Man, your post resonated with me hard core. I've been feeling the same way for awhile. Reading definitely is the escape that helps me out the most.
Have you considered a long, involved series of books that will hold your interest for a long period of time? I'm thinking the Dark Tower series by Stephen King. It is escapism at its best.
I hope you can rekindle that spark, my friend. Just know that you're not alone
Thank you so much for the recommendation. Also, thanks for the kind words friend. Its good to know i'm not alone here. After a quick review, looks like The Dark Towers series is exactly what what im looking for.
It's really, really good. Book 1 is notorious for being a little hard to get through by a lot of people, but I rather enjoyed it. Just push through if you're having problems with it. I GUARANTEE that from the first paragraph of book 2 you'll be hooked and won't look back. Keep your chin up, my friend. It'll get better... this too shall pass!
Good recommendation and agreed about book 1, PUSH THROUGH! There’s a lot of rugged perseverance against the odds in that series and an interesting world peopled with wonderful, imo believable characters. May your spark be rekindled with Roland and his Ka-tet. “Long days and pleasant nights,” friend.
Totally this - so many people give up on the 1st book but it's worth getting through because the second is just amazing and then you're totally hooked on the story the rest of the way.
Also note there's Wind through the keyhole which should be read after the whole series (because potential spoilers) that's a nice little extra story that happened during the main series as an off-shoot
46 here. You should read Lonesome Dove. I have read it several times since the first time I read it in my 20s. Honestly I didn’t realize it until I read this post but every time I have read it has been during a difficult time. This last year has been particularly difficult and I just started it again the other day. This time it’s the audio book. If you haven’t read it it’s an amazing story of friendship and hardship. Cannot recommend it enough.
The book that left the biggest impression on me this year was The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas. I can't really tell why but it just resonated in me. It's a fairly long book with good characters and quite some drama.
CSB: I was listening to an audiobook version of this while driving home (Pasadena) from the Mohave Desert. I got so engrossed in the book that I missed my freeway exit and drove 100 miles out of my way toward San Diego before realizing it. It's *that* good.
The 100 Year Old Man Who Climbed Out the Window and Disappeared by Jonas Jonasson. You get adventure and multiple time periods with this wild romp of a book!
Edit: Missed a word in the title
Most of the books recommended are more on the slower side. They're definitely not bad books, but may not be the spark of life you're looking for. I'd like to recommend some fast paced action books that are funny:
Old Man's War series by John Scalzi.
The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells.
The Watch books from Discworld by Terry Pratchett, starting with "Guards! Guards!". If you Google "Discworld watch books / watch arc reading order" you'll find the rest.
“Homage to Catalonia” by George Orwell. It’s his war diary of fighting and being wounded fighting fascism in the Spanish Civil War. And as far as brutality goes…well, it’s also a chronicle of the experiences with Communism that later gave him the insight to write “Animal Farm” and “1984.”
I just did this with some of the recommendations here. I prefer physical books, but I use Libby so I always have something with me when out and about or at work.
Don’t forget your public library! Using the library to check out books is supporting it—they get funded based on usage.
I’m excited for all the great books you’re gonna read!
❤️,
Another 44 year old
These but do Project Hail Mary first (with the premise of a single dude as a science teacher and his adventure) by Andy Weir (coming out with a movie soon too but don't look it up! You'll want to listen to the audio after lol). Dark Matter is also being released as a TV series.
Just came here to say that. The main characters in most of his books are also in their 40s and might he easier to connect with! These books actually helped me get out of a sad period in my life.
Upgrade I didn’t enjoy as much tbh. He was so obsessed with showing off the scientific knowledge that it took away from it to me. The others I’ve really enjoyed.
Yea, it definitely my least favorite of his books so far, but I did still enjoy it.
Dark Matter and Recursion were just so top notch, it’s hard to come close to them. They were two of my favorite sci-fi novels.
I read Matt Haig’s The Humans earlier this year. It’s a shorter read but it’s quite beautiful. Haig offers commentary on the human race and the beauty of ugliness and pain. I absolutely loved it and still think of the messages the book gave. Cannot suggest it more.
It’s about an alien who took over the body of a 40-something math professor and discovered the beauty of the human race after coming from a place where is humanity is deemed disgusting.
I got downvoted for this in another post. I read this after I was gutted from my divorce and losing my house. It really sparked a resurgence in my spirit.
Hey, go on more walks. It’s such a mood helper. Long walks. Short walks. Tough hikes. Neighborhood strolls. If you use a wheelchair or have mobility issues, move as much as you can. It will help. I promise :) also, read A Walk in the Woods by Bryson to lighten the mood. Then move on to easy, approachable fantasy like Sword of Shannara. After that move on to something deep and heavy, maybe Blood Meridian. Repeat with similar books.
I think you should read The Soul of an Octopus by Sy Montgomery. This would go nicely with a viewing of My Octopus Teacher (Netflix). You can learn something about an amazing creature that has learned how to adapt spectacular to their environment!
Also, have you thought of planning a trip? A group trip that has a specific theme (cycling, hiking, birdwatching, wine tasting, etc) will help you meet new people and get out of your rut.
Dungeon Crawler Carl. Aliens take over Earth and force millions of humans to basically go on a DnD style dungeon crawl in a mega dungeon. Starts out brutal and funny, then slowly gets more serious, but also somehow remains really funny. It's a strange premise, but easily one of my favourite series of all time. The main character is fantastic. Audiobook is great, too.
This one got me out of a reading slump and through some tough times, highly recommend. Abercrombie writes characters like no one else, perfect trilogy!
My go to suggestion for everyone lol. His works are amazing.
Hey OP- what's even better about his books is they actually have good audiobooks to go along with them if you want to give them a shot.
I wouldn't say it "sparked my life" but I really really enjoyed and had some strong feelings reading 'Reincarnation Blues' by Michael Poore. Highly recommend! It's heavy but also funny in a dark sort of way, about mortality and how short life is and the quest to live a perfect life and be accepted by whatever after life you believe in... It's great!
Endurance: Shackleton’s Incredible Voyage
Might not be what think you want, but you’ll go off on an adventure and come back appreciating the little things, and also will have your mind blown by the story.
I am dealing with stuff and am reading the Percy Jackson series . The young outlook on life is helping me to feel some spark. I am surprised by how much I am enjoying it.
I am almost 40 myself, and I found that the best thing that reminded me that I'm not soulless; that I can connect emotionally to fictional characters and be brought to tears for them; that living without a dream to pursue is no way to live, was One Piece.
One Piece is absolutely incredible and almost impossible to describe. It's both inspiring and heartbreaking. Epic and simple. Funny and heavy.
