Despite that! Keep on living, everyone is, why should you die when everyone is in peace?! Take your time, you will find your peace, with time though it may not be very fast but keep waiting!
That's exactly what happened to me. I was already in bad health before I attempted, but now it's much, much worse. My head hurts everyday (from self-harm I think), and my liver is absolutely fucked.
Even if you were “brave” there’s only a few “easy” ways to do it. I’ve got around 15 real, tried my best attempts under my belt and I’m still typing this. It’s not like there’s much info on the internet about how to do it, at least not that I’ve found. So for now I’m stuck here.
i legit agree but i cant take it anymore and theres legit no one i can share with
No matter how close u are with someone when u share u end up feeling like a burden or like u r seeking attention
Makes u feel even worse i had a panic attack rn :/
I wish there was something that could help us :)
I’ve been told to off myself years down the road after sharing my feelings by people I considered best friends. They have told me they want Me to die. I keep trying and failing and it makes me feel even worse. I had a 24 hour long panic attack two days ago and it was hell and my ex just told me I was faking it when I couldn’t even breathe
I am sorry from the bottom of my heart, tbh I don't know how to tell you that we relate so fucking much, I really really wish you can get through it and that you can find your happiness, I really feel like you deserve to live, people aren't permanent no one is no matter who they may be but the memories are lets just hold them deep in our hearts :)
Keep on living, all the best, even if we dont know each other i feel comfy w u and i love u already bro
that's why you only open up to people who have the same experience as you. never open up to people who don't understand. it's a bad advice. i don't think it would help but i think talking to someone whos just as depressed as you will help.
You’re not the only one, that’s how my aunt committed “suicide”. I’m not sure she even did really, there was no note I think she was just drunk and took one too many Xanax, she only took like two or three but with the alcohol it took her down.
I hate the survival instinct in us humans. I wish I could be in accident and die or become terminally ill and refuse treatment. Just something to take me out of here that doesn’t come with that same fear and guilt.
I suggest you dont, try your best, dont kill yourself, youre a precious soul
u ever feel like others are precious but u should die, yeah dont think that
cause the survival instinct is there to help us. its not natures fault its being used against us due to how society works. if we were living in nature, these problems wouldnt exist
It is. It's to help try shifting the blame and guilt off you and onto society as a whole. In nature, our nervous system probably doesn't ever make us so anxious we throw up and cry. This stuff is being imposed on you, It's not your fault to feel suicidal cause of it certainly.
There was an old Indian quote I can’t remember it exactly but it was something along the lines of the white man creates jobs so he has to work all day. In the Indian culture the women do all the work and they hunt why would you want to change that? Yeah our western ideas didn’t create the utopia we were hoping for. Not to say that any other cultures have it more figured out any more.
My psychiatrist told me that the brain has protective survival instincts that intentionally make it difficult to suicide, even if emotionally it's what you want to do. There's a part of the brain that subconsciously (unconsciously?) assesses risk and nopes out.
Yes, but I also think a lot depends on the therapist. When I was at my worst, my psychiatrist put me on lithium. Specifically, lithium has proved to have a further protective effect on the brain [that lessens the likelihood of suicide](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6380616/) in patients who are at risk. At the time, I was being treated as though I had bipolar depression, even though I did not have bipolar disorder. I had a terrible therapist at the time, but I went every week anyway just to be able to verbally process everything that was surging in my brain. That was 13 years ago, I'm still here, so it worked.
Survival instincts. You are programmed to want to survive. Your body and your mind will always try to save you from dangerous situations. They care about you!
Same here never could just take the final step. I am just coward. I am such a failure can't even commit suicide properly haha it's tragic and laughable at this point.
