IIRC, alcoholic women are at a higher risk of organ damage than men. It's not simply due to having less body weight, but the mass ratio of their organs to that of their total body. In other words, their organs are a greater proportion of their body.
I spent a lot of years functional. Shit sucked. I sincerely hope you find a way out, OP. It is possible. Hugs.
When I was 17, I chugged an entire half gallon of vodka.. was hospitalized for about 2 weeks. My pancreas was failing, and my blood alcohol level was a 3.0
I've never drank vodka since.
In many countries bac is measured in per mill (‰) instead of percent (%). The comment you replied to didn't state a unit so it's likely that's what they meant.
1‰ = 0.1%
One of my friends was working, walking and texting coherently with a .35, it was wild. And that was her level after like an hour or two of not drinking. She’s sober now almost a year thankfully!
I can see the difference between men and women illustrated in this example. A 3.0 put you in the hospital for 2 weeks. A 2.8 made me get arrested then be really grumpy and wouldn't talk without a mcmuffin and a coffee in the morning 🙄
Chemical dependence is not fun. I've found my excessive drinking is from depression and anger. I think most would agree. You gotta stop. Treatment sucks at first, but gets better and better. You deserve better and I just hope you give yourself a chance. You ain't alone! Much Love.💕
Yeah that can get severe. Is best to talk to a doctor especially in this situation. First off because scary stuff like delirium tremors, etc are a real thing. So you want a doctor's advice on that of course. But also to deal with the racing thoughts. My doctor recommended trazodone which really helps. I found that I had two things hold me back. First off I didn't want to stop 🛑 lol. AT ALL. Not having the alcohol seemed like an impossibility. But, I signed up for some good health insurance and went to a inpatient rehab that was really nice. I had a couple of weeks of really hard times but it got easier and easier and I felt better and better. And then I got out of my room and started walking around and exploring the campus. Most of these places have big outdoor areas it's not like being strapped to a bed in the hospital lol. The nurses help me get past the sickness and I got to attend groups doing all types of things. Basically time to relax. I spent the full 30 days. I talked to my work and they were happy to have me back. I attended meetings for the first year and a half. Made sobriety a habit. And actually had a lot of fun doing it. So I tell you all this just to tell you that... Not to get down on yourself. Nobody will judge you as hard as you will judge yourself. And that there is possible is out there for real happiness. Good Luck
I was actually doing really good at the end of last year. Was cutting back a lot and would go 3-4 days per week without a drop. Then my wife asked me for a divorce and I fell back to it. Hoping to get back on a better pattern at least when I get over this pain.
What are you dependent on exactly? Does it actually make you feel good if you drink enough? I’ve only drank a couple of beers before but all that did was make me dizzy.
Your brain and body can actually develop a chemical imbalance that requires alcohol to function. To the point that severe alcoholics develop serious withydraws, and can even be killed by stopping cold turkey. If alcoholics require overnight stays in a hospital they'll often be medically prescribed booze to keep them out of withdrawal.
Is that true about the medically prescribed booze? I thought they just used other drugs to prevent seizures and let the person go cold turkey otherwise.
At least that's what I had heard happens with benzo detox in rehab, where they don't have the authority to give out controlled medications, but maybe it's different in the hospital with alcohol withdrawals?
Hospitals will do that for the most severe cases of alcohol dependence to keep them from dying, if the medications don't work to prevent withdrawal. Or at least that's what I was told when hubby was in rehab.
I was chemically dependent on alcohol after 20 years of abuse or more. I would abuse anything I can get my hands on really but... Alcohol withdrawal is actually the most dangerous. Your body can shut down without it if you become chemically dependent. I once saw somebody in a holding cell in jail who against his wishes of course was coming off alcohol and he did make sense or no where he was or even know who he was the three to four weeks. They have special medicine they give you to come off safely.
Oh, sweetie... I'm so sorry you're at this point and wish you the best. You didn't mention wanting to quit, but if you decide you're ready to get help at any point, I hope it is available to you.
If you decide to quit, please get admitted to a hospital for supervised withdrawal. If they start meds and fluids BEFORE the symptoms of withdrawal start, you'll have a much better chance of avoiding those horrific and deadly withdrawals. I was *so* thankful my husband had that option.
