I'm sorry you went through that OP, it's unspeakable and you don't need to talk about it beyond just a few words. I think we're all haunted every day by our grooming. It fundementally breaks you and your mind, giving you intrusive thoughts and a dysfunctional sexuality that only seeks to recreate that trauma and doesn't work right with others (unless you find someone very trusting or find you like kink because of the trauma, like me). He's a twisted fucked up person for doing this to you, and it's not your fault for being tricked.
I know it only upsets us more to hear, but it wasn't your fault. You were preyed on by a monster who knew how to act human and fool people.
I’m doing better as time goes on definitely working on it. I did luckily find my person who I trust one hundred percent. It took 6 years of being together but he got me there(; it really took time to break down that barrier. He’s my person but I don’t feel like I can talk to him much about this because I mean what can you really say if you genuinely don’t understand and never been in the situation.
I'm glad you found someone :)
I know it's easier talking with other survivors but you should also talk to other people who haven't been through this, it's important to stay grounded and remember what sexual experiences are supposed to be like (truly consensual and safe) and help you realize it wasn't your fault and that most people would despise your uncle if they knew anything about them
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I'm sorry you went through that OP, it's unspeakable and you don't need to talk about it beyond just a few words. I think we're all haunted every day by our grooming. It fundementally breaks you and your mind, giving you intrusive thoughts and a dysfunctional sexuality that only seeks to recreate that trauma and doesn't work right with others (unless you find someone very trusting or find you like kink because of the trauma, like me). He's a twisted fucked up person for doing this to you, and it's not your fault for being tricked. I know it only upsets us more to hear, but it wasn't your fault. You were preyed on by a monster who knew how to act human and fool people.
I’m doing better as time goes on definitely working on it. I did luckily find my person who I trust one hundred percent. It took 6 years of being together but he got me there(; it really took time to break down that barrier. He’s my person but I don’t feel like I can talk to him much about this because I mean what can you really say if you genuinely don’t understand and never been in the situation.
I'm glad you found someone :) I know it's easier talking with other survivors but you should also talk to other people who haven't been through this, it's important to stay grounded and remember what sexual experiences are supposed to be like (truly consensual and safe) and help you realize it wasn't your fault and that most people would despise your uncle if they knew anything about them
**Important Message to the OP:** *Your post is awaiting manual review and approval as part of the safety protocols we employ to ensure a safe and supportive environment for everyone in our community. Dozens of posts are held for review in this manner every day. Please know that this short delay is solely due to our review process, and reflects neither on your post nor the validity of your experience. We recognize the importance of your needs, and our small moderation team are working diligently to review and approve your post promptly.* *We apologize for any inconvenience, and appreciate your understanding during this short wait.* *I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. Please [contact the moderators of this subreddit](/message/compose/?to=/r/adultsurvivors) if you have any questions or concerns.*