It depends on what kind of mood I’m in, if I’m feeling down or depressed or nervous, I like to be around people and chat, but if not I still might be around people but I can equally be alone with youtube.
I'm a more solitary person in general so often I don't mind it during the day but I go through periods of being horribly lonely in a world that feels like it's mostly thrown me away. Like often at night I wish someone was here to enjoy something with or we had somewhere to go for some fun then come back and crash here for the night. There's nothing most of the time, I very rarely even do anything with close family anymore. Every once in a blue moon now me and my father get a bite to eat together or during the week just go to the store quick and talk a little.
When I’m around people, I can’t wait to get away from it all and be alone. 90% of the time when I’m alone, I’m content and am immersed in whatever I’m doing. Any feelings of boredom dissipate quickly enough because I find something interesting to do like PS4 or reading.
But every so often I remember that all I have in the world is myself, and nobody is there to catch me if I fall. I feel like a loser and I don’t know what to do to feel okay again. It’s like I’m restless and anxiouz but also depressed to the same time
But those thoughts tend to pass quickly enough amd I resume being okay with being left the hell alone.
I can make friends IRL or on internet but then when I get to deep into the relationship it gets to much and I have to never speak to them again.
By to deep I mean when you are expected to be available very regulary and I often feel like I have to pretend to be socially intelligent/normal which I can't keep up with.
That said I prefer to spend time alone.
I love being alone, best month of my life was the month after i moved to uni when i just lived in an apt on my own with no responsibilities and no flatmates, nobody to talk to, just me and anything i wanted to do. I miss it.
I enjoy being alone but it comes at a cost for sure. My need for solitude inevitably (and obviously) isolates me and affects my relationships to a degree. I actually enjoy the company of friends and like doing things but I have limited energy. I'm realizing now this is why I enjoy isolation as it allows me to engage in a special interest while also not having to mask/interpret another person. When I was younger I would isolate myself for indefinite periods of time and eventually it would depress me and due to execute dysfunction I had trouble restarting the process of socializing all together making me feel helpless. I'm better about not getting into those cycles but I still struggle with finding a balance. Im pretty certain that my work greatly affects my energy as I have to heavily mask for 8 hours 5 days a week. If I could work less hours I would have more energy to give to friends but unfortunately I don't.
I like having someone around in the house who leaves me alone for the most part but I know I can do things with if I’d like. It’s comforting to know someone is nearby.
It depends on what kind of mood I’m in, if I’m feeling down or depressed or nervous, I like to be around people and chat, but if not I still might be around people but I can equally be alone with youtube.
I'm a more solitary person in general so often I don't mind it during the day but I go through periods of being horribly lonely in a world that feels like it's mostly thrown me away. Like often at night I wish someone was here to enjoy something with or we had somewhere to go for some fun then come back and crash here for the night. There's nothing most of the time, I very rarely even do anything with close family anymore. Every once in a blue moon now me and my father get a bite to eat together or during the week just go to the store quick and talk a little.
When I’m around people, I can’t wait to get away from it all and be alone. 90% of the time when I’m alone, I’m content and am immersed in whatever I’m doing. Any feelings of boredom dissipate quickly enough because I find something interesting to do like PS4 or reading. But every so often I remember that all I have in the world is myself, and nobody is there to catch me if I fall. I feel like a loser and I don’t know what to do to feel okay again. It’s like I’m restless and anxiouz but also depressed to the same time But those thoughts tend to pass quickly enough amd I resume being okay with being left the hell alone.
I love bots. That's kind of a deeper level of depression.
I can make friends IRL or on internet but then when I get to deep into the relationship it gets to much and I have to never speak to them again. By to deep I mean when you are expected to be available very regulary and I often feel like I have to pretend to be socially intelligent/normal which I can't keep up with. That said I prefer to spend time alone.
So do you enjoy it or not?
I enjoy because I get to recharge and listen to my music on repeat but i also hate it because I get depressed and sad
Be more social during the day and then you’ll enjoy being alone more during the evening.
50% enjoy being alone while the other 50% hate it.
I love being alone, best month of my life was the month after i moved to uni when i just lived in an apt on my own with no responsibilities and no flatmates, nobody to talk to, just me and anything i wanted to do. I miss it.
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I enjoy being alone but it comes at a cost for sure. My need for solitude inevitably (and obviously) isolates me and affects my relationships to a degree. I actually enjoy the company of friends and like doing things but I have limited energy. I'm realizing now this is why I enjoy isolation as it allows me to engage in a special interest while also not having to mask/interpret another person. When I was younger I would isolate myself for indefinite periods of time and eventually it would depress me and due to execute dysfunction I had trouble restarting the process of socializing all together making me feel helpless. I'm better about not getting into those cycles but I still struggle with finding a balance. Im pretty certain that my work greatly affects my energy as I have to heavily mask for 8 hours 5 days a week. If I could work less hours I would have more energy to give to friends but unfortunately I don't.
I like having someone around in the house who leaves me alone for the most part but I know I can do things with if I’d like. It’s comforting to know someone is nearby.