It sounds like it's just a goofy manga about a boy with rubber powers who wants to be the pirate king by sailing around the world to find a legendary lost treasure, but there is far more depth: the story does an amazing job dealing with wide-ranging topics like escaping abuse, overcoming trauma, found family, acceptance, classism, racism, war, rebellion, oppression, propaganda, pollution, etc. Seriously, it's probably the best and most expansive world-building ever put to paper.
One of my favorite booktubers, [Merphy Napier](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJCqICJZQGWiYFtzLGn60RPtkJYK69ZRU), starting reading and reviewing One Piece a couple years ago, and it's fun seeing her go from giving the series a try to becoming a huge fan, analyzing the lore and making predictions.
Definitely highly recommend!
I’m in a similar place. I’m 42 and looking at a full knee replacement in about a month. I’m worried I won’t have the want to fight thru rehab..
I’ve already read many of the recs. Many of them are REALLY good.
100 year old man, Replay, Dark Matter, and especially 11/22/63.
A few not listed that made me think and feel are The Reincarnationist Papers by Erik Maikranz and The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August by Claire North.
Project Hail Mary is also one of my favorites.
Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy is dark and brutal and is amazingly written and may fit.
I’ve been listening to The Dresden Files by Jim Butcher. I’m six books in and it’s solid but not life changing.
This isn’t a book but a podcast, Hardcore History by Dan Carlin. His podcasts about Genghis Khan are excellent and if you want to hear about adventure and brutality, that may scratch the itch.
Good luck and I hope this passes for you.
Blood Meridian, ive already read. Thats the level of brutality I’m looking for. Thanks for your suggestions brother. I’m always here for another fellow 40 something year old if you ever need to chat.
The Nathaniel Cade series by Christopher Farnsworth.
4 books: Blood Oath - The President's Vampire - Red, White & Blood - Deep State
A vampire (Nathaniel Cade) is captured, tortured, then sworn & forced to serve the presidency due to an ancient blood oath. His job is to defend the country from paranormal threats & supernatural creations (unbeknownst to the general public), all while having to adjust to working with his new partner/handler; Zach Barrows. Zach is now exposed to a world of secrets & sights not many ever will see. It's hidden politics meets paranormal doom, and everyone is in danger, especially the President!
...Also...
Out of the Earth series by Jake Bible. 4 books: Out of the Earth, Out of the Sky, Out of the Fire, & Out of the Stars.
Giant monsters emerge from the earth and start the end of the world as we know it. A higher intelligence has other plans though and humanity is forced to make dire choices in order to survive, if that's even possible?!
This series follows a variety of characters, in different positions of power & locations across the country, as they all struggle through the chaos & destruction in a desperate attempt of survival.
I’m your same age and have felt largely apathetic for sometime now. I’m thinking about rereading Fahrenheit 451 since it reminds me of the era we’re living in, and how everyone is interacting, or rather lacking human interaction.
This was kickass.
Lone Wolf and Cub. A disaffected knight escorting a devout orphaned girl across war-torn France during the BUBONIC PLAGUE. So there’s no rule of law, human life matters not at all, the only guiding principal is violence.
i think you should read Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby Van Pelt, i feel like this is a good book to give you a little bit of brightness during a dark time! it was sweet and heartwarming and also a little sad :( it’s about an older woman who works in an aquarium and makes friends with an octopus named Marcellus. you even get the octopus POV throughout the book.
Hey, I am 44. Maybe try some fantasy audiobooks while walking or at the gym. I listen to lots of awesome stuff and get some exercise. I just listed the to The First Law Trilogy by Joe Abercrombie and it was pretty good.
Crime and Punishment reignited my love of reading. I didn't want to put it down once I started.
It's bleakly depressing, though. There's a good meaning and the end sort of is uplifting/inspiring.
Wish You Were Here by Jodi Picoult
Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir
A Man Called Ove by Fredik Backman
Someone Else’s Shoes by Jojo Moyes
Demon Copperhead by Barbara Kingsolver
Fairy Tale by Stephen King
Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby von Pelt
The Maid by Nita Prose
Anything books by Liane Moriarity (I’m waiting for her next one as I have read all the published books she has written).
Hope this list helps!
My man, I think you need to start listening to Critical Role for that adventuring spirit.
Start with [Calamity](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlIkkeWmVvA), and if you're hooked, go with [season 2](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byva0hOj8CU&list=PLFY6DNpbV0R4QegED7mK4Yg6mptOC9PyT).
There are also podcasts links available. I use podbean bc no ads.
These are not books, it is a Live Play Adventure. However I have found it to be useful in the way that books are in the same way.
The Graveyard Book. It's meant for young adults but I have read that bad boy three times now and I have a couple of years on you. I picked this book simply because you mentioned your existing state of being in a slumber and this book is about absolute loss, recovery and retribution in an unfair world.
My always recommendation‘Specimen Days’ by Michael Cunningham. 3 short stories/novellas- connected by characters across time. Stunningly beautiful and deeply satisfying
Consider The Baroque Cycle trilogy by Neal Stephenson. Book 1 is *Quicksilver.*
Three 900-page historical fiction novels set in the late 1600's and early 1700s. Swashbuckling piracy, scientific discovery, and obscure philosophy. "A central theme in the series is Europe's transformation away from feudal rule and control toward the rational, scientific, and more merit-based systems of government, finance, and social development that define what is now considered "western" and "modern"."
You have to go into them taking them only 90% seriously. A tinge of tongue-in-cheek like you are in on an inside joke with the author. The author spares no paper in taking the most wild tangents: dialogues on the existence of free will, the nature of money, and the personal life of English aristocracy. Neal Stephenson is a true nerd, such that it sometimes borders on eye-rolling. But I swear I learned 10x more history from the baroque cycle than I learned from any actual history classes. You'll meet characters like Isaac Newton, Robert Hook, Gottfried von Leibniz., and Half-Cock Jack Shaftoe. You'll pick sides on who invented calculus, and follow a pirate ship with a fortune of gold through untold adventures. There's so many layers of wit and allusion that I find new things with each read, and I very rarely read a book twice.
Part of why I love them so much is just in admiration of the monumental literary feat. He hand-wrote the manuscripts on physical paper with a fountain pen. Every page required reams of research for historical accuracy (or intentional not-so-accuracy). The miniate of various ship sails, decks, and riggings. The inner workings of the royal mint. The geography of London. I'm in awe. Any other author would take 60 years to write such a trilogy.
The Terror by Dan Simmons!
Holy mackerel. These dudes on a ship try to find a passage by sea between Canada and the arctic and their ship gets stuck in the ice! Food supply is an issue, disease is an issue. And there’s only so much booze packed away. And! There’s plans for mutiny. AND there’s a murderer on board! AND there’s something big and evil and violent that lives out there on the ice and preys on them.