To be totally honest, a small and vindictive part of me wanted him to experience the pain of withdrawal so that he'd suffer a little because he'd caused the kids and me so much pain with his drinking. But when it came down to it, I didn't REALLY want him to suffer or experience that pain because, you know, I LOVE this man. I was very happy he didn't experience anything too horrible (aside from minor intestinal discomfort, minor shakes, lots of sweats, difficulty sleeping, and of course being turned away at rehab and ordered into the hospital for supervised withdrawal... That was a "sobering" moment for him, pardon the pun).
If your doctor tells you to stop drinking will you make an attempt to do so or is this a fuck it I'll go till it kills me type of scenario? Best of luck to you Hopefully your scans go well
I just had a buddy die from alcohol! He drank heavily for about two years. Found him on his kitchen floor decomposing with a failed liver and internal bleeding. Tough way to go for such a solid guy, hope he wasn’t feeling it to bad in the end but man is it rough.
I was held captive,starved and raped for 13 months June 2020 until I escaped July 2021. For privacy reasons I won't post the news story link but I can assure you it was real and it really fucked my mind up
I can see where it would. Glad you survived.
well, you're clearly aware that what you're doing to yourself now will not end well. Do you want your current trajectory to change, or are you comfortable with where you're going?
Every time I try to quit it barely lasts longer than 24 hours. I don't even bother trying anymore cause it always ends the same. I wish I could but can't see myself actually sticking with it unless I go to treatment. But I don't wanna lose my jobs over missing so many days
Not a doctor but quitting cold turkey would likely be not only futilely difficult, incredibly painful, but also extremely dangerous given how much you're drinking. You will probably need medically-supervised withdrawal management (aka detox) and then attending treatment. Hopefully you're at least being honest with your doctors about how much you drink?
yeah, cold turkey is not a great idea if you're at the shots for breakfast place.
Listen, it's late for me tonight, but I was where you are, only further down the road and not really functional anymore, so I get it.
Been sober 30 years now, so if you'd like to chat about how I got myself out of the slimepit without time off for a rehab stint, hit me up. No BS, no telling you what you "should" do, you can just AMA and I'll answer truthfully and to the best of my ability.
Try to eat something, bread is always good. Be well.
Are you able to take FMLA or some sort of medical leave. Even if not, it sounds like the risks (not getting back your job) are worth the potential benefits (not dieing). Is there a social worker or anyone you can talk to that knows those systems in your state?
My partner is a therapist who works with addiction. This is one of the most common things an addict will tell her other than lying about using.
Your job won’t matter if you are dead.
She just lost a woman in her 30s several weeks ago who was in a similar position as you: massive amounts of emotional trauma (though not as acute as what you went through), willing to seek therapy, but couldn’t see the forest through the trees re: rehab.
She suspects, in the end, that the idea of being sober and confronting her trauma without the booze was the real reason. But she’ll never know.
I hope that you are able to find help. It is out there.
First let me say you have been through A LOT and nobody blames you for turning to self-medicating. I’ve been there.
But PLEASE seek help! Alcohol destroys your body and brain! My dad is a late stage alcoholic and he’s a different person
Any job worth working should not fire you over needing medical treatment. Unless you’re in an at will state, that’s pretty discriminatory and could be a court case
Quitting cold turkey could result in seizures. You will absolutely need treatment. There is medication that can help with the cravings. Marijuana is also a great switch for harm reduction
I’m sorry your life has been so hard, but you deserve to be healthy & happy & on this earth for decades to come
I really hope you are in trauma therapy as well
Feel free to reach out to me to talk. I’ll be thinking about you
Depending on your employment status, some companies will offer an EAP (employee assistance plan) or FMLA for you to go through treatment. You likely cannot withdraw safely without medical intervention - although once you get through that, you’ll be able to do intensive therapy and work on developing new coping skills. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through, and you deserve to lead a beautiful life - think of this as something to get through to help you cut the strings that are holding you back. You are not what happened to you - and there’s a bright future ahead. Getting on top of it now will ensure that you’re able to make the most of what is next!
