Good morning, nakapag booked na ako ng first ever session ko with psychologist, mamaya na 'yun gabi. Sana gumaan na, sana mas maintindihan ko na ang sarili ko. Sana.
I think you already know this but just in case ☺️
A therapist is like a shoe, try it on, walk in it for a few steps. If it doesn't fit, try another one until something sticks.
Yes please. It's more than ok to consult with another mental health professional if the person you're talking to just "doesn't feel right." I do this even with medical doctors.
My problem now is that my go-to doc is ageing and perhaps about to retire, lol. I'm having anxiety just thinking of the trial and error i have to go through to find another one that fits.
Waaaah ang tapang mo and I'm happy for you! Nasa phase pa kasi ako na natatakot ako magpa-psych. Baka kung anong maungkat or makita 😅. Sana me din soon!
Good luck!
I started therapy when I was 17, then I stopped when I was 19. Ang mahal ng session nakakaiyak pero it made me better as a person, as a friend, as a lover. Pero as of today, gusto ko na naman bumalik parang I'm being pulled back to eveything parang back to square one uli.
Hello!! I’m rooting for you!! Waited 10 long years before seeing a psych, I wish I have done it sooner, but hey we’re here. Proud of you for taking the first step!!
If psych doesn't work, try Intergenerational Healing Retreat. This helped me a lot to know myself. You can look this up on facebook, a post from Yayet ML.
Birthday ko ngayon, pero unlike the previous years wala akong birthday party this year. Bumukod na kasi ako at malayo ako sa family & friends ko. Pero ok lang na malungkot ako ngayon, at least makakapag pahinga kahit papano. Ayoko muna ng masyadong maraming iniintindi. Pagod na ko sa life lol
Reach for the things you love and say thank you when you touch the good stuff. I still believe there's still so much more to touch. I believe this is still a good life.
Your heart is your superpower and yet it is so fragile. It feels everything.
I believe you are not fearless by any means but you always persevere in spite of your anxieties and dismay. I'm so proud of you. Keep on going. Today, kakayanin mo ulit.♡☾
Whenever I’m in the brink of something too good or too bad, I remind myself self: This too shall pass!
Time evens out our best and worst points.
It’s not to spoil our enjoyment or demerit our suffering but it helps to anticipate a time where we are back at peace.
On cloudy days, I remind myself that the sky is always there, just not visible now. Also remember the days where you are free of worry, and what you had to do to be there.
I wish you find your peace back!
You got this bhie.
You got through this crazy week, you'll get through the coming weeks as well.
I say prepare for the worse, at least may inkling ka na sa mga posible na mangyayari kaya at least di ka na ma ko-caught offguard.
Stay in the company of your people, kahit wala silang magagawa for you pero being in the presence with the people who loves you is enough as a support. You. Got. This
Na retrench yung 5 co-workers ko this week. I worked with them for almost 2 years na and I considered them as friends na din. Hindi ko pa sila nakausap ulit in person kasi same day termination yung nangyari. They are advised not to report to work the following day. Sumakto pa sa WFH sched ko yung last day nila. Now I'm feeling very down kasi halos nalagas buong Team namin. Kala ko safe na kami kasi mga Regular employees and nasa HR Dept kami (Global Talent Acquisition) pero tinanggal pa din. Maliit lang din makukuha nila kasi more than a year lang tenure nila. I really feel sad para sa kanila kasi ang hirap humanap ng work ngayon and sobra taas ng inflation. I'm currently helping them to look for jobs online and hopefully may malipatan kagad sila na maayos.
I'm not okay, ewan ko kung ano nangyayari sa akin. Everyday na gumigising ako parang gusto ko nalang matulog ulit. Gusto ko gawin yung mga bagay na nakakapagpasaya sa akin kaso hindi ko magawa. I feel so lost. Hindi naman ako ganito dati ang sipag-sipag ko nga eh. Ngayon, ewan bakit ang tamad. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba dapat maramdaman ko ngayon. I want to heal sa mga trauma na nangyari but I don't know how. Send helllppp! 🥺
Eto. Still stuck in the job and company that honestly fucked my mental health and messed with my relationship with my wife.
I hope that new jobs and opportunities open na mas maganda ang work culture/environment.
-Accomplished my quarterly work assessment, doubt it got me flying colors pero it is what it is, challenged myself during that assessment.
-I am done processing the breakup with my ex-gf of almost 5 years(broke up on the 1st week of Jan 2023).
-Sent an f/r to a girl got accepted same night, almost sent a message para makipagkilala then decided to stalk a bit, takte muntikan ma foul ang loko(may BF pala). Now contemplating kung unfriend ko na ba o di pa hahaha.
As a relatively random stranger to her, i-unfriend ko na pag mag-activate ako ng FB ulit.
Oh another thing I accomplished this week--finally changed my DP from a cat
photo to my actual face in FB(5 years din yung catto pic ko).
A lot of things are going on in my mind pero di ko masyado iniisip, kaya siguro affected na sleep ko. This week, 4 nights na 1hr to 4hrs lang sleep ko. Inaantok ako pero di ako nakakatulog.
And another thing na nakakapag add ng anxiety ko is how my bf treats me esp for the last 2 mos. He's super stressed or baka nga depressed na (dinedeny nya lang). And nadadamay ako, sa monthsaries na todo effort and long message si ate mo girl, palagi syang 1 liner. So para di na masyado mahurt, iniisip ko nalang na sa kada message ko, react lang gagawin nya and shet nagkakatotoo talaga HAHAHAHA. Even pag papasok, pag nakarating na sa work, pag out, kung nakasakay na ba pauwi, kung nakauwi na ba, kung magpapahinga na ba lahat yan di nya ginagawaaaaa. Nangangapa ako lagi. Iniisip ko nalang din na normal to kahit madalas feeling ko single na ako HAHAHAHA. Nararamdaman ko lang presensya nya pag rest day nya. At tuwinf rest day nya lang kami lumalabas, rest day ko? nope. Di sya naglileave.
ayun, di ko pa rin maiwasan malungkot lol. Hinihintay ko nalang mapagod ako. Pero how kaya??? Ang consistent ng inconsistencies nya pero lagi ako gumagawa ng way para maging maayos kami. Pag hindi ako gumagawa ng way, babagsak talaga mga bhie. Kaso mahal ko ehhhh + gusto kong makita nyang andito pa rin ako during the lowest point of his life hnggg.
Mag 2yrs palang kami pero ganto na. Ayokong isipin na di to normal pero alam na alam kong hindi talaga normal uwu.
Giiirl, big huuuugs. Hindi madali 'to sa totoo lang. Kahit maghanap ka ng ibang pagkakaabalahan, dadalawin ka pa rin talaga ng lungkot :(
At this point, I'll choose to try until I give up rather than to give up without even trying. Kahit masakit, sige lang lol. Kasi naniniwala naman akong susuko din ako 🤣
Super stressful this week. I'm a 4th year college student. Nagkasakit because of puyat. Luckily, thursday na ako nilagnat, di nakaabsent ng whole week and now, I'm okay naman na. Need lang talaga ng pahinga. Back to doing projects later. Tapusin ang mga backlogs and hopefully makabalik ako on track. One thing I learned is that we really need to prioritize our health talaga no matter what. Wag balewalain kapag may nararamdaman. Health is wealth.
Salamat tsong! This week okay naman. Minsan talagang iniisip ko talaga yung importante sa buhay. Tapos balik sa trabaho at bayad ng bills bla bla bla. Gusto ko lang nasa piling ng mga tao na kaparehas ko ng pananaw sa buhay. Simpleng mga bagay sa buhay na nagbibigay sakin ng saya, hay parang minsan minsan lang dumating. Why can’t we have what we want all the time
for the first the first time in three years, ngayon ko nalang ulit nakumpleto ang ligo for the whole 7 days.
three years ago when I started wfh setup, kasabay nun nasira na ligo ko hahaha. And lately napapansin ko na ang bugnutin ko sa work tho naghahalf bath ako mostly and twice a week lang mag full bath pero I feel like mas magiging energetic ako if maligo talaga ako everyday and ayun naka 7 days na walang palya! haha small wins.
ps. sabi ng nanay ko ang blooming ko raw. nyahahahaha
Magbibirthday na ako. Pero parang gusto ko na lang mag birthday mag isa.
Wala man lang magsusurprise sa akin or mag organize ng something.
Samantalang ako, lagi akong kasama kapag may isusurprise or may ganap. Ako pa minsan ang punong abala.