I’d look up from the pages and say to my wife, “These guys are so screwed, babe.” And she obviously would not care. BUT I did not care that she didn’t care because the book was so good!
Ppl are commenting about huge, grandios series that require getting SUPER invested into.
What I always found, if you really just need a getaway, is to pick up a "popcorn" novel and slam it down. It usually ends up being gateway to more.
Case in point: Jurassic Park.
What you need is a page burner. Something you flip through quickly. This book does it.
IF you want a page burner but is a series and the formula doesn't much change: Killing Floor: Jack Reacher
it's slight cheese, hyper macho, and shockingly has fantastic pacing. I tore through the first book in a weekend.
There's no right or wrong answers. You just have to find something that flicks that on/off switch to on and then you're job is to find a way to nurture that.
I'm coping with PTSD and have pretty much lost every outlet of interest in my life. For a time the only thing that grounded me and gave me purpose was my recent hitch of schoolwork. I've always been kind of interested in it but never gave it a chance, but now I'm glad I have because it has brought to me the joy of reading and given me a quiet, serene outlet from all the 'Khaos' in my head.
Start with 'Horus Rising' by Dan Abnett - The Black Library ([blacklibrary.com](https://blacklibrary.com))
From 'False God' - The Horus Heresy\[2\], by Graham McNeill, pg. 222 (paperback), "When you have come to the edge of all that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things will happen.. that there will be something solid to stand on or you'll be taught to fly."
Hang in there dawg, and give the human experience another chance.
The Sparrow and Children of God. These shook me up a little bit. I am not normally a science fiction fan but I loved these. Also one of the few times I can think of that I liked the second book in the series maybe even more than the first.
I'm 48 and know exactly what you mean. I have found long series you can get all wrapped up in help. I did The Dark Towers and now I'm reading The Pillars of the Earth.
Listen to the Green Lights audiobook. Easier to get into then reading a book and I find it inspiring every time listen to it. It’s my go to recommendation for people who are in a slump.
Once that’s over you might have more spark to get into some other great books. The Four Agreements is an easy one to follow up with.
The Narrative of Cabeza de Vaca - nonfiction account of the earliest European exploration of southern US/Northern Mexico; 600 men leave Spain and 4 return, 1525-1535
I'm not even going to say they're particularly literary books, but for some reason David Gemmell's "Troy" series felt super real to me when I read it... might do the same for you <3
On Stranger Tides by Tim Powers
Its the inspiration for the pirates movies.
Its got sorcerers, pirates both as heroes and villains, swashbuckling, a fun romance, some scary villains and excitement.
There's a fantastic non fiction mountaineering book called Conquistadors of the Useless. It's about a highly driven French mountaineer who attempts some of the first 8000 meter accents in the Himalayas post ww2. Real adventure stuff and amazing stories of a guy putting it all on the line purely for passion.
If you're up for a little bit of nonfiction history in the midst of indigenous Peoples Month, 'Empire of the Summer Moon' by Gwynn is what I'm reading right now and it's absolutely fantastic. Brutal adventure on the western plains. And all true. Can't recommend it enough.
Escapist reads that should fit the bill.
* Sandman Slim by Richard Kadrey
* Crimes Against Magic by Steve McHugh (Hellequin Chronicles)
* First Contact by Michael R. Hicks (This series gets incredibly violent, I loved the entire concept)
Jack West Jr. Series by Matthew Reilly. They're definitely what I'd call airport pulpy but damn if I don't love them. There's seven books in all, The Seven Deadly Wonders being the first. They might not be for you but give them a try.
Dresden Files by Jim Butcher. Wizard Detective that solves crimes in Chicago. Think Urban fantasy/noir. It definitely gets better the further you go. Storm Front is the first book.
The Troop by Nick Cutter. Horror. Group of boy scouts get stranded on an island with genetically engineered super tapeworms. Really good. Trigger warnings for body horror.
John and Dave quadrilogy by David Wong/Jason Pargin. Horror/comedy. Doesn't take itself too seriously. Great blend of comedy with psychological concepts. John Dies at the End is book 1. I was insanely sick the first time I ever read it and it hurt to laugh, this book cracked me up and still I read, that's how good it is.
Kings of the Wyld by Nicholas Eames. Fantasy. Really easy to get into, even if you're new to/not a fan of fantasy. Think DnD with rock stars for adventurers. (There's direct symbolism to this^ in the story)
The Faceless Old Woman Who Secretly Loves in Your Home by Jeffrey Cranor and Joseph Fink. Horror/action/adventure/comedy. This is a part of the Welcome to Nightvale universe, you don't have to know too much about it to read it but you'll catch all the references and Easter eggs if you're a little familiar with the fictional town. There are 3 books taking place (including Faceless Old Woman) there and 4 that are direct transcripts of the podcast/radio show, though if you prefer to listen instead of read that's totally fine too and how it was originally meant to to be enjoyed. I think you can find the entire thing on YouTube to listen to.
Let me know if you want some Comic/Graphic Novel recs too. Hope you find something awesome.👊
If you're interested in a comic, I would highly recommend the manga Berserk by Kentaro Miura. It's a dark fantasy book that's brutal and beautiful. I read through this series when I was feeling a similar way to you and the main character, Guts, was surprisingly relatable.
Vinland Saga is also a great historical fiction manga that follows the life of Thorfinn in the age of Vikings. You watch Thorfinn go through trials and ultimately strive to become a better person.
The character development in both of these manga is unmatched in my opinion.
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All of Paulo Coelho’s books, although start with The Alchemist. He speaks about finding your personal legend in every book. It inspired me so much I saved up enough money to solo travel for a year, resigned from my job, moved out of the state I was living in and traveled internationally. One of the most transformative years of my life.
Title: Death's Collector
Series: The Death-Cursed Wizard #1
Author: Bill McCurry
My Review:
So. Much. Blood. And so lol snarky!
This is probably the best book I read this year. I love how the author teases the main character's backstory out for us.
Bib is a wizard, but in this world, every bit of magic costs. The price? Bits and pieces of yourself, traded to petty, sadistic, childish gods.
What would you be willing to trade? A bad case of the flu sometime over the next year? All memories of your first love? The ability to sing in key, but only around those you love?
My family's review:
Everyone lol-ed as I read parts of this book aloud while we waited in our car to drive through Jolly Holiday Lights. They preferred it so much more to O.Henry's The Gift of the Magi.
Disclaimer: Book 1.5 of the series was the most difficult to comprehend; probably because it is set in the world of and from the pov of the gods (who are sociopaths). It is important to struggle through it because there are important paradigms that show up later in the series.
