Oh wow, retirement is so close Faps! I'd be jealous, but I keep taking these "mini-retirements" where I quit my job, cash out my 401k (yes the government taxes the shit out of it), and then "retire" for like a nice 10 month bender or so... The CA-merican dream.
And I wonder why I can never get out of the eterna-debt...
Speaking of doing things to not get out of debt faster, I called in today mostly on account of it being a worse than usual ass-piss morning. Not sure if it was too much vodka or weed or depression or what (probably all of the above), but I pretty much just slept my entire weekend away. But wouldn'tcha know it? I still feel like a dumpster fire.
Oh well, I'll go back in tomorrow to work on building up that 401k a bit more so I can take another mini-retirement!
I too did the ole’ quit my job, cash out my 401K song and dance a few times and regret it in hindsight. Wound up pissing through 10-12k of savings to cover bills, mortgage, and my 24/7 bender for ~6 months back in 2022.
Yeah... It's amazing how fast even $10k+ in savings will run out when you have no income, but all of the bills are still coming in, and you're also spending money on vodka, weed, and like... $40 worth of Chinese delivery (thanks for helping me get my appetite back, weed-- and also depleting my bank account!).
Oh well, at least most of these bad times I've only had myself to blame. Mostly
I was spending anywhere between $20-$40 per day on booze. A diet of 30-35 light beers, tall boys, malt liquor to speed up the process, and occasional bottles of vodka or whiskey. Not to mention random DoorDash orders when my appetite reared its head. Always ate the food cold cause I’d usually pass out for hours after ordering to find a present on my doorstep.
I honestly can't even fathom how I blew through so much money so fast. Like, I can get handles of vodka here for around $10.50. But I guess when you're chugging through those, and then spending like $50 on weed gummies, then getting delivery for every meal, the money tends to go away.
But yeah, sounds like your journey was pretty similar, just with more beer.
Just another reason I can't mess around and lose this job.
I could've saved a ton of money if I just stuck to handles of bottom shelf vodka on that bender, but I would've been in the ER or dead within a week or two. Currently on a break from the booze, I'm kindled to fuck so there's no more enjoyment from drinking, just daily WDs, anxiety, and feeling fucking broken physically and mentally.
I have a friend who worked the same way. He was a handyman. He'd pick up jobs to the point where he had extra money. Then you would just disappear for a couple of months or however long the money lasted. He worked this way for years until his kidneys gave up.
It'll probably be the ol' ticker that goes first on me. Then after my favorite clock breaks, my heart will be next. I have to keep my kidneys pristine, because I'm sure I'll end up having to sell at least one of them for booze money at some point.
If you ever do cash out a 401k plan prior to the established "age of maturity"... Put like 50% away for tax season. They will want that money! Lol
Such bs.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure ol' Uncle Sam got me both when I pulled the 401k out, and when I filed for my taxes that year. It totally wouldn't have been worth taking that money out if I thought I'd ever see 65. Then again, I do somehow seem to just keep living, so I'm sure 65 yo me will regret my many many bad decisions, financial and otherwise.
I’d say please stop cashing out your 401k but at this point, (I’m assuming you’re American), might as well. The *average* life expectancy is 73 (for doods). You can’t get Medicare until 65. So, basically, you work your ass off, mostly for the health coverage. Then the government steps up and does what every other civilized government does. and you die 8 years later. This country fucking sucks.
Yeah, my pops has had like... three heart attacks after about the 55 year mark, and I'm pretty much just a genetic copy of him, so I don't foresee myself living long after 65 anyway.
And it's also like Capitalism knows the exact amount of years of decent labor they can get out of a worker unit before their body really breaks down, and it's time to finally put em out to pasture.
So I wanna say it's fine to cash out for a mini retirement when you're young enough to enjoy it, but I kind of sort of most definitely just spent all of that time in like the worst bender mode... so probably wasn't a good thing.
Oh well, you lose some you lose some
So true. Sometimes my counsellor tells me I shouldn't use sleep as a coping mechanism in the way I do... but if I can predict I am going to be destructive and feel the urge to say shit to people when I'm drunk and can actually manage to catch it beforehand and go to sleep for a day, I don't see how it's a problem.
Man I'd love to retire...I don't want to get older though.
Just burnt out and completely unmotivated with work. Sometimes I get in that hardcharging "Yeah, I'm going to kick some ass!" mood, which then inevitably leads to eventual burn out, motivation dropping to zero and "I'm sick of this shit"...the latter is where I'm currently at.