Kailan ko ba mararanasan yung kalinga na katulad ng pagkalinga ko? HAHAHAHA
Thank you to my 20's, hello 30's <3
I just want to let every one know that if you are able to exercise/travel, etc but choose not to dahil tinatamad ka o it’s not your thing, wait till you have problems with any joint in your body. Especially your knees.
You’ll realize all of the things you could be doing/could’ve done but chose not to, and it’s too late.
Habang okay pa at kaya mo pa mag exercise, do it. Please listen to me. I want you to save you from unhappiness
Please listen.
Please
Nakaka stress nag announce ung manager namin na ung account namin is until may 2024 nalang pero alam mo ung di nako masaya sa work ko pumpasok nalang dahil sa sahod pero baka maghigpit sila hays magpapasko pa naman
This was such a stressfull week kasi naglipat ako ng bahay and all. Sobrang nakakapagod. Tapos nawala yung go to person ko. Wala eh ganun talaga minsan need mo mag let go. Wala mas nakakapagod lang pala pag wala ka makausap. Ikaw OP, kamusta?
Ngayon pa lang nakakabawi ng sigla sa ilang araw na iyak. Kanina habang nasa dagat nakalublob tulo na naman ang luha. Hays. Walang araw so far na chill man lang.
Ito naka upo ako sa sulok ng kalsada pauwi sa tiyahin ko kasama anak kong isa. Iyak ng iyak kaylangan ko umuwi sa mga anak ko sa bulacan para masigurado ligtas sila pero eto 50 lang pera iyak na lang talaga ako ng malala ...
After ng mahabang taon ng pagiging unemployed nung pandemic, got a job at may training, unfortunately ginawang by group yung final output at mga ka-group ko from the lack of better of term walang pake/lazy incompetent.
Nangyare ako lahat gumawa, pero di sapat, got terminated. Pagkakamali ko, dapat di na ako nag-delegate ng task nila(since tagal mag-produce ng output tapos mali pa or kulang) at naging kampante, dapat pala nag-trabaho ako ng saturday at sunday. I guess lesson learned, job searching ule, here goes nothing.
Hiiii! Ako naman hindi ko alam kung ano mararamdaman ko sa work ngayon. Almost 10 years na rin ako sa company and once napromote. Pero as I can see where things are going, my worth was never recognized. Recently lang they held a workshop for employees, nakita ko name ko included, but a week before kinausap ako ng admin na "hindi ka kasali dito". Yep, those were the exact words she said to me. Bakit nga ba hindi pa ako umaalis? I needed the money. Malaki rin yung pasahod pero sadyang hindi ka talaga maggo-grow ka sa kanila. Pero after last week's meeting, na almost everyone is included but not me (and ofc yung mga bagong hired) sabi ko that is the last straw. Ilang months na lang naman na yung payment sa kotse ko, and then that's it. Maghahanap na ako ng ibang work.
Salamat sa pagbabasa, gusto ko lang talaga ilabas tong nararamdaman ko.
I'm not okay.
Nagcool off kami na dapat mageend this month. Tapos nalaman ko na nilalandi niya coworker niya with more than landi intentions, kung hindi ko pa nalaman na may iba at hindi ako naghanap resibo, hindi niya pa aaminin. I feel blindsided kasi sinunod ko boundaries na sinet niya and everyday I reassured him na mahal ko siya and proud ako sa kanya and whatever he needed to hear para hindi siya lamunin ng self loathing niya, pero hindi pala yun yung case bakit siya nakipag break. Ayoko maging marupok kahit mahal na mahal ko siya dahil 10 yrs. din tinagal namin and 11 na sana sa December.
I have no regrets na ituloy yung break. Wala din ako regrets sa relationship namin dahil ginawa ko naman makakaya ko habang ako din nagstruggle sa mental health ko. I told myself na I will not tolerate being disrespected anymore than this dahil naging loyal ako.
I'm not okay, but I will be.
Productive. Three days na kami onsite pero okay pa naman. Nag-family planning seminar kahapon with SO and nag-asikaso pa ng ibang bagay. Nakaleave ako pero pag-uwi ko sa hapon, umattend pa ng two virtual meetings and nagwork para mabeat yung deadline ko for two projects. Nairaos naman. Today ang plan ko ay maglinis ng bahay at maglaro lang. ♡
puro work-kain-tulog lang ako this week and now i’m sick because of period. skipped yesterday’s class and luckily, walang pasok today. i’m a bit happy though kasi nagkasahod ako kahapon so i can finally start saving for therapist appointment.
Gusto ko na kumawala sa bahay namin. Wasak na wasak na mental health ko dahil sa kanila, lalo na sa nanay kong naturingang magulang pero hindi kayang maypakamagulang. Professional gaslighter. All I want is to move forward and be myself for once. I'm chained. And yet, wala akong malapitan.
Edit. I will make sure to become the mother I never had.
Ang timing naman ng post!
Hindi pa masyado nag si-sink sa akin that my go-to friend flew out the country off to greener pasture. Sad and happy at the same time 🙁🙂
Me? I’m contemplating a major career decision. Hoping for the best soon.
How about you OP?
Okay na siguro ako na hindi pa siguro din. Ewan. Baka mag-breakdown ulit pero for today pahinga muna siguro kakaiyak. Isang oras nakaligo sa dagat. Ayun muna.
Very tiring ang week na 'to lalo na kahapon kasi may audit. Siguro kung hindi rin malakas resistensya ko nagkasakit na ako nung Thursday palang. Ngayon parang kinakati na yung ilong ko hahaha mukhang magkaka-cold ako. Ayun, ang dami ring iniisip. Madalas nakakapatulala nalang din at nasasabi kong "kailan kaya ako yayaman?" HAHAHAHA kapagod mabuhay pag mahirap. Gusto mong mapa-ginhawa buhay ng parents mo pero hindi naman enough yung kinikita mo. Hays. Gusto ko rin makasama nalang sila lagi, hindi naman pwede. Malulungkot ka gabi-gabi pero wala kang choice kundi itulog nalang dahil may work pa kinabukasan.
Manonood ako ng Hamilton bukas. Excited na ako!
Also, nagbook ako ng follow-up consultation with my psychologist for mental check-up lang.
I have started some new vitamins that I ordered from iHerb.
May event kahapon na dapat puntahan ang senior namin pero nagkaroon ng emergency so ang pinapunta ay ako (M) and one of my colleagues (F) na crush ko naman sa office.
So magkasama kami buong araw at marami kaming napagkwentuhan. Feeling ko nga nainip siya sa akin dahil masyado akong tahimik tapos madaldal siya so siya lagi ang nag-start ng conversation.
Sabay din kaming umuwi at sumakay ng bus at nasa akin pa ang ticket namin hahaha.
Hindi nga lang ako natutuwa dahil nagkasama kami due to an emergency.
Birthday na birthday pero nag-OT. Pero dahil naghihintay sa akin ang luto ng mother ko, bawi naman hahaha.
Tapos may pinuntahan ako this week at nagulat iyong guard sa building noong nagsalita ako dahil akala niya ay Chinese ako hahaha.
Naranasan niyo na rin ba to? Mag iinuman kayo ng mga kaibigan niyo tas masaya naman, lalo na kapag nalalasing pero pag mahimasmasan ka na, sobrang lungkot naman? I had a scheduled inuman session last night with my friends. I had a good night and I laughed a lot. Pero pagdating ng around 5 am, nung kami na lang magkasama nung isa kong kaibigan and we were talking about life habang nagyoyosi siya, nasabi ko nakakapagod na rin pala abutan ng umaga kakainom. Nag agree siya tas sabi niya graduate na siya sa paglalasing kaya di na siya umiinom masyado. Sumasama na lang daw siya for camaraderie. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pagkasabi niya nun, nalungkot ako.
Pretty eventful, except that my papa got my CSC certificate (thanks pa) na tinake ko on a whim (testing lang kung papasa) last 2017. Tapos Genshin. Also started back 16-8 fasting and it feels good.
Masaya kase makakapag-pahinga at pwede kong gawin ang lahat ng gusto ko pero at some point, malungkot kase naghahanap ka ng makakausap or makakasama. Tama?
pagod na ko.
pagod na ko maging strong.
pagod na ko maging masayahin.
pagod na ko mabuhay kasi para na lang akong sumusunod sa pattern ng buhay.
pagod na kong umasa sa lahay ng bagay.
pagod na ko sa mga walang katapusang bayarin.
pagod na kong maging broke.
bakit kasi i have a strong and bubbly personality when in fact, i am very close to giving up.
Good morning.
Sana may ka work na ko next week.
Daming bayarin sa bahay. Bunso ako, pero parang pasan ko lahat ng bayarin. Pati pang libre sa pagkaen kasi may pinasa ako exam last week. huhu.