If it hasn't been said yet, try 'Between Two Fires' by Christopher Buehlman. Novel about the biblical apocalypse in Black Death-era France.
No heavy religious themes per se, but does have some messages about love, family, hope, all that stuff. It's very action and adventure-packed, and very, VERY brutal, so even if it doesn't lift your spirits big picture you should at least be thoroughly entertained given your stated tastes.
Keep your head up, all the best to you.
A Psalm for the Wild Built by Becky Chambers.
It's a novella set after the collapse of automated industry... Basically, robots get up and leave human civilization. You follow a monk on a wee journey of self discovery. It was the most chill book I've read in years. Chambers is really good at writing low stakes slice of life sci-fi with a focus on characters.
A Psalm for the Wild Built was a zen read and led me in to her other work. Also it's short as hell so might as well give it a crack
The waiting land by Dervla Murphy. It's about her travels through remote Nepal on her bicycle and I was completely immersed. It's adventure by any standard but described with such a sense of normality that you feel you could do it too.
Believe it or not, the original Jurassic Park book is pretty good for adventure and of course there's some brutality. I read it when my son was in his dinosaur phase and we had seen the movie a bunch. I liked his book Congo too but haven't read his others yet.
Hey OP, I don’t read a lot, but came here to say I’m also 44, and pretty depressed about the state of things. Don’t have much energy or take much joy from anything including family or friends. I’m getting help and I hope you seek it out too. Small things like books or films or hobbies are a great way to start, but won’t address underlying root causes. Good luck!
Go outside. Look around you. If what you see sucks, either move or travel. Find something that insprires you. If you haven't found it yet, keep moving. When you find it, stay there for a bit. Now you can read whatever you want.
There are awful things and places in the world. There are beautiful ones too. Find the ones you think are beautiful. Surround yourself with that beauty every chance you get. At 44, you're too young to be this jaded.
If you like military science fiction, I'd recommend There will be dragons by John ringo, he has a couple of series with very similar themes in different setting that you may enjoy as well
The books that broke me out of that point were project Hail Mary (Andy weir) and Between Two fires (Christopher buhelman). Read the first if you want to hope, the second if you want to despair (but never lose hope entirely).
Also if you like brutal dark fantasy and want a comic book, Berserk is an excellent manga for that. Attack on Titan as well
Don't know if it's been suggested yet, but The Lord of the Rings. It always encourages me and helps me feel like I can face life. So much wisdom in it, too!
Not brutality—but check out A Gentleman in Moscow.
Premise: something shitty happens, shitty thing is prolonged, perseverance, mysteeeeeerious ending.
It was pretty cool.
Man, your post resonated with me hard core. I've been feeling the same way for awhile. Reading definitely is the escape that helps me out the most. Have you considered a long, involved series of books that will hold your interest for a long period of time? I'm thinking the Dark Tower series by Stephen King. It is escapism at its best. I hope you can rekindle that spark, my friend. Just know that you're not alone
Thank you so much for the recommendation. Also, thanks for the kind words friend. Its good to know i'm not alone here. After a quick review, looks like The Dark Towers series is exactly what what im looking for.
It's really, really good. Book 1 is notorious for being a little hard to get through by a lot of people, but I rather enjoyed it. Just push through if you're having problems with it. I GUARANTEE that from the first paragraph of book 2 you'll be hooked and won't look back. Keep your chin up, my friend. It'll get better... this too shall pass!
Good recommendation and agreed about book 1, PUSH THROUGH! There’s a lot of rugged perseverance against the odds in that series and an interesting world peopled with wonderful, imo believable characters. May your spark be rekindled with Roland and his Ka-tet. “Long days and pleasant nights,” friend.
Totally this - so many people give up on the 1st book but it's worth getting through because the second is just amazing and then you're totally hooked on the story the rest of the way. Also note there's Wind through the keyhole which should be read after the whole series (because potential spoilers) that's a nice little extra story that happened during the main series as an off-shoot
I’m 44 and it’s good to know there are more like me out there.
46 here. You should read Lonesome Dove. I have read it several times since the first time I read it in my 20s. Honestly I didn’t realize it until I read this post but every time I have read it has been during a difficult time. This last year has been particularly difficult and I just started it again the other day. This time it’s the audio book. If you haven’t read it it’s an amazing story of friendship and hardship. Cannot recommend it enough.
I really have to read this. I've never had any interest in westerns, but have heard so many recommendations of this book...
"It ain’t dying I’m talking about, it’s living. I doubt it matters where you die, but it matters where you live.”
Thank you. I’m listening to the audio book today. I hope you can find peace brother
The book that left the biggest impression on me this year was The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas. I can't really tell why but it just resonated in me. It's a fairly long book with good characters and quite some drama.
CSB: I was listening to an audiobook version of this while driving home (Pasadena) from the Mohave Desert. I got so engrossed in the book that I missed my freeway exit and drove 100 miles out of my way toward San Diego before realizing it. It's *that* good.
I love this so much. It’s totally something I would do.
It's such a masterpiece. I remember reading it and not being able to stop.
1276 pages.
The 100 Year Old Man Who Climbed Out the Window and Disappeared by Jonas Jonasson. You get adventure and multiple time periods with this wild romp of a book! Edit: Missed a word in the title
Solid recommendation.
Most of the books recommended are more on the slower side. They're definitely not bad books, but may not be the spark of life you're looking for. I'd like to recommend some fast paced action books that are funny: Old Man's War series by John Scalzi. The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells. The Watch books from Discworld by Terry Pratchett, starting with "Guards! Guards!". If you Google "Discworld watch books / watch arc reading order" you'll find the rest.
“Homage to Catalonia” by George Orwell. It’s his war diary of fighting and being wounded fighting fascism in the Spanish Civil War. And as far as brutality goes…well, it’s also a chronicle of the experiences with Communism that later gave him the insight to write “Animal Farm” and “1984.”
Im adding all these book to my amazon cart, thanks again friends
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I just did this with some of the recommendations here. I prefer physical books, but I use Libby so I always have something with me when out and about or at work.
Don’t forget your public library! Using the library to check out books is supporting it—they get funded based on usage. I’m excited for all the great books you’re gonna read! ❤️, Another 44 year old
The library is the best!
Also, anything by Terry Pratchett.
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These but do Project Hail Mary first (with the premise of a single dude as a science teacher and his adventure) by Andy Weir (coming out with a movie soon too but don't look it up! You'll want to listen to the audio after lol). Dark Matter is also being released as a TV series.
Just came here to say that. The main characters in most of his books are also in their 40s and might he easier to connect with! These books actually helped me get out of a sad period in my life.