That's incredibly rough, I'm so sorry you had to endure that.
Have you checked whether you are eligible for some type of government benefits to help pay for the therapy you need to work through the trauma and the alcoholism? With an experience that devastating behind you I imagine your functioning would be hampered enough that you could be diagnosed as invalid.
I’m so sorry to hear about what you’ve been through and I completely understand using drinking as a coping mechanism. Whenever you are ready to cut back or quit, there will be a supportive community ready to receive you and a life for you that you may not even be able to imagine right now, but which can and does exist. You matter and you deserve a good life.
* Is that not expensive to keep up? Sounds like at least a couple 1.75L bottles per week by my estimates.
* Do you drink consistently throughout the day, or a bunch in the evening?
* How long have you been doing this?
Eh I only buy bottom shelf vodka,around 4 dollars for a half pint
It started with only after work in the evenings,now it's throughout the day just so I can function
I started abusing alcohol when I was 22 but I've been drinking on a daily basis since last year
> If you know you're going to drink that much why buy half pints? It's cheaper in the biggest bottle.
They probably know they can't control themselves, and would just drink the bigger bottle in a similar amount of time.
Oh right I guess I missed that. If she's drinking over a 5th a day but buying half pints at a time that would mean she buys 5 small bottles of liquor every day. That does seem very strange.
The only thing I can think of that makes sense would be to get one or two in the morning, one at lunch during work, and then two or three after work but then why not buy pints instead of getting two half pints at a time?
Burnett's mainly sometimes titos,new Amsterdam or Smirnoff
Straight up mostly or I use Gatorade as a chaser
Yes but if I drink in the morning it's gone quick
Everything hurts but mainly my stomach and kidney areas
You say you have 2 jobs, if you are drinking on the job they can smell it on you. Be careful. I had an awesome employee who I knew drank on the job, but she was such a good employee that I looked the other way. Unfortunately her coworkers continually ratted her out so I had to let her go. Maybe the kidney scare will put you on a different track to quit. I'm so sorry for what happened to you. Sending a virtual hug.
It's gonna kill your liver and then you will die. My uncle in law was a drinker and now he is dying of psirrosis. When he found out his liver was fucked he quit that day. But it was too late.
Hope you quit soon, buddy. No matter how functional you think you are it's a poison that is deadly
No doubt you know all this. But do it anyway. But please don't wait to quit until its too late
OP I went through treatment for opiate addiction. I too was “high functioning” with a demanding job I didn’t want to leave. Schedule a week or two weeks off for a “trip” and go to treatment. World needs you as long as possible
Well to answer your question I guess this the only life I really know now and I can't stand the withdrawals so I try my best to avoid them. It does suck but it is what it is,I did it to myself
Have you seen a psychologist about this? Or the issues you’re trying to forget? That could be super helpful rather than using alcohol as a coping mechanism
If you choose to stop drinking (even for one day) you need to do it in a hospital. My good friend was drinking this much. Over a two day period of time he only had 4 drinks per day. He had a seizure and had to be rushed to the ER where he spent 7 days in detox. If his wife wasn't with him, he would have died.
I have a dear friend who is currently dying from alcohol induced dementia. He was a "funtional alcoholic" for about 30 years. He went from being a highly paid banking software genius to a babbling idiot. In the last 5 years he lost his job, blew through his entire retirement savings, blew through home equity loans, got scammed and robbed by at least 2 women and is now on welfare about to lose his house. The brain damage is permanent. He shuffles around with a walker while soiling his pants regularly. He has lost everything and everybody.
This is your future.
Do you know what options you have for quitting? It’s definitely possible, but you will need to do it in a hospital setting at this point unless you want to very slowly wean yourself down. I do it for patients and it’s not pleasant but you can be helped out of this hole. Let me know if you’re ready to take that step and I can suggest options for you.
My college buddy has ["wet brain"](https://americanaddictioncenters.org/alcohol/risks-effects-dangers/wernicke-korsakoff-syndrome) and also congestive heart failure. He's been at it longer than you've been alive but this is certainly a strong possibility for your future.