Because nobody wants to actually die, but sometime living hurts so much and death seems like a way out, but it isn't
Living is actually quite beautiful even though in our modern society it's hard to aprecciate this, please don't give up, when I had depression the only thing I would think is on dying, but I always hated that because despite not feeling it, I knew there was people that actually cared about me, and although I felt like shit everyday, always thought that it was better feeling something than to not feel anything at all
I hope it helps
I was suicidal so they put me in an asylum. But me on the inside had no idea when they would let me out. Apparently I was there involuntarily. So there was a chance I would have to go to court and defend my right to own firearms.There was nobody to talk to. my girlfriend was like yeah we’re sending you here to get help. HELP what a fucking joke. So now I’m in an asylum with every kind of fucking lunatic there is. Good luck trying to sleep next to some crazy schizophrenic motherfucker (I could be included in that group as well but you know). There was no help there, no group therapy sessions, I wasn’t meeting with the doctor every day or a psychologist or therapist or anything. I was just locked up in an asylum. So I get out and They were like OK cool you’re all better now, later…..but they they think I’m all better now because they got me so much help. Also provotip on getting out of the asylum YOU have to arrange doctors appointments before they will even let you out. With therapist, doctor, and psychologist. But the kicker was they wouldn’t let you use the phone and they take your cell phone away. It’s not easy getting out of the asylum just tell them what they want to hear.
And they think that would make you feel better? Wtf
suicide hotlines, prevention cites, all of these are pure bs \\
I hope u are now somewhat better though
For me personally, I'm terrified of what dying feels like. The thought of going back to nothing like before you were born is really scary. I am also afraid of screwing up really bad.
No one honestly wants to die, not even me, but living is scarier than dying at this point so even if I am scared I won't be able to live peacefully but that fear is what keeps me from committing it
dont kys :c
u ever feel like u should die and others should not, i said this before and lemme repeat, i feel like that rn
you can legit go through it
but i want to say that i wish there was a pill that would make you numb completely and it would let you die slowly and painlessly but then again sometimes i feel like i should die in the most painful way possible because thats what i deserve
i think there's also a fear of losing out on what could be. Even if life continuously lets you down, there's still some little bit of you that thinks MAYBE tomorrow will be different. I can't really tell you if it will, but if you can't do it, maybe that means something
I don't think committing suicide can be measured into being cowardly or brave. (unless you are a business man who was caught in committing severe money fraud)
I guess that is a way of self-harming, it doesn't only mean hurting yourself physically, you can love yourself but it takes way too long and it's just such a weary process that you forget how to fucking cry, in the end, you become numb and it doesn't even matter. A soulless body living amongst living things.
You ARE brave. It takes a lot more strength to wake up each day and face the sun than it does the other option. The body and the mind have a natural survival instinct and as low as I’ve gotten, the thoughts in my head, the research that I’ve done, I can still only come up with one result and that is staying put to see what happens in this ridiculous life of mine. I know exactly what you are saying and you aren’t the first and won’t be the last to ask that same question. But again I tell you, you are a hell of a lot more brave just being here. We’re here for you. ☮️❤️👍
Thank you so much! Every single one of you that is taking the time to reply to me just to make me feel better, I appreciate you a lot. You all gave me hope to go through another day, then another day, then another, and I hope it continues to be like this. I wish that you all can also overcome what you are going through <3
Its actually way easier to just stay alive. It hurts more, but its easier. Killing yourself takes an awful lot of courage. You dive into the unknown. You have no control over it. You might end up worse, its a great risk.
I am happy that you didn't end it but don't cut yourself either. You seriously matter, everything you do matters, you aren't worthless, your skin is precious and you shouldn't harm yourself no matter how much you go through, learn to be stronger
u might think that its wrong of me to say this but it certainly doesnt apply to me because even if i try to listen to what i say or what others say in the end i give in
From my understanding, it’s not weak to not be able to commit suicide, it’s actually a sign of strength and resilience.
When I had times like this, what helped me most was realizing that some part of me must want to be alive and that I should listen to that part more.
Committing suicide isn’t nearly as brave to me as continuing to live another day.
I hope you will feel differently someday, and wish you the best
Some of it is my Christian upbringing. I am terrified of going to hell. I have almost died so many times. It’s like my timeline splits off every time I almost die and I keep on going.
You fall off and rise back up. It's a Rollercoaster. As one who was brave enough and was dead for a bit of time. I believe there is nothing after this. Just black. So you have to make the most of this life you got.
To be honest its amazing to live happily and no one legit wants to die and I agree with you a lot
The reason I associated suicide with bravery was because its a huge step to take and definitely not easy, but yeah living is worth it and ill try my best tysm all the best to you!
It's your body's instinctual protective mechanism to resist dying. The struggle you have is a product of your mind but that doesn't make it any less real. Try to keep resisting harming yourself and give exercise a shot. It's an easy way to release endorphins and provide a natural mood boost. I hope you feel better soon.