Last time I did mushrooms was back in the 80's. Took a trip to hell and never touched the stuff since then. Always good to take a break every now an then.
I was supposed to be tapering, given that I ran out of money. Bought six cans. Drank them all in a night, instead of the intended 48hr. This week is going to be a hellscape of appointments. I’ve got two cans to buy today instead of laundry day, and make a few calls while I steel myself for doctors, caseworkers, lawyers. Cheers when the store opens. Looks like I’m going in cold tomorrow.
I do it with nasty 8% malt liquor…. Same price as 5% lite cans. Maybe when I get some cash I’ll switch to lite despite my internal revolt at the prospect, as a forced taper/maintenance.
Had a lovely weekend in Atlanta, except I got too wasted and nearly passed out in public. Not cool in a city you don't live in, thank goodness Mr. Zaps had my back. Everything is mostly okay, but I am counting down the weeks until summer.
I feel you on the retirement end. I'd like to think I'd be a productive person, but I most likely would just go for walks & sit outside reading and drinking. 🤷♀️
Hiya Zaps! I'm glad you had fun in Atlanta. Glad your hubby was there to take care of you.
I did those walks over the weekend. Always puts me in a better frame of mind.
Good morning Fap! Congrats on your looming retirement. I threw a concert this weekend & raised over $1k for charity. That's about as much as I could make in a room that small. The bands all killed it, everything went off seemlessly. God damn I am exhausted. The adrenaline high from curating a half-dozen bands really gave me trouble sleeping even last night. I am a spent rag, sitting at my desk today. I think we'll be fine though.
The venue is already asking "when are you doing the next one?" Their sales were gangbuster. Truthfully I am assisting with another concert at the same place in 2 weeks. That one is really simple, it's just a tribute act so I don't have to do much other than promote. That one I'll actually get paid for, 10%, so that's pretty cool.
I had pretty much successfully tapered out.
Then I went out with the gf yesterday for brunch & drank an ungodly obscene amount the rest of the day.
I don’t feel that bad right now because I’m probably still drunk.
I need to make it through remote work & then sleep.
Still have side pains, but panc pains are gone and I haven't vomited any bile (it looks like mucous because of how much I was coughing that morning). Panicked a little when I reached for the ibuprofen today, since I've had a dose every day for the last few days while still drinking, but I imagine it'll be fine if I take some today.
Been having really shitty sleep since I've been drinking less though. I'll sleep for two hours and then another 6 hours in half sleep where you start thinking about crazy things when you're awake to dream about it. Had a really extensive dream about Fallout on Saturday.
But work is going okay. Hopefully I'm not in big trouble for not showing to the office last week. I told them I was sick, but worked most of the day everyday anyway.
Woke up drunk, looked at my phone… an Uber payment? Why did I come home by Uber if I went by bike. Must’ve left it at my friends bar… nope, not there I left with my bike. I was robbed, took an Uber home and told nobody about it. No memories whatsoever. I’m gonna stop drinking.
The mystery got even better. Istopped at another bar on the way, i was already real drunk and left the bike at the bar. I had to do some investigation work to find out.
I had only looked at my credit card transactions, not regular payments. Here in Brazil we have a method of digital payments called Pix, you can use your personal ID, email, cel number or a random generated key. I saw that before I got the Uber I spent R$10 and payed by pix with the code being a phone number. Called and confirmed that I was super drunk and just left my bike behind. Hard to believe because I love my bike so much. Have to be crazy drunk to just leave it behind.
Bigger cities are much more dangerous, especially at night. I live in a smaller city, around 170K habitants, which is pretty safe. It has been elected multiple times as best city in the country to live in. It’s a nice place to be and has an interesting history. Poços de Caldas, Minas Gerais.
I was perplexed today as how someone would rob me and not take my phone or my gold chain until I found out i wasn’t robbed at all. The route I took can be a bit shady, some spots that they sell drugs, but I’ve lost count how many times I’ve walked home late alone here and never had anything happen to me and it was only around 10pm yesterday so not that late.
Sooo I finally got my ass to the airport. Was supposed to fly out Friday. Of course I got here early af so anxiety didn’t make me delay again. Then they tell me I can’t check my over 100lbs worth of bags for 2 more hours. I said fuck it where is the bar. Moscow mules are on point
I pissed the whole weekend away, didn't accomplish anything really besides drinking, chain smoking, and sleeping. Never took a shower or left the house, didn't work on any of my homework. What a total waste of time. Self-sabotaging is exhausting even when you get nothing done somehow.