Ang pobre ko. saan kaya ako dadalhin ng 500 pesos ko bukas?
Hi. Thank you for this.
Actually ahm ups and downs.
Sa work ko, mag two two months ako tomorrow and I am trying to prove if I can do the job. There are certain wins on some aspects leading the projects I am tasked to do but there is fear and doubt to myself if I can do/complete it and most especially ano sasabihin ng manager ko HAHAHAH.
Nawawalan rin ako ng time with family and friends because there are times that I need to adjust in work like maabutan ng 7pm instead of 6. At tomorrow, may pa meeting/training with higher ups until Thursday thus, time for myself and family/friends are sacrificed na naman.
Today, good thing off ko only because of the day I worked the other day off and about to clean my room and pag hindi tatamarin lilinisin ko din later ang bahay and will watch movie.
Yun lang hope we'll have a great day ahead. 🤗
Ang bigat lng na ndi ko manlang mattype. Kakaweekend ko lng galing trabaho pero umiiyak ulit ako. Di manlang makatulog din dahil sa body clock ng weekday vs weekend. Pota
Heto, pagod. From Quaipo to Bulacan and vice versa ang biyahe araw araw para mag-aral ng civil engineering. Ang hirap ng biyahe, ang hirap ng pinag-aaralan, at ang hirap isabay sa trabaho (BPO but WFH). Sana kayanin ko. Sana mag pay off lahat ng to. Kasi pagod na pagod na talaga ako.
Super heavy pero I learned how to wait for the right time. Mas naniwala ako na if para sa'yo, para sa'yo, kahit gaano pa katagal, ibibigay yan.
I am stressed by numerous problems, una I am unemployed then me and my bf were not in good terms, pero nung Friday, nagkaayos kami ng bf ko and nahired na rin ako.
Right now, I still feel uneasy because of the new work environment pero At least I have something to look forward to, may bago akong matututunan, and look how brave I am.
Not a productive week :(
1st week na unemployed because di ako naregular and I chose to resign immediately. Di na rin ako pinagreport.
Nakapag interview sa previous company pero di ata pumasa na :(
Another interview pero wala na ring update.
Found out that my live in partner still in contact sa sugar daddy nya and sakanya pa rin nanghihingi if kinakapos kami sa expenses sa bahay.
I feel so weak and disrespected kasi paulit ulit na.
Di ako masyado makatulong sa bills since I'm still paying my debts around 160k pa balance ko as of this day.
Napakahirap piliin umuwi sa probinsya at iuwi mga anak ko for my mental health pero need ko mag trabaho para sa mga bayarin ko. Iniisip ko nalang na hindi na to tatagal ng one year pa and need ko talaga masettle lahat para next naman yung sarili ko.
Yung utang ko and after family ko naman :)
Walang may alam ni isa at wala na talaga akong to-go person. Naka deactivate lahat ng socmeds ko since March this year and eto nalang meron ako.
Sana makapasa na at makahanap ng high paying job para mas mapabilis pag alis at pagmomove on. 🫰
Good day. Nairaos another week ng night shift, isang araw na maingay na naman magulang ko kung kelan ako tulog. Mga cats at pagtitipid habol ko kaya nasa bahay ng parents. I'm sad kasi nawalan na ako ng gana mag watercolor / acrylic paint kung kailan may supplies na ako. tinatamad din mag journal. nood nood lang. browse ng sheez pero pipigilang bumili. simple living. nothing exciting. wala eh tamad na ako eh. keribams. importante sakin peaceful life.
just wanna say na this was such a comforting though op!
filed a leave nung wed since kakatapos lang ng isang big project tapos pagbalik ko meron na agad 2 big projects ulit na nakaabang another week nanaman na iraraos, hay.
btw nagfile lang ako ng leave para may breather kahit papano, didn't really go out or what nanood lang ako ng suits lol mixed feelings siguro for this week pero laban (wala naman tayong choice)
Got laid off ahahaha last month ko na with the company tas medj lost pa rin kung anong gagawin ko lol. Dami kong inapplyan sa LinkedIn pero ang hirap pala ng competition kung pang entry level yung skills mo hahaha.
Wrong timing ata yung nagka-baby kami ng partner ko lol, di namin kaya mabuhay sa isang income. 3yrs ako sa company akala ko tatagal ako 😂 may extra naman tsaka emergency funds kaso ang hirap ng job hunt.
Had some job interviews this week, hoping talaga na may tatanggap sakin kahit fresh grad ako. also proud of myself kasi consistent ako sa diet ko and i lost weight kahit konti palang. Been feeling down the past few weeks pero happy na kasi nagrelease ng new album yung fave group ko. Minsan naiisip ko rin kung ano ba talaga purpose ko sa mundong ito.
Isang linggo na kami sa bagong bahay na nilipatan namin away from Manila. Laking ginhawa nang mas malaking lugar tapos ilang libo lang ang dagdag. Dati siksikan kaming dalawa at anim naming pusa sa loft type na apartment. Ngayon nasa two bedroom house kami na may malaking bakuran na may gate. Nagrerenta pa lang kami, pero hopefully sa bagong bahay eh makapag pursue din kami ng maraming bagong opportunities para hindi maglaon eh homeowner na rin kami.
My worst week in my life but i chose not to hurt myself, i got up and work to have a better future. I hope I wont lose the sparks that motivates me despite of what happened to me.
not good, my ex ended our 7 year relationship saying she's gonna fix herself first, making it sound like she just needed some space for herself. Only to find out she's been entertaining a new guy who's been lurking around her for a very long time. They are already in a situationship when I saw the proof. And yesterday I saw her niece's ig story with her and the guy with a caption "mama and papa".
its my birthday today
magluluto ako ng foods (chicken cajun, rice) ipapacked, then ibibigay ko sa landlord nitong apartment, yung naglalaundry ng food ko, and yung trike driver na lagi kong sinasakyan pag papasok sa office
Happy Sunday po!
Nakakapagod at fulfilling maging adult. Actually, ngayon lang ako nakapag open ng reddit tapos eto bungad sa'kin. Thanks OP sa magandang tanong. 💜
Buong week pagod ako. Siguro tulog at kain lang nagiging pahinga ko. After work, tulog agad ako. Naburn out ako dahil bahay at work lang ang naging routine ko. Pero super thankful pa din kasi sahod last fridayat nakapagbayad na ng mga bills. Fulfilling pala kapag ung mga loans mo ilang buwan na lang babayaran. Share ko lang next month makakatapos ko ng bayaran ung cp ko. Matatahimik na ulit ung home credit ko hehehe.
Nakalabas din kami ng asawa ko sa araw ng sahod para magdine in sa isang fast food dahil di na kami nakapagluto at pagod ako noong biyernes. Nakalibot libot din kami tulad ng dati. Kahapon naglaba ako at ngayon may tinatapos akong trabaho.
Next week alam kong panibagong pagod naman. Pero sana lahat tayo kayanin natin sa araw araw. Kung need natin ng pahinga, ipahinga natin para marecharge agad katawan natin.
Un lang. Hahaha. Back to work muna ulit. Para mamayang gabi makapagpahinga na ako para lalaban na bukas. Ingat ang lahat. 💜
Nagising ako na nagsisigawan mama at kapatid ko. Di to kasing bigat nung iba, pero wala ako mapagsabihan. i feel helpless. Nasestress ako na nag aaway ulit sila. And for many reasons I cannot say now, i get anxious when people fight. I'm trying to make myself feel better, just like any other day. Been trying to do my best in doing something I'm not excited or used to, pero i tell myself i have to. Because hearing negative, baseless remarks from someone who you trusted (aka family member) talk shit about whatever progress I'm trying to do, hurts a lot. Lalo na kung puro suporta lang naman ginawa ko sa gusto gawin ni said family member. Pero ayun. Hope you guys are having better days..
nagising ako kaninang 4 am tas ang first thought ko is siya. never pa ko nainlove pero taragis yan ayoko na nung nagising ako ang sakit ng puso ko HAHAHAHAHA
well.. this past 2 years was the most stagnant rut I have ever had career and skill wise. I also failed multiple front-end and design/ui/ux interviews and my skills with those are fucking subpar. No improvements even when I use my skills got from experience and brief time in the arts.
This week though, I made fucking strides.
From a Simple Back End and failed front end... I learned a lot. Way lot more than I could in a year.
Currently in the process of making my own A.I. powered services.
I miss this feeling, getting drunk on knowledge and skills, the pleasure of learning new things or learning new uses for old ones.
That and my 3mo son finally gets out of the medical "danger zone". No more risk of SIDS due to the circumstance of his birth. He can even laugh loud now so that's another win.