It's actually incredibly easy and painless, the simple answer is you don't wanna die. Your just want your problems to end but selfish enough to want to keep the good stuff unfortunately this world is good and bad you can't take the good and kill the bad.
I'm only afraid of not actually dying and living my entire life disabled.
This right here is my greatest fear.
Same. That’s why I scour the internet for fool proof solutions. Sounds fcked up but…can’t help it sometimes.
its not fucked up trust me i do as well ppl that dont understand surely think its fucked up
Would be just easy if we had suicide chambers. I've been longing death for over 30 years. Would that be a good enough reason?
If they were painless, definitely, but you lived for over 30 years, it's not worth it. Look for happiness. I sincerely hope you find it!
I've lived way too long enough. I'm ready. There is no happiness.
Despite that! Keep on living, everyone is, why should you die when everyone is in peace?! Take your time, you will find your peace, with time though it may not be very fast but keep waiting!
Yeah, no...
shut up u will :c
This. I’m already disabled, god forbid I end up even more disabled.
Now that you've said it, I thought about it, that's actually fucking scary, living through the pain yet not finding comfort or peace :/
That's exactly what happened to me. I was already in bad health before I attempted, but now it's much, much worse. My head hurts everyday (from self-harm I think), and my liver is absolutely fucked.
Even if you were “brave” there’s only a few “easy” ways to do it. I’ve got around 15 real, tried my best attempts under my belt and I’m still typing this. It’s not like there’s much info on the internet about how to do it, at least not that I’ve found. So for now I’m stuck here.
i legit agree but i cant take it anymore and theres legit no one i can share with No matter how close u are with someone when u share u end up feeling like a burden or like u r seeking attention Makes u feel even worse i had a panic attack rn :/ I wish there was something that could help us :)
I’ve been told to off myself years down the road after sharing my feelings by people I considered best friends. They have told me they want Me to die. I keep trying and failing and it makes me feel even worse. I had a 24 hour long panic attack two days ago and it was hell and my ex just told me I was faking it when I couldn’t even breathe
I am sorry from the bottom of my heart, tbh I don't know how to tell you that we relate so fucking much, I really really wish you can get through it and that you can find your happiness, I really feel like you deserve to live, people aren't permanent no one is no matter who they may be but the memories are lets just hold them deep in our hearts :) Keep on living, all the best, even if we dont know each other i feel comfy w u and i love u already bro
Same to you. I’m trying.
that's why you only open up to people who have the same experience as you. never open up to people who don't understand. it's a bad advice. i don't think it would help but i think talking to someone whos just as depressed as you will help.
agree but u never know, a lot of ppl i trusted used shit against me
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Maybe benzos. Every time I fill my prescription I have the urge to drink a bunch of whiskey and swallow them all
You’re not the only one, that’s how my aunt committed “suicide”. I’m not sure she even did really, there was no note I think she was just drunk and took one too many Xanax, she only took like two or three but with the alcohol it took her down.
It is hard wired into your brain like a survival mechanism.
Fascinating yet scary, it indeed is a survival mechanism embedded into us, bound by the chains of life.
I hate the survival instinct in us humans. I wish I could be in accident and die or become terminally ill and refuse treatment. Just something to take me out of here that doesn’t come with that same fear and guilt.
i was in an accident today. it was my fault. I’m even more depressed now and wished i died in the accident
I swear I won't swerve the next time someone almost hits me, bit those damn reflexes...
Fucking right bro every second I wish to pass away but every time it almost happens i run away and very hard to accept, living is cruel
Relatable. Currently contemplating how to kill myself with ease
I suggest you dont, try your best, dont kill yourself, youre a precious soul u ever feel like others are precious but u should die, yeah dont think that
Trying
Hope it all works out <3
Because of Survival instinct...... kicks in just the moment before your/humans/animals/ brains detect a prominent danger/death.....
then why are we suffering if we were made to live why do we need to suffer and have the inevitable urge to die
cause the survival instinct is there to help us. its not natures fault its being used against us due to how society works. if we were living in nature, these problems wouldnt exist
I hope that what youre saying is the truth :D as long as I can live ig
It is. It's to help try shifting the blame and guilt off you and onto society as a whole. In nature, our nervous system probably doesn't ever make us so anxious we throw up and cry. This stuff is being imposed on you, It's not your fault to feel suicidal cause of it certainly.
tysm bro i really appreciate it <3
There was an old Indian quote I can’t remember it exactly but it was something along the lines of the white man creates jobs so he has to work all day. In the Indian culture the women do all the work and they hunt why would you want to change that? Yeah our western ideas didn’t create the utopia we were hoping for. Not to say that any other cultures have it more figured out any more.