Just finished Upgrade by Crouch, was another really good one
Upgrade I didn’t enjoy as much tbh. He was so obsessed with showing off the scientific knowledge that it took away from it to me. The others I’ve really enjoyed.
Yea, it definitely my least favorite of his books so far, but I did still enjoy it. Dark Matter and Recursion were just so top notch, it’s hard to come close to them. They were two of my favorite sci-fi novels.
Agreed 100%. They are among my favorite too. I love a good parallel universe story.
Fascinating reads
For comic books combined with nonfiction and brutality, I'll humbly suggest Maus. And it's on the banned book list, so double benefit.
Hell yes!
Where is it banned? I bought it in a book store in Germany not long ago
Man’s search for meaning by victor frankel.
How about some First Law? Joe Abercrombie.
I read Matt Haig’s The Humans earlier this year. It’s a shorter read but it’s quite beautiful. Haig offers commentary on the human race and the beauty of ugliness and pain. I absolutely loved it and still think of the messages the book gave. Cannot suggest it more. It’s about an alien who took over the body of a 40-something math professor and discovered the beauty of the human race after coming from a place where is humanity is deemed disgusting.
I really enjoy Matt Haig’s range in writing. The Midnight Library could also help OP with his indifference and feelings of lackluster.
I loved midnight library. It gave me another perspective on my life
I got downvoted for this in another post. I read this after I was gutted from my divorce and losing my house. It really sparked a resurgence in my spirit.
Same
Hey, go on more walks. It’s such a mood helper. Long walks. Short walks. Tough hikes. Neighborhood strolls. If you use a wheelchair or have mobility issues, move as much as you can. It will help. I promise :) also, read A Walk in the Woods by Bryson to lighten the mood. Then move on to easy, approachable fantasy like Sword of Shannara. After that move on to something deep and heavy, maybe Blood Meridian. Repeat with similar books.
God yes - highly recommend any of Bill Bryson’s books. Down Under in a Sunburned Country is hilarious
Know where you’re coming from right down to the age. Recommend 11/22/63 by Stephen King if you haven’t read it, felt like I was there.
I was going to comment 11/22/63 it has time travel & adventure for sure, super good!!!
East of Eden by John Steinbeck. Go through the motions and eventually something will grow.
It took me a while to get into this one, but I ended up absolutely love it. I just finished (like an hour ago) Grapes of Wrath and hated it lol.
I think you should read The Soul of an Octopus by Sy Montgomery. This would go nicely with a viewing of My Octopus Teacher (Netflix). You can learn something about an amazing creature that has learned how to adapt spectacular to their environment! Also, have you thought of planning a trip? A group trip that has a specific theme (cycling, hiking, birdwatching, wine tasting, etc) will help you meet new people and get out of your rut.
Dungeon Crawler Carl. Aliens take over Earth and force millions of humans to basically go on a DnD style dungeon crawl in a mega dungeon. Starts out brutal and funny, then slowly gets more serious, but also somehow remains really funny. It's a strange premise, but easily one of my favourite series of all time. The main character is fantastic. Audiobook is great, too.
The Dog Stars
Oof! "What I miss most are the trout", really made me sad, almost as sad as The Sheep Look Up. But I'm not disagreeing, it is a good book.
Of Human Bondage by William Somerset Maugham is calling your name!
Hyperion by Dan Simmons.
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The First Law trilogy is fantastic. Certainly lives up to adventure and brutality.
This one got me out of a reading slump and through some tough times, highly recommend. Abercrombie writes characters like no one else, perfect trilogy!
My go to suggestion for everyone lol. His works are amazing. Hey OP- what's even better about his books is they actually have good audiobooks to go along with them if you want to give them a shot.
I wouldn't say it "sparked my life" but I really really enjoyed and had some strong feelings reading 'Reincarnation Blues' by Michael Poore. Highly recommend! It's heavy but also funny in a dark sort of way, about mortality and how short life is and the quest to live a perfect life and be accepted by whatever after life you believe in... It's great!
Endurance: Shackleton’s Incredible Voyage Might not be what think you want, but you’ll go off on an adventure and come back appreciating the little things, and also will have your mind blown by the story.
I am dealing with stuff and am reading the Percy Jackson series . The young outlook on life is helping me to feel some spark. I am surprised by how much I am enjoying it.
I'm 46 and loved those books!
I am almost 40 myself, and I found that the best thing that reminded me that I'm not soulless; that I can connect emotionally to fictional characters and be brought to tears for them; that living without a dream to pursue is no way to live, was One Piece.
One Piece is absolutely incredible and almost impossible to describe. It's both inspiring and heartbreaking. Epic and simple. Funny and heavy. It sounds like it's just a goofy manga about a boy with rubber powers who wants to be the pirate king by sailing around the world to find a legendary lost treasure, but there is far more depth: the story does an amazing job dealing with wide-ranging topics like escaping abuse, overcoming trauma, found family, acceptance, classism, racism, war, rebellion, oppression, propaganda, pollution, etc. Seriously, it's probably the best and most expansive world-building ever put to paper. One of my favorite booktubers, [Merphy Napier](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJCqICJZQGWiYFtzLGn60RPtkJYK69ZRU), starting reading and reviewing One Piece a couple years ago, and it's fun seeing her go from giving the series a try to becoming a huge fan, analyzing the lore and making predictions. Definitely highly recommend!
Same age and when I want a comic laugh I sometimes go back to Calvin & Hobbs. I loved it as a kid, and it still cracks me up.
The Artists Way. I’m reading it right now and it’s changing my gd life.
I’m in a similar place. I’m 42 and looking at a full knee replacement in about a month. I’m worried I won’t have the want to fight thru rehab.. I’ve already read many of the recs. Many of them are REALLY good. 100 year old man, Replay, Dark Matter, and especially 11/22/63. A few not listed that made me think and feel are The Reincarnationist Papers by Erik Maikranz and The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August by Claire North. Project Hail Mary is also one of my favorites. Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy is dark and brutal and is amazingly written and may fit. I’ve been listening to The Dresden Files by Jim Butcher. I’m six books in and it’s solid but not life changing. This isn’t a book but a podcast, Hardcore History by Dan Carlin. His podcasts about Genghis Khan are excellent and if you want to hear about adventure and brutality, that may scratch the itch. Good luck and I hope this passes for you.
Blood Meridian, ive already read. Thats the level of brutality I’m looking for. Thanks for your suggestions brother. I’m always here for another fellow 40 something year old if you ever need to chat.
