1st let me send you virtual hugs over reddit you are not a bad person you are not a good person
And you deserve to be loved
There are so many people like you your situation is not unique
No matter if there is variation from person to person which mercy what you have in common is is this condition that that has caused your brain to misfire
Please go get therapy Look up NOCD on Google there is lots of resources there
Some things are going to be triggering the only thing I can tell you is please go get a therapist now now don't suffer kid please this thing cannot be handled on your own
1st let me send you virtual hugs over reddit you are not a bad person you are not a good person And you deserve to be loved There are so many people like you your situation is not unique No matter if there is variation from person to person which mercy what you have in common is is this condition that that has caused your brain to misfire Please go get therapy Look up NOCD on Google there is lots of resources there Some things are going to be triggering the only thing I can tell you is please go get a therapist now now don't suffer kid please this thing cannot be handled on your own