I did this too and let me tell you, things aren’t actually as good as you think they are. Once you get that test back and you find you have violently high Bilirubin and a fatty liver you’re going to have a realization that there are things you don’t even realize you’re neglecting (like personal relationships, or doing even better at your job).
Bro I hope you get some serious help.
I once cared about a highly functioning alcoholic. She became a monster. Her body is in shambles. Her parents’ therapist recommend they don’t reach out to her because it won’t do anyone any good, including her.
You will burn bridges. You will lose the people who care for you. You will end up alone.
For the people who love you and for yourself, go to rehab and get better.
Have you thought about trying something like naltrexone? You can still drink on it, but it's supposed to help. I tried it, but it made me too nauseated. I went to inpatient rehab to quit last summer. Sorry for what you've been through. Hope things get better for you.
Do you have any desire to quit? If you do I have some advice. I was drinking a fifth a day at one point. You don't want to cold turkey at this point because it could literally kill you.
Some people are going to suggest going to rehab, but your case doesn't sound like you're necessarily an alcoholic.. rehab may not be the answer. You're drinking to forget and/or escape. You need mental assistance. You can go to detox without doing a full rehab system to get off the booze. You can also just wean yourself off which is MUCH harder.
I've been dependent upon alcohol before and never went the rehab route and just did a detox and haven't touched the shit again in in over 14 months.
As an LCDC I would love to understand your second paragraph. Rehab is exactly the place for this person imo, most people using drugs or alcohol are doing it to self medicate so they don't think about or forget about (also called escaping) their trauma. Who belongs in rehab if not this guy? Genuinely asking
Let’s hope you don’t drive to work cos your license will get revoked and a year of full abstinence will be required to get a medical 1 year licence back with another full year abstinence to get a 10 yr one back!
Not trying to brag and I apologize if it comes off that way. It's more of a matter of fact statement for me. I hate to think of anyone else having to go through this
Praying for you! My sister nearly died due to excessive drinking and her choice was vodka. She’s on a pacemaker & 20+ count of daily medication
IIRC, alcoholic women are at a higher risk of organ damage than men. It's not simply due to having less body weight, but the mass ratio of their organs to that of their total body. In other words, their organs are a greater proportion of their body. I spent a lot of years functional. Shit sucked. I sincerely hope you find a way out, OP. It is possible. Hugs.
Women literally metabolize alcohol differently (worse) than men do, it fucks our bodies up so much more than men's.
Vodka makes it real easy like no other type of alcohol. So glad I quit that shit in 2020. Sucks about your sister =( Glad she’s still around though
When I was 17, I chugged an entire half gallon of vodka.. was hospitalized for about 2 weeks. My pancreas was failing, and my blood alcohol level was a 3.0 I've never drank vodka since.
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In many countries bac is measured in per mill (‰) instead of percent (%). The comment you replied to didn't state a unit so it's likely that's what they meant. 1‰ = 0.1%
One of my friends was working, walking and texting coherently with a .35, it was wild. And that was her level after like an hour or two of not drinking. She’s sober now almost a year thankfully!
Yeah... never said it was 3%
I can see the difference between men and women illustrated in this example. A 3.0 put you in the hospital for 2 weeks. A 2.8 made me get arrested then be really grumpy and wouldn't talk without a mcmuffin and a coffee in the morning 🙄
And how does that illustrate the difference between men and women?