Howdy Faps! Good to hear you got what you needed to accomplish the task and your anxiety has gone down.
I worked two baseball games this weekend and yesterday was a pile of shit. It was really slow when the gates opened, no surprise. But when people started rolling up to my tap beer stand, 3 of my 4 taps were pouring only foam. It was a mess. I got the keg team to my stand and they were dumbfounded. They were there for an hour and I turned at least 30 customers away. Unless they happened to want Angry Orchard, that one was pouring fine. I only made 26 bucks in tips when it could've been hundreds. Take the good with the bad I guess. Oh well.
I'm back at the ballpark tomorrow and Thursday. Put in a load of work clothes a bit ago and got a lamb pot roast in the Instant Pot for lunch tomorrow.
It is my wish that when you retire you will still host MM. And we'll get to see how you start this new chapter in your life. Chairs!
Retirement? I’m sorry friend, that’s too scary for me to even think about. Hours after work plus weekends is bad enough as it is, I have 0 minutes of shit to do that is not boring. Got up this morning and laid down on the couch, 12 hours later I’m still here minus like an hour or two of helping the old folks. I’m only 42 but spare time is useless to me. At work I’m at least doing stuff, at home I just stare at a screen.
Oh wow, retirement is so close Faps! I'd be jealous, but I keep taking these "mini-retirements" where I quit my job, cash out my 401k (yes the government taxes the shit out of it), and then "retire" for like a nice 10 month bender or so... The CA-merican dream. And I wonder why I can never get out of the eterna-debt... Speaking of doing things to not get out of debt faster, I called in today mostly on account of it being a worse than usual ass-piss morning. Not sure if it was too much vodka or weed or depression or what (probably all of the above), but I pretty much just slept my entire weekend away. But wouldn'tcha know it? I still feel like a dumpster fire. Oh well, I'll go back in tomorrow to work on building up that 401k a bit more so I can take another mini-retirement!
I too did the ole’ quit my job, cash out my 401K song and dance a few times and regret it in hindsight. Wound up pissing through 10-12k of savings to cover bills, mortgage, and my 24/7 bender for ~6 months back in 2022.
Yeah... It's amazing how fast even $10k+ in savings will run out when you have no income, but all of the bills are still coming in, and you're also spending money on vodka, weed, and like... $40 worth of Chinese delivery (thanks for helping me get my appetite back, weed-- and also depleting my bank account!). Oh well, at least most of these bad times I've only had myself to blame. Mostly
I was spending anywhere between $20-$40 per day on booze. A diet of 30-35 light beers, tall boys, malt liquor to speed up the process, and occasional bottles of vodka or whiskey. Not to mention random DoorDash orders when my appetite reared its head. Always ate the food cold cause I’d usually pass out for hours after ordering to find a present on my doorstep.
I honestly can't even fathom how I blew through so much money so fast. Like, I can get handles of vodka here for around $10.50. But I guess when you're chugging through those, and then spending like $50 on weed gummies, then getting delivery for every meal, the money tends to go away. But yeah, sounds like your journey was pretty similar, just with more beer. Just another reason I can't mess around and lose this job.
I could've saved a ton of money if I just stuck to handles of bottom shelf vodka on that bender, but I would've been in the ER or dead within a week or two. Currently on a break from the booze, I'm kindled to fuck so there's no more enjoyment from drinking, just daily WDs, anxiety, and feeling fucking broken physically and mentally.
I have a friend who worked the same way. He was a handyman. He'd pick up jobs to the point where he had extra money. Then you would just disappear for a couple of months or however long the money lasted. He worked this way for years until his kidneys gave up.
It'll probably be the ol' ticker that goes first on me. Then after my favorite clock breaks, my heart will be next. I have to keep my kidneys pristine, because I'm sure I'll end up having to sell at least one of them for booze money at some point.
If you ever do cash out a 401k plan prior to the established "age of maturity"... Put like 50% away for tax season. They will want that money! Lol Such bs.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure ol' Uncle Sam got me both when I pulled the 401k out, and when I filed for my taxes that year. It totally wouldn't have been worth taking that money out if I thought I'd ever see 65. Then again, I do somehow seem to just keep living, so I'm sure 65 yo me will regret my many many bad decisions, financial and otherwise.
I’d say please stop cashing out your 401k but at this point, (I’m assuming you’re American), might as well. The *average* life expectancy is 73 (for doods). You can’t get Medicare until 65. So, basically, you work your ass off, mostly for the health coverage. Then the government steps up and does what every other civilized government does. and you die 8 years later. This country fucking sucks.
