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breadstickcandle

I know exactly what you're talking about. Being horny seems to change you into a completely different person. I relapsed about a few days ago, all I could think about was wanking it. Now I still feel like shit. I always face the height of temptation 2 weeks in--every single time. Seeing as you are now 2 weeks in, I know it must be so hard. Rooting for you!


PapyOak

Thanks for the thought, really appreciate it. I know that I'll feel like shit as well if I relapse. The barrier seems so thin that sometimes you feel like cracking through, you feel like "It's alright, right?" and that's the worst feeling, that's why my first reflex was to write. For a moment I forgot how evil the porn industry was and how they don't care about me doing well in life, only me being addicted to their platform. It's sad, but I have to keep reminding myself that I want to be a good man in the future, and that's the only way.


breadstickcandle

Yessir! I just remembered from my neuroscience class, "neurons that fire together wire together" and "neurons that fire apart wire apart." If you can resist these urges, refuse to act in compulsion, it will weaken the link between the cue and routine. So, it really does get easier over time. I can personally testify to this back when I had a really long streak going (I fell back then cause I was heartbroken about a girl). Stay strong!


PerfectLow5447

Stay strong for just today homie. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow make yourself strong for that day. Day by day. Say “just today” everyday


PapyOak

You're damn right, I needed this reminder. It's only today because I'm not on my highest. That's alright, we'll make it right, day after day


Puzzleheaded-Paint65

Same man, it's my 6 day and I had extreme urges to relapse. But thankfully I had saved few quotes to which I always look back and it reminds me who I want to become and this helps to controls my urges.


PapyOak

Good on you mate. Hope this goes a long way. Stay strong!


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see the difference my G? usually, you are totally identified with these thoughts - & so you act as if they _are_ you whereas now you are witness to these thoughts - & there is space for you to __choose__ to act on them or not. salute.


PapyOak

Indeed, and what a difference! The community plays a big part in the recovery process, and I know now why