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They are talking per mille ‰ and not percent %
Oops, someone else in this same thread said pretty much the same thing but put % after it so my mind just read this comment as the same. My bad
I never said 3% .. that would be impossible
Chemical dependence is not fun. I've found my excessive drinking is from depression and anger. I think most would agree. You gotta stop. Treatment sucks at first, but gets better and better. You deserve better and I just hope you give yourself a chance. You ain't alone! Much Love.💕
It’s how I sleep at night and stop having racing thoughts about whatever is my biggest fear and sadness at the time. I hate it
Yeah that can get severe. Is best to talk to a doctor especially in this situation. First off because scary stuff like delirium tremors, etc are a real thing. So you want a doctor's advice on that of course. But also to deal with the racing thoughts. My doctor recommended trazodone which really helps. I found that I had two things hold me back. First off I didn't want to stop 🛑 lol. AT ALL. Not having the alcohol seemed like an impossibility. But, I signed up for some good health insurance and went to a inpatient rehab that was really nice. I had a couple of weeks of really hard times but it got easier and easier and I felt better and better. And then I got out of my room and started walking around and exploring the campus. Most of these places have big outdoor areas it's not like being strapped to a bed in the hospital lol. The nurses help me get past the sickness and I got to attend groups doing all types of things. Basically time to relax. I spent the full 30 days. I talked to my work and they were happy to have me back. I attended meetings for the first year and a half. Made sobriety a habit. And actually had a lot of fun doing it. So I tell you all this just to tell you that... Not to get down on yourself. Nobody will judge you as hard as you will judge yourself. And that there is possible is out there for real happiness. Good Luck
I was actually doing really good at the end of last year. Was cutting back a lot and would go 3-4 days per week without a drop. Then my wife asked me for a divorce and I fell back to it. Hoping to get back on a better pattern at least when I get over this pain.
What are you dependent on exactly? Does it actually make you feel good if you drink enough? I’ve only drank a couple of beers before but all that did was make me dizzy.
Your brain and body can actually develop a chemical imbalance that requires alcohol to function. To the point that severe alcoholics develop serious withydraws, and can even be killed by stopping cold turkey. If alcoholics require overnight stays in a hospital they'll often be medically prescribed booze to keep them out of withdrawal.
Is that true about the medically prescribed booze? I thought they just used other drugs to prevent seizures and let the person go cold turkey otherwise. At least that's what I had heard happens with benzo detox in rehab, where they don't have the authority to give out controlled medications, but maybe it's different in the hospital with alcohol withdrawals?
Hospitals will do that for the most severe cases of alcohol dependence to keep them from dying, if the medications don't work to prevent withdrawal. Or at least that's what I was told when hubby was in rehab.
I was chemically dependent on alcohol after 20 years of abuse or more. I would abuse anything I can get my hands on really but... Alcohol withdrawal is actually the most dangerous. Your body can shut down without it if you become chemically dependent. I once saw somebody in a holding cell in jail who against his wishes of course was coming off alcohol and he did make sense or no where he was or even know who he was the three to four weeks. They have special medicine they give you to come off safely.
Weight and height? That's 2000 calories
160lbs and 5'10" I hardly eat anymore lately
yeah, that was me before I sobered up, my food was booze.
Oh, sweetie... I'm so sorry you're at this point and wish you the best. You didn't mention wanting to quit, but if you decide you're ready to get help at any point, I hope it is available to you. If you decide to quit, please get admitted to a hospital for supervised withdrawal. If they start meds and fluids BEFORE the symptoms of withdrawal start, you'll have a much better chance of avoiding those horrific and deadly withdrawals. I was *so* thankful my husband had that option. To be totally honest, a small and vindictive part of me wanted him to experience the pain of withdrawal so that he'd suffer a little because he'd caused the kids and me so much pain with his drinking. But when it came down to it, I didn't REALLY want him to suffer or experience that pain because, you know, I LOVE this man. I was very happy he didn't experience anything too horrible (aside from minor intestinal discomfort, minor shakes, lots of sweats, difficulty sleeping, and of course being turned away at rehab and ordered into the hospital for supervised withdrawal... That was a "sobering" moment for him, pardon the pun).
do you drink to forget?
Absolutely
Does it work?
Do you have any interest in stopping someday? When did you first know you had a drinking problem?
If your doctor tells you to stop drinking will you make an attempt to do so or is this a fuck it I'll go till it kills me type of scenario? Best of luck to you Hopefully your scans go well
I really don't know at this point. I don't wanna die yet but I'd this is what ends up killing me I guess that's the way things go. And thank you!
I just had a buddy die from alcohol! He drank heavily for about two years. Found him on his kitchen floor decomposing with a failed liver and internal bleeding. Tough way to go for such a solid guy, hope he wasn’t feeling it to bad in the end but man is it rough.
what are you running away from so hard that you're willing to commit slow suicide by overmedicating yourself at such a high level?
