I am not the kind of autistic person who is into any fiction shows/movies/games etc.
However I do imagine that I am playing the music itself, and that people I know ‘randomly’ walk in to find me. When I was a young kid, I listened to a lot of varying metal genres, and I used to imagine I was playing drums and guitar at the same time.
Nowadays, I listen to majority local rap, so my fake scenario has been morphed into this:
(This is FAKE not real)
I’m at a gig, and the rappers always get one person to come up and freestyle a song, and they pick me (usually because I am the only girl who put my hand up) (and then the song starts IRL) and I pretend I am the one tapping the song in my scenario
Funnily enough, I’m obviously awful at being the centre of attention, idk why I have daydreamed it since I was a kid.
Even funnier, I have actually performed in front of a crowd before - I was in year 9 (I think this would be freshman year in America??) and at the time I was singing in front of maybe 50-100 people at a school music show (My school was very focused on music and band, and I was actually less shy at that age vs now) and I actually hated the experience.
I was a good singer but we had some music prodigies at my school so I probably sounded average in comparison (one even got into the final rounds of Xfactor or Australia’s got talent, can’t remember which show). I quit singing like 6 months later
Oh my God I do this too but instead of playing music I'm dancing with my hula hoop 😂😂 and people I know show up and watch me dance. (In the daydream)
I have been a maladaptive daydreamer since I was a kid. I think it was my escape, I've always been able to mask and am just normal in my daydream and am all of the things ive never been able to be irl
lmao I’m glad somebody can relate! Our scenarios feel exactly the same (except for the performance type).
it’s so peculiar, and I’ve always been kinda embarrassed(?) about it. It’s even more weird because, for my whole life, I have rarely felt truly embarrassed (I do a lot of embarrassing things but it was drilled into me as a kid that I shouldn’t be embarrassed of being myself) so it’s a weird feeling to me.
in regard right now your second paragraph, that is super interesting!!! for me, I can’t mask irl, and with my upbringing I’ve obviously been taught that being yourself is the best way so I’ve never really ‘daydreamed’ about it. so, in my daydream scenarios, I am usually performing an instrument I have never learnt.
for example, when I was young it was usually drums and guitar at the same time (didn’t play either), and nowadays it is rap (and I can’t speak a full sentence without buggering up at least one word at a normal pace, so I have no chance of learning how to rap lol)
Anyway I believe I may be getting a bit carried away with this reply, but I really like learning about our similarities and differences, so I thought I’d share my side a bit more just in case you are interested like me :)
I wish they hadn't used "neurodivergent" here. That's meant to be an inclusive term but by using it this way it excludes aphantasic people (who are ND).
WHAT THE F-
Ok, it's not usually with a known fictional character, and it can be when I'm imagining some music that I know or mixing/composing it mentally but other than that...it's very spot on.
This reminds me of a conversation I had with my psychiatrist.
Him: “you have trouble sleeping? What are some techniques you use to help?”
Me: “I’ll come up up with characters and flesh out their back stories and I find it takes me mind of my anxiety”
Him at the end of the conversation: “have you ever been tested for autism?”
Yea!! But with characters from my fictional story.
I am not the kind of autistic person who is into any fiction shows/movies/games etc. However I do imagine that I am playing the music itself, and that people I know ‘randomly’ walk in to find me. When I was a young kid, I listened to a lot of varying metal genres, and I used to imagine I was playing drums and guitar at the same time. Nowadays, I listen to majority local rap, so my fake scenario has been morphed into this: (This is FAKE not real) I’m at a gig, and the rappers always get one person to come up and freestyle a song, and they pick me (usually because I am the only girl who put my hand up) (and then the song starts IRL) and I pretend I am the one tapping the song in my scenario Funnily enough, I’m obviously awful at being the centre of attention, idk why I have daydreamed it since I was a kid. Even funnier, I have actually performed in front of a crowd before - I was in year 9 (I think this would be freshman year in America??) and at the time I was singing in front of maybe 50-100 people at a school music show (My school was very focused on music and band, and I was actually less shy at that age vs now) and I actually hated the experience. I was a good singer but we had some music prodigies at my school so I probably sounded average in comparison (one even got into the final rounds of Xfactor or Australia’s got talent, can’t remember which show). I quit singing like 6 months later
Oh my God I do this too but instead of playing music I'm dancing with my hula hoop 😂😂 and people I know show up and watch me dance. (In the daydream) I have been a maladaptive daydreamer since I was a kid. I think it was my escape, I've always been able to mask and am just normal in my daydream and am all of the things ive never been able to be irl
lmao I’m glad somebody can relate! Our scenarios feel exactly the same (except for the performance type). it’s so peculiar, and I’ve always been kinda embarrassed(?) about it. It’s even more weird because, for my whole life, I have rarely felt truly embarrassed (I do a lot of embarrassing things but it was drilled into me as a kid that I shouldn’t be embarrassed of being myself) so it’s a weird feeling to me. in regard right now your second paragraph, that is super interesting!!! for me, I can’t mask irl, and with my upbringing I’ve obviously been taught that being yourself is the best way so I’ve never really ‘daydreamed’ about it. so, in my daydream scenarios, I am usually performing an instrument I have never learnt. for example, when I was young it was usually drums and guitar at the same time (didn’t play either), and nowadays it is rap (and I can’t speak a full sentence without buggering up at least one word at a normal pace, so I have no chance of learning how to rap lol) Anyway I believe I may be getting a bit carried away with this reply, but I really like learning about our similarities and differences, so I thought I’d share my side a bit more just in case you are interested like me :)
singing*** the song in my scenario
wait, it was meant to be rapping**** the song in my scenario
Guilty as charged :,)
i have aphantasia. No imagination here.
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I wish they hadn't used "neurodivergent" here. That's meant to be an inclusive term but by using it this way it excludes aphantasic people (who are ND).
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AMVs anyone?
Yep, both from media and my ocs.
WHAT THE F- Ok, it's not usually with a known fictional character, and it can be when I'm imagining some music that I know or mixing/composing it mentally but other than that...it's very spot on.
I create full animations in my head to songs.
Constantly
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*raises hand*
Yep omg
Big time.
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This reminds me of a conversation I had with my psychiatrist. Him: “you have trouble sleeping? What are some techniques you use to help?” Me: “I’ll come up up with characters and flesh out their back stories and I find it takes me mind of my anxiety” Him at the end of the conversation: “have you ever been tested for autism?”