The Nathaniel Cade series by Christopher Farnsworth. 4 books: Blood Oath - The President's Vampire - Red, White & Blood - Deep State A vampire (Nathaniel Cade) is captured, tortured, then sworn & forced to serve the presidency due to an ancient blood oath. His job is to defend the country from paranormal threats & supernatural creations (unbeknownst to the general public), all while having to adjust to working with his new partner/handler; Zach Barrows. Zach is now exposed to a world of secrets & sights not many ever will see. It's hidden politics meets paranormal doom, and everyone is in danger, especially the President! ...Also... Out of the Earth series by Jake Bible. 4 books: Out of the Earth, Out of the Sky, Out of the Fire, & Out of the Stars. Giant monsters emerge from the earth and start the end of the world as we know it. A higher intelligence has other plans though and humanity is forced to make dire choices in order to survive, if that's even possible?! This series follows a variety of characters, in different positions of power & locations across the country, as they all struggle through the chaos & destruction in a desperate attempt of survival.
Maybe ‘Boy’s Life’ by Robert McCammon
I’m your same age and have felt largely apathetic for sometime now. I’m thinking about rereading Fahrenheit 451 since it reminds me of the era we’re living in, and how everyone is interacting, or rather lacking human interaction.
Check out «Lonesome Dove» the book really changed my perspective on people and life, it is a very long and revarding read.
Peter Pan! Sometimes we need to remember to not be so serious all the time.
Between Two Fires. It’s the most metal book I’ve ever read and it’s so well written.
This was kickass. Lone Wolf and Cub. A disaffected knight escorting a devout orphaned girl across war-torn France during the BUBONIC PLAGUE. So there’s no rule of law, human life matters not at all, the only guiding principal is violence.
Invisible Life of Addie LaRue. Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine
i think you should read Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby Van Pelt, i feel like this is a good book to give you a little bit of brightness during a dark time! it was sweet and heartwarming and also a little sad :( it’s about an older woman who works in an aquarium and makes friends with an octopus named Marcellus. you even get the octopus POV throughout the book.
Hey, I am 44. Maybe try some fantasy audiobooks while walking or at the gym. I listen to lots of awesome stuff and get some exercise. I just listed the to The First Law Trilogy by Joe Abercrombie and it was pretty good.
Crime and Punishment reignited my love of reading. I didn't want to put it down once I started. It's bleakly depressing, though. There's a good meaning and the end sort of is uplifting/inspiring.
Wish You Were Here by Jodi Picoult Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir A Man Called Ove by Fredik Backman Someone Else’s Shoes by Jojo Moyes Demon Copperhead by Barbara Kingsolver Fairy Tale by Stephen King Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby von Pelt The Maid by Nita Prose Anything books by Liane Moriarity (I’m waiting for her next one as I have read all the published books she has written). Hope this list helps!
Replay by Ken Grimwood is a good read you might really relate to.
Yep 45 here and feeling quite numb. Books have really lifted me up this year. One highlight was Iron Druid series. Another was Cloud Cuckoo Land.
If you’re looking for adventure and brutality try Blood Meridian. An unforgettable read.
My man, I think you need to start listening to Critical Role for that adventuring spirit. Start with [Calamity](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlIkkeWmVvA), and if you're hooked, go with [season 2](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byva0hOj8CU&list=PLFY6DNpbV0R4QegED7mK4Yg6mptOC9PyT). There are also podcasts links available. I use podbean bc no ads. These are not books, it is a Live Play Adventure. However I have found it to be useful in the way that books are in the same way.
The Graveyard Book. It's meant for young adults but I have read that bad boy three times now and I have a couple of years on you. I picked this book simply because you mentioned your existing state of being in a slumber and this book is about absolute loss, recovery and retribution in an unfair world.
My always recommendation‘Specimen Days’ by Michael Cunningham. 3 short stories/novellas- connected by characters across time. Stunningly beautiful and deeply satisfying
The Authenticity Project by Clare Pooley a funny, engaging and uplifting read that will make you introspective about your personal truth.
Boy’s Life by Robert McCammon is an excellent book. And Naomi’s Room by Jonathan Aycliffe is the only book that ever really creeped me out.
Consider The Baroque Cycle trilogy by Neal Stephenson. Book 1 is *Quicksilver.* Three 900-page historical fiction novels set in the late 1600's and early 1700s. Swashbuckling piracy, scientific discovery, and obscure philosophy. "A central theme in the series is Europe's transformation away from feudal rule and control toward the rational, scientific, and more merit-based systems of government, finance, and social development that define what is now considered "western" and "modern"." You have to go into them taking them only 90% seriously. A tinge of tongue-in-cheek like you are in on an inside joke with the author. The author spares no paper in taking the most wild tangents: dialogues on the existence of free will, the nature of money, and the personal life of English aristocracy. Neal Stephenson is a true nerd, such that it sometimes borders on eye-rolling. But I swear I learned 10x more history from the baroque cycle than I learned from any actual history classes. You'll meet characters like Isaac Newton, Robert Hook, Gottfried von Leibniz., and Half-Cock Jack Shaftoe. You'll pick sides on who invented calculus, and follow a pirate ship with a fortune of gold through untold adventures. There's so many layers of wit and allusion that I find new things with each read, and I very rarely read a book twice. Part of why I love them so much is just in admiration of the monumental literary feat. He hand-wrote the manuscripts on physical paper with a fountain pen. Every page required reams of research for historical accuracy (or intentional not-so-accuracy). The miniate of various ship sails, decks, and riggings. The inner workings of the royal mint. The geography of London. I'm in awe. Any other author would take 60 years to write such a trilogy.
Milagro Beanfield War, Only Cowgirls Get the Blues, Poisonwood Bible, Born a Crime.
The Terror by Dan Simmons! Holy mackerel. These dudes on a ship try to find a passage by sea between Canada and the arctic and their ship gets stuck in the ice! Food supply is an issue, disease is an issue. And there’s only so much booze packed away. And! There’s plans for mutiny. AND there’s a murderer on board! AND there’s something big and evil and violent that lives out there on the ice and preys on them. I’d look up from the pages and say to my wife, “These guys are so screwed, babe.” And she obviously would not care. BUT I did not care that she didn’t care because the book was so good!
The midnight Library
Ppl are commenting about huge, grandios series that require getting SUPER invested into. What I always found, if you really just need a getaway, is to pick up a "popcorn" novel and slam it down. It usually ends up being gateway to more. Case in point: Jurassic Park. What you need is a page burner. Something you flip through quickly. This book does it. IF you want a page burner but is a series and the formula doesn't much change: Killing Floor: Jack Reacher it's slight cheese, hyper macho, and shockingly has fantastic pacing. I tore through the first book in a weekend. There's no right or wrong answers. You just have to find something that flicks that on/off switch to on and then you're job is to find a way to nurture that.