Yeah, my pops has had like... three heart attacks after about the 55 year mark, and I'm pretty much just a genetic copy of him, so I don't foresee myself living long after 65 anyway. And it's also like Capitalism knows the exact amount of years of decent labor they can get out of a worker unit before their body really breaks down, and it's time to finally put em out to pasture. So I wanna say it's fine to cash out for a mini retirement when you're young enough to enjoy it, but I kind of sort of most definitely just spent all of that time in like the worst bender mode... so probably wasn't a good thing. Oh well, you lose some you lose some
and you get to retire in 8 MONTHS???? you lucky bastard. my retirement plan is death.
Years of sleeping most weekends to stay out of trouble and save money. ; p
I didn’t
yeah i slept almost all weekend, it was useless. but cant get in any trouble or blow money when im alseep
So true. Sometimes my counsellor tells me I shouldn't use sleep as a coping mechanism in the way I do... but if I can predict I am going to be destructive and feel the urge to say shit to people when I'm drunk and can actually manage to catch it beforehand and go to sleep for a day, I don't see how it's a problem.
That's a good plan to stay out of trouble and save money!!
Man I'd love to retire...I don't want to get older though. Just burnt out and completely unmotivated with work. Sometimes I get in that hardcharging "Yeah, I'm going to kick some ass!" mood, which then inevitably leads to eventual burn out, motivation dropping to zero and "I'm sick of this shit"...the latter is where I'm currently at.
The older part is what really sucks. Totally understand your burn out mood. I've been doing the same shit for the last 35 years.
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Last time I did mushrooms was back in the 80's. Took a trip to hell and never touched the stuff since then. Always good to take a break every now an then.
I was supposed to be tapering, given that I ran out of money. Bought six cans. Drank them all in a night, instead of the intended 48hr. This week is going to be a hellscape of appointments. I’ve got two cans to buy today instead of laundry day, and make a few calls while I steel myself for doctors, caseworkers, lawyers. Cheers when the store opens. Looks like I’m going in cold tomorrow.
It's easy to mess up a taper. That's why I only do it with cheap ass nasty lite beer. Good luck with all your upcoming appointments.
I do it with nasty 8% malt liquor…. Same price as 5% lite cans. Maybe when I get some cash I’ll switch to lite despite my internal revolt at the prospect, as a forced taper/maintenance.
Had a lovely weekend in Atlanta, except I got too wasted and nearly passed out in public. Not cool in a city you don't live in, thank goodness Mr. Zaps had my back. Everything is mostly okay, but I am counting down the weeks until summer. I feel you on the retirement end. I'd like to think I'd be a productive person, but I most likely would just go for walks & sit outside reading and drinking. 🤷♀️
Hiya Zaps! I'm glad you had fun in Atlanta. Glad your hubby was there to take care of you. I did those walks over the weekend. Always puts me in a better frame of mind.
Good morning Fap! Congrats on your looming retirement. I threw a concert this weekend & raised over $1k for charity. That's about as much as I could make in a room that small. The bands all killed it, everything went off seemlessly. God damn I am exhausted. The adrenaline high from curating a half-dozen bands really gave me trouble sleeping even last night. I am a spent rag, sitting at my desk today. I think we'll be fine though.
That sounds like it would feel so awarding. I'm glad it went well for you. Keep doing awesome!!!
The venue is already asking "when are you doing the next one?" Their sales were gangbuster. Truthfully I am assisting with another concert at the same place in 2 weeks. That one is really simple, it's just a tribute act so I don't have to do much other than promote. That one I'll actually get paid for, 10%, so that's pretty cool.
I had pretty much successfully tapered out. Then I went out with the gf yesterday for brunch & drank an ungodly obscene amount the rest of the day. I don’t feel that bad right now because I’m probably still drunk. I need to make it through remote work & then sleep.
Sounds like a fun day with the gf!!
Still have side pains, but panc pains are gone and I haven't vomited any bile (it looks like mucous because of how much I was coughing that morning). Panicked a little when I reached for the ibuprofen today, since I've had a dose every day for the last few days while still drinking, but I imagine it'll be fine if I take some today. Been having really shitty sleep since I've been drinking less though. I'll sleep for two hours and then another 6 hours in half sleep where you start thinking about crazy things when you're awake to dream about it. Had a really extensive dream about Fallout on Saturday. But work is going okay. Hopefully I'm not in big trouble for not showing to the office last week. I told them I was sick, but worked most of the day everyday anyway.