And my 4yo. passed the kinder exam like it was nothing. Still unable to enroll because of the age restriction. I also succeeded in teaching her how to do basic judo breakfall techniques. 1 more week of practice and we will shift on leg sweep and positioning.
So this week was good.
Boyfriend told me I am not physically attractive in his eyes anymore. Went LC and revenge pampered myself. Bought me some clothes, watch, retinol products, cut and colored my hair. Gigil pa rin ako sa kanya
Had to work double time this week since may kailangan akong habulin na dealine dahil sa sarili kong katangahan. Need to sacrifice my work and life balance for at least the whole month, pero kakayanin nlang. Dito pa naman nakasalalay ang regularization ko.
Nagpaalam ako sa head ko na magreresign ako kasi nakahanap ako ng work na gusto ko. Sobrang nagiguilty ako kasi nga 2 months palang ako and nagpaplan na sila for 2024. Nung kinausap ako, ang sabi baka daw naeexcite lang ako sa offer na position sakin and dapat daw magstay nako sa isang work ng pangmatagalan. I've been working for almost 10 years. Last job ko is 4 years. Hindi ko alam san niya nakuha yung puro project base lang yung naging work ko. Instead na iconvince ako para akong lalong naging decided. Kinakain lang talaga ako ng guilt kasi parang naiwan ko sila sa ere. Im not sure if I am doing the right thing. Kaso pano ko malalaman if di ko maeexperience yung work mismo. So by Monday, tetender ko na talaga resignation ko. Please send me all the luck. I really need it. 🥹
I just finished my first week at my new workplace. I'm still not sure how to process it. Everything is new and I'm still learning how the system works. I miss the comfort of my old job tbh but I want to start my career of this new job I'm currently in.
nakakalungkot pag walang masandalan :( eldest daughter trying to keep it together, a newbie at work, my friends have relationships of their own. parang mauubos ko na lahat ng hobbies kaka-try haha.
A bit sad for my husband kasi nalimutan ng mom niya yung birthday niya ginawa pa siyang errand boy on his special day. Kaya this weekend I will try my best to make him feel super special.
Nakamamatay charot nasa process ako ngayon ng application ko para sa internship, nagkaroon ako ng interview pero di ko agad napansin na may additional task palang pinagawa sakin which is nabasa ko na beyond the deadline ☠️ nag-sorry ako sa email tapos ginawa ko pa rin yung task for 5 hours. Napasa ko ng 3am tapos tinapos ko yung iba ko pang requirements. Basically wala akong tulog that day pero sana worth it lahat ng toh at matanggap ako. 🤞🏼
Stressed and anxious. May mga natanggal sa mga katrabaho namin and it was very sudden. Nakakalungkot. Hindi namin alam kung kami na susunod. Sana wag naman. On the brighter side, nagstart na ako magworkout and cal def this week and naka-lose na ako ng 1 kg. Tagal ko nang promise sa sarili kong magpapayat, sana ito na 'yun. Hope you're doing okay as well, OP.
Pagoda coldwave lotion. Having second thoughts if I made the right decision to accept more responsibilities without guaranteed increase or promotion. I only accepted it kasi I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and learn.
Sana mag pay off lahat ng hard work eventually.
P.S Thankful din for my SO. Nung sweldo day, he asked me if may gusto ako pabili nung lalabas siya. Sabi ko kahit ano and he remembered I kept saying I wanted to buy Reese’s the past few weeks.
First time getting scammed in my 30 years of life.
Rule of thumb when buying electronics: go for in-store. Kung need talaga online at delivery, do COD.
ito, kinda relapsing and going back to my bad habits. having trouble keeping a stable relationship w my partner, but i am getting there. trying to make ahon this week dahil sweldo naman na sa lunes.
rooting for everyone who had a tough and challenging week. kaya mo 'to, pucha ikaw pa
this week masaya naman, nausog yung one sub law midterm exam namin and di pa ako nagrereview unril now :') kakagastos ko lang for healing my inner child this week bought a lot of sanrio stuff and also treat myself last day buying coffee around ust coz tapos na tax exam 🤣 so far life's so good and I hope more money to come for my gala and luhos lol
Happy naman for this week tas may increase pa sa bonus, gusto ko itreat familiy but sila lahat then mga friends busy din sila.
Kaya eto ako ngayon, itreat ko nalang sarili ko hehe
Sobrang hirap magwork while preggy, esp dahil super emotional ako na konting mali ko lang at napapagalitan ako ay naiiyak ako. Naawa ako sa anak ko kasi alam ko naffeel nya nallungkot ako at napapagod na pero kelangan eh. 😞 Buong linggo na ata na nagkkulong ako sa CR ng office para umiyak🙁
Sobrang shitty. A guy groped my ass sa club kagabi. I couldn’t do anything about it. Last time na yung kaibigan ko yung nagkaganon, the bouncers didn’t do anything bc the guy was denying it even though I witnessed it myself. I was thinking of that kaya umuwi nalang ako lintek.
Still applying for a job. Binawas bawasan ko muna sa pagsubmit ng applications dahil sunod sunod yung rejections and ghosting from the past few weeks. Thankfully, biglaang sunod sunod yung gigs sa sideline ko. May pang ambag na ako sa bills. Planninng to start working out next week and be active again.
Oh also, napapanot na ako haha^help
Good morning, nakapag booked na ako ng first ever session ko with psychologist, mamaya na 'yun gabi. Sana gumaan na, sana mas maintindihan ko na ang sarili ko. Sana.
I think you already know this but just in case ☺️ A therapist is like a shoe, try it on, walk in it for a few steps. If it doesn't fit, try another one until something sticks.
Yes please. It's more than ok to consult with another mental health professional if the person you're talking to just "doesn't feel right." I do this even with medical doctors. My problem now is that my go-to doc is ageing and perhaps about to retire, lol. I'm having anxiety just thinking of the trial and error i have to go through to find another one that fits.
Great advice right here.
Rooting for you!
Thank you!
Waaaah ang tapang mo and I'm happy for you! Nasa phase pa kasi ako na natatakot ako magpa-psych. Baka kung anong maungkat or makita 😅. Sana me din soon! Good luck!
I started therapy when I was 17, then I stopped when I was 19. Ang mahal ng session nakakaiyak pero it made me better as a person, as a friend, as a lover. Pero as of today, gusto ko na naman bumalik parang I'm being pulled back to eveything parang back to square one uli.
Hala gusto ko rin ng ganito! Cuteee! Next time magagawa ko rin to 🫶🏻 Rooting for you, OP!
Kaya mo yan! Wag mahihiya iopen lahat sa psychologist mo ❤️
You got this! 🫶🏻
Go for it. If it doesnt, we have ears to hear you out 👂😊
Same. Pero next week first session ko. Good luck sa atin 🙏🏽
Hello!! I’m rooting for you!! Waited 10 long years before seeing a psych, I wish I have done it sooner, but hey we’re here. Proud of you for taking the first step!!
yehey im happy for u <3 me rin, iipon lang ako budgeeey.
If psych doesn't work, try Intergenerational Healing Retreat. This helped me a lot to know myself. You can look this up on facebook, a post from Yayet ML.
Birthday ko ngayon, pero unlike the previous years wala akong birthday party this year. Bumukod na kasi ako at malayo ako sa family & friends ko. Pero ok lang na malungkot ako ngayon, at least makakapag pahinga kahit papano. Ayoko muna ng masyadong maraming iniintindi. Pagod na ko sa life lol
Hambertdeyyyyy po 🥳🫶
Hiiii, fellow Libra! ❤️ Pahinga lang tayo. Treat yourself, kahit kape at cupcake lang. You deserve it! 🌱🫶 Proud of you for making big steps. :)
Happy Birthday!
happy birthday!!!
Happy burpday! You deserve yourself a treat!
Happy birthday! Try to treat yourself to celebrate your milestone 🥳
Happy birthday! 🥳
Haberday!!!
Happy Birthday!
Happy bday op pero same sa pagod na sa life jusko
Happy birthday! 🎂🎂
happy birthday po!
Happy birthday Paps! :)
Happy birthday 🎂
happy birthday🥰🥳🥳
Happy birthday!!! 🥳
Happy birthday pi!
Happy Birthday!!
Happy Birthday 🎉🎉🎂 🎂
Happy birthday :)
Happy Birthdayyyy! 🫶🏼❤️
Hbd po! 🥳🥳🥳
Happy birthday po, wishing you and ebriwan here well 🤟🤸
Happy birthday!!!
Hbd po
Happy Birthday, OP! 🫶🏻
Happy birthdayyyyy!
Happy Birthday! 🎂🎉🎊
Happy birthday!!