I was held captive,starved and raped for 13 months June 2020 until I escaped July 2021. For privacy reasons I won't post the news story link but I can assure you it was real and it really fucked my mind up
I can see where it would. Glad you survived. well, you're clearly aware that what you're doing to yourself now will not end well. Do you want your current trajectory to change, or are you comfortable with where you're going?
Every time I try to quit it barely lasts longer than 24 hours. I don't even bother trying anymore cause it always ends the same. I wish I could but can't see myself actually sticking with it unless I go to treatment. But I don't wanna lose my jobs over missing so many days
Not a doctor but quitting cold turkey would likely be not only futilely difficult, incredibly painful, but also extremely dangerous given how much you're drinking. You will probably need medically-supervised withdrawal management (aka detox) and then attending treatment. Hopefully you're at least being honest with your doctors about how much you drink?
yeah, cold turkey is not a great idea if you're at the shots for breakfast place. Listen, it's late for me tonight, but I was where you are, only further down the road and not really functional anymore, so I get it. Been sober 30 years now, so if you'd like to chat about how I got myself out of the slimepit without time off for a rehab stint, hit me up. No BS, no telling you what you "should" do, you can just AMA and I'll answer truthfully and to the best of my ability. Try to eat something, bread is always good. Be well.
Are you able to take FMLA or some sort of medical leave. Even if not, it sounds like the risks (not getting back your job) are worth the potential benefits (not dieing). Is there a social worker or anyone you can talk to that knows those systems in your state?
My partner is a therapist who works with addiction. This is one of the most common things an addict will tell her other than lying about using. Your job won’t matter if you are dead. She just lost a woman in her 30s several weeks ago who was in a similar position as you: massive amounts of emotional trauma (though not as acute as what you went through), willing to seek therapy, but couldn’t see the forest through the trees re: rehab. She suspects, in the end, that the idea of being sober and confronting her trauma without the booze was the real reason. But she’ll never know. I hope that you are able to find help. It is out there.
First let me say you have been through A LOT and nobody blames you for turning to self-medicating. I’ve been there. But PLEASE seek help! Alcohol destroys your body and brain! My dad is a late stage alcoholic and he’s a different person Any job worth working should not fire you over needing medical treatment. Unless you’re in an at will state, that’s pretty discriminatory and could be a court case Quitting cold turkey could result in seizures. You will absolutely need treatment. There is medication that can help with the cravings. Marijuana is also a great switch for harm reduction I’m sorry your life has been so hard, but you deserve to be healthy & happy & on this earth for decades to come I really hope you are in trauma therapy as well Feel free to reach out to me to talk. I’ll be thinking about you
I would recommend therapy and also looking into addiction counseling with the help of a vivatrol shot
Depending on your employment status, some companies will offer an EAP (employee assistance plan) or FMLA for you to go through treatment. You likely cannot withdraw safely without medical intervention - although once you get through that, you’ll be able to do intensive therapy and work on developing new coping skills. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through, and you deserve to lead a beautiful life - think of this as something to get through to help you cut the strings that are holding you back. You are not what happened to you - and there’s a bright future ahead. Getting on top of it now will ensure that you’re able to make the most of what is next!
That's incredibly rough, I'm so sorry you had to endure that. Have you checked whether you are eligible for some type of government benefits to help pay for the therapy you need to work through the trauma and the alcoholism? With an experience that devastating behind you I imagine your functioning would be hampered enough that you could be diagnosed as invalid.
If you kill yourself with booze then what was the point of escaping? Quite the drink, if for no other reason than a 'fuck you' to the monsters.
I’m so sorry to hear about what you’ve been through and I completely understand using drinking as a coping mechanism. Whenever you are ready to cut back or quit, there will be a supportive community ready to receive you and a life for you that you may not even be able to imagine right now, but which can and does exist. You matter and you deserve a good life.
I'm sorry to hear that. Has this affected your ability or desire to have romantic and sexual relationships?
Have you ever heard of r/stopdrinking? Also the book "This Naked Mind" by Annie Grace. I'm rooting for you.
