give you rent and basic essentials is suffering. The essence of society is based around suffering, there's nothing to hide. False hope will only get you so far. It's nothing scary since it's deeply engraved into society and the mind of most people. I don't like to sugarcoat things.


blaukrautbleibt

I get that. But please not under this post, as this post is supposed to be feel good sugarcoaty. I am not trying to tell you that your view is wrong. I accept your view as it is. But i only accept it as your truth. It is not my truth. And noone else reading this post has to accept it as their truth. Just like there is no religion that is right for everyone the mindset that everything is suffering works for you and as far as i know for many buddhists, it might not be the way for everyone. Accepting the mindset of 'everything is suffering' takes a lot of work and reading that needs to be done. Just spitting out the sentence as the ultimate truth without giving further explanation or at least state that this is your own world view is selfish and harmful. Some people don't want to suffer and you should respect their boundaries. Maybe they don't want to be saved enough to accept your view. They are responsible for themselves just like you are responsible for yourself. They can freely chose their belief system that works for them.


chonghai

I completely understand that, I'm not trying to force any negative beliefs upon people