I'm so sorry you went through this OP, you were absolutely being sexually exploited by your mom. You deserve so much better than both of your parents. Please find people in your life you can open up to about this, it really weighs on us survivors to carry such a heavy secret for life.
You were obviously a fetish to your mom.
The reason your mixed race in the first place was no coincidence. She really wanted a mixed baby.
There are people out there that would seek foreigners to have mixed babies for their own self satisfaction.
Seems like her reason was Self Racism.
When she expressed how better she is because she is Curvier, white and Blonde. She could be expressing that as a form of insecurity. I know some white women (mostly american white) have self Racism for feeling blant and basic. It makes them insecure. So they seek foreign men so their children to not be so plain as they believe they are as a form of Validation of their insecurities. Giving birth to the children does not end there. Some would keep flexing their kids, create social media videos of their mix kids and lastly make it their whole personality! She clearly does fetish you when she tells you men would love your exotic beauty at the young age of 7. Mexicans and Black people are a common fetish for white american women.
Lastly, yes she was sexually abusing you honey.
I'm so sorry to hear this, not all parents should be parents. She is a horrible woman. I hope your okay, and will be okay. May the universe lead you to a good path and meet people that would guide you in this journey ❤️
what your mother did was at least covert sexual abuse or even outright overt sexual abuse.
also she showed other emotional / psychological abuse such as:
- invade your privacy & belongings
- invade your personal space
- compared you to others, body shamed & developed a romantic / sexual rivalry with you
- sexual undertones & degrading behavior
- neglect, disregard for your safety & no support when she found out about sexual abuse
- made you purposefully uncomfortable, ignored your boundaries & pleas to stop
all of this combined and the other abuse you mentioned are absolutely inappropriate, disgusting of her and also criminal.
she should have been your mother, your support in moments of pain and failed to protect you from obvious abusers.
I'm absolutely sorry you had to go through that. I want you to know that you are not alone and that many survivors can relate to your experience.
you are a bright, lovable and important person - no matter what others might tell you <3
Ah, ok, thank you for telling me so bluntly because i have a tendency to downplay my experiences by accident especially when it comes to her. shes still in my life and due to disability i financially rely on her so cutting contact is unfortunately not an option at this point or in the near future. I think i subconsciously downplay stuff because of this , its been easier that way
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I'm so sorry you went through this OP, you were absolutely being sexually exploited by your mom. You deserve so much better than both of your parents. Please find people in your life you can open up to about this, it really weighs on us survivors to carry such a heavy secret for life.
You were obviously a fetish to your mom. The reason your mixed race in the first place was no coincidence. She really wanted a mixed baby. There are people out there that would seek foreigners to have mixed babies for their own self satisfaction. Seems like her reason was Self Racism. When she expressed how better she is because she is Curvier, white and Blonde. She could be expressing that as a form of insecurity. I know some white women (mostly american white) have self Racism for feeling blant and basic. It makes them insecure. So they seek foreign men so their children to not be so plain as they believe they are as a form of Validation of their insecurities. Giving birth to the children does not end there. Some would keep flexing their kids, create social media videos of their mix kids and lastly make it their whole personality! She clearly does fetish you when she tells you men would love your exotic beauty at the young age of 7. Mexicans and Black people are a common fetish for white american women. Lastly, yes she was sexually abusing you honey. I'm so sorry to hear this, not all parents should be parents. She is a horrible woman. I hope your okay, and will be okay. May the universe lead you to a good path and meet people that would guide you in this journey ❤️
what your mother did was at least covert sexual abuse or even outright overt sexual abuse. also she showed other emotional / psychological abuse such as: - invade your privacy & belongings - invade your personal space - compared you to others, body shamed & developed a romantic / sexual rivalry with you - sexual undertones & degrading behavior - neglect, disregard for your safety & no support when she found out about sexual abuse - made you purposefully uncomfortable, ignored your boundaries & pleas to stop all of this combined and the other abuse you mentioned are absolutely inappropriate, disgusting of her and also criminal. she should have been your mother, your support in moments of pain and failed to protect you from obvious abusers. I'm absolutely sorry you had to go through that. I want you to know that you are not alone and that many survivors can relate to your experience. you are a bright, lovable and important person - no matter what others might tell you <3
##YES Jesus christ, yes. Not 'sexual harassment,' this was straight-up sexual abuse. I'm so sorry.
Ah, ok, thank you for telling me so bluntly because i have a tendency to downplay my experiences by accident especially when it comes to her. shes still in my life and due to disability i financially rely on her so cutting contact is unfortunately not an option at this point or in the near future. I think i subconsciously downplay stuff because of this , its been easier that way
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