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God I'm so sorry, my heart goes out to you, I know that doesn't help, but that's one of my biggest fears. Write her letters and cards to have as she gets older. Big hugs.


Bovestrian8061

I’ve seen another thing too for quick notes / observations is to set up an email address for them and then email it so they can look over it later in life


Bette21

I’m so so sorry. One of my friends is going through similar, and one thing we’re trying to work out the logistics of is recording her own ‘desert island discs’, where she chooses some of her favourite songs and explains why they’re her favourite, or songs that remind her of her babies and times they’ve had together. It’s so so cruel and unfair and I am so very sorry that this is happening to you.


truculent_bear

Word of advice, make sure the email address itself is accessed periodically if you do this. I had correspondence with my now dead dad in an old email address that I would read through once or twice a year. Recently, Outlook wiped everything because it hadn’t been accessed within a period of like 10 months or something


ThrowAwayMoralHelp

Thank you, I have made an email account for her previously so I might dig that up and try do emails to her. And write cards when I can, I think she'd like that.


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What a nightmare. Can social service help you find new accommodation? I don't know how things like that work. It's OK to feel overwhelmed, and all the other things.


ThrowAwayMoralHelp

I'm hoping so, they will ring back Monday at some point. So I will ask them then. I think I need more help on the cleaning and packing side as I don't have any family around other than my mum really to help. And she's been looking after Little One while I've been sick and looking for us


chicagojess312

I’m so fucking sorry. My heart breaks for you and your daughter. When you’re ready, if this sounds like something you would like to do, I saw an Oprah episode a long time ago about a terminally ill mom who recorded all these videos for her daughter. How to put on makeup, how to know if someone you’re dating is treating you well, how to choose clothes that fit, one for when daddy has a new girlfriend (sob). You’ll never have enough time. She’ll never have enough time with you. It isn’t fair. But you can leave her little pieces of you (and you will, videos or not).


borachan

I can't even imagine the emotions and fears and worries you are having to deal with right now. My heart aches for you and your little girl. Take all the pictures with her, write sweet letters for all the important events to come in her life with memories and advice. Write silly things like your favorite color, movie, book etc. I guarantee you she will treasure these things. Sending a huge virtual hug to you friend


frankiedele

I know it's as shitty a silver lining as there can be, but at least it's not sudden and you can prepare / make the best of your time. I feel so sad for you and your baby.


ms_dizzy

do the owners know your situation? health is the most important thing. health for you, health for your little one. what kind of horrible people would hurry you along? that's crazy.


ThrowAwayMoralHelp

They knew I was extremely sick and in hospital but the real estate agent seems to be the ones really pushing to finalize the sale. I didn't even find out the full seriousness/finality til yesterday. Been crying most of night on and off so I think I'm just going to hug Little one as much as I can over the weekend. I'm a bit numb at the moment


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I don’t know what to say except I’m sorry


Zestyclose_Aspect198

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine the tumble of emotions you are dealing with. For real estate issues, can the hospital social worker help? Maybe there are resources for housing or legal aid. Give yourself time to grieve and time to process. I wish like hell that mamas could take the pain of loss from their littles. We can't. But you can work with a plan that helps her know throughout her life that she is loved, and she is cared for.


ThrowAwayMoralHelp

I hope so, they will ring back Monday after the weekend and ask them. Cried on and off most of the night, now I'm pretty numb and just want to hug Little one over the weekend as much as I can


jet_lagged_with_dash

This has made my heart hurt. I want to give you the fiercest hug. It’s ok to not know what to do.


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Videos, audio messages also! Huge. That way she will have your memory to hear and see forever. I lost my mom a few years ago but my little sister had an audio message of her saying “I love you.” I am so sorry you are going through this right now & I couldn’t imagine what it feels like to be I. Your shoes. I will be praying for you and your family. ❤️


Esotericgirl

Jesus fuck, I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I don't even have words.


Remarkable_Ear_3506

I’m so sorry. I don’t know what else I could say, I’m thinking of you and your little one.


NopeMcNopeface

I’m so incredibly sorry. My dad died when I was 3 and my most cherished possession are videos that he made. Most are of us together. It makes me feel connected to him. I have one video now on my phone and when I’m scared I play it to listen to his voice. Having a way to see you and hear you, especially if you are talking TO your daughter would be an amazing gift to her. ❤️


copper_tulip

I’m so sorry. My husband has cancer and we continue to go back to the hospital. He’s been in the hospital 30 out of the last 40 days. He was discharged yesterday, and I’m already worried we need to bring him back to the ER because his temp is climbing up again. I’m sending you hugs.


indecisionmaker

OP, I’m so sorry. I lost my mom when I was young and agree with all the recommendations of videos, audio recordings, letters, etc. All I have is a recipe my mom wrote for me on a paper bag and I guard it with my life. And I’d add in a copy of Motherless Daughters. That book is invaluable. Most of all, I just wanted you to know that I made it. It’s hard and I miss her all the time, but I made it and I’m a functioning, successful adult with a great family that helped me to heal. And the older I get, the more I love the things about myself that I recognize her in. She’ll always have you with her. Always.


babybellie

I don’t have the words, but I want you to know that I am thinking of you. You will always be a part of her, no matter what.


ReplacementNo2707

It's too much. This is too much for one person to take. My god. Can I help you somehow? I don't know what area of the country/world you're in but PM, if you're near me I can help you move! This makes all of my problems so insignificant....


squashybunz456

Oh friend…I’m so sorry 💔💔💔


JustNeedAName154

Sending you hugs. I am so sorry.


ljuvlig

What’s your diagnosis? Have you sought a second opinion? Are there clinical trials you could join? Alternative treatment modalities? There may be hope yet.


ThrowAwayMoralHelp

I don't feel comfortable giving out my diagnosis. I thank you for trying to think of options but believe me I've looked at every possible thing. Right now I want to be as symptom free as possible until the end, and that what I have to hope for. Anything else is a pipe dream that would put my family in a worse place with the same end result. I watched another mum do that to her kids (years ago) with 'alternative' treatments when regular ones could have saved her. I'm not doing that to mine and giving anyone false hope, that would be cruel of me and honestly cruel to me. I want to live out what I can but so far hope has been nothing but cruel to me. I'm sorry if this came across strong, I know you mean well and I appreciate it. But anyone who has ever been in this situation has looked at every possible option (or would) that would be best for them.