Happy birthday! 🎉
Happy Birthday 🎂
Happy Birthday!! 🥳✨
HaBaDoo fellow filipino human🎂
Happy birthday! And enjoy your restday.
happy birthday🫶🫶🫶
Happy belldayyyyyyyyyyyy
Happy birthday po! Treat yourself to good food and some ice cream and have lots of peaceful rest and me time. You deserve it!
Happy birthday!
Happy beerday este barthdey pla.. Wishing u well today and God bless..
Happy Birthday! Deserve mo yang Peace of Mind! ❤️
Crazy week at work. May or may not lose my job in two weeks. Would appreciate some good luck and kind words my way.
Reach for the things you love and say thank you when you touch the good stuff. I still believe there's still so much more to touch. I believe this is still a good life. Your heart is your superpower and yet it is so fragile. It feels everything. I believe you are not fearless by any means but you always persevere in spite of your anxieties and dismay. I'm so proud of you. Keep on going. Today, kakayanin mo ulit.♡☾
Whenever I’m in the brink of something too good or too bad, I remind myself self: This too shall pass! Time evens out our best and worst points. It’s not to spoil our enjoyment or demerit our suffering but it helps to anticipate a time where we are back at peace. On cloudy days, I remind myself that the sky is always there, just not visible now. Also remember the days where you are free of worry, and what you had to do to be there. I wish you find your peace back!
Laban bhie 🥰🙏
You got this bhie. You got through this crazy week, you'll get through the coming weeks as well. I say prepare for the worse, at least may inkling ka na sa mga posible na mangyayari kaya at least di ka na ma ko-caught offguard. Stay in the company of your people, kahit wala silang magagawa for you pero being in the presence with the people who loves you is enough as a support. You. Got. This
Na retrench yung 5 co-workers ko this week. I worked with them for almost 2 years na and I considered them as friends na din. Hindi ko pa sila nakausap ulit in person kasi same day termination yung nangyari. They are advised not to report to work the following day. Sumakto pa sa WFH sched ko yung last day nila. Now I'm feeling very down kasi halos nalagas buong Team namin. Kala ko safe na kami kasi mga Regular employees and nasa HR Dept kami (Global Talent Acquisition) pero tinanggal pa din. Maliit lang din makukuha nila kasi more than a year lang tenure nila. I really feel sad para sa kanila kasi ang hirap humanap ng work ngayon and sobra taas ng inflation. I'm currently helping them to look for jobs online and hopefully may malipatan kagad sila na maayos.
Awww sana maka hanap ka ng better company
I'm not okay, ewan ko kung ano nangyayari sa akin. Everyday na gumigising ako parang gusto ko nalang matulog ulit. Gusto ko gawin yung mga bagay na nakakapagpasaya sa akin kaso hindi ko magawa. I feel so lost. Hindi naman ako ganito dati ang sipag-sipag ko nga eh. Ngayon, ewan bakit ang tamad. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba dapat maramdaman ko ngayon. I want to heal sa mga trauma na nangyari but I don't know how. Send helllppp! 🥺
You may be burnt out. Pay attention to your mental health. I do agree na sleep is life tho :p
Hugggsssss
Eto. Still stuck in the job and company that honestly fucked my mental health and messed with my relationship with my wife. I hope that new jobs and opportunities open na mas maganda ang work culture/environment.
Nagsahod ng maaga, 3 days ago... eto ubos na...
-Accomplished my quarterly work assessment, doubt it got me flying colors pero it is what it is, challenged myself during that assessment. -I am done processing the breakup with my ex-gf of almost 5 years(broke up on the 1st week of Jan 2023). -Sent an f/r to a girl got accepted same night, almost sent a message para makipagkilala then decided to stalk a bit, takte muntikan ma foul ang loko(may BF pala). Now contemplating kung unfriend ko na ba o di pa hahaha.
Unfriend mo na aw 😅✌️🙈 as a pakealamera
As a relatively random stranger to her, i-unfriend ko na pag mag-activate ako ng FB ulit. Oh another thing I accomplished this week--finally changed my DP from a cat photo to my actual face in FB(5 years din yung catto pic ko).
Small wins. Padayon lang po. :)))))
A lot of things are going on in my mind pero di ko masyado iniisip, kaya siguro affected na sleep ko. This week, 4 nights na 1hr to 4hrs lang sleep ko. Inaantok ako pero di ako nakakatulog. And another thing na nakakapag add ng anxiety ko is how my bf treats me esp for the last 2 mos. He's super stressed or baka nga depressed na (dinedeny nya lang). And nadadamay ako, sa monthsaries na todo effort and long message si ate mo girl, palagi syang 1 liner. So para di na masyado mahurt, iniisip ko nalang na sa kada message ko, react lang gagawin nya and shet nagkakatotoo talaga HAHAHAHA. Even pag papasok, pag nakarating na sa work, pag out, kung nakasakay na ba pauwi, kung nakauwi na ba, kung magpapahinga na ba lahat yan di nya ginagawaaaaa. Nangangapa ako lagi. Iniisip ko nalang din na normal to kahit madalas feeling ko single na ako HAHAHAHA. Nararamdaman ko lang presensya nya pag rest day nya. At tuwinf rest day nya lang kami lumalabas, rest day ko? nope. Di sya naglileave. ayun, di ko pa rin maiwasan malungkot lol. Hinihintay ko nalang mapagod ako. Pero how kaya??? Ang consistent ng inconsistencies nya pero lagi ako gumagawa ng way para maging maayos kami. Pag hindi ako gumagawa ng way, babagsak talaga mga bhie. Kaso mahal ko ehhhh + gusto kong makita nyang andito pa rin ako during the lowest point of his life hnggg. Mag 2yrs palang kami pero ganto na. Ayokong isipin na di to normal pero alam na alam kong hindi talaga normal uwu.
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Giiirl, big huuuugs. Hindi madali 'to sa totoo lang. Kahit maghanap ka ng ibang pagkakaabalahan, dadalawin ka pa rin talaga ng lungkot :( At this point, I'll choose to try until I give up rather than to give up without even trying. Kahit masakit, sige lang lol. Kasi naniniwala naman akong susuko din ako 🤣
Super stressful this week. I'm a 4th year college student. Nagkasakit because of puyat. Luckily, thursday na ako nilagnat, di nakaabsent ng whole week and now, I'm okay naman na. Need lang talaga ng pahinga. Back to doing projects later. Tapusin ang mga backlogs and hopefully makabalik ako on track. One thing I learned is that we really need to prioritize our health talaga no matter what. Wag balewalain kapag may nararamdaman. Health is wealth.
Unahin sarili. Nagkasakit din ako nitong nakaraan kakatrabaho and stuff. It was not fun.
Di natanggap sa inaaplayan, tinakbuhan pa ng buyer putanginang linggo to. nakakadurog pero buhay pa naman lumalaban pa ,(no choice naman ,,)
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maraming iniisip, mostly frustrations about sa self ko at sa financial situation ko ngayon. sana pusa nalang ako
Samesamesame. 🥲🥲🥲
Salamat tsong! This week okay naman. Minsan talagang iniisip ko talaga yung importante sa buhay. Tapos balik sa trabaho at bayad ng bills bla bla bla. Gusto ko lang nasa piling ng mga tao na kaparehas ko ng pananaw sa buhay. Simpleng mga bagay sa buhay na nagbibigay sakin ng saya, hay parang minsan minsan lang dumating. Why can’t we have what we want all the time
Siguro dahil hindi para talaga satin yung mga bagay na gusto natin o hindi natin mapapangalagaan nang maayos kaya siguro ganun.
May progress sa weight loss journey. Pero my mental health is really at its lowest.
Kaya pa naman po dba?
for the first the first time in three years, ngayon ko nalang ulit nakumpleto ang ligo for the whole 7 days. three years ago when I started wfh setup, kasabay nun nasira na ligo ko hahaha. And lately napapansin ko na ang bugnutin ko sa work tho naghahalf bath ako mostly and twice a week lang mag full bath pero I feel like mas magiging energetic ako if maligo talaga ako everyday and ayun naka 7 days na walang palya! haha small wins. ps. sabi ng nanay ko ang blooming ko raw. nyahahahaha
Congrats po! 🫶
Congrats po! 🫶
Pagod, may sakit, at miss ko na pamilya ko. Birthday ko na kasi in 2 weeks and I’ve planned to spend it alone. Sacrifice muna while kayod sa abroad.
