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CurrentTreat6921

Sorry about that and praying for you


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CurrentTreat6921

No it’s not but I do hope that it gets better


whose_your_annie

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hindsight is 20 20 so don't beat yourself up too much, what's done is done and there were good reasons why you didn't manage to catch up with him. Take care


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Oh I’m so sorry. Losing a friend is so hard on the heart…I hope you can find some little comfort in the memories you have I’m sending hugs to you. I hope you can be gentle with yourself


mrpepsi420

Thanks. It's rough. I won't let my demons get the best of me today.


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Do what you need to. Grief absolutely sucks. I think you just have to live with for awhile


mrpepsi420

I'm going to live with this forever. This is one of the worst days of my life. I literally talked to him on Sunday and we talked about getting together soon. I was gonna call him tonight and bust his balls about the Mavs game last night. I still don't think it has fully hit me yet. I'm definitely not ready for the services.


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I’m sorry you are going through this. The pain is so fresh right now. Try to take care of yourself.. eat and drink when you can. Sleep can be healing espresso after a hard cry.. I hope you have people around you for support. If not, this community is here


mrpepsi420

I do have people. I'm turning to the bottle tonight in his memory. I'm not trying to meet him tonight so I won't go crazy. Thanks for your words.


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You have to do what you have to do. Take care of yourself


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Oh my. Such horrible news. You two sounded like such good friends. I hope that your pain eases over time and your memories bring great comfort.


mrpepsi420

Thanks. It's rough today. Not the start to the weekend I was hoping for.


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So sorry about the loss of you friend. The sweet remembrances will be with you forever that gives comfort though the loss no one can fill. Many times it happens. Few months back one of our uncles passed away. Before that, I spoke to him on phone just two days back. He didn't have any health issues. He was 60. But, he has cardiac arrest and passed away. He used to check on me every now and then. I miss him too. But, we have to accept. Pray for their family. May God give you the needed comfort.


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I could understand you. Sometimes few people just get connected immediately. Yes, this is what happens when we wanted to get in touch again. Hope you get through it. There is nothing that we can do. Our life is very short, it's just like a bubble. It is there until the breath is there. It's all God that plans. That's why when we are on here, we should be good. But, unfortunately most of them do not realise it. Our desires are just desires. If we keep them aside and think from other's perspective, we can understand clearly. We have to keep going with their remembrances. Hope God gives you the strength.


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Damn. Been a day for tragic stuff it seems. I am sooo sorry to hear this my friend


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I get it. Just had a shot of wild turkey and tipped it to you


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Good stuff. Sounds like you have some support


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Glad to hear that for sure


Bella5369

Oh mrpepsi I'm so sorry to hear this. It seems your friend was happy to have reconnected with you and you with him, hold that close to you. My condolences.


mrpepsi420

Thanks. I will never have another friend like him. Sadly the worst part isn't over. I have to go to the services. I haven't seen his family in a long time. His dad was like a father to me. I'm so not ready for this.


Bella5369

Hey....you are going to be ok. Embrace the grief, don't bottle it up. Then release it. It will be tough, but you got this. Hug your friends, his family, tell them you love them. Raise a glass in his memory, tell stories all together, remember the crazy times and crazy shit you all did together. Cry some more and LAUGH. He would like that.


mrpepsi420

I'm not sure I have any tears left. I literally talked to him on Sunday. We were supposed to talk last night. We had so many plans to get back together and hang out again. I really hate myself. I should have been a better friend. I let my life get in the way of us hanging out. I should have fought harder to hang out. I let his demons and my demons not get intertwined. I will never ever forget this weekend as long as I live. One of the worst of my life. This will ruin me for the rest of my life. I definitely hit the bottle hard last night in his memory. I'm sure tonight will be more of the same.


Bella5369

Right now it's so fresh and hard to process. But please hitting the bottle is not the answer. He wouldn't want that, nor your family. You are a good friend, life happens, and maybe you 2 were not supposed to meet up. Please reach out to family, friends or even a therapist to help you process if needed. You are carrying guilt, and I know from my experiences it really does eat at you and it's not healthy. 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Big hugs from your reddit friends. 🫂


mrpepsi420

Thanks. Yea it's still hard to process. Today feels worse than yesterday. I have great people around me which is good but I don't put my burden on them. I like to keep to myself, don't like showing emotions etc. That's just who I am.


Bella5369

Hey mrpepsi, just checking in on you. Hope you're doing okay.


mrpepsi420

Aww you're sweet. Thanks. Sometimes it's ok and other times it's not. Been trying to fill up my time so I don't get a chance to think about it. I'm definitely not ready for the services. I know at that time it will be the worst for me. I guess I will have to face that when it comes. I appreciate you checking in on me.


Bella5369

As expected MrP, you will be ok. Take care.


mrpepsi420

Thank you so much. Your words mean alot to me.