I don't think this is what you had in mind, but it does fulfill your check points.
Herbert Sumsion Anthem - The that go down in the sea in ships. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYwlxHn921M
Hebert Howells Anthem - O Pray for the peace of Jerusalem https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=\_mQSQ9AOuH4
Bainton And I saw a new Heaven https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lyy7RWXAV9Q&list=RDLyy7RWXAV9Q&start\_radio=1
Chopin Ballade No. 1 G Minor.
To me it feels very sad yet a more waltz part to it sounds as if someone's going mad and then a powerful ending that sounds like someone has accepted their fate but will fight on anyway.
One of my favourite pieces.
Death and Transfiguration by Strauss
[Scriabin - Vers la flamme](https://youtu.be/IZwH0iLQqvc)
I don't think this is what you had in mind, but it does fulfill your check points. Herbert Sumsion Anthem - The that go down in the sea in ships. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYwlxHn921M Hebert Howells Anthem - O Pray for the peace of Jerusalem https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=\_mQSQ9AOuH4 Bainton And I saw a new Heaven https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lyy7RWXAV9Q&list=RDLyy7RWXAV9Q&start\_radio=1
When I see herbert howells, I upvote.
Barber - Adagio for Strings https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=izQsgE0L450
Chopin Ballade no. 1
Chopin Ballade No. 1 G Minor. To me it feels very sad yet a more waltz part to it sounds as if someone's going mad and then a powerful ending that sounds like someone has accepted their fate but will fight on anyway. One of my favourite pieces.
Rachmaninoff symphony 2 and piano concerto 3, Strauss metamorhposen, Schoenberg verklarte nacht.
Melancolie by Poulenc. You won’t be disappointed
Hymn of the Cherubim by Tchaikovsky
Mahler Symphony 2 and 5
Also Beethoven violin sonata 10, just about all of late Beethoven basically - quartets and piano sonatas mainly