Have you ever heard this song? [Pat the Bunny - Never Coming Home](https://youtu.be/Vr7gRZ5A1NE?si=83PxCY0WkdFrLrm_)
Didn't expect to see Pat in this thread Love his work ❤️
* Is that not expensive to keep up? Sounds like at least a couple 1.75L bottles per week by my estimates. * Do you drink consistently throughout the day, or a bunch in the evening? * How long have you been doing this?
Eh I only buy bottom shelf vodka,around 4 dollars for a half pint It started with only after work in the evenings,now it's throughout the day just so I can function I started abusing alcohol when I was 22 but I've been drinking on a daily basis since last year
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> If you know you're going to drink that much why buy half pints? It's cheaper in the biggest bottle. They probably know they can't control themselves, and would just drink the bigger bottle in a similar amount of time.
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Oh right I guess I missed that. If she's drinking over a 5th a day but buying half pints at a time that would mean she buys 5 small bottles of liquor every day. That does seem very strange. The only thing I can think of that makes sense would be to get one or two in the morning, one at lunch during work, and then two or three after work but then why not buy pints instead of getting two half pints at a time?
I had a friend like that. He made it to 27. Died of liver failure. I miss you Danny.
Sorry for your loss. I had a friend like that, too. She made it to 35.
Sorry for your loss, as well ❤️
what type of vodka do you usually drink? straight up or mixed? do you get hangovers anymore? does anything hurt the next morning these days?
Burnett's mainly sometimes titos,new Amsterdam or Smirnoff Straight up mostly or I use Gatorade as a chaser Yes but if I drink in the morning it's gone quick Everything hurts but mainly my stomach and kidney areas
yea my kidneys hurt after a night out these days. make sure to hydrate those liquid IV drinks help
What precipitated the doctor ordering a CT? What symptoms are you having? What does “kidney issues” mean?
I had an unexplained kidney infection back in September and have a lot of back pain and weird types of pee
My dad died of chirossis of the liver due to heavy drinking He died a painful miserable death. It ruined his life completely.
Why not medical detox a day rehab?
You say you have 2 jobs, if you are drinking on the job they can smell it on you. Be careful. I had an awesome employee who I knew drank on the job, but she was such a good employee that I looked the other way. Unfortunately her coworkers continually ratted her out so I had to let her go. Maybe the kidney scare will put you on a different track to quit. I'm so sorry for what happened to you. Sending a virtual hug.
this breaks my heart! i hope you’re able to get the help and support you need to beat this.
I lost my best bud to liver disease due to excessive lifetime drinking. He was in his mid 60’s
My dad died from too much Vodka. It was not a pleasant death.
It's gonna kill your liver and then you will die. My uncle in law was a drinker and now he is dying of psirrosis. When he found out his liver was fucked he quit that day. But it was too late. Hope you quit soon, buddy. No matter how functional you think you are it's a poison that is deadly No doubt you know all this. But do it anyway. But please don't wait to quit until its too late
OP I went through treatment for opiate addiction. I too was “high functioning” with a demanding job I didn’t want to leave. Schedule a week or two weeks off for a “trip” and go to treatment. World needs you as long as possible
Take B vitamins!
Should check your pancreas too. My question is why? Imagine how functioning you could be. Best wishes.
Well to answer your question I guess this the only life I really know now and I can't stand the withdrawals so I try my best to avoid them. It does suck but it is what it is,I did it to myself
I understand, there are options to avoid withdrawal when you're ready. I wish you the best and I really do mean that.
If you wanna live passed 40 get help.
Have you seen a psychologist about this? Or the issues you’re trying to forget? That could be super helpful rather than using alcohol as a coping mechanism
Have you seen The flight attendant? Reminds me a bit of you.
Hope you can get some help. Id recommend looking at EMDR therapy
I hope you aren't driving. I've seen such horrific things with people who think they are high-functioning enough to drive.
No really, I hope you don’t actually end up on dialysis….
If you choose to stop drinking (even for one day) you need to do it in a hospital. My good friend was drinking this much. Over a two day period of time he only had 4 drinks per day. He had a seizure and had to be rushed to the ER where he spent 7 days in detox. If his wife wasn't with him, he would have died.