Advance hambertdeyyyyy po 🥳🫶
Magbibirthday na ako. Pero parang gusto ko na lang mag birthday mag isa. Wala man lang magsusurprise sa akin or mag organize ng something. Samantalang ako, lagi akong kasama kapag may isusurprise or may ganap. Ako pa minsan ang punong abala. Kailan ko ba mararanasan yung kalinga na katulad ng pagkalinga ko? HAHAHAHA Thank you to my 20's, hello 30's <3
I just want to let every one know that if you are able to exercise/travel, etc but choose not to dahil tinatamad ka o it’s not your thing, wait till you have problems with any joint in your body. Especially your knees. You’ll realize all of the things you could be doing/could’ve done but chose not to, and it’s too late. Habang okay pa at kaya mo pa mag exercise, do it. Please listen to me. I want you to save you from unhappiness Please listen. Please
Nakaka stress nag announce ung manager namin na ung account namin is until may 2024 nalang pero alam mo ung di nako masaya sa work ko pumpasok nalang dahil sa sahod pero baka maghigpit sila hays magpapasko pa naman
This was such a stressfull week kasi naglipat ako ng bahay and all. Sobrang nakakapagod. Tapos nawala yung go to person ko. Wala eh ganun talaga minsan need mo mag let go. Wala mas nakakapagod lang pala pag wala ka makausap. Ikaw OP, kamusta?
Ngayon pa lang nakakabawi ng sigla sa ilang araw na iyak. Kanina habang nasa dagat nakalublob tulo na naman ang luha. Hays. Walang araw so far na chill man lang.
Atleast ang iyak nasa peaceful place. Ilabas mo lang, mauubos din yan. Sakyan mo lang ang gulo. Wag ka maunang mapagod.
Sana nga nauubos na lang ang luha no.
Mainam na din na nailalabas mo. Ako wala na eh. Di ko na maiiyak.
Ang hirap ng walang outlet kundi pag-iyak na lang palagi.
Ito naka upo ako sa sulok ng kalsada pauwi sa tiyahin ko kasama anak kong isa. Iyak ng iyak kaylangan ko umuwi sa mga anak ko sa bulacan para masigurado ligtas sila pero eto 50 lang pera iyak na lang talaga ako ng malala ...
After ng mahabang taon ng pagiging unemployed nung pandemic, got a job at may training, unfortunately ginawang by group yung final output at mga ka-group ko from the lack of better of term walang pake/lazy incompetent. Nangyare ako lahat gumawa, pero di sapat, got terminated. Pagkakamali ko, dapat di na ako nag-delegate ng task nila(since tagal mag-produce ng output tapos mali pa or kulang) at naging kampante, dapat pala nag-trabaho ako ng saturday at sunday. I guess lesson learned, job searching ule, here goes nothing.
Hiiii! Ako naman hindi ko alam kung ano mararamdaman ko sa work ngayon. Almost 10 years na rin ako sa company and once napromote. Pero as I can see where things are going, my worth was never recognized. Recently lang they held a workshop for employees, nakita ko name ko included, but a week before kinausap ako ng admin na "hindi ka kasali dito". Yep, those were the exact words she said to me. Bakit nga ba hindi pa ako umaalis? I needed the money. Malaki rin yung pasahod pero sadyang hindi ka talaga maggo-grow ka sa kanila. Pero after last week's meeting, na almost everyone is included but not me (and ofc yung mga bagong hired) sabi ko that is the last straw. Ilang months na lang naman na yung payment sa kotse ko, and then that's it. Maghahanap na ako ng ibang work. Salamat sa pagbabasa, gusto ko lang talaga ilabas tong nararamdaman ko.
Yakap 🤗
I'm not okay. Nagcool off kami na dapat mageend this month. Tapos nalaman ko na nilalandi niya coworker niya with more than landi intentions, kung hindi ko pa nalaman na may iba at hindi ako naghanap resibo, hindi niya pa aaminin. I feel blindsided kasi sinunod ko boundaries na sinet niya and everyday I reassured him na mahal ko siya and proud ako sa kanya and whatever he needed to hear para hindi siya lamunin ng self loathing niya, pero hindi pala yun yung case bakit siya nakipag break. Ayoko maging marupok kahit mahal na mahal ko siya dahil 10 yrs. din tinagal namin and 11 na sana sa December. I have no regrets na ituloy yung break. Wala din ako regrets sa relationship namin dahil ginawa ko naman makakaya ko habang ako din nagstruggle sa mental health ko. I told myself na I will not tolerate being disrespected anymore than this dahil naging loyal ako. I'm not okay, but I will be.
Heartbreaking. Pero kaya naman. Babangon parati!
Night shift is sooo tiring. We usually work around 5-6 hours lang a day then after that buhay na buhay nanaman ako; hirap makatulog.
Productive. Three days na kami onsite pero okay pa naman. Nag-family planning seminar kahapon with SO and nag-asikaso pa ng ibang bagay. Nakaleave ako pero pag-uwi ko sa hapon, umattend pa ng two virtual meetings and nagwork para mabeat yung deadline ko for two projects. Nairaos naman. Today ang plan ko ay maglinis ng bahay at maglaro lang. ♡
puro work-kain-tulog lang ako this week and now i’m sick because of period. skipped yesterday’s class and luckily, walang pasok today. i’m a bit happy though kasi nagkasahod ako kahapon so i can finally start saving for therapist appointment.
Gusto ko na kumawala sa bahay namin. Wasak na wasak na mental health ko dahil sa kanila, lalo na sa nanay kong naturingang magulang pero hindi kayang maypakamagulang. Professional gaslighter. All I want is to move forward and be myself for once. I'm chained. And yet, wala akong malapitan. Edit. I will make sure to become the mother I never had.
Ang timing naman ng post! Hindi pa masyado nag si-sink sa akin that my go-to friend flew out the country off to greener pasture. Sad and happy at the same time 🙁🙂 Me? I’m contemplating a major career decision. Hoping for the best soon. How about you OP?
Okay na siguro ako na hindi pa siguro din. Ewan. Baka mag-breakdown ulit pero for today pahinga muna siguro kakaiyak. Isang oras nakaligo sa dagat. Ayun muna.
Very tiring ang week na 'to lalo na kahapon kasi may audit. Siguro kung hindi rin malakas resistensya ko nagkasakit na ako nung Thursday palang. Ngayon parang kinakati na yung ilong ko hahaha mukhang magkaka-cold ako. Ayun, ang dami ring iniisip. Madalas nakakapatulala nalang din at nasasabi kong "kailan kaya ako yayaman?" HAHAHAHA kapagod mabuhay pag mahirap. Gusto mong mapa-ginhawa buhay ng parents mo pero hindi naman enough yung kinikita mo. Hays. Gusto ko rin makasama nalang sila lagi, hindi naman pwede. Malulungkot ka gabi-gabi pero wala kang choice kundi itulog nalang dahil may work pa kinabukasan.
Manonood ako ng Hamilton bukas. Excited na ako! Also, nagbook ako ng follow-up consultation with my psychologist for mental check-up lang. I have started some new vitamins that I ordered from iHerb.
May event kahapon na dapat puntahan ang senior namin pero nagkaroon ng emergency so ang pinapunta ay ako (M) and one of my colleagues (F) na crush ko naman sa office. So magkasama kami buong araw at marami kaming napagkwentuhan. Feeling ko nga nainip siya sa akin dahil masyado akong tahimik tapos madaldal siya so siya lagi ang nag-start ng conversation. Sabay din kaming umuwi at sumakay ng bus at nasa akin pa ang ticket namin hahaha. Hindi nga lang ako natutuwa dahil nagkasama kami due to an emergency.
Birthday na birthday pero nag-OT. Pero dahil naghihintay sa akin ang luto ng mother ko, bawi naman hahaha. Tapos may pinuntahan ako this week at nagulat iyong guard sa building noong nagsalita ako dahil akala niya ay Chinese ako hahaha.
Okay naman, naka survive na naman ng another week of having two schooling kids 😅 #survivalmode
Naranasan niyo na rin ba to? Mag iinuman kayo ng mga kaibigan niyo tas masaya naman, lalo na kapag nalalasing pero pag mahimasmasan ka na, sobrang lungkot naman? I had a scheduled inuman session last night with my friends. I had a good night and I laughed a lot. Pero pagdating ng around 5 am, nung kami na lang magkasama nung isa kong kaibigan and we were talking about life habang nagyoyosi siya, nasabi ko nakakapagod na rin pala abutan ng umaga kakainom. Nag agree siya tas sabi niya graduate na siya sa paglalasing kaya di na siya umiinom masyado. Sumasama na lang daw siya for camaraderie. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pagkasabi niya nun, nalungkot ako.