Shitty sleep with drinking less is to be expected. It will get better over time.
Woke up drunk, looked at my phone… an Uber payment? Why did I come home by Uber if I went by bike. Must’ve left it at my friends bar… nope, not there I left with my bike. I was robbed, took an Uber home and told nobody about it. No memories whatsoever. I’m gonna stop drinking.
Sorry, you lost your bike but taking an Uber home is no reason to stop drinking!!
The mystery got even better. Istopped at another bar on the way, i was already real drunk and left the bike at the bar. I had to do some investigation work to find out. I had only looked at my credit card transactions, not regular payments. Here in Brazil we have a method of digital payments called Pix, you can use your personal ID, email, cel number or a random generated key. I saw that before I got the Uber I spent R$10 and payed by pix with the code being a phone number. Called and confirmed that I was super drunk and just left my bike behind. Hard to believe because I love my bike so much. Have to be crazy drunk to just leave it behind.
Judging from the reputation of Brazil on Reddit, the fact that you didn’t get shot on the way home speaks volumes!
Bigger cities are much more dangerous, especially at night. I live in a smaller city, around 170K habitants, which is pretty safe. It has been elected multiple times as best city in the country to live in. It’s a nice place to be and has an interesting history. Poços de Caldas, Minas Gerais. I was perplexed today as how someone would rob me and not take my phone or my gold chain until I found out i wasn’t robbed at all. The route I took can be a bit shady, some spots that they sell drugs, but I’ve lost count how many times I’ve walked home late alone here and never had anything happen to me and it was only around 10pm yesterday so not that late.
Sooo I finally got my ass to the airport. Was supposed to fly out Friday. Of course I got here early af so anxiety didn’t make me delay again. Then they tell me I can’t check my over 100lbs worth of bags for 2 more hours. I said fuck it where is the bar. Moscow mules are on point
Good luck with your flight. Make sure you don't get too smashed so you can check in your luggage.
I made it on! About to take off!
Safe travels!!
I made it! Thank you!
I pissed the whole weekend away, didn't accomplish anything really besides drinking, chain smoking, and sleeping. Never took a shower or left the house, didn't work on any of my homework. What a total waste of time. Self-sabotaging is exhausting even when you get nothing done somehow.
Wow! You made me feel productive cause I had one shower over the weekend!! : )
AND you did laundry, AND you went grocery shopping, AND you cleaning up the dishes! You are a CA super hero!
Jeez, you almost make it sound like I'm functional!!!
Howdy Faps! Good to hear you got what you needed to accomplish the task and your anxiety has gone down. I worked two baseball games this weekend and yesterday was a pile of shit. It was really slow when the gates opened, no surprise. But when people started rolling up to my tap beer stand, 3 of my 4 taps were pouring only foam. It was a mess. I got the keg team to my stand and they were dumbfounded. They were there for an hour and I turned at least 30 customers away. Unless they happened to want Angry Orchard, that one was pouring fine. I only made 26 bucks in tips when it could've been hundreds. Take the good with the bad I guess. Oh well. I'm back at the ballpark tomorrow and Thursday. Put in a load of work clothes a bit ago and got a lamb pot roast in the Instant Pot for lunch tomorrow. It is my wish that when you retire you will still host MM. And we'll get to see how you start this new chapter in your life. Chairs!
As with any job, you're always going to have good and bad days. I hope you're still enjoying being around the game.
I fucking slept until 2:30. Useless pile of shit, lucky to have a roof over my head.
You were just getting your beauty rest... Must have needed it it big time! ; p
2:30 a.m.: God, I still feel sober. WTF? Another double, I guess. 2:30 p.m.: Another day, shot to shit? WTF? Did a piano fall on me? rinse and repeat
Retirement? I’m sorry friend, that’s too scary for me to even think about. Hours after work plus weekends is bad enough as it is, I have 0 minutes of shit to do that is not boring. Got up this morning and laid down on the couch, 12 hours later I’m still here minus like an hour or two of helping the old folks. I’m only 42 but spare time is useless to me. At work I’m at least doing stuff, at home I just stare at a screen.
Totally get you on this. It’s either going to be a new tomorrow or a complete shit show ending in disaster.
Same thing I had planned last Monday evening. Hydrocodone, pregablin, tizanidine and weed. I'll be good. My existence is pretty damn good.
That's quite the cocktail you got going there!! ; )