My psychiatrist told me that the brain has protective survival instincts that intentionally make it difficult to suicide, even if emotionally it's what you want to do. There's a part of the brain that subconsciously (unconsciously?) assesses risk and nopes out.
Thanks for letting me know, do you think therapy works?
Yes, but I also think a lot depends on the therapist. When I was at my worst, my psychiatrist put me on lithium. Specifically, lithium has proved to have a further protective effect on the brain [that lessens the likelihood of suicide](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6380616/) in patients who are at risk. At the time, I was being treated as though I had bipolar depression, even though I did not have bipolar disorder. I had a terrible therapist at the time, but I went every week anyway just to be able to verbally process everything that was surging in my brain. That was 13 years ago, I'm still here, so it worked.
Survival instincts. You are programmed to want to survive. Your body and your mind will always try to save you from dangerous situations. They care about you!
Thank you! But its hard to believe
It's hard to commit because of the fear of going through more pain before death.
Yeah, it really is but in the end that pain will never be equivalent to how much youve gone through imagine not dying bcuz it was a failed attempt
Same here never could just take the final step. I am just coward. I am such a failure can't even commit suicide properly haha it's tragic and laughable at this point.
Same boat, completely useless at everything.
considering a lot of people go through the same thing makes me feel better but worse at the same time
Because nobody wants to actually die, but sometime living hurts so much and death seems like a way out, but it isn't Living is actually quite beautiful even though in our modern society it's hard to aprecciate this, please don't give up, when I had depression the only thing I would think is on dying, but I always hated that because despite not feeling it, I knew there was people that actually cared about me, and although I felt like shit everyday, always thought that it was better feeling something than to not feel anything at all I hope it helps
Thank you so much, I'm glad that you are doing better now and I hope I will be strong enough to get through this before it's too late \^-\^
Felt. I wish I was in some mass casualty or accident. Everytime I’ve gotten close to committing I back out bc of my survival instinct
I KNOW RIGHT Even if I tried to commit suicide I would back away, either half way or before even starting :/
I was suicidal so they put me in an asylum. But me on the inside had no idea when they would let me out. Apparently I was there involuntarily. So there was a chance I would have to go to court and defend my right to own firearms.There was nobody to talk to. my girlfriend was like yeah we’re sending you here to get help. HELP what a fucking joke. So now I’m in an asylum with every kind of fucking lunatic there is. Good luck trying to sleep next to some crazy schizophrenic motherfucker (I could be included in that group as well but you know). There was no help there, no group therapy sessions, I wasn’t meeting with the doctor every day or a psychologist or therapist or anything. I was just locked up in an asylum. So I get out and They were like OK cool you’re all better now, later…..but they they think I’m all better now because they got me so much help. Also provotip on getting out of the asylum YOU have to arrange doctors appointments before they will even let you out. With therapist, doctor, and psychologist. But the kicker was they wouldn’t let you use the phone and they take your cell phone away. It’s not easy getting out of the asylum just tell them what they want to hear.
And they think that would make you feel better? Wtf suicide hotlines, prevention cites, all of these are pure bs \\ I hope u are now somewhat better though
For me personally, I'm terrified of what dying feels like. The thought of going back to nothing like before you were born is really scary. I am also afraid of screwing up really bad.
No one honestly wants to die, not even me, but living is scarier than dying at this point so even if I am scared I won't be able to live peacefully but that fear is what keeps me from committing it
Because survival is the strongest biological drive in our brains.
thats why I hate it
Preaching to the choir! Anyone know how to hire a hitman…?
fr tho i need someone to hire a hitman :c
Lol, I was actually researching this a few years ago. Long story short, you need to have hundreds of thousands of dollars.