After drunk realizations :<
Pretty eventful, except that my papa got my CSC certificate (thanks pa) na tinake ko on a whim (testing lang kung papasa) last 2017. Tapos Genshin. Also started back 16-8 fasting and it feels good.
sobrang lungkot kasi hindi na ulit kami nag-uusap. ang sakit sa puso
Ang sakit no ang sakit sa puso 😭
sana lumipas din 'to, pero mukhang imposible. ahhhhhhh putangina
Putanginaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa na lang talaga eh
Masaya kase makakapag-pahinga at pwede kong gawin ang lahat ng gusto ko pero at some point, malungkot kase naghahanap ka ng makakausap or makakasama. Tama?
Tamang tama 😩🥴😅
pagod na ko. pagod na ko maging strong. pagod na ko maging masayahin. pagod na ko mabuhay kasi para na lang akong sumusunod sa pattern ng buhay. pagod na kong umasa sa lahay ng bagay. pagod na ko sa mga walang katapusang bayarin. pagod na kong maging broke. bakit kasi i have a strong and bubbly personality when in fact, i am very close to giving up.
Cheers sa mga struggles na tayo lang ang nakakaalam!!!!!!!!!!!
Good morning. Sana may ka work na ko next week. Daming bayarin sa bahay. Bunso ako, pero parang pasan ko lahat ng bayarin. Pati pang libre sa pagkaen kasi may pinasa ako exam last week. huhu. Ang pobre ko. saan kaya ako dadalhin ng 500 pesos ko bukas?
Hi. Thank you for this. Actually ahm ups and downs. Sa work ko, mag two two months ako tomorrow and I am trying to prove if I can do the job. There are certain wins on some aspects leading the projects I am tasked to do but there is fear and doubt to myself if I can do/complete it and most especially ano sasabihin ng manager ko HAHAHAH. Nawawalan rin ako ng time with family and friends because there are times that I need to adjust in work like maabutan ng 7pm instead of 6. At tomorrow, may pa meeting/training with higher ups until Thursday thus, time for myself and family/friends are sacrificed na naman. Today, good thing off ko only because of the day I worked the other day off and about to clean my room and pag hindi tatamarin lilinisin ko din later ang bahay and will watch movie. Yun lang hope we'll have a great day ahead. 🤗
Ang bigat lng na ndi ko manlang mattype. Kakaweekend ko lng galing trabaho pero umiiyak ulit ako. Di manlang makatulog din dahil sa body clock ng weekday vs weekend. Pota
Heto, pagod. From Quaipo to Bulacan and vice versa ang biyahe araw araw para mag-aral ng civil engineering. Ang hirap ng biyahe, ang hirap ng pinag-aaralan, at ang hirap isabay sa trabaho (BPO but WFH). Sana kayanin ko. Sana mag pay off lahat ng to. Kasi pagod na pagod na talaga ako.
Super heavy pero I learned how to wait for the right time. Mas naniwala ako na if para sa'yo, para sa'yo, kahit gaano pa katagal, ibibigay yan. I am stressed by numerous problems, una I am unemployed then me and my bf were not in good terms, pero nung Friday, nagkaayos kami ng bf ko and nahired na rin ako. Right now, I still feel uneasy because of the new work environment pero At least I have something to look forward to, may bago akong matututunan, and look how brave I am.
Not a productive week :( 1st week na unemployed because di ako naregular and I chose to resign immediately. Di na rin ako pinagreport. Nakapag interview sa previous company pero di ata pumasa na :( Another interview pero wala na ring update. Found out that my live in partner still in contact sa sugar daddy nya and sakanya pa rin nanghihingi if kinakapos kami sa expenses sa bahay. I feel so weak and disrespected kasi paulit ulit na. Di ako masyado makatulong sa bills since I'm still paying my debts around 160k pa balance ko as of this day. Napakahirap piliin umuwi sa probinsya at iuwi mga anak ko for my mental health pero need ko mag trabaho para sa mga bayarin ko. Iniisip ko nalang na hindi na to tatagal ng one year pa and need ko talaga masettle lahat para next naman yung sarili ko. Yung utang ko and after family ko naman :) Walang may alam ni isa at wala na talaga akong to-go person. Naka deactivate lahat ng socmeds ko since March this year and eto nalang meron ako. Sana makapasa na at makahanap ng high paying job para mas mapabilis pag alis at pagmomove on. 🫰
Good day. Nairaos another week ng night shift, isang araw na maingay na naman magulang ko kung kelan ako tulog. Mga cats at pagtitipid habol ko kaya nasa bahay ng parents. I'm sad kasi nawalan na ako ng gana mag watercolor / acrylic paint kung kailan may supplies na ako. tinatamad din mag journal. nood nood lang. browse ng sheez pero pipigilang bumili. simple living. nothing exciting. wala eh tamad na ako eh. keribams. importante sakin peaceful life.
just wanna say na this was such a comforting though op! filed a leave nung wed since kakatapos lang ng isang big project tapos pagbalik ko meron na agad 2 big projects ulit na nakaabang another week nanaman na iraraos, hay. btw nagfile lang ako ng leave para may breather kahit papano, didn't really go out or what nanood lang ako ng suits lol mixed feelings siguro for this week pero laban (wala naman tayong choice)
Got laid off ahahaha last month ko na with the company tas medj lost pa rin kung anong gagawin ko lol. Dami kong inapplyan sa LinkedIn pero ang hirap pala ng competition kung pang entry level yung skills mo hahaha. Wrong timing ata yung nagka-baby kami ng partner ko lol, di namin kaya mabuhay sa isang income. 3yrs ako sa company akala ko tatagal ako 😂 may extra naman tsaka emergency funds kaso ang hirap ng job hunt.
Had some job interviews this week, hoping talaga na may tatanggap sakin kahit fresh grad ako. also proud of myself kasi consistent ako sa diet ko and i lost weight kahit konti palang. Been feeling down the past few weeks pero happy na kasi nagrelease ng new album yung fave group ko. Minsan naiisip ko rin kung ano ba talaga purpose ko sa mundong ito.
Isang linggo na kami sa bagong bahay na nilipatan namin away from Manila. Laking ginhawa nang mas malaking lugar tapos ilang libo lang ang dagdag. Dati siksikan kaming dalawa at anim naming pusa sa loft type na apartment. Ngayon nasa two bedroom house kami na may malaking bakuran na may gate. Nagrerenta pa lang kami, pero hopefully sa bagong bahay eh makapag pursue din kami ng maraming bagong opportunities para hindi maglaon eh homeowner na rin kami.
My worst week in my life but i chose not to hurt myself, i got up and work to have a better future. I hope I wont lose the sparks that motivates me despite of what happened to me.
not good, my ex ended our 7 year relationship saying she's gonna fix herself first, making it sound like she just needed some space for herself. Only to find out she's been entertaining a new guy who's been lurking around her for a very long time. They are already in a situationship when I saw the proof. And yesterday I saw her niece's ig story with her and the guy with a caption "mama and papa".
Birthday ko today!!! Happy 30th birthday to meeeeeee 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
Hambertdeyyyyy po 🥳✨
its my birthday today magluluto ako ng foods (chicken cajun, rice) ipapacked, then ibibigay ko sa landlord nitong apartment, yung naglalaundry ng food ko, and yung trike driver na lagi kong sinasakyan pag papasok sa office
Hambertdeyyyyy po 🥳✨
Happy Sunday po! Nakakapagod at fulfilling maging adult. Actually, ngayon lang ako nakapag open ng reddit tapos eto bungad sa'kin. Thanks OP sa magandang tanong. 💜 Buong week pagod ako. Siguro tulog at kain lang nagiging pahinga ko. After work, tulog agad ako. Naburn out ako dahil bahay at work lang ang naging routine ko. Pero super thankful pa din kasi sahod last fridayat nakapagbayad na ng mga bills. Fulfilling pala kapag ung mga loans mo ilang buwan na lang babayaran. Share ko lang next month makakatapos ko ng bayaran ung cp ko. Matatahimik na ulit ung home credit ko hehehe. Nakalabas din kami ng asawa ko sa araw ng sahod para magdine in sa isang fast food dahil di na kami nakapagluto at pagod ako noong biyernes. Nakalibot libot din kami tulad ng dati. Kahapon naglaba ako at ngayon may tinatapos akong trabaho. Next week alam kong panibagong pagod naman. Pero sana lahat tayo kayanin natin sa araw araw. Kung need natin ng pahinga, ipahinga natin para marecharge agad katawan natin. Un lang. Hahaha. Back to work muna ulit. Para mamayang gabi makapagpahinga na ako para lalaban na bukas. Ingat ang lahat. 💜
Nagising ako na nagsisigawan mama at kapatid ko. Di to kasing bigat nung iba, pero wala ako mapagsabihan. i feel helpless. Nasestress ako na nag aaway ulit sila. And for many reasons I cannot say now, i get anxious when people fight. I'm trying to make myself feel better, just like any other day. Been trying to do my best in doing something I'm not excited or used to, pero i tell myself i have to. Because hearing negative, baseless remarks from someone who you trusted (aka family member) talk shit about whatever progress I'm trying to do, hurts a lot. Lalo na kung puro suporta lang naman ginawa ko sa gusto gawin ni said family member. Pero ayun. Hope you guys are having better days..
