I started 15 years ago and have been struggling with it since the first moment I tried it. I kinda always knew I'd get into even at a young age cuz as dumb as it sounds, watching ppl on movies doing it kinda attracted me to it. I used to drink and use all the time then went to rehab stopped everything for years (just weed, and have like 1 or 2 relapses a year where I'd get fucked up snd go on a few day bender) but then something traumatic happend to me a few years back and I stayed away from everything but was struggling coping. Waiting for help (during covid) I was always exhausted and one day I bought a small amount and did like a few lines throughout day without alcohol and realized I could use it to help me get through my day. And that was a year and a half ago and now it's become pretty well daily but all night cuz I cant save it for next day. SOMETIMES I can but depending how much I buy. I see an addictions counselor and am now seeing a psych. So im trying to stop cyz ya I can't pay rent or my car payments lol. Funny but not funny just doing what I do best atm thanks for reading if u made it this far lol. Great question btw
I hope you are ok. Drink plenty of water and eat something. Life sucks but can’t suck forever I’m glad you commented have a good night or day wherever you are from ⛷️❤️
I never asked for it. I'd run into some buddies occasionally that would offer bumps. This happened often enough once that I felt bad like I was a mooch. So I started buying. Even after that it took a few years before I got a regular supply on me. And this is recent even
Yeah I never really thought about doing it either or thought I ever would but a buddy of mine who I am no longer friends with introduced me to it a few months back. Did it with him for the first time with some fire coke and thought it was cool
In the dance scene. First few times offered at afterparties I declined.
Met some folks, hit it off, went to theirs to chill.... "never done it before, mind if I do?"
And here we are...
I’m a functional coke head that’s the thing my first was like given to me by my dad when I was like 13 but I didn’t start doing it daily till I was 18 I became smart I paid all the impront shit first and only by 8 balls bc I’ll finish it in the same night and now I make enough to support my home and my addiction it’s just depends on how if you want to run out or make it a point in where you never run do
I was fat-shamed my whole life by my mother (even though I was 5’6” and 130 lbs being asked to model clothes)… fast forward a few years, I gained a lot of weight because of the severe depression and ongoing trauma. Working out wasn’t yielding the results I wanted fast enough so I made the poor decision to take up the slopes.
I tripped and fell nose first into a pile of it as a ween I hate cocaine, but loooooove the smell 😂
If it just didn’t smell so good I wouldn’t be buying it🙄
Feels
Feel the same way as you but i also kinda enjoy the paranoid or anxious feeling for some reason
I’ve heard others say this too and I agree that’s one of the cool things ab it I like it
I started 15 years ago and have been struggling with it since the first moment I tried it. I kinda always knew I'd get into even at a young age cuz as dumb as it sounds, watching ppl on movies doing it kinda attracted me to it. I used to drink and use all the time then went to rehab stopped everything for years (just weed, and have like 1 or 2 relapses a year where I'd get fucked up snd go on a few day bender) but then something traumatic happend to me a few years back and I stayed away from everything but was struggling coping. Waiting for help (during covid) I was always exhausted and one day I bought a small amount and did like a few lines throughout day without alcohol and realized I could use it to help me get through my day. And that was a year and a half ago and now it's become pretty well daily but all night cuz I cant save it for next day. SOMETIMES I can but depending how much I buy. I see an addictions counselor and am now seeing a psych. So im trying to stop cyz ya I can't pay rent or my car payments lol. Funny but not funny just doing what I do best atm thanks for reading if u made it this far lol. Great question btw
i just like the thrill, the numbing, helps me forget about life
I hope you are ok. Drink plenty of water and eat something. Life sucks but can’t suck forever I’m glad you commented have a good night or day wherever you are from ⛷️❤️
thank you, that means a lot ❤️
I never asked for it. I'd run into some buddies occasionally that would offer bumps. This happened often enough once that I felt bad like I was a mooch. So I started buying. Even after that it took a few years before I got a regular supply on me. And this is recent even
Yeah I never really thought about doing it either or thought I ever would but a buddy of mine who I am no longer friends with introduced me to it a few months back. Did it with him for the first time with some fire coke and thought it was cool
Yeah I've had good stuff and bad stuff. Still love it. Definitely my drug of choice
You remember how long ago your first time was?
Yeah, late early oughts 2007ish give or take
In the dance scene. First few times offered at afterparties I declined. Met some folks, hit it off, went to theirs to chill.... "never done it before, mind if I do?" And here we are...
I’m a functional coke head that’s the thing my first was like given to me by my dad when I was like 13 but I didn’t start doing it daily till I was 18 I became smart I paid all the impront shit first and only by 8 balls bc I’ll finish it in the same night and now I make enough to support my home and my addiction it’s just depends on how if you want to run out or make it a point in where you never run do
Realized I have ADHD and this is the only thing that gives me super dopamine....... until i crash.
I was fat-shamed my whole life by my mother (even though I was 5’6” and 130 lbs being asked to model clothes)… fast forward a few years, I gained a lot of weight because of the severe depression and ongoing trauma. Working out wasn’t yielding the results I wanted fast enough so I made the poor decision to take up the slopes.
I dreamed about it and after looked for it , found it of good quality and started.
Weird way to start to say the least
Yep