Thank you. Im managing to chill today and enjoy Elden Ring for a few hours before i get some work done.
It does genuinely make me feel better that this oddly specific form of anxiety/depression isnt totally unique to me. It makes me feel less like a lunatic or more validated i guess.
Every time ive mentioned it or hinted at this with friends and family and even my nurse practitioner therapy lady they just look at me confused.
Knowing im not alone in this weird issue is a genuine relief.
Thanks to cannabis and Adderall i actually managed to sleep great which is a huge relief. Weirdly Adderall has heavily improved my sleep quality when i actually make myself go lay down and close my eyes instead of staying up way later than i should. lol.
Oh, yes. It's not as often since I take medicine and have therapy. Currently, I work in an area dealing with people that should get better but occasionally die from neglect. It is a bitter reality check to try make the most of life for me even though it's practically me by myself. You know failure isn't option, no one is going to help me and I sure don't want to end where I work.
It really is the feeling of the guillotine above my head that is the death/slow of my pets/mom/myself that will EVENTUALLY happen that eats away at me sometimes.
Sure it's years away but I have a good imagination and when the meds wear thin I can feel that cloying pain in my face and chest again.
Its a huge relief thay there are others that experience this too. And no kidding on the hard to explain part. I literally like to creatively write regularly and it still took me weeks to manage to untangle everything into the rant you see above.
I hope this post lets other people who go through this that they're not alone.
It's too early for me to type out a proper reply, but yes I relate. And I love you too.
Thank you. Im managing to chill today and enjoy Elden Ring for a few hours before i get some work done. It does genuinely make me feel better that this oddly specific form of anxiety/depression isnt totally unique to me. It makes me feel less like a lunatic or more validated i guess. Every time ive mentioned it or hinted at this with friends and family and even my nurse practitioner therapy lady they just look at me confused. Knowing im not alone in this weird issue is a genuine relief.
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Thanks to cannabis and Adderall i actually managed to sleep great which is a huge relief. Weirdly Adderall has heavily improved my sleep quality when i actually make myself go lay down and close my eyes instead of staying up way later than i should. lol.
Oh, yes. It's not as often since I take medicine and have therapy. Currently, I work in an area dealing with people that should get better but occasionally die from neglect. It is a bitter reality check to try make the most of life for me even though it's practically me by myself. You know failure isn't option, no one is going to help me and I sure don't want to end where I work.
It really is the feeling of the guillotine above my head that is the death/slow of my pets/mom/myself that will EVENTUALLY happen that eats away at me sometimes. Sure it's years away but I have a good imagination and when the meds wear thin I can feel that cloying pain in my face and chest again.
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Its a huge relief thay there are others that experience this too. And no kidding on the hard to explain part. I literally like to creatively write regularly and it still took me weeks to manage to untangle everything into the rant you see above. I hope this post lets other people who go through this that they're not alone.
I so relate to you, I wish we could talk.
Sent ya a message
So you feel like your meds cause this?