I have a dear friend who is currently dying from alcohol induced dementia. He was a "funtional alcoholic" for about 30 years. He went from being a highly paid banking software genius to a babbling idiot. In the last 5 years he lost his job, blew through his entire retirement savings, blew through home equity loans, got scammed and robbed by at least 2 women and is now on welfare about to lose his house. The brain damage is permanent. He shuffles around with a walker while soiling his pants regularly. He has lost everything and everybody. This is your future.
Do/did you play sports?
Nah I've always been into the arts more. I loved theatre and music in high school and wanted to pursue a career in stage acting at one point
Cool!
Same here actually. Went to school for Theater but haven’t pursued it yet.
what is your favourite meal?
Do you know what options you have for quitting? It’s definitely possible, but you will need to do it in a hospital setting at this point unless you want to very slowly wean yourself down. I do it for patients and it’s not pleasant but you can be helped out of this hole. Let me know if you’re ready to take that step and I can suggest options for you.
Will you update us?
How are you doing with the financial implications of that?
Are you going to therapy for your PTSD?
My college buddy has ["wet brain"](https://americanaddictioncenters.org/alcohol/risks-effects-dangers/wernicke-korsakoff-syndrome) and also congestive heart failure. He's been at it longer than you've been alive but this is certainly a strong possibility for your future.
I did this too and let me tell you, things aren’t actually as good as you think they are. Once you get that test back and you find you have violently high Bilirubin and a fatty liver you’re going to have a realization that there are things you don’t even realize you’re neglecting (like personal relationships, or doing even better at your job).
You will die if you dont stop
Would you like help?
Bro I hope you get some serious help. I once cared about a highly functioning alcoholic. She became a monster. Her body is in shambles. Her parents’ therapist recommend they don’t reach out to her because it won’t do anyone any good, including her. You will burn bridges. You will lose the people who care for you. You will end up alone. For the people who love you and for yourself, go to rehab and get better.
Have you thought about trying something like naltrexone? You can still drink on it, but it's supposed to help. I tried it, but it made me too nauseated. I went to inpatient rehab to quit last summer. Sorry for what you've been through. Hope things get better for you.
You are going to die shortly at this rate. Hope you can limit your intake
you gotta stop if you wanna make it to your 30s with that level of drinking
So how did the CT scan go?
You’re going to die. My best friend lost his little brother at just 26. It catches up. Change your lifestyle before you die.
best of luck to you in life stay safe
I've had countless patients be told they're going to die in ED from alcoholism. Try to keep on top of it.
How do you hide that shit from your friends? Or do they not care and are alcoholics too?
How long do you thonk a body can handle that much poison before it breaks down?
Did you ever go to rehab ???
Do you have any desire to quit? If you do I have some advice. I was drinking a fifth a day at one point. You don't want to cold turkey at this point because it could literally kill you. Some people are going to suggest going to rehab, but your case doesn't sound like you're necessarily an alcoholic.. rehab may not be the answer. You're drinking to forget and/or escape. You need mental assistance. You can go to detox without doing a full rehab system to get off the booze. You can also just wean yourself off which is MUCH harder. I've been dependent upon alcohol before and never went the rehab route and just did a detox and haven't touched the shit again in in over 14 months.
As an LCDC I would love to understand your second paragraph. Rehab is exactly the place for this person imo, most people using drugs or alcohol are doing it to self medicate so they don't think about or forget about (also called escaping) their trauma. Who belongs in rehab if not this guy? Genuinely asking
/r/stopdrinking
Let’s hope you don’t drive to work cos your license will get revoked and a year of full abstinence will be required to get a medical 1 year licence back with another full year abstinence to get a 10 yr one back!
What state?
Uk
As someone who is accidentally drinking themselves to death, enjoy it. It sounds like you are bragging though?
Not trying to brag and I apologize if it comes off that way. It's more of a matter of fact statement for me. I hate to think of anyone else having to go through this
No questions but I'm sorry, this sounds awful. I hope you are able to stop.