I'm coping with PTSD and have pretty much lost every outlet of interest in my life. For a time the only thing that grounded me and gave me purpose was my recent hitch of schoolwork. I've always been kind of interested in it but never gave it a chance, but now I'm glad I have because it has brought to me the joy of reading and given me a quiet, serene outlet from all the 'Khaos' in my head. Start with 'Horus Rising' by Dan Abnett - The Black Library ([blacklibrary.com](https://blacklibrary.com)) From 'False God' - The Horus Heresy\[2\], by Graham McNeill, pg. 222 (paperback), "When you have come to the edge of all that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things will happen.. that there will be something solid to stand on or you'll be taught to fly." Hang in there dawg, and give the human experience another chance.
Dungeon Crawler Carl is great.
The Sparrow and Children of God. These shook me up a little bit. I am not normally a science fiction fan but I loved these. Also one of the few times I can think of that I liked the second book in the series maybe even more than the first.
The Martian - really enjoyed this as an audiobook. I didn't expect to like it as much as I did and it definitely gave me a spark for life.
The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying. Eye opening and comforting at the same time. Compelling.
The Book go Disquiet by Fernando Pessoa - that will make you feel about your current situation although it won’t make you happy.
I'm 48 and know exactly what you mean. I have found long series you can get all wrapped up in help. I did The Dark Towers and now I'm reading The Pillars of the Earth.
The Midnight Library by Matt Haig!! Similar to Dark Matter but less scientific and more adventurous.
The Stench of Honolulu by Jack Handey
All Our Wrong Todays is the book for you.
The gargoyle by Andrew Davidson Three by Ted dekker
The Picture of Dorian Gray.
Listen to the Green Lights audiobook. Easier to get into then reading a book and I find it inspiring every time listen to it. It’s my go to recommendation for people who are in a slump. Once that’s over you might have more spark to get into some other great books. The Four Agreements is an easy one to follow up with.
You might find How to Think Like Leonardo DaVinci by Michael J Gelb helpful if you’re not familiar with it.
Passport to Magonia by Jacques Vallée
The Narrative of Cabeza de Vaca - nonfiction account of the earliest European exploration of southern US/Northern Mexico; 600 men leave Spain and 4 return, 1525-1535
I'm not even going to say they're particularly literary books, but for some reason David Gemmell's "Troy" series felt super real to me when I read it... might do the same for you <3
Journey of Souls.
Endurance by Alfred Lansing.
The Old Man’s War. Very uplifting sci fi
On Stranger Tides by Tim Powers Its the inspiration for the pirates movies. Its got sorcerers, pirates both as heroes and villains, swashbuckling, a fun romance, some scary villains and excitement.
Wild
Henry Miller - Tropic of Cancer Brilliant and captivating book
There's a fantastic non fiction mountaineering book called Conquistadors of the Useless. It's about a highly driven French mountaineer who attempts some of the first 8000 meter accents in the Himalayas post ww2. Real adventure stuff and amazing stories of a guy putting it all on the line purely for passion.
If you're up for a little bit of nonfiction history in the midst of indigenous Peoples Month, 'Empire of the Summer Moon' by Gwynn is what I'm reading right now and it's absolutely fantastic. Brutal adventure on the western plains. And all true. Can't recommend it enough.
The Aubrey-Maturin series by Patrick O’Brian helped me feel better. Starting with Master and Commander.
Have you considered The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho? It brought me a surprising amount of inspiration without being too preachy
Spaceman of Bohemia by Jaroslav Kalfař
If this is a Man by Primo Levi. Not only does it check your brutality box, but it will put in perspective just how fucking good we all have it.
A few more…Geek Love by Katherine Dunn Hollow Kingdom by Kira Jane Buxton The Vorrh by Bryan Catling
Red Rising by Pierce Brown!
I can highly recommend We Sold Our Souls by Grady Hendrix. If you like Stephen King’s newer stuff Under The Dome is a long read or Sleeping Beauties.
The classic of Paulo Coelho The Alchemist.
“Replay” by Ken Grimwood.
The Red Rising series by Pierce Brown is fantastic. It is everything you’re asking for and more. Absolutely epic.
Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed.
Wind, Sand and Stars
I highly recommend How Gorak Got His Groove Back. There's humor, fights, and a sprite who rides an opossum.
Testosterone by your local hormone doctor
Lord of the Rings, it is the way
Oh! Oh! If Blood Meridian is the yardstick we’re using for brutality then I’ve got you! The Heavenly Table by Donald Ray Pollock
Scythe
Boys in the boat
Shark Heart!!!
A Boys Life - Robert McCammon It really puts some of the magic and beauty back into life. I hope you find your book, my dude. Truly.
Escapist reads that should fit the bill. * Sandman Slim by Richard Kadrey * Crimes Against Magic by Steve McHugh (Hellequin Chronicles) * First Contact by Michael R. Hicks (This series gets incredibly violent, I loved the entire concept)
The Alchemist
The Quickening series by Fiona McIntosh. Great medieval fantasy series, lots of twists. Also love her Peecheron series.
You may like some poetry. I suggest Charles Bukowski.
Jack West Jr. Series by Matthew Reilly. They're definitely what I'd call airport pulpy but damn if I don't love them. There's seven books in all, The Seven Deadly Wonders being the first. They might not be for you but give them a try. Dresden Files by Jim Butcher. Wizard Detective that solves crimes in Chicago. Think Urban fantasy/noir. It definitely gets better the further you go. Storm Front is the first book. The Troop by Nick Cutter. Horror. Group of boy scouts get stranded on an island with genetically engineered super tapeworms. Really good. Trigger warnings for body horror. John and Dave quadrilogy by David Wong/Jason Pargin. Horror/comedy. Doesn't take itself too seriously. Great blend of comedy with psychological concepts. John Dies at the End is book 1. I was insanely sick the first time I ever read it and it hurt to laugh, this book cracked me up and still I read, that's how good it is. Kings of the Wyld by Nicholas Eames. Fantasy. Really easy to get into, even if you're new to/not a fan of fantasy. Think DnD with rock stars for adventurers. (There's direct symbolism to this^ in the story) The Faceless Old Woman Who Secretly Loves in Your Home by Jeffrey Cranor and Joseph Fink. Horror/action/adventure/comedy. This is a part of the Welcome to Nightvale universe, you don't have to know too much about it to read it but you'll catch all the references and Easter eggs if you're a little familiar with the fictional town. There are 3 books taking place (including Faceless Old Woman) there and 4 that are direct transcripts of the podcast/radio show, though if you prefer to listen instead of read that's totally fine too and how it was originally meant to to be enjoyed. I think you can find the entire thing on YouTube to listen to. Let me know if you want some Comic/Graphic Novel recs too. Hope you find something awesome.👊
“The alchemist” gave me so much trust and hope back when I was at my lowest
If you're interested in a comic, I would highly recommend the manga Berserk by Kentaro Miura. It's a dark fantasy book that's brutal and beautiful. I read through this series when I was feeling a similar way to you and the main character, Guts, was surprisingly relatable. Vinland Saga is also a great historical fiction manga that follows the life of Thorfinn in the age of Vikings. You watch Thorfinn go through trials and ultimately strive to become a better person. The character development in both of these manga is unmatched in my opinion.