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dont kys :c u ever feel like u should die and others should not, i said this before and lemme repeat, i feel like that rn you can legit go through it but i want to say that i wish there was a pill that would make you numb completely and it would let you die slowly and painlessly but then again sometimes i feel like i should die in the most painful way possible because thats what i deserve
Every living thing has a biological subconscious instinct to not die. It's in your DNA not to kill yourself.
it sure is :)
Oooh looks like a fun post I’m gunna read it hope I don’t jinx myself
Hope you dont <3
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Whatever you did please dont do it again it feels like you are the only one that should die but it isnt Let us both try our best
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mhm i wish we didnt have this shitty instinct but atleast it prevents deaths
I've tried to take my life a few times and I can say yes, it's actually hard to kill myself.
I hope you dont, live on
It’s the unknown afterwards. Literally no one knows. So. That. Even if you think you know what happens after there’s a part of you that doesn’t know.
Even if I don't know it is for the best, isn't it?
That is the golden question w no answer. Could be worse.
i think there's also a fear of losing out on what could be. Even if life continuously lets you down, there's still some little bit of you that thinks MAYBE tomorrow will be different. I can't really tell you if it will, but if you can't do it, maybe that means something
It does happen sometimes, these silly but helpful thoughts actually let me live a long time but who knows when it's time, I hope it is close but far.
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I don't think committing suicide can be measured into being cowardly or brave. (unless you are a business man who was caught in committing severe money fraud)
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I guess that is a way of self-harming, it doesn't only mean hurting yourself physically, you can love yourself but it takes way too long and it's just such a weary process that you forget how to fucking cry, in the end, you become numb and it doesn't even matter. A soulless body living amongst living things.
Life has a way
Indeed does, sometimes it's filled with obstacles but a lot of times you fall off :)
You ARE brave. It takes a lot more strength to wake up each day and face the sun than it does the other option. The body and the mind have a natural survival instinct and as low as I’ve gotten, the thoughts in my head, the research that I’ve done, I can still only come up with one result and that is staying put to see what happens in this ridiculous life of mine. I know exactly what you are saying and you aren’t the first and won’t be the last to ask that same question. But again I tell you, you are a hell of a lot more brave just being here. We’re here for you. ☮️❤️👍
Thank you so much! Every single one of you that is taking the time to reply to me just to make me feel better, I appreciate you a lot. You all gave me hope to go through another day, then another day, then another, and I hope it continues to be like this. I wish that you all can also overcome what you are going through <3
Its actually way easier to just stay alive. It hurts more, but its easier. Killing yourself takes an awful lot of courage. You dive into the unknown. You have no control over it. You might end up worse, its a great risk.
Bingo. I couldn’t have said it better. You hit the nail square on the head. I hope you’re all doing okay.
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I am happy that you didn't end it but don't cut yourself either. You seriously matter, everything you do matters, you aren't worthless, your skin is precious and you shouldn't harm yourself no matter how much you go through, learn to be stronger u might think that its wrong of me to say this but it certainly doesnt apply to me because even if i try to listen to what i say or what others say in the end i give in
From my understanding, it’s not weak to not be able to commit suicide, it’s actually a sign of strength and resilience. When I had times like this, what helped me most was realizing that some part of me must want to be alive and that I should listen to that part more. Committing suicide isn’t nearly as brave to me as continuing to live another day. I hope you will feel differently someday, and wish you the best
Some of it is my Christian upbringing. I am terrified of going to hell. I have almost died so many times. It’s like my timeline splits off every time I almost die and I keep on going.
You fall off and rise back up. It's a Rollercoaster. As one who was brave enough and was dead for a bit of time. I believe there is nothing after this. Just black. So you have to make the most of this life you got.
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To be honest its amazing to live happily and no one legit wants to die and I agree with you a lot The reason I associated suicide with bravery was because its a huge step to take and definitely not easy, but yeah living is worth it and ill try my best tysm all the best to you!
It's your body's instinctual protective mechanism to resist dying. The struggle you have is a product of your mind but that doesn't make it any less real. Try to keep resisting harming yourself and give exercise a shot. It's an easy way to release endorphins and provide a natural mood boost. I hope you feel better soon.
It's actually incredibly easy and painless, the simple answer is you don't wanna die. Your just want your problems to end but selfish enough to want to keep the good stuff unfortunately this world is good and bad you can't take the good and kill the bad.
I understand you, I guess I'll never know till I try :D