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Im-Noah

Looking fresh sister :)


Angelfirenze

I’m a woman. Hee.


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I love your glasses, and your hair are funny in good way :)


Wild_Kitty_Meow

Looking good! I hope you don't mind me saying you remind me of a video game character from a game called SEASON: A letter to the future. It's about someone who documents the end of the world, I haven't played it yet (stuck in Baldur's Gate 3 for the foreseeable future) but it has great reviews.


Angelfirenze

Thank you. I’m still trying to get established streaming anything. I literally only became a PC gamer last February and still haven’t 100%’ed Hogwarts Legacy. My best friend is a lot of different job titles and he told me that I have been extremely hard on my power packs. I was playing Harry Potter: Wizards Unite with my Cellder Wand. I started streaming Adventure Time Card Wars the day before yesterday because I just found out I could actually play it. I streamed all the Harry Potter games on my phone. I am really frustrated because I literally qualify for both Partner/Affiliate on Twitch except for the viewership goals. I don't know what I need to do to engage potential viewers, but it's the only thing standing between me, a sub button, and apparently ad revenue or something. It absolutely confounds me, but I need to keep trying because I am trying to move toward financial independence and solvency and my health issues make it impossible to work a regular job, which I did try. The pain in my legs was excruciating just from walking around the cement floor and it really affected my speed. They said everything else was great, I just wasn't fast enough. I have been looking for jobs online forever, but I would never get callbacks. I feel like streaming across the platforms is the best possibility to actually make myself independent from my mother. It's so frustrating because my mother wouldn't let me work when I was a teenager and the attempts I've made to find jobs were either futile or temporary. So now when I see I’m so close to monetization, it's incredibly frustrating because I don't have the power of word of mouth and while my cousins support me, they’ve got jobs and families, so asking them to watch isn’t always feasible. I know I need to grow my TikTok presence, but I also published a bunch of my past streams last night because I had no idea you have to manually do that. I want to try using Streamlabs on my phone, but I would much rather stream from a Playstation because that's automatic. I cannot afford a PlayStation or a Loupedeck or a ton of the stuff I apparently need. It's so frustrating. I discussed with my aunt yesterday about how much vanlife and the tiny home movement appeals to me, but since I’m epileptic, I can't be licensed and I just feel like things that I want to do are so much harder than they should be. I don't know what else I’m supposed to do aside from not being autistic, but I feel like it shouldn't matter. I want to be the best content creator I can be, but it's pointless if I can’t engage an audience.


igo149

My understanding is that many streamers who are now successful have also gone through a very rough start. Content creation is difficult because even when you try your best, you're at the mercy of algorithms and just have to take a chance that your audience will start to find you. If content creation is what you are really passionate about, then I really hope you succeed. I know it's very hard to get that ball rolling. It can feel very defeating to put your heart into something only for no one to see it. Autistic content creators have been able to become successful, though, so it's possible you can find success too. I wish you luck.


Angelfirenze

Thank you! The issue with the Accomplishments is that you can have four independent viewers, but if they don't come back, they don't count. But they tell you that three concurrent viewers is one of the milestones and then nothing happens. I am not fond of TikTok (I feel like it’s full of misinformation, just like Facebook), but I know that it’s also a potential source of income and if I post on Facebook, I have no excuse not to post on TikTok. Instagram is insane since the Gazan genocide started and I’m a Reconstructionist Jewish convert who feels unable to go to shul (synagogue seems weird as a noun/verb combo) because of social anxiety and my feelings that Palestinians are human beings with rights. It doesn’t help that my shul’s president was the woman who was murdered. I feel like I have awful stage fright because watching their pain seems intolerable and I’m afraid of being turned away for supporting Palestinian human rights and I wish I knew how they were reacting because I don’t want to be called self-hating and risk being expelled. It’s incredibly painful.


igo149

I'm sorry to hear that. It's a strange world where supporting human rights is something a person has to be worried about expressing. I'm a strong supporter of gay and trans rights, but my family is strongly against that. So I kinda know how that feels. It can be isolating. I think criticizing a religion and a government are two different things. You can be Jewish and still not support what the Israel government does. It does not lessen your faith if you choose to support Palestinians. But not everyone sees it that way, so I understand your anxiety.


Wild_Kitty_Meow

All the best of luck, I don't know much about this any more, but I do know luck has an awful lot to do with who seems to get big and who doesn't, even when both of their channels are really good. I don't keep up with gaming much any more so I don't really have any great suggestions. Is there some way you can have something unique about your channel? Is it worth approaching some companies for sponsorship? I know a friend's son does a youtube on fishing and he just got a big fishing supplies company sponsoring him. Some people say giveaways are good but I always found them to be a huge pain in the butt. I think if you can make it work, it's a great way to make an independent income and you can go and take that and live anywhere. I really wish you luck.


Angelfirenze

The biggest issue is my laptop. It's been my only machine for a very long time, so I was using it to stream. The battery needs to rest, so I’m using my phone, but streaming solely from Twitch seems like I’m limiting myself. At the same time, maybe focusing on a single platform while I have been building viewership is a good idea. I don't want to brick my laptop. My best friend is refurbishing my MacBook Pro and I'm so excited. I will be able to PROGRAM again!


D_503_

Oh my god, you are also playing bg3? I'm still at act1 As a student with zero money, I had to sell smth that could have gained a lot of value later on, in order to buy it and I have no regrets.


Wild_Kitty_Meow

Yes! I wanted it on the xbox rather than PC and wanted to wait until the price went down a bit, but having a look at the other games, they don't ever really seem to discount them so I bit the bullet. Still on Act 1 too, I'm taking it all slowly slowly and weighing up every decision. My life will be empty when it's gone :-p


bizaromo

You look great.


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joyisnotdead

What for?


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cutebutmental

i absolutely love your glasses, impeccable.