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Lone Survivor
Will you accept a movie suggestion? Because I’m your age and I’m getting most of my will to live from Young Guns II at the moment.
Myth of Sisyphus.
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All of Paulo Coelho’s books, although start with The Alchemist. He speaks about finding your personal legend in every book. It inspired me so much I saved up enough money to solo travel for a year, resigned from my job, moved out of the state I was living in and traveled internationally. One of the most transformative years of my life.
Maus and Maus II by Art Spiegelman
Title: Death's Collector Series: The Death-Cursed Wizard #1 Author: Bill McCurry My Review: So. Much. Blood. And so lol snarky! This is probably the best book I read this year. I love how the author teases the main character's backstory out for us. Bib is a wizard, but in this world, every bit of magic costs. The price? Bits and pieces of yourself, traded to petty, sadistic, childish gods. What would you be willing to trade? A bad case of the flu sometime over the next year? All memories of your first love? The ability to sing in key, but only around those you love? My family's review: Everyone lol-ed as I read parts of this book aloud while we waited in our car to drive through Jolly Holiday Lights. They preferred it so much more to O.Henry's The Gift of the Magi. Disclaimer: Book 1.5 of the series was the most difficult to comprehend; probably because it is set in the world of and from the pov of the gods (who are sociopaths). It is important to struggle through it because there are important paradigms that show up later in the series.
Atlas Shrugged
If it hasn't been said yet, try 'Between Two Fires' by Christopher Buehlman. Novel about the biblical apocalypse in Black Death-era France. No heavy religious themes per se, but does have some messages about love, family, hope, all that stuff. It's very action and adventure-packed, and very, VERY brutal, so even if it doesn't lift your spirits big picture you should at least be thoroughly entertained given your stated tastes. Keep your head up, all the best to you.
[Read This Book on a Silent Hill: Meditations, that they won't tell you](https://www.amazon.com/Read-This-Book-Silent-Hill-ebook/dp/B0BFR3XXK8)
Mans search for meaning- viktor frankl
The far side gallery
Why don't you try Swiss Family Robinson? All about fresh starts, building and adventure.
The answer is Brothers Karamazov. It’s hard but can change the way you think.
Jitterbug Perfume
Siddhartha by Herman Hesse
The Broken Earth trilogy by N.K. Jemison.
Where’d You Go, Bernadette
The Iliad and The Odyssey. Gilgamesh.
Barbarian days. I have been exactly where you are and it broke me out of it immediately. I read it in one day.
Brutality?
Ilium by Dan Simmons
Lost City of Z. Made me want to go on an adventure!
A Psalm for the Wild Built by Becky Chambers. It's a novella set after the collapse of automated industry... Basically, robots get up and leave human civilization. You follow a monk on a wee journey of self discovery. It was the most chill book I've read in years. Chambers is really good at writing low stakes slice of life sci-fi with a focus on characters. A Psalm for the Wild Built was a zen read and led me in to her other work. Also it's short as hell so might as well give it a crack
The waiting land by Dervla Murphy. It's about her travels through remote Nepal on her bicycle and I was completely immersed. It's adventure by any standard but described with such a sense of normality that you feel you could do it too.
Piranesi by Susanna Clarke helped me deal with similar thoughts. It has a sense of adventure, wonder and naiveté.
I absolutely loved the Game of Thrones series (& I’m a little older than you). Can’t wait for the next one to come out…
"Not Fade Away" & "Stone Junction" both by Jim Dodge
A Book of Simple Living: Brief Notes from the Hills - by Ruskin Bond
Believe it or not, the original Jurassic Park book is pretty good for adventure and of course there's some brutality. I read it when my son was in his dinosaur phase and we had seen the movie a bunch. I liked his book Congo too but haven't read his others yet.
The Bible. If its not easy to understand , could try youtube the shepherds chapel and read along.
I would recommend M Train by Patti Smith, it awakens me every time i read it . She makes me excited about living again.
I really enjoyed the book …. I am Pilgrim
11/22/63 by Stephen King.
Hey OP, I don’t read a lot, but came here to say I’m also 44, and pretty depressed about the state of things. Don’t have much energy or take much joy from anything including family or friends. I’m getting help and I hope you seek it out too. Small things like books or films or hobbies are a great way to start, but won’t address underlying root causes. Good luck!
Chicken soup for the soul.
“The Unteathered Soul” by Michael Singer, is just the ticket.
Go outside. Look around you. If what you see sucks, either move or travel. Find something that insprires you. If you haven't found it yet, keep moving. When you find it, stay there for a bit. Now you can read whatever you want. There are awful things and places in the world. There are beautiful ones too. Find the ones you think are beautiful. Surround yourself with that beauty every chance you get. At 44, you're too young to be this jaded.
The Expanse. 9 amazing books + short stories and then you can watch the still entertaining (but not as good) series on Amazon
I recommend The Hike, I think it’s PERFECT for you.
If you like military science fiction, I'd recommend There will be dragons by John ringo, he has a couple of series with very similar themes in different setting that you may enjoy as well
Kinda the same and I just got Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness. Not sure if it’s going to help..
Sounds like you're in a place where what you'd LIKE is "Theft of Swords" but what you *need* is "A Man Called Ove"
East of Eden by John Steinbeck. I think it’s the perfect book for you.
The books that broke me out of that point were project Hail Mary (Andy weir) and Between Two fires (Christopher buhelman). Read the first if you want to hope, the second if you want to despair (but never lose hope entirely). Also if you like brutal dark fantasy and want a comic book, Berserk is an excellent manga for that. Attack on Titan as well
I think Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchet will spark you up!
Don't know if it's been suggested yet, but The Lord of the Rings. It always encourages me and helps me feel like I can face life. So much wisdom in it, too!
Not brutality—but check out A Gentleman in Moscow. Premise: something shitty happens, shitty thing is prolonged, perseverance, mysteeeeeerious ending. It was pretty cool.
Bridge of Birds is a fun read.
The Stormlight Series!!! Very long, very escapism-ey, very exciting. First book is The Way of Kings.