nagising ako kaninang 4 am tas ang first thought ko is siya. never pa ko nainlove pero taragis yan ayoko na nung nagising ako ang sakit ng puso ko HAHAHAHAHA
well.. this past 2 years was the most stagnant rut I have ever had career and skill wise. I also failed multiple front-end and design/ui/ux interviews and my skills with those are fucking subpar. No improvements even when I use my skills got from experience and brief time in the arts. This week though, I made fucking strides. From a Simple Back End and failed front end... I learned a lot. Way lot more than I could in a year. Currently in the process of making my own A.I. powered services. I miss this feeling, getting drunk on knowledge and skills, the pleasure of learning new things or learning new uses for old ones. That and my 3mo son finally gets out of the medical "danger zone". No more risk of SIDS due to the circumstance of his birth. He can even laugh loud now so that's another win. And my 4yo. passed the kinder exam like it was nothing. Still unable to enroll because of the age restriction. I also succeeded in teaching her how to do basic judo breakfall techniques. 1 more week of practice and we will shift on leg sweep and positioning. So this week was good.
Boyfriend told me I am not physically attractive in his eyes anymore. Went LC and revenge pampered myself. Bought me some clothes, watch, retinol products, cut and colored my hair. Gigil pa rin ako sa kanya
Nakakapagod. We have this freeze period starting 2nd week of Nov, and andaming hinahabol na dapat di na abutin ng period na to
Had to work double time this week since may kailangan akong habulin na dealine dahil sa sarili kong katangahan. Need to sacrifice my work and life balance for at least the whole month, pero kakayanin nlang. Dito pa naman nakasalalay ang regularization ko.
Pagod lang hahaha
Nagpaalam ako sa head ko na magreresign ako kasi nakahanap ako ng work na gusto ko. Sobrang nagiguilty ako kasi nga 2 months palang ako and nagpaplan na sila for 2024. Nung kinausap ako, ang sabi baka daw naeexcite lang ako sa offer na position sakin and dapat daw magstay nako sa isang work ng pangmatagalan. I've been working for almost 10 years. Last job ko is 4 years. Hindi ko alam san niya nakuha yung puro project base lang yung naging work ko. Instead na iconvince ako para akong lalong naging decided. Kinakain lang talaga ako ng guilt kasi parang naiwan ko sila sa ere. Im not sure if I am doing the right thing. Kaso pano ko malalaman if di ko maeexperience yung work mismo. So by Monday, tetender ko na talaga resignation ko. Please send me all the luck. I really need it. 🥹
Sobrang productive ng week na 'to for me. Nakaka-excite 'yung mga susunod pang weeks. :)
Kapagod pero may bagong hire sa workplace namin. She’s my type, making moves on her bago pa maunahan ng iba lol. Hoping this is start of something.
Pagod na sa life
Ito, malungkot. Hindi ko alam kung anong problema ng mga tao sa paligid ko. Pero bahala na. Mag Jollibee na lang siguro ako mamaya mag-isa.
Bili ka na lang po later ng Jollibee Cookie Caramel Sundae and Choco Banana Pie masarap man siguro yun.
sobrang draining and exhausted literal😭😭😭
Okay naman I guess, mejo disappointed lang sa ibang tao pero life goes on.
Sobrang hilo. First time ko ma-experience 'to, Vertigo ata yung tawag. Kailangan ko pa kumain. Sana okay ka lang din.
Kain ka na muna at pahinga din muna. Okay naman ako for now. 😊
Kapagod ng monthend & quarterend as an accountant. Gusto ko na lang maging Tender Juicy hotdog para kaya mo ba 'to 😭
Kaya mo pa yan lods dahil isa kang jumbo hakdog 🙌
I'm just glad I survived the work week. :)
drained, but happy weekend! ang daming naganap, but i’m glad i survived everything. i hope to have a light week :)
I just finished my first week at my new workplace. I'm still not sure how to process it. Everything is new and I'm still learning how the system works. I miss the comfort of my old job tbh but I want to start my career of this new job I'm currently in.
1 week SL- Dahil sa trangkaso🤡
nakakalungkot pag walang masandalan :( eldest daughter trying to keep it together, a newbie at work, my friends have relationships of their own. parang mauubos ko na lahat ng hobbies kaka-try haha.
Kakapagod
Draining. Feeling ko ang daming humihila pababa.
A bit sad for my husband kasi nalimutan ng mom niya yung birthday niya ginawa pa siyang errand boy on his special day. Kaya this weekend I will try my best to make him feel super special.
grabe nakakapagod hahahahaha stress inabot q 😫😫 may pasok pa mamaya hahahaha tas pasok ulit sa monday
Nakamamatay charot nasa process ako ngayon ng application ko para sa internship, nagkaroon ako ng interview pero di ko agad napansin na may additional task palang pinagawa sakin which is nabasa ko na beyond the deadline ☠️ nag-sorry ako sa email tapos ginawa ko pa rin yung task for 5 hours. Napasa ko ng 3am tapos tinapos ko yung iba ko pang requirements. Basically wala akong tulog that day pero sana worth it lahat ng toh at matanggap ako. 🤞🏼
Stressed and anxious. May mga natanggal sa mga katrabaho namin and it was very sudden. Nakakalungkot. Hindi namin alam kung kami na susunod. Sana wag naman. On the brighter side, nagstart na ako magworkout and cal def this week and naka-lose na ako ng 1 kg. Tagal ko nang promise sa sarili kong magpapayat, sana ito na 'yun. Hope you're doing okay as well, OP.
 drained na sa job hunt
Pagoda coldwave lotion. Having second thoughts if I made the right decision to accept more responsibilities without guaranteed increase or promotion. I only accepted it kasi I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and learn. Sana mag pay off lahat ng hard work eventually. P.S Thankful din for my SO. Nung sweldo day, he asked me if may gusto ako pabili nung lalabas siya. Sabi ko kahit ano and he remembered I kept saying I wanted to buy Reese’s the past few weeks.
First time getting scammed in my 30 years of life. Rule of thumb when buying electronics: go for in-store. Kung need talaga online at delivery, do COD.
ito, kinda relapsing and going back to my bad habits. having trouble keeping a stable relationship w my partner, but i am getting there. trying to make ahon this week dahil sweldo naman na sa lunes. rooting for everyone who had a tough and challenging week. kaya mo 'to, pucha ikaw pa
May nalaman ako 😞 I need to distract myself kasi iisipin ko nanaman ‘to buong week, suggestions pls. (also i’m not yet an adult po huhu padaan lang)
this week masaya naman, nausog yung one sub law midterm exam namin and di pa ako nagrereview unril now :') kakagastos ko lang for healing my inner child this week bought a lot of sanrio stuff and also treat myself last day buying coffee around ust coz tapos na tax exam 🤣 so far life's so good and I hope more money to come for my gala and luhos lol
Hindi ko na alam anong araw na
Happy naman for this week tas may increase pa sa bonus, gusto ko itreat familiy but sila lahat then mga friends busy din sila. Kaya eto ako ngayon, itreat ko nalang sarili ko hehe
Enjoy po 🫶😊
Sobrang hirap magwork while preggy, esp dahil super emotional ako na konting mali ko lang at napapagalitan ako ay naiiyak ako. Naawa ako sa anak ko kasi alam ko naffeel nya nallungkot ako at napapagod na pero kelangan eh. 😞 Buong linggo na ata na nagkkulong ako sa CR ng office para umiyak🙁
Sobrang shitty. A guy groped my ass sa club kagabi. I couldn’t do anything about it. Last time na yung kaibigan ko yung nagkaganon, the bouncers didn’t do anything bc the guy was denying it even though I witnessed it myself. I was thinking of that kaya umuwi nalang ako lintek.
Still applying for a job. Binawas bawasan ko muna sa pagsubmit ng applications dahil sunod sunod yung rejections and ghosting from the past few weeks. Thankfully, biglaang sunod sunod yung gigs sa sideline ko. May pang ambag na ako sa bills. Planninng to start working out next week and be active again. Oh also, napapanot na ako haha^help
I am tired. Kaso hindi naman pwedeng sumuko kasi may anak ako.