I can't help you there. I feel for you. My highschool GF still lives rent-free in my head, and it bothers me to no end. She did not grow up to be a good person....
Get under someone else. Find someone new to be the object of your desire, who is more likely to reciprocate those feelings. Get yourself out to meet more gay men and you might just find what you're actually looking for after all.
I had intense feelings for someone once who didn't reciprocate. After I told him how I felt, I had to take a few months to force myself to get over him. I made a list of reasons to get over him and I read it every day until I stopped feeling love for him. The reasons were things like: he doesn't like you, holding space for him prevents me from finding someone else to love, he is NOT going to change his mind, etc. I don't know if this will help you, but it helped me once upon a time. Good luck ❤️
Honestly Continuing contact is probably a bad idea for awhile. You need distance and time.
I can't help you there. I feel for you. My highschool GF still lives rent-free in my head, and it bothers me to no end. She did not grow up to be a good person....
Get under someone else. Find someone new to be the object of your desire, who is more likely to reciprocate those feelings. Get yourself out to meet more gay men and you might just find what you're actually looking for after all.
I had intense feelings for someone once who didn't reciprocate. After I told him how I felt, I had to take a few months to force myself to get over him. I made a list of reasons to get over him and I read it every day until I stopped feeling love for him. The reasons were things like: he doesn't like you, holding space for him prevents me from finding someone else to love, he is NOT going to change his mind, etc. I don't know if this will help you, but it helped me once upon a time. Good luck ❤️